-Blue on Black-
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CHAPTER SIX
"Ami, you're not telling me everything..." he mumbled gently into her ear so as no one else could hear, "are you?" Ami shivered unconsciously at the feel of his breath blowing across the lobe of her ear.
"N-no... Tom, what are you doing? I thought we agreed-" Tom cut her off knowing exactly what she was referring to. They had agreed to keep their relationship a secret and any show of affection in public, other than that of friendship wasn't supposed to happen.
"It's pointless now Snowflake. The whole school already knows. So I can now do whatever I want, whenever I want." He grinned, brushing his lips across the lobe of her ear, and grazing it with his teeth sensuously. Ami shivered again.
"Tom..." Ami breathed in protest, though her resolve was slipping.
"Mhmmm?"
"Stop it." She groaned, pushing away weakly, but that small resistance was enough to stop him. He didn't like pushing Ami into anything she wasn't willing to do...
"I'll only do that, if you stop changing the subject. What are you hiding?" his body seemed relaxed but his eyes were questioning and somewhat hurt.
"Is it just me, or is it getting hot all of a sudden." Tony grinned, giggling loud enough for most of the Slytherin table to hear. Most smirked and Lucius clapped a hand across Tom's back, laughing along with the rest of them.
"Well now, finally it's out in the open-"
"You knew?!" exclaimed Tony, shock evident on her un-amused face, "You knew, and you never told me?!! Oh you are so gonna get it!" she stood up and began trying to climb over the table until Narcissia pulled her back down
"Calm down Britony. I doubt he told anyone." She sighed.
"I guess..." she sighed and sat back down with a pout.
Shaking her head, Ami turned her attention back to Tom's hurt eyes. She couldn't tell him. He would go crazy. "Tom, it's nothing. Don't worry-" Tom cut her off by firmly taking hold of her arm, and rising from his chair,
"Excuse us a moment." He said calmly and gently pulled Ami out the Great oak doors. All eyes in the hall followed the two in surprise until both were no longer in sight.
"Tom where are we going?" she asked when her wits finally returned to her.
"Right here," he spun around and pulled her to him, pinning her between himself and the cool wall.
"Tom! Have you lost your mind?! Someone might see us!" she exclaimed in shock.
"No I haven't lost my mind. I want to know what you're hiding from me!" he asked, a wounded tone lining his strong voice. Ami's heart broke. She never wanted to hurt him!
"Tom... I can't say. You'll get mad and you'll let that 'thing' loose again. I can't let that happen. I won't let that happen."
"Snowflake, please tell me! It hurts to know that you don't trust me!"
"No, it's not that I don't trust YOU Tom, in fact I'd trust you with my life, but I definitely do NOT trust the shadow within you. It's dangerous Tom! It's conniving, vengeful and evil!"
"Snowflake, you're talking to me! Not the shadow, not some stranger; ME. I control it. I won't let it out, I swear! Please tell me what happened." His pained eyes stared into her own as she tried to hold his intense gaze.
"Tom... I- I can't. Yes you 'can' control it, but it can also control you! Don't you understand? Once- once it gains complete control over your body, you wont be able to stop it. No one can. It will attack everything! No one is safe except the person you love with all your heart!" her eyes began to fill with tears as his eyes darkened and began to seem colder. "Not even me..." She whispered brokenly as she finally managed to look away.
"So you don't trust my ability to keep it in?"
"Tom, no it's not that! It's-"
"Don't." the word itself was not what had stopped her; it was the way he had said it... in bitter emptiness... "Don't deny it. Don't lie to me Ami. You don't feel safe around me."
"Tom I do feel safe, it's just-"
"You can't trust me."
"Stop putting words in my mouth!!" Ami exclaimed, pushing him away and staring up at him, in hurt.
"But it's what you were going to say."
"No it wasn't!! For goodness sake Tom, I don't want to tell you because you'd get angry and I don't particularly want the blood of a few Ravenclaws on my conscience!"
"So you don't trust me." He stated emotionlessly.
Ami felt like she could scream in frustration, "Argh, no!! This is all coming out so wrong! Look Tom; please leave me alone for a little while. Just let me think. Please!"
"Yes. I believe we both need to do some rethinking." He said almost sadly, but there was too little emotion evident on his face to tell.
"Tom, you don't mean what I think you mean, do you?" the tears that had been building in her eyes had now overflowed and trailed down her soft, ivory cheek. Tom wanted to wipe it away but restrained himself. She didn't trust him, and he could not bring himself to hurt her anymore than he obviously had. He couldn't let her do this to herself and to him. He wouldn't let her. He'd stop it before things got too deep. That's what he'd do.
Gritting his teeth in determination, Tom turned his back to the blue haired tenshi that had stolen his heart. It was now, or never, "Yes. I do. If you can't trust me Ami, then how can we stay together? I'm sorry, but I can't do that; especially not to you."
"No, I- I won't let you. You can't do that Tom! Not over this! You can't!!"
"I have to Ami. You're only hurting yourself by doing this. You're hurting the both of us."
"Please Tom," she whispered stepping forward and reaching towards him, "please don't do this! I do trust you! How couldn't I?! I l-"
"Don't Ami. Just, don't. Do us both a favor." He sighed and shrugged away from her outreached hand, beginning a slow walk down the hallway, not turning back to look at her, for fear of his resolve breaking.
"Tom, stop! Please just stop!" he kept on walking. Her heart was shattering with every step away from her that he took, but it still had some voice left in one of it's shards and it wasn't about to let her give him up without a fight. Swiping at her tears roughly, she jogged after him and grabbed his arm, spinning him around as hard as she could.
In his surprise, Tom could not stop her, and without having time to register what was happening, his mind went blank as the soft feel of Ami's tender lips overrode all logical thoughts and actions. Unable to stop himself, Tom quickly responded and before either of them knew it, they were locked in a heated embrace that was becoming more and more passionate by the second.
