A/N Yes I'm back. Again I apologize for my absence. No I'm not losing
interest in my writing, I just have been so busy with school and when I'm
not doing school work I'm out letting off steam because school makes me
crazy. Surprisingly, old school Nintendo, while it continues to frustrate
me to no end and turns me into a potty mouth is a great way to blow off
steam. Yesterday I kicked my friend's brother at Mario brothers. Woo hoo!!
Now on with the story, sorry if it's not to your liking this is just where
my writing took the story so we'll see how it goes.
As the darkness around her begins to dissipate Rory brings her knees to her chest, her cries turning to sobs.
Off in the distance Jess continues to call out to her through the darkness, his voice becoming hoarse.
Images of times gone by flash through Rory's head, calming her tears.
First visions of Lorelai and herself running out to great Kirk; the ice cream man on Rory's first day of kindergarten surface.
The sound of Lane's laughter as she beats Rory in Zelda rings clearly through Rory's ears.
Insignificant events pass by Rory's eyes quickly, in her impaired state of mind her father looks almost heroic as he pulls her onto his motorcycle and they ride down the streets of Stars Hollow.
Images of Dean, linger to long in Rory's mind, as their first kiss replays itself for the 12th time she shakes the picture out of her mind.
Tears begin to flow again; Rory shuts her eyes tightly not wanting to see what else her mind has in store for her.
What could be left? She'd seen her mother, her friends, her dad her first boyfriend even an image of Tristan and Dave in an argyle sweater.
Jess. In the last........well however long had past, Rory lost count quite some time ago; in the time that had gone by not one image of Jess had appeared.
It's inevitable and she can't handle it.
Being harassed by a drug dealer, sitting alone in the darkness of the beach; insanity slowly creeping up on her.......it was all Jess' fault. His actions have led up to this moment.
"What is much," Jess' rye voice quips.
Rory lifts her head, no one is there.
"Why did you come back?" A familiar voice asks.
Rory sniffles
"Just wanted to."
"Jess." Rory whimpers into the darkness.
*In The distance
Jess falls to his knees, no longer able to withstand the pressure of the sand upon his feet.
Slivers of sunlight burst through the darkened sky.
Rory's cries grow louder as Jess' presence in her psyche refuses to go unheard.
Jess lifts his head slowly, a small noise entering his ears.
"Ror?" Jess barks sorely.
Rory's body heaves back and forth violently as the voices in her head become clearer.
Instinctively she pulls herself closer, bowing her head down into her lap.
Jess manages to get onto his feet again, stumble towards what sounds to him like a wounded animal.
"Rory!!"
Loud sobs, interrupted by quiet hiccups.
"Ror, are you ok, where are you?"
Rory lifts her head, "Hic-Jess?"
Jess stops, focusing his eyes on the gray setting around him.
In the shadows Jess is able to make out Rory's silhouette as she begins to cough .
Jess lets his weight give out on him, falling to the ground beside Rory.
"Rory!" He exclaims overcome by relief.
Rory doesn't notice him at first, writing him off as her insanity taking over.
Jess waves his hands in front of her, "Oh God, Rory." Jess voice breaks, "I'm so sorry."
Jess pulls Rory into his arms protectively rocking her back and forth.
Rory mumbles into his shirt.
Jess looks down at her, "What?"
"You're here." Rory says quietly.
Jess nods his head, forgetting the darkness masking his face.
"J-Jess?" Rory whimpers.
"I'm here, Rory I'm right here."
Rory sighs resting her head against Jess' chest, his shaking hands wrap around her shivering frame. Jess kisses her head, unsure of what more to do.
"I thought I lost you." Jess whispers.
Rory hiccups again.
Not another word is spoken between the two teenagers; they remain in each others arms, drifting off into a deep sleep until the sun emerges from behind the gray clouds.
Abruptly Rory jerks out of Jess' arms waking from a nightmare.
Jess sits up, rubbing sand out of his eyes, "Rory?!"
"I had the worst dream." Rory says quietly.
Jess remains quiet.
"I ran away----because, because------" Rory's head begins to spin causing her to put hand to her forehead.
"Rory."
"And I was alone in the dark and this guy was chasing me and I ended up on the b-beach....." Rory trails off, taking in her surroundings.
