KizuPL
Warning: Very sad, OOC, cursing, YAOI - don't like, don't read
Rating: Umm... I think it's R again - this time for cursing, but I may be wrong.
Genre: Drama/Angst
Disclaimer: Not again! ........ sigh Alright... I don't own Naruto. It belongs to Masashi Kishimoto. You know, this disclaimer thing is really tiring. Next time I'll send you to first chapter.
Summary: After horrible incident someone doesn't want to be hurt more and try to close his heart. Will he change himself? If yes, than who will he become? [Sasu/Naru] [Gaara/Naru]
Important: Well, in my story Team 7 is 15 years old. And you graduate Ninja Academy at age 13. It's somehow Naruto POV, although I'm not good in those things. It's my first story! I'm not very good in writing in English, but I hope you will understand my story. If I made any mistakes please don't blame me too much. Oh, and this is my first story. Don't be too harsh on me. Please review, I would be very happy even if it would be an abuse.
Thanks to: Everyone who have read my story. I'm happy you have found time to do it!
Special thanks and answers to:
-B.U.G.I.M.S.- You have helped me with this "signed in reviewers only" block on. And I know I'm mean to Naruto. But thanks for forgiving me! And that part about freezing his heart and Godaime and Kakashi not believing him... He, he... You'll see...
-trubluewolfeyes- I'm so happy you like my poems! Maybe you'll not believe me but those in story are my first ones in English! And about Sasuke... Honestly? I already have some idea, but lets leave it for later...
-WaterBookLover- Like you see I didn't end my story. And you see, Gaara/Naru and Sasu/Naru are my favourite!
-Kaiyo No Hime- Spell-check program? Why the hell not? You see there is one problem. Unfortunately I don't have such a thing:( But if you know where I can download it... write!
Now, I shut up. I bet you are curios what will Naruto do now.
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Chapter 2: Changed, not that I really care
I'm not happy but I'm not sad either
I think I'm a little bitter
But do you care? Of course not
To you I'm only a slut
Now at home I don't act at all. I'm not a happy, loud and annoying boy that people know. I'm myself. Quiet, cold and calculating young man. Sasuke must seen my... change, but it looks like he doesn't care at all - not that I really thought that he would care after what has he done. Besides, I don't care either. Unfortunately I'm still pretending outside. I'm still wearing this stupid mask of happy boy. Why I even bother? Hn. I don't need the honorable Fifth Hokage, Copycat ninja Hatake Kakashi and that teacher of mine from Ninja Academy Iruka-sensei -those false friends of mine- in my life. They could want to 'help' me. Well, it's to late for them to 'help' me anyway. Not that I would want any help from them now.
"Naruto? Are you here bitch?!" Oh yeah, that bastard is back again.
You treat me worse than a whore
From my body you want more and more
You don't care about my heart and soul
You only want my body for your fun!
Well, since he raped me one week ago, he's doing it repeatly. Night after night. Not that I really care. He still holds me down with chakra and shut me up with this seal. Like I even care. I stopped struggling. I don't want to be hurt more than necessary.
"What do you want to know Sasuke-te--?" Shit. I almost started a fight with him and I'm not allowed to. Not that I care. It's just that I don't break my promises. Well, not anymore.
"Come down here bitch!" Don't shout. And fuck you, you snake target. I'm not your dog even if you treat me like one.
"Sorry! Can't! Old hag wants to meet me!" I shouted back. That's true.
"I don't care! Get here you--!"
"Sorry! Must go! Bye!" I cut him and disappear. I bet he's angry and mad, but I have to go and I don't care about his mood. Today the Sand-Nins arrives and I - Uzumaki Naruto, the vessel of that fucking Nine-Tails fox demon and a future Hokage of this stupid village - am needed to take care of them. I'll be their baby-sitter and I must make sure they won't hurt anybody. Not that I care.
Oh. And I will ask Tsunade if I can live alone again and if not, I'll ask her if I can live with those Sand-Nins. After all I have to protect them from village or more likely, village from them.
So. I'm making my way to hokage office and I feel the stares.
Angry.
Full of hate.
Contemptuous.
Disdainful.
But now I don't really care about them. After all, this is new Uzumaki Naruto. I'm not that foolish, sensitive and silly boy from past. Now, I'm cold and uncaring. Those stares don't hurt me anymore...
...
...
Not so much anyway. Well... It looks like I still have feelings. Than I'll just have to take care of this and change it. Maybe I'll become like Gaara?
Love only yourself?
Fight only for yourself?
That doesn't sounds so bad now. It actually makes sense. Hm... About Gaara and his siblings... I wonder if those Sand-Nins know something about them. I can ask for them for sure.
"What do you think you're doing here?" Huh? Oh. It looks like I'm at Godaime place.
"I'm here because Fifth wanted to see me." Not that I really want.
"Oh, yeah. I forgot. You can go." Forgot?! Like hell! You just hate me like rest of them. Fuck you bitch! I love you to!
"Thanks miss!" Fucking bitch.