Not wanting things to go too far, Ami quickly ended the kiss and allowed Tom a moment to re-orient himself. Her mind was in no better condition. "Tom. I am not letting things end like this, over something so stupid. No way in heaven or hell, am I ever letting you go. I can't. Don't you see it you buffoon! I trust you because my heart doesn't exactly give me a choice in the matter. I'm so busy trying to get you out of my head all the time that I say things, and they come out the wrong way." She broke off when she saw the surprise in his eyes and again, she swiped at the trickle of tears that refused to stop flowing down her cheeks. "So will you stop jumping to conclusions, and quit cutting me off before I can finish a sentence ok?"
"But you said you didn't trust the shadow, and you also said I couldn't control it." He sighed moving to gently pull away from her. She wouldn't let him.
"But that's the same for the entire Saturnian race! It's the nature of your shadows. Not you! Gees Tom if you want to know so bad then I got into a fight with Hornby and she's now in the hospital wing. I was worried that you'd get angry."
"Is that all? Or is there something else to it." He asked, "Why'd you get into a fight with her? What did she say to you?"
"She was just saying some ridiculous stuff like how I'd better not be going out with you if I knew what was good for me and stuff like that. I got angry, and I put her through a wall. I shouldn't have done it, I know, but I was just so sick of her and no one is allowed to tell me that I can't be with my own boyfriend." She smiled slightly when he cocked a brow at her, "that is, if you still want me..."
Tom stood there a moment, just looking at her and she noticed a sense of relief wash over him. In a split second, he had pulled her into a tight hug, with his face buried in the crook of her neck. "Oh gods Snowflake, I thought you had fallen for some one and didn't want to say anything because you were afraid of me! I just didn't want you to be with me and have your heart with someone else. I couldn't bare it!"
Ami sighed gently, with a tender smile adorning her face, "Oh Tom, you are so adorable sometimes." She flicked away another tear with a short laugh as Tom nipped her shoulder in mock irritation.
"It sounded like it." He dropped a light kiss in the crook of her neck.
"Mmmmm, you're so paranoid Tom." Ami couldn't hold back the small moan as sparks flew all over her body.
"I have reason to be Snowflake." He grinned, moving back to look her in the eye.
"No you don't."
"Yes I do." He insisted bringing one hand from her waist, up under her chin, tilting it up, "Snowflake, you might not notice the stares you were getting in the hall and you might not realize it, but you are the most beautiful girl in this school. Probably in the world." Her cheeks tinted a pink at his words, "Don't get embarrassed. I'm lucky to have even some of you-"
"Hush you big dolt." She smiled, skin still feeling tight from the tears, "You have more than just some of me. You've got all of me! It's the other way around. I'm lucky you give me the time of day!" she smiled up at.
"But-"
"No buts silly. I thought it was obvious! Goodness you can be blind sometimes! I'm head over heels for you!' she smiled, unashamed of the fact but a little nervous as to his response.
Tom stared at his blue haired tenshi, unsure if he had heard right, "Y- you what?" he asked wanting to make sure he was not hearing things.
"I love you. All of you, and there's no two ways about it!" she smiled warmly as she felt his fingers trace their way back into her hair.
"You- you do?" he asked, still unsure if his ears were playing tricks on him.
"Yes I do!" she giggled at his obvious disbelief, "Why's it so hard to believe?"
Tom looked at her for a moment more before pulling her tightly against him and crashing his lips down upon hers, as his fingers left her hair and trailed down to the small of her back. Ami's arms slithered up from her sides, to his hard abs and up to his muscular chest resting on it as her fingers played with the sides of his robe, and her lips parted to allow Tom's tongue to ravage her mouth.
When they pulled apart Tom rested his forehead against Ami's, and a flushed grin formed upon her swollen lips, "Do I get one of those every time I tell you I love you?" giggled Ami, a content sigh escaping her lips.
"No." Ami looked put out but Tom was not finished, "You get one of those every time I see you. The 'I love you' s are just a bonus." His mouth quirked into a loving smirk though his eyes gazed into hers tenderly
"Really? Well then, you've seen me so..." Tom laughed at her innocent act and drew her in for another passionate kiss, though this one was shortened by the grumble of a stomach.
"Um... I think my stomach wants some food." Laughed Tom as Ami giggled and poked his belly button playfully
"Down boy. You'll get your food." They both chuckled at her playful mockery, "Go back to the great hall and eat. I'm going to go up to the library. I've got a ton of homework that's due pretty soon."
"But aren't you hungry?" Tom asked in suspicion.
"I've already eaten you nincompoop." She giggled happily but stopped when she noticed the suspicious look in his eyes, "Oh will you stop being paranoid?! Gees Tom, I meant what I said. I love you, and ONLY you. But I do have a tone of homework."
"Ok. A guy can't help but be protective." He sighed in slight remorse as Ami shook her head.
"OK, good night." She sighed with a light smile, leaning up and brushing her lips against his gently and turning around to leave.
She had taken no more than half a step when a hand latched onto her elbow and pulled her back into Tom's tight embrace, "I love you too." His deep voice whispered caressingly into her ear, sending tingles down her spine, "Good night Snowflake..." he nipped her ear tenderly and released her.
Ami turned her head and smiled lovingly at him before continuing down the hall. Tom turned and went down into dinner again, but there was one thing different about the two of them. Both of them now felt lighter than air as the comforting feeling of love wrapped around their hearts and warmed them to the core...
It had been a week since Olive Hornby had been released from the hospital wing, but much to Ami's surprise, no one had approached her about the wandless magic she had used... not even Professor Dippet. So life went on as it always did, though Hornby refused to go anywhere near Ami for fear of her life...
Existence was good for the blue haired Mercrian. She and Tom hardly ever fought and on the rare occasion that they did, it was always fixed before the hour was out. Even her studies had improved and with her new friends backing her, Ami felt as if nothing could ever go wrong...
