Disclaimer: Okay I own everything! It all belongs to me and you can't have it! sees the Disney people coming after her in rage Oops, I mean you can borrow them? breaks into a run Okay, okay I don't own any thing aside from the fic...you happy!?! (Directed at Disney people who are now walking away) Fan Fic Nazis (mumbles under her breath)

AN: Thanks a bunch to Black Knight 03, the bestest beta reader ever! (Mainly because he's mine! LOL)

Gordo,

Gordo...wow, I still remember when I gave you that nickname, I never thought it would stick. But you have to admit Gordon and Gordo do sound the same, well they did when I was five any ways.
If you're reading this then I finally had the courage to give it to you, or I left it somewhere easily found. Either way whether or not you even read it I have to write it or else I'll never get the nerve to tell you how I really feel.
I've spent years questioning my feelings hoping in vain that they would subside. Not because I didn't believe they were true but because I hoped they wouldn't be. You see I couldn't do that to you, I couldn't fall for you. Better yet I wouldn't fall for you.
But that's just it... I did. I fell for my best friend, but what I could have gained from telling you sooner would have meant nothing if I lost your friendship. I guess that's why I'm still contemplating as I write this, whether or not to give this to you.
I hate being afraid, I hate not knowing that every thing will be okay, I hate not having you here to tell me so.
I always thought that I could tell you everything but I haven't but now with this I will.
Ever since we were little I had somewhat of a crush on you, but you never showed interest, so I let it go. Or that's what I thought; I really thought I was over you and that it was all in the past. But I should have known the past always comes back to haunt you. So in middle school I once again started to notice you as more than just a friend, but like I said before you never showed interest. So again I tried to let it die down, though it was hard. If you recall how you're first date ended up, partly because of me.
In high school I became a lot more skilled at hiding my feelings, though the greater my talent the greater the pain. I never told you how much it really hurt me to see you dating those girls, well though it was mainly one. Don't get me wrong I was happy for you and I always will be no matter who you choose, but it was hard to see. Though harder still it was to see your heart broken.
Like I've said before this is to set the record straight with us. I hate not telling you everything and I hate to hurt you,, so for a long time I was torn. I didn't know whether to keep this from you and let you be happy or to tell you and risk pain for both of us. Okay that sounded selfish, but though I've tried time and time again to prepare myself for the let down that may very well come from this, I could never prepare to lose you.
But lately I've noticed some thing about you, I've seen how you look when you think no one is watching, that look of sadness in your eyes. I don't know what's causing it, better yet who's causing it, but I do recognize it, in fact I know it all too well. It's the look of some one in love with out hope.
Whoever it is just know that you deserve better, if she can't see how truly amazing you are then that's her problem and she doesn't deserve you. I know you're thinking that it's the best friend thing to say but I mean it. You need some one who will stay up and just talk with you all night simply because you can't sleep. Some one who would call you just to say hello, in the middle of the day because they can't bear to go one more second with out hearing the sound of your voice. You deserve some one who will sit with you and hold you if you cry, and laugh with you when you don't.
I can't stand to see you sad even if it comes at my expense you deserve to know how special you are, I can't bear the thought of us not being friends any more. It was hard enough to go from the fantastic four, to the three amigos, and now the dynamic duo? Well we don't really have a name but you know what I mean, I don't want to ever lose you. You're the best thing that ever happened to me, you're my best friend, and I just happen to be in love with you.
Giving you this letter may very well be the hardest thing I ever have to do. I've spent my entire life avoiding heart ache, willing my self never to fall for a guy who could break my heart and now it seems that the one I thought never would, is the only one who can.

Love Always, Rand


P.S. Please remember that no matter what, I will always love you, and you'll always be my best friend.

Gordo sat on the floor of the apartment he once shared with Miranda mouth agape and slowly let the letter drop. It was only by chance that he'd found the letter at all, he'd shared this apartment with Miranda for a while then she moved out, the letter just happened to be stuck under one of the drawers of the desk they also used to share.

They had lived together during collage so they could split the rent but after she moved out to live with her boyfriend at the time he'd kept the place.

'How can this be? Man I was so stupid!' he mentally scolded himself. Miranda had been right there, the perfect girl, but he was always too scared to make a move, even when he knew he liked maybe loved her.

But now it was too late wasn't it? This letter was dated three years ago! Three years, at least that she'd been in love with him, and he was too stupid to notice. Now after all she'd been through there was no way that this could work, she had enough to deal with now without his declaration of love. Besides she was seeing some one, right now sure he wasn't a mental giant and as far as Gordo was concerned she could do better, but she cared for him and at the moment that's all that mattered.

Gordo sat on the floor with his head in his hands, not knowing how long it had been since he first read the letter, what he did know was that he'd read it over about a thousand times and now it had gone dark yet he remained in the same spot dejected and contemplating his next action. What action she had a guy and a ...

His train of thought was cut off by the door bell, who would go out in this weather? There was a storm raging, the roads would be almost impossible to get through. He didn't speak to his neighbors so it had to be some one else, but no one in there right mind would go out in this weather. Still confused and curious, he went to open the door shocked by what he found there.

AN: okay so I left a cliffy but I had too!

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