Well anyway, I was wondering about Gaara, Temari and that Kankurou guy. Not that I really care about what have happened to them, but still...
"Naruto! Nice to see you again!" Ups! I have to put my mask again.
"Nice to see you too old hag!" I know what I have to say.
"NARUTO!!!" Yup. She's mad at me. I know how to push her buttons.
"He, he, he! Just kidding!" Foolish hokage. "Anyway why did you call me?" Oh, did I forget that this information about Sand-Nins was top secret?
"Umm... You see we have a three Sand-Nins and I want you to take care of them... You'll live with them and, well... you know... Will you agree?" She's kidding right? Of course!
"Sure old hag! So who are they?"
"Why you unrespectful brat--!" She's angry again but another voice cut her.
"You want to say that's our... guide?" Wait. I know this voice, although it's a little bit changed...
"Um, yes it is. Well Naruto, they are those Sand-Nins. Please, show yourself." There is some kind of wind and I can feel... sand?! What the fuck?! I can feel someone looking at me with intense gaze. Slowly I turn around and--
"HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!! GAARA?!"
(HM... Should I end here? Nah... I'm not so mean .)
I can't believe, I can't believe, I just fucking can't believe!!!! I'm supposed to live with Gaara and his siblings for full three months?! And take care of them?! No Sasuke for three months?! Hell yeah!
Oh, I can feel them watching me. Not that I care.
"Well then, where will we stay Tsunade?" I ask her.
"You'll stay at house near entrance to village. There is everything you or our guests might need. You can go now." I grin at her. That mean I don't have to go to my place where is that fucking bastard Sasuke.
"Sure." I look at Gaara, Temari and Kankurou. "C'mon, I'll lead the way." Temari and Kankurou follow me. However Gaara doesn't follow me, he's walking before me and I know he knows the way. But that's even better. I can look at him closely. I look and I notice something.
There have been so many changes
And it didn't take ages
It all have happened so drastically
So quickly and dramatically
He's... Changed. He doesn't have his gourd. And he doesn't look so terrifying like he has. Temari and Kankurou aren't afraid of him any more - I can feel it. So he's changed. I wonder why, when and what have motivated him to do so. Now he doesn't look so tired. Does it mean he can control that tanuki monster inside him? I have seen his eyes at Tsunade place. His eyes aren't so cold and haunted when the last time we fought.
Well we're at our place now. It's a little house. It has parter, first floor and second floor. It has five rooms, two bathrooms, one kitchen, one saloon and a training room. I show them their rooms. Temari and Kankurou got three rooms and one bathroom on first floor - Temari just really needed two rooms. Woman's! Like Shikamaru said they are too troublesome. That's how I ended with Gaara on the second floor with bathroom and two rooms, which are almost one. My luck. Did I mention that on parter there is kitchen, training room and saloon?
Well, it doesn't matter anyway. I just want to rest after night.
"Uzumaki..." Gaara? What in the hell you want?!
"What?" He's looking at me closely. I feel like he can see all my thoughts. It's creeping me out.
"You seem... troubled... Is it our fault?" What the hell?! Gaara I knew would never ever care about me or someone else! He cared only for himself! What the fuck have happened to him?!
"No, no, of course not. True, I'm a little troubled, but it doesn't have to do anything with you guys." I assure him "It actually helped." I murmured quietly. Shit! I didn't want to say it aloud. I just really hope he didn't heard. Damn. I'm acting like a weakling. I'm supposed to be strong and be cold like ice!
"What do you mean?" Shit! He heard it!
"Nothing. Nothing at all." Fuck! It looks like he doesn't buy it. Shit. He's nearing. What the fuck is his problem?!
"You have... changed... You're not the same person I knew." At this I smile a little bitter
"Well it looks like I'm not the only one who has changed." He just nod but I can feel that his eyes are looking at me attentively. Damn him!
"Indeed Uzumaki, indeed." So everyone is different now. Hm. Interesting. I wonder... How different are we now?
You are changed, I am changed, he is changed too
I and him have changed for worse - probably, you for better - I'm sure
You and I and him have changed the most
We have changed our places, he's completely lost
Gaara is right. When to look at it I, Sasuke and Gaara have changed. No, wrong. Sasuke and Gaara have changed. I'm changing because I was forced to. Forced by Sasuke and by what has he done to me. I remember than when he began to change, at first I wanted to help him. After all we were friends. I really wanted to help him. There were so many things that we had in common. I wanted to help, but... I have failed...
My voice couldn't reach him, he didn't want to hear me
He changed himself slowly but me too early
My change is not completely yet and it still can pass
My soul can emerge from darkness and again be ageless
This is coming easier and faster than I have imagined, you know? Well, I actually had a little problems with poems, but somehow I made it. Hurray for me. And I had a real problem with title for this chapter. I just couldn't decide.
Just like I have promised in summary here is Gaara.
Anyway, what do you think about this chapter? I really hope poems aren't too bad. And do you like it? I really hope so. Please review.