Ami finished putting away the books she had been using and returned to the desk she had been working on, packing up her things and slinging the bag over her shoulder, before exiting the library. Lucius and the rest of the Slytherin Quidditch had gotten an early night because of their game tomorrow and Tom had to as well because he agreed to fill in for Leanne Amos because she had been knocked off her broom during practice by a bludger and had broken her arm.
Smiling to herself, Ami walked down the hall alone, as the thought of actually watching Tom play Quidditch against the poor Hufflepuffs, rolled over in her mind. Her blue haired rippled behind her in small waves as she turned the corner and began walking down a set of stairs. All of a sudden a hand reached out from behind a tapestry to her right and yanked her in behind it.
Before she could scream, a pair of lips crashed down upon hers, brutally silencing any hope of making noise as her attackers tongue slipped between her lips and began to savagely ravage her mouth. Attempting to shove whoever it was away from her, Ami only managed to get her arms trapped above her head as the assailant's other hand began to methodically undo the buttons to her shirt. Becoming desperate, Ami attempted to kick the man between the legs, but both her feet became trapped by his own, and it was definitely a he for the bulge pressing into the inside of her thigh.
Panic overtook her as the larger and obviously stronger man undid the last button of her shirt, and yanked it open. The second his lips left hers to go to 'other areas' of her body, Ami called out a powerful curse that blasted her attacker right off her and through the tapestry, onto the staircase behind it.
Sobbing hysterically, Ami pulled her shirt together, and did up the buttons as best she could; missing a few by accident but not really feeling up to doing them anyway. She stumbled out of the small hidden hole and stared down in utter shock at an unconscious Malcolm Finnegan. He had been one of the Gryffindors that were in the compartment that day they all decide to act weird and invite her to sit with them.
How could he do something like this? Wasn't he supposed to be a brave and loyal Gryffindor?! Ami didn't know what to think, but she knew she couldn't go back to Ravenclaw common room looking like this. Making up her mind in an instant, she began the long trek down into the Slytherin common room, tears flowing freely down her cheeks as sobs wracked her body.
She ran all the way down the dungeons and into the common room, up the stairs and into the 5th year boys' dormitory. No one stirred as Ami stepped into the door; tears still streaming down her cheeks, and hugging her arms around herself protectively. She looked around the room, unsure which one Tom was in.
Her keen eyes ran over the other boys in the dorm though none of them were Tom. Finally her gaze landed on the only bed with the curtains drawn around it. Tip toeing over to it, she drew back one of the curtains and saw Tom stirring from his sleep. He must have placed a charm on the curtains to make sure no one could do anything to him while he slept...
Sniffling and brushing away some tears, Ami climbed in and let go of the curtain, allowing it to fall back into place, hiding them both from view of the other dormitory occupants. As the dark haired Saturnian opened his eyes groggily, he felt a pair of slender arms wrap around him tightly and as whoever had woken him up began to sob uncontrollably.
Not wanting to wake the others up, he quickly threw a silence barrier on the curtain. Unsure of what exactly was going on, he drew back a bit of his curtain to allow some light in. Not much, but enough so he realized just who it was that had latched themselves onto him, sobbing their heart out...
"Snowflake?!" he released the curtain and his arms instantly wound around her in a tight embrace, drawing her up, level with him, "My gods, what happened angel?" he asked dropping light kisses on her hair, trying to comfort her any way he could. The only answer he received was her tightening her grasp around his waist, burying her face into his bare chest.
Again he pleaded with her to tell him what was wrong, and again she did not reply, so he gave up on finding out what had happened, and lay back, with his arms around her, head rested on his chest and the rest of her pulled under the covers with him. He let her cry herself out on him as his mind back tracked... There had only been one other time that she had cried this hard... it had been when those boys at the orphanage...
"Ami who was it?" he asked as gently as possible.
Ami's head snapped up with fear and yet it was not a fear of him, but a fear of what had happened and what whoever had done this, could do. She stared up into his eyes for a moment more before shaking her head it as if to stop an image from entering her mind, burying her face back into his chest.
Sighing, Tom held her closer, rubbing her back comfortingly. Figuring he could wait a little while to find out what happened, he said nothing more.
It took roughly an hour. Roughly an hour before Ami had calmed down enough to speak, "I- I'm sorry Tom, I woke you up and you've got a match tomorrow. I'm really sorry."
Sighing, Tom brought one hand up and tilted her chin, brushing his lips lightly against her own, "Don't apologize." He gave her a small smile before continuing, "Just tell me who did this. What happened?"
Ami looked away from his eyes as if in shame, "Finnegan... he- he attacked me... on my way back to Ravenclaw common room from the library. I- I had to u- se wandless magic to get him off. Last I saw he was unconscious in the hall way, but I ran as soon as he was off me. I didn't want to go back to the common room so I came here..." he quiet pained voice was enough to make Tom heart break for her.
"Shhhhh Its ok Ami, I won't let that disgust ass ever touch you again. I swear it. He'll regret the day he was born,"
"You- you don't hate me?" she sniffed looking up at him with teary eyes.
"I could never hate you Snowflake, you're just too adorable." He smirked, trying to get her to smile again. It worked.
Pulling her self up a bit so their heads were level, the blue haired Mercrian lifted her hands and wrapped them around Tom's neck, showing her thanks with by latching her lips onto his and giving him a thorough kissing. When she pulled back, Tom's lips followed her, not letting her move them away.
Now there had been a switch as Tom put both arms on either side of her head and finally broke away. "Thank you Tom." She whispered smiling up gently at him.
"I would do it again in a split second Ami. I love you. Now and forever..."
"Now and forever." She repeated softly closing her eyes as they engaged in another heated kiss. After what seemed an eternity, his lips left her own as they trailed back to the lobe of her ear, nibbling on it ever so avidly.
