"Wow, thanks. That makes me feel ever so special." Remus said
sarcastically, which was unusual for him.
"Well, what did you want me to say?"
Remus sighed; leaning forward against the table with his shoulder slouched forward. "I don't know what I wanted you to say, but I know that isn't something anyone would ever want to hear."
"Sorry." Sirius mumbled and shrugged his shoulders.
"Yes, well.........like I said, it doesn't matter now, does it?"
"well if you're so pissy over it then obviously it does matter!"
Remus stood up and moved towards the door, "Fuck you, Sirius."
Swearing was something Remus had rarely ever done. Sirius knew he must be really mad at him now. But what bothered him the most was that he didn't yell it at him. It was more of a whisper. The voice gave the appearance of calmness but his body was rigid, his jaw was clenched. He knew it was best to let Remus go. Pestering him anymore would only make him angrier.
Sirius remained sitting at the kitchen table, thinking over the conversation. Obviously, Remus was really bothered by what took place that night. But why? He couldn't possibly have feelings for Sirius, could he??
Shit! Sirius thought. That must be the answer! It would explain everything! The hurt looks the days following that night when Sirius refused to acknowledge what had happened.
Why in the world would Remus have feelings for him??? Sure, they were mates, in the platonic sense, but other than that one night, that's as far as it went. He should have never slept with Remus! Then they wouldn't have this little pissy problem now! This was the last thing they needed right now! There were far more important things that they had to deal with! This was ridiculous! He need to tell Remus so!
Sirius marched up the stairs and found Remus reading in his room. Remus looked up surprised.
"Wh-"
"Listen! Look, I get it! You had a little crush on me back then! Fine! Great! And what? You're mad cause you think I used you or something? Is that it?"
"What? No, that's not it.." "well I think you're lying!"
"Sirius! What the hell?!"
"Last time I checked, I didn't exactly have to force you that night! You were more than willing! So I don't want to hear any crap about me using you!"
"Sirius, I never said that!" Remus said, getting upset, looking as thought he could cry.
"well what then? What is you're problem? For fuck sakes, just tell me already!" Sirius yelled.
"My problem? What is my problem?" Remus jumped off the bed and marched over to Sirius, til he was face to face.
"I'll tell you what my problem is! You pushed me into telling you what I was thinking about and then you have the nerve to get bitchy with me when I tell you! That is my problem! I didn't want to tell you! I was just going to let sleeping dogs lie! But oh no! Sirius had to know everything, has to have everything he wants! You're just a selfish as you back then!"
"Remus-"Sirius said getting flustered and taking a step back, away from him. Remus reached out and grabbed his arms, keeping him still.
"and another thing! Yes I had 'feelings' for you! I thought I was in fucking love with you, you daft prick! And we slept together, and it meant more to me than it could ever possibly mean to you and to actually hear you admit it hurts more than I imagined in all those years that it would! So there! Happy now?" Remus said, out of breath, his face inches from Sirius's.
"OH yes......incredibly so." Sirius said sarcastically.
"great! Well I'm so happy for you! Now if you don't mind, I'd like to go back to living in denial and finish my book."
Remus guided a stunned Sirius out of his room and shut the door, locking it from the inside.
"Well, what did you want me to say?"
Remus sighed; leaning forward against the table with his shoulder slouched forward. "I don't know what I wanted you to say, but I know that isn't something anyone would ever want to hear."
"Sorry." Sirius mumbled and shrugged his shoulders.
"Yes, well.........like I said, it doesn't matter now, does it?"
"well if you're so pissy over it then obviously it does matter!"
Remus stood up and moved towards the door, "Fuck you, Sirius."
Swearing was something Remus had rarely ever done. Sirius knew he must be really mad at him now. But what bothered him the most was that he didn't yell it at him. It was more of a whisper. The voice gave the appearance of calmness but his body was rigid, his jaw was clenched. He knew it was best to let Remus go. Pestering him anymore would only make him angrier.
Sirius remained sitting at the kitchen table, thinking over the conversation. Obviously, Remus was really bothered by what took place that night. But why? He couldn't possibly have feelings for Sirius, could he??
Shit! Sirius thought. That must be the answer! It would explain everything! The hurt looks the days following that night when Sirius refused to acknowledge what had happened.
Why in the world would Remus have feelings for him??? Sure, they were mates, in the platonic sense, but other than that one night, that's as far as it went. He should have never slept with Remus! Then they wouldn't have this little pissy problem now! This was the last thing they needed right now! There were far more important things that they had to deal with! This was ridiculous! He need to tell Remus so!
Sirius marched up the stairs and found Remus reading in his room. Remus looked up surprised.
"Wh-"
"Listen! Look, I get it! You had a little crush on me back then! Fine! Great! And what? You're mad cause you think I used you or something? Is that it?"
"What? No, that's not it.." "well I think you're lying!"
"Sirius! What the hell?!"
"Last time I checked, I didn't exactly have to force you that night! You were more than willing! So I don't want to hear any crap about me using you!"
"Sirius, I never said that!" Remus said, getting upset, looking as thought he could cry.
"well what then? What is you're problem? For fuck sakes, just tell me already!" Sirius yelled.
"My problem? What is my problem?" Remus jumped off the bed and marched over to Sirius, til he was face to face.
"I'll tell you what my problem is! You pushed me into telling you what I was thinking about and then you have the nerve to get bitchy with me when I tell you! That is my problem! I didn't want to tell you! I was just going to let sleeping dogs lie! But oh no! Sirius had to know everything, has to have everything he wants! You're just a selfish as you back then!"
"Remus-"Sirius said getting flustered and taking a step back, away from him. Remus reached out and grabbed his arms, keeping him still.
"and another thing! Yes I had 'feelings' for you! I thought I was in fucking love with you, you daft prick! And we slept together, and it meant more to me than it could ever possibly mean to you and to actually hear you admit it hurts more than I imagined in all those years that it would! So there! Happy now?" Remus said, out of breath, his face inches from Sirius's.
"OH yes......incredibly so." Sirius said sarcastically.
"great! Well I'm so happy for you! Now if you don't mind, I'd like to go back to living in denial and finish my book."
Remus guided a stunned Sirius out of his room and shut the door, locking it from the inside.