Title- Time to Think
Author's Note- Hey everyone, this is my first fic ever, so I apologize for rookie mistakes! I'm a huge fan of the OC, so this is my response to the overly long wait for new episodes! I hate that it starts back up in Nov!!Disclaimers- I don't own it though I want to! The Adam Brody fantasies are also mine!
Here we go!
I never really thought, I would need a time to be by myself to think. Me, Seth Cohen, big geek boy, needed a time to think. I used to have all the time in the world to be by myself and think.
God, I hated that.
Then Ryan came into my life and all that time that I had to think was transformed into time spent with actual humans.
Now don't get me wrong I love my parents and I love Captain Oats like a brother, but the Captain is plastic and my parents sometimes seem nonhuman. Too perfect sometimes. I sometimes think Grandpa Stepfordized them so he has a lapdog, and someone to argue with. Wow, that was completely random.
Anyways, when Ryan left, I couldn't be around the New Port scene anymore, everything reminded me that nothing was going to be the same. I liked my new life; I liked having friends, emphasis on the plural part. Now that Ryan's gone, Marissa, yes I consider her a friend even though it is her fault Ryan left, is going to just mope and cry about Ryan leaving, probably not even gonna leave the house, except maybe an occasional shopping trip with Summer.
Ah, Summer, my first and only love.
Our relationship is already strained enough, with her stupid father brainwashing her thoughts, and my dorkiness making her doubt her feelings toward me. Now that Ryan left, there's no reason for Marissa to hang around me, so she'll probably take Summer with her. She'll hang with Marissa and meet new guys and she'll completely forget about Seth Cohen. It will be just like last summer, when she would ignore me, but at least then I had Ryan and Anna to hang out with. This summer I will have no one.
The only useful thing that has been and always will be there for me is the Summer Breeze. She can help me sort out my problems with the fresh salty air.
The letters I left for my parents and Summer, were simple enough saying that I needed a time to think about the things that were going on, and that I would be back in a couple days. Although they probably think I'm suicidal or going all the way to Tahiti, so a trip with the Coast Guard will probably be the way I do get home. I never actually seriously thought of going all the way to Tahiti on this little piece of wood, it was just something I could think of doing whenever I was teased or ignored.
Geez, I'm getting hungry. I wish I packed some pudding, I love pudding. I was stupid and packed healthy things like vegetables and lots of water. Oh well, as soon as I get back I'm getting a Mountain Dew and pizza. Jesus and Moses, I got to stop thinking about food, okay Seth think of something that would make you want to puke.
The Nana in a bikini. Summer kissing another guy.
Yeah, I'm not hungry anymore.
I guess, these problems aren't all that bad. I can visit Ryan in Chino, like Summer said, it's not that far away. In regards to the Summer thing, I won't let her leave me. Dad always says to be a man about these things, so I guess that's what a man would do. If she does brush me off I'll just go back to admiring her from afar, it wasn't that bad before she knew I existed. About the no friends part, I still have Anna, e-mailing and the telephone are great ways to be friends, I guess. I'll always have Captain Oats, I haven't talked to him in a while so it'll be good to catch up.
Whattaya know, I had a time to think and now I have an idea on how to solve my problems. Thanks again Miss Summer Breeze, I knew you wouldn't let me down.
I should start heading back soon; I don't want to have to put the Coast Guard to too much trouble looking for me.