In a matter of moments, Ami lost her shirt as Tom's kisses grew hotter and more needing. His lips trailed down to the rim of her skirt and was about to pull it down when Ami's senses returned to her and she stopped him, "Tom..." she moaned softly, placing a hand on his shoulder, making him look up at her flushed face, "I- I can't..." she whispered afraid he would get angry at her for leading him on.
Groaning softly, Tom moved up and flopped down beside her, trying to ignore the throbbing in his boxer shorts, "Snowflake..." he trailed off as he saw the nervousness, fear and pain in her eyes. His put out face turned into a small smile as he chuckled softly. He had forgotten that she had never done 'that' before. Truth be told, he had lost his virginity at the age of 12 to one of the girls at the orphanage. She drew him in and he was stuck on her for the entire summer. School had come and gone, and when he had returned to the orphanage, eager to see her, he had found her and Chris going at it in the cleaners' closet. That was when he had lost control slightly and the next thing anyone knew, Chris was hanging from the rafters and no one could work out how...
"I'm sorry Tom... I just can't... I'm not ready for that yet..." her torn voice almost made him break and he drew her in for a deep kiss.
"It's ok Snowflake. Just please, next time stop it sooner. You don't know just how strongly you affect me sometimes..." he mumbled hugging her close. She felt the slight bulge down below and grew nervous, sitting up and wiping at her stiff cheeks,
"Maybe I should go back up to my dorm now..."
"No. Please stay here." He begged, wrapping his arms around her waist and drawing her back down, "I promise all we'll do is sleep, just please stay."
Ami shyly pulled the covers up over her shoulders to hide what her shirt did not exactly cover anymore. Giving in, she lay back down and drew herself closer to Tom as his body heat warmed her, "only if you promise."
"I promise Snowflake." Nodding her acceptance, she pulled off her shoes and socks, before snuggling back into Tom's embrace. "Now let's get some sleep..." relaxing into the comfortable bed, Ami and Tom fell asleep in each others arms, only partly clothed but still very warm.
The next morning came quickly and as the sun peaked in through the window, Severus woke, rubbing sleep out of his eyes. Sitting up, he looked around the room. Everything seemed normal enough so he climbed out of bed, heading towards the bathroom door.
Taking a quick shower and brushing his teeth, he toweled his shoulder length hair dry and walked back out into the dormitory. Something just didn't feel right. Everything looked normal enough for a dawn of a match game but something was off. And that's when he noticed it.
There was a shirt, on the floor beside Tom's bed. Now this would have seemed reasonable enough had Tom's uniform not been neatly laid out on the chair near his bed. With the curtains drawn, and no way of telling what was going on. Making a quick decision, Severus slowly crept over to Tom's bed and was about to pull back the curtain when a grunt came from over in Lucius's bed. "Hey man, do you know what time it is?" groaned the platinum blonde haired teen as he sat up rubbing sleep from his eyes.
"Its just after dawn so I think around five o'clock." Sighed Severus, shaking his head as his friend flopped back in frustration,
"Great. Just great! Why the hell am I up at this ungodly hour?!" He paused then groaned again, "I'm never going to be able to get back to sleep now... is anyone in the shower?"
"No, I just finished so you can go use it if you like." Severus offered. Lucius groggily got up and grabbed his towel, stumbling drowsily over into the bathroom, slamming the door shut behind him.
Shaking his head, Severus returned his attention to the shirt on the floor. Picking it up, he turned it right side out and nearly dropped it. The shirt had a Ravenclaw badge on the top left side. "No way... she wouldn't... she couldn't..." Severus Snape was, for once, shocked beyond all belief. Turning around, he flung back the curtain, and peered into the semi dark bed sheets.
He nearly had a heart attack as he found Tom, chest uncovered; lying with his arms securely wrapped around a bare shouldered blue haired Ravenclaw... at least from what he could see. Ami had slept with Tom!
He was just about to let the curtain drop back into place when Tom's eyes shot open and he stared in surprise at Severus, "Is it time to get up already?!" when he received no answer, Tom took in Severus's slightly agape mouth and wide eyes, and looked down beside him. Shocked beyond belief, Tom instantly looked back up to Severus and began talking fast, "Nothing happened Sev. She came here after something happened in the hall and she didn't want to go back up to Ravenclaw common room so she slept here-"
"I'm sure she didn't want to go back. Tom you don't need to cover it up... well maybe you need to cover her, but-"
"No Sev, you've got it all wrong, look Finnegan attacked her in the hall. She came here crying and I comforted her-"
"I bet you did."
"Will you shut up for a second?! Look nothing like what you're thinking happened. We kinda made out a bit and she lost her shirt but we stopped and we went to sleep. Look both of us are still wearing clothes!" he whispered pulling back the covers on his side and showed the cotton pants he usually wore to bed an pulled back the legs side of Ami's half of the bed to reveal her in her skirt and socks.
Shaking his head Severus dropped the shirt on the bed with a deeply pleased smirk, "Next time, try to keep the shirts on. It looked like you two had had fun last night." He whispered in amusement. Ami, unconsciously feeling the change in air, snuggled closer to Tom, making him wrap both arms around her. Severus was sorely tempted to laugh at how innocent she seemed.
"Don't say a word, or I'll rip you limb from limb myself." Tom said with a half hearted glare.
"Yes sir." Severus smirked, letting the curtain fall back into place...
Yes everyone. As promised, that was the next chapter. Now you all need to tell me what you thought... good, bad, in between, could use some work... please tell me. I accept reviews and constructive criticism people!
Oh and I realize that some of the scenes began to get just a little bit steamy but this fic isn't rated R for nothing! OH and I've fixed some minor errors in chapter 2. What Indivar was saying to Ami somehow got cut out so if you like, go back and read it.
Other than that, I'm again asking for 15 reviews and you'll get the next chapter! Until next time!
