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Love...It's a difficult word to say, especially to the one you want to love. I thought I had found love, but love stabbed me in the back......
The cool breeze came in from my window; I sat in my bed, my mind running with thoughts about him. How he broke my heart, how I wanted desperately to kill him. But still I found myself thinking of him, and how no matter how badly I wanted to kill him, I still loved him. I sighed and turned over, wanting nothing more than to keep him out of my head for good. I woke up in a funk, I hadn't slept well for the third night in a row, and I was late. "Shit!" I screamed as I fumbled out of bed frantically searching for clothes. I ran downstairs, Toby was already gone, and my parents were already at work. I stopped in my kitchen and grabbed a banana. There was a late note on the table, gee mother knows best. I didn't have time for that now.
I ran up to the main desk, "Late again Miss Kerwin," the secretary had a note all filled out and held it out to me. I snatched it and ran to my locker. Smack!! I ran into someone, and hard. "Why don't you watch where the fu..." I was about to scream into the asshole's face who ran into me, but then I saw who it was...him. "Ashley? I'm so sorry, let me help you," he said it so innocent, but I couldn't make it seem like I still didn't hate him for being a horny bastard. "No! I'm fine." I snapped, I grabbed my bag and ran to my locker, "Ash, wait we need to talk!" he yelled after me his voice echoing down the hallway. Craig, wanting to talk to me, he wanted to reason, I knew him the best. He was always willing to reason, and work things out, and be Mr. Nice. Tears began to burn in my eyes as I furiously spun my lock. I unlatched it, and flung my bag inside. I grabbed my books, and went to home room.
After a 5 minute lecture from Ms. Kwan I actually got into school mode, but when the bell rang, I was in a different mode. I went to my locker, and Craig was there. I went up to my locker, acting like he wasn't there at all, spinning away at my lock. "Ashley, we need to talk, I now you want to...fucking kill me, believe me I would too, but please hear me out." I just looked at him, "Now you want me to hear you out? I loved you Craig, I LOVED YOU! And, you...you just threw me away, like I was nothing, like I wasn't good enough to get pregnant!" His jaw dropped, he didn't want to be reminded to the big-P ever again. That was the biggest mistake he ever made in his life, and he knew it. "Listen," he hissed, "I'm an asshole, YOU HEAR ME DEGRASSI!? I CRAIG MANNING AM AN ASSHOLE!!!" I laughed quickly, but stopped because I didn't want his charm to get to me. "I still love you Ashley, and I know you do too, I can see it." I couldn't take it, I reached out, and did the unexpected I kissed him, like we were the only one around, like all of the cheating and horror of our entire relationship didn't even happen. I stepped away, and wiped my lips, "We'll talk later okay?" All he could do was nod, he stood there stunned. I walked away, smiling, and it was the first time I had in a long time.
Love...It's a difficult word to say, especially to the one you want to love. I thought I had found love, but love stabbed me in the back......
The cool breeze came in from my window; I sat in my bed, my mind running with thoughts about him. How he broke my heart, how I wanted desperately to kill him. But still I found myself thinking of him, and how no matter how badly I wanted to kill him, I still loved him. I sighed and turned over, wanting nothing more than to keep him out of my head for good. I woke up in a funk, I hadn't slept well for the third night in a row, and I was late. "Shit!" I screamed as I fumbled out of bed frantically searching for clothes. I ran downstairs, Toby was already gone, and my parents were already at work. I stopped in my kitchen and grabbed a banana. There was a late note on the table, gee mother knows best. I didn't have time for that now.
I ran up to the main desk, "Late again Miss Kerwin," the secretary had a note all filled out and held it out to me. I snatched it and ran to my locker. Smack!! I ran into someone, and hard. "Why don't you watch where the fu..." I was about to scream into the asshole's face who ran into me, but then I saw who it was...him. "Ashley? I'm so sorry, let me help you," he said it so innocent, but I couldn't make it seem like I still didn't hate him for being a horny bastard. "No! I'm fine." I snapped, I grabbed my bag and ran to my locker, "Ash, wait we need to talk!" he yelled after me his voice echoing down the hallway. Craig, wanting to talk to me, he wanted to reason, I knew him the best. He was always willing to reason, and work things out, and be Mr. Nice. Tears began to burn in my eyes as I furiously spun my lock. I unlatched it, and flung my bag inside. I grabbed my books, and went to home room.
After a 5 minute lecture from Ms. Kwan I actually got into school mode, but when the bell rang, I was in a different mode. I went to my locker, and Craig was there. I went up to my locker, acting like he wasn't there at all, spinning away at my lock. "Ashley, we need to talk, I now you want to...fucking kill me, believe me I would too, but please hear me out." I just looked at him, "Now you want me to hear you out? I loved you Craig, I LOVED YOU! And, you...you just threw me away, like I was nothing, like I wasn't good enough to get pregnant!" His jaw dropped, he didn't want to be reminded to the big-P ever again. That was the biggest mistake he ever made in his life, and he knew it. "Listen," he hissed, "I'm an asshole, YOU HEAR ME DEGRASSI!? I CRAIG MANNING AM AN ASSHOLE!!!" I laughed quickly, but stopped because I didn't want his charm to get to me. "I still love you Ashley, and I know you do too, I can see it." I couldn't take it, I reached out, and did the unexpected I kissed him, like we were the only one around, like all of the cheating and horror of our entire relationship didn't even happen. I stepped away, and wiped my lips, "We'll talk later okay?" All he could do was nod, he stood there stunned. I walked away, smiling, and it was the first time I had in a long time.