Give a Reason for Life
by Argy
Note: "Slayers" and all its characters are copyright 1989-present Hajime Kanzaka, Rui Araizumi, Kadokawa Shoten, TV Tokyo, SOFTX. The views expressed in this work are based on the observations, perspective, and opinion of the author. Although this story is based on known Slayers facts, in no way is this fictional piece of work meant to be an official canon representation of "Slayers" or the characters it involves.
This story-essay contains spoilers for all of the Slayers series. If you haven't seen all of the series, then be advised you may run into something you aren't or don't want to be familiar with.
Note: "The Voice" is not meant to be the author. It is not meant to be anyone in particular, for that matter. Not Xelloss, not the Lord of Nightmares... not anyone.
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Surely somewhere there lies "The Answer," The answer which was born That is what all people wish for Facing the dreary dream that they can't let go
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4/4 - Lina Inverse
Let's begin by speaking about your sister.
No.
Oh? You sound angry.
You don't want to see me when I'm really angry. What's with you coming here talking to me? I didn't remember asking for an interrogation!
Whether or not you asked for it is not important. Eventually you must face the bad thoughts in order to overcome them.
I don't need to face them. I suggest you leave now, because you're really asking for a Dragu Slave up the ass.
Since it's hard for you to open up, we'll start by talking about something more pleasant. Food, perhaps?
Food?! Do you have food?! If you do, you can stay here! How rude of me it was to ignore you!
How is food important to you?
You don't have food? Ohhh, this sucks. Really sucks. What? Oh. Of course food is important- I'm a beautiful, growing young woman! I need energy!
You seem to have enough energy with or without food.
WHAT'S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?!
You know, your friends admire you. They say you get through any situation without a worry or a care.
What are you talking about? Of course I have problems! They should realize that!
What kind of problems do you have?
Bad ones! Like, "Which restaurant will I eat at today?" or-
No, no, no. Not THOSE problems. Different problems. Emotional ones.
Hmph. That is none of your business.
I'll ask again. Why are you so afraid of your sister?
Oh God, I can't believe I'm going along with this! It's because she's scary and she can kick my butt! Are you happy now?
Why would she want to harm you?
Because... uh... stuff. That.. I, uh... did. Heh, heh, heh...
So you deserve the punishment you get?
All right, all right. I admit- sometimes I get a little out of hand. Okay, a lot. But it's not my fault!
Whose fault is it, then?
Uh... um..
So I thought. Let's change the subject.
Finally.
What was it like for you when Fibrizo kidnapped Gourry?
I-- hey! Wait a minute! I don't have to answer this! Oh, fine. I... I was scared. Scared he would be gone forever and that all the good times we had together would be lost to memory.
You had good times with Naga... Yet you certainly were not as upset about her leaving as you were about Gourry.
Naga?! That pile of goldfish poop that always used to follow me around?! Ohhh, I'm way past talking about her! I didn't care about being away from Naga because... well, I just DIDN'T CARE!
So you admit you care about Gourry as more than a friend?
Eh..? I never said anything about that!
But you have to admit that you and Naga were friends, even though you fought sometimes. So what's so different this time?
I.. uh... I... don't know... um..
You weren't with Gourry any longer than when you were with Naga when he was taken away.
I... um... stop! PLEASE!! STOP IT!! You're asking to be beat up!!
Perhaps you aren't quite the leader your friends say you are.
Why the hell am I supposed to be the leader? Just because I have my powers shouldn't be a reason for me to be the leader! They're all qualified enough to have that position!
Try to be "Lina Inverse the woman" for once.
As opposed to what? "Lina Inverse the beautiful sorcery genius?" "Lina Inverse, the enemy of all who live?" Maybe if I didn't have this power everyone would be better off... Who is this "Lina Inverse the woman" you speak of? Is it the same weak girl who fell in love and then allowed her heart to be broken? I don't have enough courage to "be myself." I'm strong- but not strong enough to be in love. What, then, is my true power?
Your true power will be discovered when you can "be yourself," as you yourself put it.
What are you talking about? I have to use power- magic power -to feel good. What is my purpose, other than that?
Did you ever think that maybe simply existing is your purpose?
What are you saying-- that I'm needed? Who would need me? Only-
Only who?
...Only Gourry. He said himself he lives to protect me. Without me... where would he go?
You understand.
...I think... I think I do. I understand my reason for life.
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1/1
Thank you.