"Oh my God." She muses, getting to her feet.
"Rory, I'm so sorry." Jess says desperately.
"It wasn't a dream."
Jess shakes his head.
"So you really did sleep with her then."
"No. Never." Jess replies, "We slept in the same bed that's it."
Rory makes a small, agitated noise.
Jess puts his hand on Rory's shoulder, "I-"
"Let's go I can't stay here anymore." Rory says curtly
"Ok."
Rory walks forward; unsteadily Jess takes Rory by the arm, linking her arm with his.
"We'll get back faster this way, you can lean on me for support." He explains.
"No I can't." Rory mutters.
*An Hour Later: Jess helps Rory onto the boardwalk.
Together they walk to a nearby bench.
Jess sits down next to Rory, after a few moments of passing silence he begins to tap his foot.
Rory sighs.
"Rory, you have to believe me nothing ever happened with me and Cadence."
Rory nods.
Uncontrollably, Jess runs a hand through his hair in frustration.
"She's in love with you." Rory replies.
"Geesis, am I the only one who didn't see it."
"You saw it, you had to." Rory bites back.
"I didn't, I swear."
Silence consumes them again.
*A few moments later:
"Jess."
"Yeah?"
"If you didn't know about Cadence like you said....."
"I didn't"
"What would have happened if you'd found out sooner?"
Jess remains silent.
Rory surveys his face, his chocolate brown eyes are becoming distant.
Rory scoffs, "That's what I thought." Rory stands up, starting to walk away.
Jess follows behind her, "Rory, will you just listen to me?"
Rory turns around cross her arms across her chest, "Go ahead."
Jess stumbles on his words, "I, Cadence, well she's like someone I used to know."
Rory nods.
".......Rory cadence is me."
Rory looks down at her feet.
"Well, not me but close to it. I know where she's coming from........and she gets me."
"She gets you." Rory repeats.
Jess sighs, "She's the best friend I've ever had."
Rory nods, turning on her heals walking away from Jess.
"But I've never looked at her as anything but a friend." Jess says to Rory's back.
Rory continues to walk.
Jess is gaining on her, "Cadence is great, and yes she gets me better than anyone I've ever known, by definition she's the perfect girl for me."
"Well I hope you're happy together." Rory replies, tears stinging her flushed cheeks.
"Except, she's not you." Jess continues as he allows himself to fall behind, his legs ceasing movement.
Rory stops as well, taking a deep breath.
Jess approaches her warily, "Rory?"
"Why?" she asks simply.
"What?"
"Why do you always seem to say the right thing at the critical moment?"
Jess smirks, "It' a gift."
Rory holds her hand out for Jess, he takes it and they begin to walk in the direction of the apartment building.
*A moment later:
"This doesn't fix everything, you know." Rory says.
"I know." Jess says hoarsely.
"I don't like the idea of you and another girl sharing a bed."
"It's not going to happen again."
"And I don't know if I can handle this distance anymore......"
"Rory?"
"But I think we should give it one more try, it's not going to come easy though."
"I know."
"We both have to work on it."
"And phone calls aren't going to do it." Jess answers.
Rory nods.
"Rory, I want to work this out, I love you."
"I love you too, but we can't go back to the way it was........I, I think we need to take a few steps back."
Jess nods, "Ok."
*Rory and Jess stop in front of the apartment building.
"Well we're here." Jess comments.
"Yeah."
*Jess enters the apartment, followed by Rory.
Sasha rushes to the door, "Thank God! I woke up this morning and both of you were gone!"
"Sorry, we just got up to see the sunrise." Jess lies.
"That's so sweet, oh to be young and in love!" Sasha gushes returning to the kitchen where she is frying eggs.
"You kids hungry?"
"No thank you." Rory replies, "I'm kind of tired actually."
"Well why don't you go lie down sweetie, and I'll make you a sandwich or whatever you want when you get up."
"Thank You." Rory says meekly.
Rory walks mechanically towards Jess' room.
Jess follows her.
Rory lies down on Jess' bed.
"I'll be in the kitchen, I don't think I could sleep if I tried." Jess explains.
Rory nods, "Ok, I'll see you in a little bit."
"I love you."