CHERRY
Disclaimer: I do not own Sailor Moon or Harry Potter. If I did, I'd be writing actual books or episodes not fan-fictions.
CHAPTER SIX
"Ami, you're not telling me everything..." he mumbled gently into her ear so as no one else could hear, "are you?" Ami shivered unconsciously at the feel of his breath blowing across the lobe of her ear.
"N-no... Tom, what are you doing? I thought we agreed-" Tom cut her off knowing exactly what she was referring to. They had agreed to keep their relationship a secret and any show of affection in public, other than that of friendship wasn't supposed to happen.
"It's pointless now Snowflake. The whole school already knows. So I can now do whatever I want, whenever I want." He grinned, brushing his lips across the lobe of her ear, and grazing it with his teeth sensuously. Ami shivered again.
"Tom..." Ami breathed in protest, though her resolve was slipping.
"Mhmmm?"
"Stop it." She groaned, pushing away weakly, but that small resistance was enough to stop him. He didn't like pushing Ami into anything she wasn't willing to do...
"I'll only do that, if you stop changing the subject. What are you hiding?" his body seemed relaxed but his eyes were questioning and somewhat hurt.
"Is it just me, or is it getting hot all of a sudden." Tony grinned, giggling loud enough for most of the Slytherin table to hear. Most smirked and Lucius clapped a hand across Tom's back, laughing along with the rest of them.
"Well now, finally it's out in the open-"
"You knew?!" exclaimed Tony, shock evident on her un-amused face, "You knew, and you never told me?!! Oh you are so gonna get it!" she stood up and began trying to climb over the table until Narcissia pulled her back down
"Calm down Britony. I doubt he told anyone." She sighed.
"I guess..." she sighed and sat back down with a pout.
Shaking her head, Ami turned her attention back to Tom's hurt eyes. She couldn't tell him. He would go crazy. "Tom, it's nothing. Don't worry-" Tom cut her off by firmly taking hold of her arm, and rising from his chair,
"Excuse us a moment." He said calmly and gently pulled Ami out the Great oak doors. All eyes in the hall followed the two in surprise until both were no longer in sight.
"Tom where are we going?" she asked when her wits finally returned to her.
"Right here," he spun around and pulled her to him, pinning her between himself and the cool wall.
"Tom! Have you lost your mind?! Someone might see us!" she exclaimed in shock.
"No I haven't lost my mind. I want to know what you're hiding from me!" he asked, a wounded tone lining his strong voice. Ami's heart broke. She never wanted to hurt him!
"Tom... I can't say. You'll get mad and you'll let that 'thing' loose again. I can't let that happen. I won't let that happen."
"Snowflake, please tell me! It hurts to know that you don't trust me!"
"No, it's not that I don't trust YOU Tom, in fact I'd trust you with my life, but I definitely do NOT trust the shadow within you. It's dangerous Tom! It's conniving, vengeful and evil!"
"Snowflake, you're talking to me! Not the shadow, not some stranger; ME. I control it. I won't let it out, I swear! Please tell me what happened." His pained eyes stared into her own as she tried to hold his intense gaze.
"Tom... I- I can't. Yes you 'can' control it, but it can also control you! Don't you understand? Once- once it gains complete control over your body, you wont be able to stop it. No one can. It will attack everything! No one is safe except the person you love with all your heart!" her eyes began to fill with tears as his eyes darkened and began to seem colder. "Not even me..." She whispered brokenly as she finally managed to look away.
"So you don't trust my ability to keep it in?"
"Tom, no it's not that! It's-"
"Don't." the word itself was not what had stopped her; it was the way he had said it... in bitter emptiness... "Don't deny it. Don't lie to me Ami. You don't feel safe around me."
"Tom I do feel safe, it's just-"
"You can't trust me."
"Stop putting words in my mouth!!" Ami exclaimed, pushing him away and staring up at him, in hurt.
"But it's what you were going to say."
"No it wasn't!! For goodness sake Tom, I don't want to tell you because you'd get angry and I don't particularly want the blood of a few Ravenclaws on my conscience!"
"So you don't trust me." He stated emotionlessly.
Ami felt like she could scream in frustration, "Argh, no!! This is all coming out so wrong! Look Tom; please leave me alone for a little while. Just let me think. Please!"
"Yes. I believe we both need to do some rethinking." He said almost sadly, but there was too little emotion evident on his face to tell.
"Tom, you don't mean what I think you mean, do you?" the tears that had been building in her eyes had now overflowed and trailed down her soft, ivory cheek. Tom wanted to wipe it away but restrained himself. She didn't trust him, and he could not bring himself to hurt her anymore than he obviously had. He couldn't let her do this to herself and to him. He wouldn't let her. He'd stop it before things got too deep. That's what he'd do.
Gritting his teeth in determination, Tom turned his back to the blue haired tenshi that had stolen his heart. It was now, or never, "Yes. I do. If you can't trust me Ami, then how can we stay together? I'm sorry, but I can't do that; especially not to you."
"No, I- I won't let you. You can't do that Tom! Not over this! You can't!!"
"I have to Ami. You're only hurting yourself by doing this. You're hurting the both of us."
"Please Tom," she whispered stepping forward and reaching towards him, "please don't do this! I do trust you! How couldn't I?! I l-"
"Don't Ami. Just, don't. Do us both a favor." He sighed and shrugged away from her outreached hand, beginning a slow walk down the hallway, not turning back to look at her, for fear of his resolve breaking.
"Tom, stop! Please just stop!" he kept on walking. Her heart was shattering with every step away from her that he took, but it still had some voice left in one of it's shards and it wasn't about to let her give him up without a fight. Swiping at her tears roughly, she jogged after him and grabbed his arm, spinning him around as hard as she could.
In his surprise, Tom could not stop her, and without having time to register what was happening, his mind went blank as the soft feel of Ami's tender lips overrode all logical thoughts and actions. Unable to stop himself, Tom quickly responded and before either of them knew it, they were locked in a heated embrace that was becoming more and more passionate by the second.
