AN: There are some 'deleted scenes' I've added in!

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Chapter 7

"There's some stuff you need to sign," Harmony said, walking into the medical wing with papers. It hadn't been long since Fred had died. Since Wesley had stuck a knife in Gunn's gut. . .

"I don't think Angel wants me signing anything right now," Gunn replied. He had to remain strong. He couldn't break down in front of Harmony.

"Yeah. . . um. . . that's what these are about," she explained, edging nearer the bed. How could anyone look so helpless, so drained of life? He took the folder from her.

"No one else could stomach bringing these down?" he questioned. Or did she want to bring them down herself?

"Is it true? What they're saying about you?" she asked. Please don't let it be true, she thought. Please don't let Gunn be a cause.

"I guess it is." So, this is it. She only wanted the gossip, he thought.

"How can you do that? To your friends? To Fred?" For the first time since this mess, everything had been broken down. By the woman he cared about, so deeply.

"Because I was weak," he said. He really had to let it out. "Because I wanted to be somebody that I wasn't. Because I don't know where I fit. Because I never did. Because a thousand other reasons that don't mean a damn 'cause she's gone." He began to cry.

Harmony widened her eyes in alarm. "She's gone... and she's not coming back because of me. I did this, and I'm sorry. I'm sorry." He doubled over crying. She patted him on the back awkwardly.

She'd never seen a man cry before, and it broke her (dead) heart to see it happen. Sadened by his mistakes and at the loss of her friend, she began to cry. So as not to make Gunn worse, she hurriedly wiped her tears away with her sleeve. "I am so sorry," Gunn repeated.

"I know," she said.

"No you don't," he replied. No one knows." She sat down on the side of the bed. "I would try again. I would live this whole few months again and do it so differently." He took her hand in his.

"Shh," she whispered. "Just try and get to sleep." She rested her head on his shoulder and stayed until he was overtaken by peace. She kissed his forehead and left him sleeping.

- -

Harmony sat at her desk, thinking about Gunn when Angel walked over. "Harmony, could you see Gunn for me and lock him in?" he asked.

"What, in case he wakes up?" Harmony questioned, hurt by Angel's comment.

"No. We have a demon meeting later tonight. . . they feed off illness and pain," Angel replied, placing the keys on her desk.

- -

Hurriedly, Harmony ran over to the shops, and bought Gunn a card and chocolate. She scribbled a message and walked to the Wolfram and Hart medical wing.

She placed the card and chocolate on the table next to Gunn's bed. "Hey," Gunn said, not turning around. Harmony smiled weakly to herself.

"I brought you something," she told him. He turned to face her and glanced at the table.

"Better than anyone else I guess." He picked up the card, opened it, and smiled. "Thank you," he said. "I'm getting better."

"I came to lock you in," she explained. "Angel's got an ill demon coming in. . . well he said something to do with illness. . ."

"Sit with me?" Gunn asked her.

"Course." She pulled a chair next to the bed, and held Gunn's hand.

"I can't care anymore," Gunn told her. Harmony looked at him quizzically. "There are only a few important things in my life, and I've lost all of them in such a short space of time." He turned to face the wall.

"My friends. Angel – he's always been there for me. Always. Wes – I've taken the most important thing, the only thing he loves, away from him for a second time. Fred was so full of life with everything to live for. So bubbly, so caring," he continued. "And you. I made such a big mistake. I lost you. And all you did is care and I pushed you away. . ."

"You didn't loose me," she said. "I'm here." Both sat there, thinking of what each other said.

"I'd understand if you don't want to, but I'd start again," he told her.

"So would I. No more lies, no more jealousy. Just us. Starting a fresh," she decided.

"No more lies," he agreed.

- -

Harmony opened her eyes and sat up. She was in medical. Gunn was asleep. She must have fallen asleep in the chair.

Sleepily, she stood up and unlocked the door. The noise woke Gunn up, and he looked at her. "Morning," he said simply.

"Hey." She walked over and kissed his cheek. "Sleep well?"

"Better than last night," he replied. She smiled and nodded.

"I've gotta go. I'll come down during lunch." She took his hand and squeezed it reassuringly.

- -

"Harmony!" Angel near shouted into the speaker phone. He sat around the conference table with empty chairs.

"I know," Harmony said. "I called everyone. They're just. . ."

"Not here," Angel said angrily. "I can see that. If they were here I wouldn't be alone. Why am I alone?" Harmony walked into the room.

"Well, you can be super grouchy."

"The meeting?" Angel questioned.

"Everyone's otherwise occupado, boss. Wesley's stuck baby-sitting miss "I used to rule the world, bow down before me, minion scum." Harmony put her hands on her hips and shook her head. "Why aren't we killing her again?"

"Gunn," Angel said simply.

"Maybe. . . if we had a really big one. . ."

"Where is Gunn?" Angel asked impatiently.

"Oh. The hospital still. You know, from when Wesley. . ." She mimed stabbing. "And Lorne's kinda M.I.A. since. . ."

"Fred," Angel finished for her.

"Okey-dokey then." Harmony said leaving.

"You're wearing the same outfit as you wore yesterday?" Angel questioned.

"Busted. . ." Harmony mumbled to herself.

"Come to think of it. . . you smell like Gunn. . ." Harmony widened her eyes.

"I was in the hospital with him for a few minutes. . ." she said.

"But strangely you don't smell like a hospital."

"Bye boss!" Harmony walked out of the room.

- -

"So he guessed?" Gunn asked her.

"Sorta. I doubt he believes we're together. . . but you know how he gets," Harmony said. They were talking about Angel of course.

"Well, I don't care. I think the world of you." He touched her cheek and kissed her.