"I love you too." Rory replies.
Jess closes the door and exits.
Rory waits a few minutes before sitting up. Hugging her knees to her chest, Rory reaches for her purse pulling out her cell phone she sighs dialing number four on the speed dial.
"Yellow."
"Blue." Rory says quietly.
"Hey, aren't you supposed to be having orgasmic sex with the boyfriend right now on the beaches of sunny California?" James Dunne's charismatic voice says playfully.
Rory laughs, "So graphic."
"So what's going on?"
"Just needed to say hi to someone not here." Rory replies with a sigh.
"Too many fakers over there?"
"No, California is just not me."
"Gotcha.....so why me?"
"Mom's not up till after 10, it's only 9."
"Right and Lane?"
"Her and Dave are having one of their secret get away weekends."
Ah. And of course that only leaves me, the poor pathetic......single study buddy."
"Oh no what happened?"
"God, everything, I don't want to put a damper on your vacation I'll talk to you next week when you get back."
"Ok."
"How about we do coffee on Sunday before we go back."
"Sounds good."
"Can't wait to hear all about California, but let me go I'm on my way to work."
"Oh, ok, see you next Sunday."
"Yeah, I miss you."
"Miss you too."
Rory hangs up her phone, a smile on her face. Why is it that no matter what's going on James had a way of making her smile.
There's a knock at the door.
"Ror?" Jess pokes his head in the door, "Are you ok I thought I heard you talking to yourself."
"I, couldn't sleep so I called my mom, but she didn't pick up so I was just leaving a message."
"Ok. Are you hungry?"
"A little."
"Trust me you don't want to trust Sasha's eggs, stick with the cereal." Jess replies exiting the bedroom.
Rory follows him out smiling faintly.
A/N That's it for this chapter. Sorry if it was very mushy. I don't want to make anyone nauseous I just figured you know emotions running high big ordeal. And no I'm not just skipping over Jess and Rory dealing with what happened, I just figured after all that happened they'd take a few steps back before having it out. It will happen probably before she leaves. And just so you know, no matter what direction I take the story in, this story will end up being a Rory and Jess coupling. So just bear with me and put up with the next few chapters. Oh and I suggest anyone looking for some good tunes, go out and get the Ataris So long Astoria, it's great and I was listening to it throughout the 2 hours I took to write this chapter. Please review let me know what you think send me thoughts ideas etc.
As the darkness around her begins to dissipate Rory brings her knees to her chest, her cries turning to sobs.
Off in the distance Jess continues to call out to her through the darkness, his voice becoming hoarse.
Images of times gone by flash through Rory's head, calming her tears.
First visions of Lorelai and herself running out to great Kirk; the ice cream man on Rory's first day of kindergarten surface.
The sound of Lane's laughter as she beats Rory in Zelda rings clearly through Rory's ears.
Insignificant events pass by Rory's eyes quickly, in her impaired state of mind her father looks almost heroic as he pulls her onto his motorcycle and they ride down the streets of Stars Hollow.
Images of Dean, linger to long in Rory's mind, as their first kiss replays itself for the 12th time she shakes the picture out of her mind.
Tears begin to flow again; Rory shuts her eyes tightly not wanting to see what else her mind has in store for her.
What could be left? She'd seen her mother, her friends, her dad her first boyfriend even an image of Tristan and Dave in an argyle sweater.
Jess. In the last........well however long had past, Rory lost count quite some time ago; in the time that had gone by not one image of Jess had appeared.
It's inevitable and she can't handle it.
Being harassed by a drug dealer, sitting alone in the darkness of the beach; insanity slowly creeping up on her.......it was all Jess' fault. His actions have led up to this moment.
"What is much," Jess' rye voice quips.
Rory lifts her head, no one is there.
"Why did you come back?" A familiar voice asks.
Rory sniffles
"Just wanted to."
"Jess." Rory whimpers into the darkness.
*In The distance
Jess falls to his knees, no longer able to withstand the pressure of the sand upon his feet.
Slivers of sunlight burst through the darkened sky.
Rory's cries grow louder as Jess' presence in her psyche refuses to go unheard.
Jess lifts his head slowly, a small noise entering his ears.
"Ror?" Jess barks sorely.
