Date: 24 March
'Dear Diary,
For the past few days, I came out from my shell. Although I lost contact with most of my classmates for a few years now, I am still able to interact with them. They even treated me as if I had never gone.
However, I am not that pleased with myself that I put Tomoyo a lot of trouble when I was 'away'. Takashi always mentioned that Tomoyo was always at the receiving end of my insults and mood swings. I didn't expect it to be that way. I never wanted to hurt her like this.
I was comforted by the fact that she made it through and do not hold a grudge on me. Thank God for that. Now, I am so glad for her. She found a man that she can love. Eriol Hiiragisawa. Eriol-Kun had been showing her with care and love for the past two weeks since she accepted his love at the funfair.'
Sakura grinned as she recalled Eriol gave Tomoyo a kiss. It was extremely kawaii.
'Although I am happy for Tomoyo, I am still troubled. I haven't had courage to tell Syaoran what happened to me. I am not sure whether he will be able to accept what happened. I doubt Naruko did it on purpose. However, in his fit of anger robbed me the thing that we girls treasure.
I have forgiven him. Sadly, I cannot say I will forget what he did. That is why I am still hiding behind her. The darker and tougher part of me, one that I am willing to give control to if I really want to disappear for good.
Touya knows what happened now. Yue forced me to tell it in front of him. Well Onii-chan, I didn't regret telling you about it, even though I rather kept it as a secret. Now, I feel obliged to tell Oto-san. Somehow, I suspect he knows what is going on. Thank You Oto-san, for being so understanding.
Actually, I am just rambling on. What I want to write was that, soon, in a few days time, I will tell Syaoran about him, everything and me that made me who I am today. Even though I am trembling with fear and worried that he will stay away from me after that, I am not going to let fear run my life anymore! I want to get it done and over, and come to think about it. I think my chances of coming back to Syaoran's arms are almost 100%
Whatever it is, wish me luck.
God Bless
Sakura.'
Sakura stood up and closed her diary. That given her courage to face the daunting task that lies ahead. She is determined to win it. For Syaoran's, Touya's, Fujitaka, Tomoyo's and everyone who knows her. Most of all, it's for her own sake, her future lies in this particular meeting, and she had no intention to screw it up!
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Date: 30 March
'Dear Diary,
This silly girl who wrote the previous entry no longer existed since yesterday. Not that I am glad that happened, in fact I am totally livid that she decided to shut herself out again. This time, for good!
Not that it's the poor girl's fault. I wouldn't blame her, even it seems as the coward way out. I won't rub it in anymore. It is totally unfair for Sakura to receive this kind of treatment. Especially from Syaoran! I have to comment, he is a complete jerk!
Let's see, what happened yesterday. After bitching around for few donkey days whether she should tell Syaoran, she had finally made up her mind. Blessed her. Anyway, she went to the classroom to search for Syaoran after school, since Eriol told her that Syaoran was there. When she reached the class, she was about to open the door when she heard shouting from the classroom.
She didn't hear the content as all the words were muffled. When the door flew open, she saw a few boys walked out of the room, boys she couldn't recognize. When she entered the classroom, Syaoran's fist was against the wall. His knuckles were bleeding. She wanted to approach him, wanting to take care of his wounded hands. Unbelievable. She still didn't know what caused Syaoran to be furious.
When Syaoran turned around, she saw fury, anger and worst of all, distrust as he glared at her. Whatever he said and did obviously terrified her. I felt her heart broken into pieces and she had no time to piece it up. She didn't want to make an effort to set time aside to piece it up. She allowed me to take over and told me after the stand-off, go to the toilet.
When I entered the toilet. She came back for the last time and stared at herself in the mirror, wanting to see herself for the last time. With that, she willed her whole body to go limped. Obviously, she didn't have the guts to fight anymore. I finally took complete control over the body and before she went into deep sleep, she told me she didn't want to see anyone anymore. She also wanted me to tell Yue and the rest of them and tell them that she is sorry.
So, well, here I am. Her evil twin is back, with vengeance!
Sincerely, Sakura.
P.S: Damned! She promised to go out with Tomoyo to try out clothing for her birthday. Silly girl! As much as I hate to, I don't want to disappoint her. I have to go. I hate shopping!!'
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Questions, questions and more questions! Well then, bring them on together with the reviews. Enjoy and God Bless!
To those who reviewed:
maixwolfblossom: You mentioned the cliffhanger is strange. Frankly, I put it there for the sheer fun of getting people to carry on reading. I hope it didn't really ruin the story much. As for Sakura not realizing that it was a same place that the rape took place, well, let's assume that this whole funfair-cum-night market is a different location and different setting. The game that Naruko played was a different one too. Therefore, it doesn't really seem to strike to our forever blur Sakura that it is like history repeating itself. The only similarity was that a guy who loves her won a teddy bear for her. So, a lot of assumption and stuff that I never clear, so sorry! :D
Yolie-Chan: I know its common for Sakura or someone else to get rape or tortured and what so ever, however, I hope that my story is still unique in it's own right. So, cheers! I am not offended, but just sad that the story doesn't seem original. Haha, ego bruised. But, yeah, I will live.