You're welcome.
by Argy
Note: "Slayers" and all its characters are copyright 1989-present Hajime Kanzaka, Rui Araizumi, Kadokawa Shoten, TV Tokyo, SOFTX. The views expressed in this work are based on the observations, perspective, and opinion of the author. Although this story is based on known Slayers facts, in no way is this fictional piece of work meant to be an official canon representation of "Slayers" or the characters it involves.
This story-essay contains spoilers for all of the Slayers series. If you haven't seen all of the series, then be advised you may run into something you aren't or don't want to be familiar with.
Note: "The Voice" is not meant to be the author. It is not meant to be anyone in particular, for that matter. Not Xelloss, not the Lord of Nightmares... not anyone.
-=-
Surely somewhere there lies "The Answer," The answer which was born That is what all people wish for Facing the dreary dream that they can't let go
-=-
4/4 - Lina Inverse
Let's begin by speaking about your sister.
No.
Oh? You sound angry.
You don't want to see me when I'm really angry. What's with you coming here talking to me? I didn't remember asking for an interrogation!
Whether or not you asked for it is not important. Eventually you must face the bad thoughts in order to overcome them.
I don't need to face them. I suggest you leave now, because you're really asking for a Dragu Slave up the ass.
Since it's hard for you to open up, we'll start by talking about something more pleasant. Food, perhaps?
Food?! Do you have food?! If you do, you can stay here! How rude of me it was to ignore you!
How is food important to you?
You don't have food? Ohhh, this sucks. Really sucks. What? Oh. Of course food is important- I'm a beautiful, growing young woman! I need energy!
You seem to have enough energy with or without food.
WHAT'S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?!
You know, your friends admire you. They say you get through any situation without a worry or a care.
What are you talking about? Of course I have problems! They should realize that!
What kind of problems do you have?
Bad ones! Like, "Which restaurant will I eat at today?" or-
No, no, no. Not THOSE problems. Different problems. Emotional ones.
Hmph. That is none of your business.
I'll ask again. Why are you so afraid of your sister?
Oh God, I can't believe I'm going along with this! It's because she's scary and she can kick my butt! Are you happy now?
Why would she want to harm you?
Because... uh... stuff. That.. I, uh... did. Heh, heh, heh...
So you deserve the punishment you get?
All right, all right. I admit- sometimes I get a little out of hand. Okay, a lot. But it's not my fault!
Whose fault is it, then?
Uh... um..
So I thought. Let's change the subject.
Finally.
What was it like for you when Fibrizo kidnapped Gourry?
I-- hey! Wait a minute! I don't have to answer this! Oh, fine. I... I was scared. Scared he would be gone forever and that all the good times we had together would be lost to memory.
You had good times with Naga... Yet you certainly were not as upset about her leaving as you were about Gourry.
Naga?! That pile of goldfish poop that always used to follow me around?! Ohhh, I'm way past talking about her! I didn't care about being away from Naga because... well, I just DIDN'T CARE!
So you admit you care about Gourry as more than a friend?
Eh..? I never said anything about that!
But you have to admit that you and Naga were friends, even though you fought sometimes. So what's so different this time?
I.. uh... I... don't know... um..
You weren't with Gourry any longer than when you were with Naga when he was taken away.
I... um... stop! PLEASE!! STOP IT!! You're asking to be beat up!!
Perhaps you aren't quite the leader your friends say you are.
Why the hell am I supposed to be the leader? Just because I have my powers shouldn't be a reason for me to be the leader! They're all qualified enough to have that position!
Try to be "Lina Inverse the woman" for once.
As opposed to what? "Lina Inverse the beautiful sorcery genius?" "Lina Inverse, the enemy of all who live?" Maybe if I didn't have this power everyone would be better off... Who is this "Lina Inverse the woman" you speak of? Is it the same weak girl who fell in love and then allowed her heart to be broken? I don't have enough courage to "be myself." I'm strong- but not strong enough to be in love. What, then, is my true power?
Your true power will be discovered when you can "be yourself," as you yourself put it.
What are you talking about? I have to use power- magic power -to feel good. What is my purpose, other than that?
Did you ever think that maybe simply existing is your purpose?
What are you saying-- that I'm needed? Who would need me? Only-
Only who?
...Only Gourry. He said himself he lives to protect me. Without me... where would he go?
You understand.
...I think... I think I do. I understand my reason for life.
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1/1
Thank you.
You're welcome.