Rory's body heaves back and forth violently as the voices in her head become clearer.
Instinctively she pulls herself closer, bowing her head down into her lap.
Jess manages to get onto his feet again, stumble towards what sounds to him like a wounded animal.
"Rory!!"
Loud sobs, interrupted by quiet hiccups.
"Ror, are you ok, where are you?"
Rory lifts her head, "Hic-Jess?"
Jess stops, focusing his eyes on the gray setting around him.
In the shadows Jess is able to make out Rory's silhouette as she begins to cough .
Jess lets his weight give out on him, falling to the ground beside Rory.
"Rory!" He exclaims overcome by relief.
Rory doesn't notice him at first, writing him off as her insanity taking over.
Jess waves his hands in front of her, "Oh God, Rory." Jess voice breaks, "I'm so sorry."
Jess pulls Rory into his arms protectively rocking her back and forth.
Rory mumbles into his shirt.
Jess looks down at her, "What?"
"You're here." Rory says quietly.
Jess nods his head, forgetting the darkness masking his face.
"J-Jess?" Rory whimpers.
"I'm here, Rory I'm right here."
Rory sighs resting her head against Jess' chest, his shaking hands wrap around her shivering frame. Jess kisses her head, unsure of what more to do.
"I thought I lost you." Jess whispers.
Rory hiccups again.
Not another word is spoken between the two teenagers; they remain in each others arms, drifting off into a deep sleep until the sun emerges from behind the gray clouds.
Abruptly Rory jerks out of Jess' arms waking from a nightmare.
Jess sits up, rubbing sand out of his eyes, "Rory?!"
"I had the worst dream." Rory says quietly.
Jess remains quiet.
"I ran away----because, because------" Rory's head begins to spin causing her to put hand to her forehead.
"Rory."
"And I was alone in the dark and this guy was chasing me and I ended up on the b-beach....." Rory trails off, taking in her surroundings.
"Oh my God." She muses, getting to her feet.
"Rory, I'm so sorry." Jess says desperately.
"It wasn't a dream."
Jess shakes his head.
"So you really did sleep with her then."
"No. Never." Jess replies, "We slept in the same bed that's it."
Rory makes a small, agitated noise.
Jess puts his hand on Rory's shoulder, "I-"
"Let's go I can't stay here anymore." Rory says curtly
"Ok."
Rory walks forward; unsteadily Jess takes Rory by the arm, linking her arm with his.
"We'll get back faster this way, you can lean on me for support." He explains.
"No I can't." Rory mutters.
*An Hour Later: Jess helps Rory onto the boardwalk.
Together they walk to a nearby bench.
Jess sits down next to Rory, after a few moments of passing silence he begins to tap his foot.
Rory sighs.
"Rory, you have to believe me nothing ever happened with me and Cadence."
Rory nods.
Uncontrollably, Jess runs a hand through his hair in frustration.
"She's in love with you." Rory replies.
"Geesis, am I the only one who didn't see it."
"You saw it, you had to." Rory bites back.
"I didn't, I swear."
Silence consumes them again.
*A few moments later:
"Jess."
"Yeah?"
"If you didn't know about Cadence like you said....."
"I didn't"
"What would have happened if you'd found out sooner?"
Jess remains silent.
Rory surveys his face, his chocolate brown eyes are becoming distant.
Rory scoffs, "That's what I thought." Rory stands up, starting to walk away.
Jess follows behind her, "Rory, will you just listen to me?"
Rory turns around cross her arms across her chest, "Go ahead."
Jess stumbles on his words, "I, Cadence, well she's like someone I used to know."
Rory nods.
".......Rory cadence is me."
Rory looks down at her feet.
"Well, not me but close to it. I know where she's coming from........and she gets me."
"She gets you." Rory repeats.
Jess sighs, "She's the best friend I've ever had."
Rory nods, turning on her heals walking away from Jess.
"But I've never looked at her as anything but a friend." Jess says to Rory's back.
Rory continues to walk.
Jess is gaining on her, "Cadence is great, and yes she gets me better than anyone I've ever known, by definition she's the perfect girl for me."
"Well I hope you're happy together." Rory replies, tears stinging her flushed cheeks.