Not wanting things to go too far, Ami quickly ended the kiss and allowed Tom a moment to re-orient himself. Her mind was in no better condition. "Tom. I am not letting things end like this, over something so stupid. No way in heaven or hell, am I ever letting you go. I can't. Don't you see it you buffoon! I trust you because my heart doesn't exactly give me a choice in the matter. I'm so busy trying to get you out of my head all the time that I say things, and they come out the wrong way." She broke off when she saw the surprise in his eyes and again, she swiped at the trickle of tears that refused to stop flowing down her cheeks. "So will you stop jumping to conclusions, and quit cutting me off before I can finish a sentence ok?"
"But you said you didn't trust the shadow, and you also said I couldn't control it." He sighed moving to gently pull away from her. She wouldn't let him.
"But that's the same for the entire Saturnian race! It's the nature of your shadows. Not you! Gees Tom if you want to know so bad then I got into a fight with Hornby and she's now in the hospital wing. I was worried that you'd get angry."
"Is that all? Or is there something else to it." He asked, "Why'd you get into a fight with her? What did she say to you?"
"She was just saying some ridiculous stuff like how I'd better not be going out with you if I knew what was good for me and stuff like that. I got angry, and I put her through a wall. I shouldn't have done it, I know, but I was just so sick of her and no one is allowed to tell me that I can't be with my own boyfriend." She smiled slightly when he cocked a brow at her, "that is, if you still want me..."
Tom stood there a moment, just looking at her and she noticed a sense of relief wash over him. In a split second, he had pulled her into a tight hug, with his face buried in the crook of her neck. "Oh gods Snowflake, I thought you had fallen for some one and didn't want to say anything because you were afraid of me! I just didn't want you to be with me and have your heart with someone else. I couldn't bare it!"
Ami sighed gently, with a tender smile adorning her face, "Oh Tom, you are so adorable sometimes." She flicked away another tear with a short laugh as Tom nipped her shoulder in mock irritation.
"It sounded like it." He dropped a light kiss in the crook of her neck.
"Mmmmm, you're so paranoid Tom." Ami couldn't hold back the small moan as sparks flew all over her body.
"I have reason to be Snowflake." He grinned, moving back to look her in the eye.
"No you don't."
"Yes I do." He insisted bringing one hand from her waist, up under her chin, tilting it up, "Snowflake, you might not notice the stares you were getting in the hall and you might not realize it, but you are the most beautiful girl in this school. Probably in the world." Her cheeks tinted a pink at his words, "Don't get embarrassed. I'm lucky to have even some of you-"
"Hush you big dolt." She smiled, skin still feeling tight from the tears, "You have more than just some of me. You've got all of me! It's the other way around. I'm lucky you give me the time of day!" she smiled up at.
"But-"
"No buts silly. I thought it was obvious! Goodness you can be blind sometimes! I'm head over heels for you!' she smiled, unashamed of the fact but a little nervous as to his response.
Tom stared at his blue haired tenshi, unsure if he had heard right, "Y- you what?" he asked wanting to make sure he was not hearing things.
"I love you. All of you, and there's no two ways about it!" she smiled warmly as she felt his fingers trace their way back into her hair.
"You- you do?" he asked, still unsure if his ears were playing tricks on him.
"Yes I do!" she giggled at his obvious disbelief, "Why's it so hard to believe?"
Tom looked at her for a moment more before pulling her tightly against him and crashing his lips down upon hers, as his fingers left her hair and trailed down to the small of her back. Ami's arms slithered up from her sides, to his hard abs and up to his muscular chest resting on it as her fingers played with the sides of his robe, and her lips parted to allow Tom's tongue to ravage her mouth.
When they pulled apart Tom rested his forehead against Ami's, and a flushed grin formed upon her swollen lips, "Do I get one of those every time I tell you I love you?" giggled Ami, a content sigh escaping her lips.
"No." Ami looked put out but Tom was not finished, "You get one of those every time I see you. The 'I love you' s are just a bonus." His mouth quirked into a loving smirk though his eyes gazed into hers tenderly
"Really? Well then, you've seen me so..." Tom laughed at her innocent act and drew her in for another passionate kiss, though this one was shortened by the grumble of a stomach.
"Um... I think my stomach wants some food." Laughed Tom as Ami giggled and poked his belly button playfully
"Down boy. You'll get your food." They both chuckled at her playful mockery, "Go back to the great hall and eat. I'm going to go up to the library. I've got a ton of homework that's due pretty soon."
"But aren't you hungry?" Tom asked in suspicion.
"I've already eaten you nincompoop." She giggled happily but stopped when she noticed the suspicious look in his eyes, "Oh will you stop being paranoid?! Gees Tom, I meant what I said. I love you, and ONLY you. But I do have a tone of homework."
"Ok. A guy can't help but be protective." He sighed in slight remorse as Ami shook her head.
"OK, good night." She sighed with a light smile, leaning up and brushing her lips against his gently and turning around to leave.
She had taken no more than half a step when a hand latched onto her elbow and pulled her back into Tom's tight embrace, "I love you too." His deep voice whispered caressingly into her ear, sending tingles down her spine, "Good night Snowflake..." he nipped her ear tenderly and released her.
Ami turned her head and smiled lovingly at him before continuing down the hall. Tom turned and went down into dinner again, but there was one thing different about the two of them. Both of them now felt lighter than air as the comforting feeling of love wrapped around their hearts and warmed them to the core...
It had been a week since Olive Hornby had been released from the hospital wing, but much to Ami's surprise, no one had approached her about the wandless magic she had used... not even Professor Dippet. So life went on as it always did, though Hornby refused to go anywhere near Ami for fear of her life...
Existence was good for the blue haired Mercrian. She and Tom hardly ever fought and on the rare occasion that they did, it was always fixed before the hour was out. Even her studies had improved and with her new friends backing her, Ami felt as if nothing could ever go wrong...