Cheers!
'Dear Diary,
For the past few days, I came out from my shell. Although I lost contact with most of my classmates for a few years now, I am still able to interact with them. They even treated me as if I had never gone.
However, I am not that pleased with myself that I put Tomoyo a lot of trouble when I was 'away'. Takashi always mentioned that Tomoyo was always at the receiving end of my insults and mood swings. I didn't expect it to be that way. I never wanted to hurt her like this.
I was comforted by the fact that she made it through and do not hold a grudge on me. Thank God for that. Now, I am so glad for her. She found a man that she can love. Eriol Hiiragisawa. Eriol-Kun had been showing her with care and love for the past two weeks since she accepted his love at the funfair.'
Sakura grinned as she recalled Eriol gave Tomoyo a kiss. It was extremely kawaii.
'Although I am happy for Tomoyo, I am still troubled. I haven't had courage to tell Syaoran what happened to me. I am not sure whether he will be able to accept what happened. I doubt Naruko did it on purpose. However, in his fit of anger robbed me the thing that we girls treasure.
I have forgiven him. Sadly, I cannot say I will forget what he did. That is why I am still hiding behind her. The darker and tougher part of me, one that I am willing to give control to if I really want to disappear for good.
Touya knows what happened now. Yue forced me to tell it in front of him. Well Onii-chan, I didn't regret telling you about it, even though I rather kept it as a secret. Now, I feel obliged to tell Oto-san. Somehow, I suspect he knows what is going on. Thank You Oto-san, for being so understanding.
Actually, I am just rambling on. What I want to write was that, soon, in a few days time, I will tell Syaoran about him, everything and me that made me who I am today. Even though I am trembling with fear and worried that he will stay away from me after that, I am not going to let fear run my life anymore! I want to get it done and over, and come to think about it. I think my chances of coming back to Syaoran's arms are almost 100%
Whatever it is, wish me luck.
God Bless
Sakura.'
Sakura stood up and closed her diary. That given her courage to face the daunting task that lies ahead. She is determined to win it. For Syaoran's, Touya's, Fujitaka, Tomoyo's and everyone who knows her. Most of all, it's for her own sake, her future lies in this particular meeting, and she had no intention to screw it up!
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Date: 30 March
'Dear Diary,
This silly girl who wrote the previous entry no longer existed since yesterday. Not that I am glad that happened, in fact I am totally livid that she decided to shut herself out again. This time, for good!
Not that it's the poor girl's fault. I wouldn't blame her, even it seems as the coward way out. I won't rub it in anymore. It is totally unfair for Sakura to receive this kind of treatment. Especially from Syaoran! I have to comment, he is a complete jerk!
Let's see, what happened yesterday. After bitching around for few donkey days whether she should tell Syaoran, she had finally made up her mind. Blessed her. Anyway, she went to the classroom to search for Syaoran after school, since Eriol told her that Syaoran was there. When she reached the class, she was about to open the door when she heard shouting from the classroom.
She didn't hear the content as all the words were muffled. When the door flew open, she saw a few boys walked out of the room, boys she couldn't recognize. When she entered the classroom, Syaoran's fist was against the wall. His knuckles were bleeding. She wanted to approach him, wanting to take care of his wounded hands. Unbelievable. She still didn't know what caused Syaoran to be furious.
When Syaoran turned around, she saw fury, anger and worst of all, distrust as he glared at her. Whatever he said and did obviously terrified her. I felt her heart broken into pieces and she had no time to piece it up. She didn't want to make an effort to set time aside to piece it up. She allowed me to take over and told me after the stand-off, go to the toilet.
When I entered the toilet. She came back for the last time and stared at herself in the mirror, wanting to see herself for the last time. With that, she willed her whole body to go limped. Obviously, she didn't have the guts to fight anymore. I finally took complete control over the body and before she went into deep sleep, she told me she didn't want to see anyone anymore. She also wanted me to tell Yue and the rest of them and tell them that she is sorry.
So, well, here I am. Her evil twin is back, with vengeance!
Sincerely, Sakura.
P.S: Damned! She promised to go out with Tomoyo to try out clothing for her birthday. Silly girl! As much as I hate to, I don't want to disappoint her. I have to go. I hate shopping!!'
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Questions, questions and more questions! Well then, bring them on together with the reviews. Enjoy and God Bless!
To those who reviewed:
maixwolfblossom: You mentioned the cliffhanger is strange. Frankly, I put it there for the sheer fun of getting people to carry on reading. I hope it didn't really ruin the story much. As for Sakura not realizing that it was a same place that the rape took place, well, let's assume that this whole funfair-cum-night market is a different location and different setting. The game that Naruko played was a different one too. Therefore, it doesn't really seem to strike to our forever blur Sakura that it is like history repeating itself. The only similarity was that a guy who loves her won a teddy bear for her. So, a lot of assumption and stuff that I never clear, so sorry! :D
Yolie-Chan: I know its common for Sakura or someone else to get rape or tortured and what so ever, however, I hope that my story is still unique in it's own right. So, cheers! I am not offended, but just sad that the story doesn't seem original. Haha, ego bruised. But, yeah, I will live.
Cheers!