"Except, she's not you." Jess continues as he allows himself to fall behind, his legs ceasing movement.
Rory stops as well, taking a deep breath.
Jess approaches her warily, "Rory?"
"Why?" she asks simply.
"What?"
"Why do you always seem to say the right thing at the critical moment?"
Jess smirks, "It' a gift."
Rory holds her hand out for Jess, he takes it and they begin to walk in the direction of the apartment building.
*A moment later:
"This doesn't fix everything, you know." Rory says.
"I know." Jess says hoarsely.
"I don't like the idea of you and another girl sharing a bed."
"It's not going to happen again."
"And I don't know if I can handle this distance anymore......"
"Rory?"
"But I think we should give it one more try, it's not going to come easy though."
"I know."
"We both have to work on it."
"And phone calls aren't going to do it." Jess answers.
Rory nods.
"Rory, I want to work this out, I love you."
"I love you too, but we can't go back to the way it was........I, I think we need to take a few steps back."
Jess nods, "Ok."
*Rory and Jess stop in front of the apartment building.
"Well we're here." Jess comments.
"Yeah."
*Jess enters the apartment, followed by Rory.
Sasha rushes to the door, "Thank God! I woke up this morning and both of you were gone!"
"Sorry, we just got up to see the sunrise." Jess lies.
"That's so sweet, oh to be young and in love!" Sasha gushes returning to the kitchen where she is frying eggs.
"You kids hungry?"
"No thank you." Rory replies, "I'm kind of tired actually."
"Well why don't you go lie down sweetie, and I'll make you a sandwich or whatever you want when you get up."
"Thank You." Rory says meekly.
Rory walks mechanically towards Jess' room.
Jess follows her.
Rory lies down on Jess' bed.
"I'll be in the kitchen, I don't think I could sleep if I tried." Jess explains.
Rory nods, "Ok, I'll see you in a little bit."
"I love you."
"I love you too." Rory replies.
Jess closes the door and exits.
Rory waits a few minutes before sitting up. Hugging her knees to her chest, Rory reaches for her purse pulling out her cell phone she sighs dialing number four on the speed dial.
"Yellow."
"Blue." Rory says quietly.
"Hey, aren't you supposed to be having orgasmic sex with the boyfriend right now on the beaches of sunny California?" James Dunne's charismatic voice says playfully.
Rory laughs, "So graphic."
"So what's going on?"
"Just needed to say hi to someone not here." Rory replies with a sigh.
"Too many fakers over there?"
"No, California is just not me."
"Gotcha.....so why me?"
"Mom's not up till after 10, it's only 9."
"Right and Lane?"
"Her and Dave are having one of their secret get away weekends."
Ah. And of course that only leaves me, the poor pathetic......single study buddy."
"Oh no what happened?"
"God, everything, I don't want to put a damper on your vacation I'll talk to you next week when you get back."
"Ok."
"How about we do coffee on Sunday before we go back."
"Sounds good."
"Can't wait to hear all about California, but let me go I'm on my way to work."
"Oh, ok, see you next Sunday."
"Yeah, I miss you."
"Miss you too."
Rory hangs up her phone, a smile on her face. Why is it that no matter what's going on James had a way of making her smile.
There's a knock at the door.
"Ror?" Jess pokes his head in the door, "Are you ok I thought I heard you talking to yourself."
"I, couldn't sleep so I called my mom, but she didn't pick up so I was just leaving a message."
"Ok. Are you hungry?"
"A little."
"Trust me you don't want to trust Sasha's eggs, stick with the cereal." Jess replies exiting the bedroom.
Rory follows him out smiling faintly.
A/N That's it for this chapter. Sorry if it was very mushy. I don't want to make anyone nauseous I just figured you know emotions running high big ordeal. And no I'm not just skipping over Jess and Rory dealing with what happened, I just figured after all that happened they'd take a few steps back before having it out. It will happen probably before she leaves. And just so you know, no matter what direction I take the story in, this story will end up being a Rory and Jess coupling. So just bear with me and put up with the next few chapters. Oh and I suggest anyone looking for some good tunes, go out and get the Ataris So long Astoria, it's great and I was listening to it throughout the 2 hours I took to write this chapter. Please review let me know what you think send me thoughts ideas etc.