Ami finished putting away the books she had been using and returned to the desk she had been working on, packing up her things and slinging the bag over her shoulder, before exiting the library. Lucius and the rest of the Slytherin Quidditch had gotten an early night because of their game tomorrow and Tom had to as well because he agreed to fill in for Leanne Amos because she had been knocked off her broom during practice by a bludger and had broken her arm.
Smiling to herself, Ami walked down the hall alone, as the thought of actually watching Tom play Quidditch against the poor Hufflepuffs, rolled over in her mind. Her blue haired rippled behind her in small waves as she turned the corner and began walking down a set of stairs. All of a sudden a hand reached out from behind a tapestry to her right and yanked her in behind it.
Before she could scream, a pair of lips crashed down upon hers, brutally silencing any hope of making noise as her attackers tongue slipped between her lips and began to savagely ravage her mouth. Attempting to shove whoever it was away from her, Ami only managed to get her arms trapped above her head as the assailant's other hand began to methodically undo the buttons to her shirt. Becoming desperate, Ami attempted to kick the man between the legs, but both her feet became trapped by his own, and it was definitely a he for the bulge pressing into the inside of her thigh.
Panic overtook her as the larger and obviously stronger man undid the last button of her shirt, and yanked it open. The second his lips left hers to go to 'other areas' of her body, Ami called out a powerful curse that blasted her attacker right off her and through the tapestry, onto the staircase behind it.
Sobbing hysterically, Ami pulled her shirt together, and did up the buttons as best she could; missing a few by accident but not really feeling up to doing them anyway. She stumbled out of the small hidden hole and stared down in utter shock at an unconscious Malcolm Finnegan. He had been one of the Gryffindors that were in the compartment that day they all decide to act weird and invite her to sit with them.
How could he do something like this? Wasn't he supposed to be a brave and loyal Gryffindor?! Ami didn't know what to think, but she knew she couldn't go back to Ravenclaw common room looking like this. Making up her mind in an instant, she began the long trek down into the Slytherin common room, tears flowing freely down her cheeks as sobs wracked her body.
She ran all the way down the dungeons and into the common room, up the stairs and into the 5th year boys' dormitory. No one stirred as Ami stepped into the door; tears still streaming down her cheeks, and hugging her arms around herself protectively. She looked around the room, unsure which one Tom was in.
Her keen eyes ran over the other boys in the dorm though none of them were Tom. Finally her gaze landed on the only bed with the curtains drawn around it. Tip toeing over to it, she drew back one of the curtains and saw Tom stirring from his sleep. He must have placed a charm on the curtains to make sure no one could do anything to him while he slept...
Sniffling and brushing away some tears, Ami climbed in and let go of the curtain, allowing it to fall back into place, hiding them both from view of the other dormitory occupants. As the dark haired Saturnian opened his eyes groggily, he felt a pair of slender arms wrap around him tightly and as whoever had woken him up began to sob uncontrollably.
Not wanting to wake the others up, he quickly threw a silence barrier on the curtain. Unsure of what exactly was going on, he drew back a bit of his curtain to allow some light in. Not much, but enough so he realized just who it was that had latched themselves onto him, sobbing their heart out...
"Snowflake?!" he released the curtain and his arms instantly wound around her in a tight embrace, drawing her up, level with him, "My gods, what happened angel?" he asked dropping light kisses on her hair, trying to comfort her any way he could. The only answer he received was her tightening her grasp around his waist, burying her face into his bare chest.
Again he pleaded with her to tell him what was wrong, and again she did not reply, so he gave up on finding out what had happened, and lay back, with his arms around her, head rested on his chest and the rest of her pulled under the covers with him. He let her cry herself out on him as his mind back tracked... There had only been one other time that she had cried this hard... it had been when those boys at the orphanage...
"Ami who was it?" he asked as gently as possible.
Ami's head snapped up with fear and yet it was not a fear of him, but a fear of what had happened and what whoever had done this, could do. She stared up into his eyes for a moment more before shaking her head it as if to stop an image from entering her mind, burying her face back into his chest.
Sighing, Tom held her closer, rubbing her back comfortingly. Figuring he could wait a little while to find out what happened, he said nothing more.
It took roughly an hour. Roughly an hour before Ami had calmed down enough to speak, "I- I'm sorry Tom, I woke you up and you've got a match tomorrow. I'm really sorry."
Sighing, Tom brought one hand up and tilted her chin, brushing his lips lightly against her own, "Don't apologize." He gave her a small smile before continuing, "Just tell me who did this. What happened?"
Ami looked away from his eyes as if in shame, "Finnegan... he- he attacked me... on my way back to Ravenclaw common room from the library. I- I had to u- se wandless magic to get him off. Last I saw he was unconscious in the hall way, but I ran as soon as he was off me. I didn't want to go back to the common room so I came here..." he quiet pained voice was enough to make Tom heart break for her.
"Shhhhh Its ok Ami, I won't let that disgust ass ever touch you again. I swear it. He'll regret the day he was born,"
"You- you don't hate me?" she sniffed looking up at him with teary eyes.
"I could never hate you Snowflake, you're just too adorable." He smirked, trying to get her to smile again. It worked.
Pulling her self up a bit so their heads were level, the blue haired Mercrian lifted her hands and wrapped them around Tom's neck, showing her thanks with by latching her lips onto his and giving him a thorough kissing. When she pulled back, Tom's lips followed her, not letting her move them away.
Now there had been a switch as Tom put both arms on either side of her head and finally broke away. "Thank you Tom." She whispered smiling up gently at him.
"I would do it again in a split second Ami. I love you. Now and forever..."
"Now and forever." She repeated softly closing her eyes as they engaged in another heated kiss. After what seemed an eternity, his lips left her own as they trailed back to the lobe of her ear, nibbling on it ever so avidly.
In a matter of moments, Ami lost her shirt as Tom's kisses grew hotter and more needing. His lips trailed down to the rim of her skirt and was about to pull it down when Ami's senses returned to her and she stopped him, "Tom..." she moaned softly, placing a hand on his shoulder, making him look up at her flushed face, "I- I can't..." she whispered afraid he would get angry at her for leading him on.
Groaning softly, Tom moved up and flopped down beside her, trying to ignore the throbbing in his boxer shorts, "Snowflake..." he trailed off as he saw the nervousness, fear and pain in her eyes. His put out face turned into a small smile as he chuckled softly. He had forgotten that she had never done 'that' before. Truth be told, he had lost his virginity at the age of 12 to one of the girls at the orphanage. She drew him in and he was stuck on her for the entire summer. School had come and gone, and when he had returned to the orphanage, eager to see her, he had found her and Chris going at it in the cleaners' closet. That was when he had lost control slightly and the next thing anyone knew, Chris was hanging from the rafters and no one could work out how...
"I'm sorry Tom... I just can't... I'm not ready for that yet..." her torn voice almost made him break and he drew her in for a deep kiss.
"It's ok Snowflake. Just please, next time stop it sooner. You don't know just how strongly you affect me sometimes..." he mumbled hugging her close. She felt the slight bulge down below and grew nervous, sitting up and wiping at her stiff cheeks,
"Maybe I should go back up to my dorm now..."
"No. Please stay here." He begged, wrapping his arms around her waist and drawing her back down, "I promise all we'll do is sleep, just please stay."
Ami shyly pulled the covers up over her shoulders to hide what her shirt did not exactly cover anymore. Giving in, she lay back down and drew herself closer to Tom as his body heat warmed her, "only if you promise."
"I promise Snowflake." Nodding her acceptance, she pulled off her shoes and socks, before snuggling back into Tom's embrace. "Now let's get some sleep..." relaxing into the comfortable bed, Ami and Tom fell asleep in each others arms, only partly clothed but still very warm.
The next morning came quickly and as the sun peaked in through the window, Severus woke, rubbing sleep out of his eyes. Sitting up, he looked around the room. Everything seemed normal enough so he climbed out of bed, heading towards the bathroom door.
Taking a quick shower and brushing his teeth, he toweled his shoulder length hair dry and walked back out into the dormitory. Something just didn't feel right. Everything looked normal enough for a dawn of a match game but something was off. And that's when he noticed it.
There was a shirt, on the floor beside Tom's bed. Now this would have seemed reasonable enough had Tom's uniform not been neatly laid out on the chair near his bed. With the curtains drawn, and no way of telling what was going on. Making a quick decision, Severus slowly crept over to Tom's bed and was about to pull back the curtain when a grunt came from over in Lucius's bed. "Hey man, do you know what time it is?" groaned the platinum blonde haired teen as he sat up rubbing sleep from his eyes.
"Its just after dawn so I think around five o'clock." Sighed Severus, shaking his head as his friend flopped back in frustration,
"Great. Just great! Why the hell am I up at this ungodly hour?!" He paused then groaned again, "I'm never going to be able to get back to sleep now... is anyone in the shower?"
"No, I just finished so you can go use it if you like." Severus offered. Lucius groggily got up and grabbed his towel, stumbling drowsily over into the bathroom, slamming the door shut behind him.
Shaking his head, Severus returned his attention to the shirt on the floor. Picking it up, he turned it right side out and nearly dropped it. The shirt had a Ravenclaw badge on the top left side. "No way... she wouldn't... she couldn't..." Severus Snape was, for once, shocked beyond all belief. Turning around, he flung back the curtain, and peered into the semi dark bed sheets.
He nearly had a heart attack as he found Tom, chest uncovered; lying with his arms securely wrapped around a bare shouldered blue haired Ravenclaw... at least from what he could see. Ami had slept with Tom!
He was just about to let the curtain drop back into place when Tom's eyes shot open and he stared in surprise at Severus, "Is it time to get up already?!" when he received no answer, Tom took in Severus's slightly agape mouth and wide eyes, and looked down beside him. Shocked beyond belief, Tom instantly looked back up to Severus and began talking fast, "Nothing happened Sev. She came here after something happened in the hall and she didn't want to go back up to Ravenclaw common room so she slept here-"
"I'm sure she didn't want to go back. Tom you don't need to cover it up... well maybe you need to cover her, but-"
"No Sev, you've got it all wrong, look Finnegan attacked her in the hall. She came here crying and I comforted her-"
"I bet you did."
"Will you shut up for a second?! Look nothing like what you're thinking happened. We kinda made out a bit and she lost her shirt but we stopped and we went to sleep. Look both of us are still wearing clothes!" he whispered pulling back the covers on his side and showed the cotton pants he usually wore to bed an pulled back the legs side of Ami's half of the bed to reveal her in her skirt and socks.
Shaking his head Severus dropped the shirt on the bed with a deeply pleased smirk, "Next time, try to keep the shirts on. It looked like you two had had fun last night." He whispered in amusement. Ami, unconsciously feeling the change in air, snuggled closer to Tom, making him wrap both arms around her. Severus was sorely tempted to laugh at how innocent she seemed.
"Don't say a word, or I'll rip you limb from limb myself." Tom said with a half hearted glare.
"Yes sir." Severus smirked, letting the curtain fall back into place...
Yes everyone. As promised, that was the next chapter. Now you all need to tell me what you thought... good, bad, in between, could use some work... please tell me. I accept reviews and constructive criticism people!
Oh and I realize that some of the scenes began to get just a little bit steamy but this fic isn't rated R for nothing! OH and I've fixed some minor errors in chapter 2. What Indivar was saying to Ami somehow got cut out so if you like, go back and read it.
Other than that, I'm again asking for 15 reviews and you'll get the next chapter! Until next time!
CHERRY