Title: Meant to Be?
Author: Requiem of a Dream
Disclaimer: I don't any of these characters.
*Severus' POV*
'Stupid insolent brat. I can't believe that I let him lead me onto the dance floor. I can't believe I let him kiss me. Everything is backfiring and I don't want to stop it.' I was thinking as I was walking from the Great Hall. I was desperately trying to get to the Dungeons without running. I didn't want to chance any wandering students seeing me running towards my chambers like a wounded child. So I walked but as briskly as I could. When I reached the portrait I muttered the password and walked in.
I walked over to my chair in front of the fireplace and poured myself a glass of Fire Whiskey and then sat down. It seemed like I had just sat down when I heard my door open. No one knew my password so I figured that it was Albus, though he usually just pops his head in through the fireplace. So I got up to greet him but was surprised with the sight of Potter standing in front of my door.
"Get out." I snarled as best I could.
"No. Not until you tell me what is wrong." Harry said determinedly.
"There is nothing wrong. Now I want you out of my chambers."
"These are our chambers. And I will enter them as I please until you tell me why you are pushing me away from you."
"They are my chambers seeing as how you have moved out. LEAVE NOW."
"NO!! I said that I loved you and you pushed me away why?"
"Because I never loved you. Porta Aperta!" The door opened and I shoved Harry out the door. "Stay out of MY Chambers." And with that I slammed the door. I slid down to the floor and just sat there with my back against the door.
*Harry's POV*
'Damn it, damn it, damn it. I should have never gone to him. I knew that there was no way to get him to open up. Why did I listen to Hermione?' I walked slowly back to Gryffindor Tower and when I got there just laid on my bed. I wasn't awake nor was I asleep, I was in a stupor. I never heard Ron enter the dorms and try to talk to me.
The next morning I woke up at noon. No one had bothered to wake me up because classes had been cancelled the day after the dance. I looked around a saw that no one else was in the dorms. I got up and walked to the shower and turned on the hot water. I took off my clothes and stepped into the water and stood there soaking in the water. I thought about Severus and what he had said,
" 'Because I never loved you.' "
'How could he have said that?'
The water was getting cold and I still hadn't washed my hair or body yet. So I came out of my thoughts and began to wash. When I was done I got out of the shower and dried off. I walked back out to the dorms and put on some fresh clothes. I walked to the Great Hall and grabbed some lunch. I decided not to eat in the Great Hall seeing as how Severus was sitting at the Head Table and doing his best to avoid eye contact with me. I headed onto the Quidditch field to finish my lunch.
I reached the field and saw that there was already a game going on. It was Ron, Ginny, Fred, George, Hermione, Seamus, Dean, and Neville. They were swooping about, passing the Quaffle, and hitting the bludgers. They were laughing and having fun. So I went into the stands and watched as they played. Finally Neville noticed that I was sitting there and he waved the others over to me and we started talking. They asked if I wanted to play with them and I said sure. I called my broom and we began the game. It was fun and it helped me to forget my troubles with Severus. We had to end the game early though because Madam Hooch came out and yelled at us for stealing the Quidditch equipment and flying without supervision. We were lucky though because she was sidetracked when a couple of kids flew from the direction of the Forbidden Forest; she didn't have the chance to give us detention. We left the field and went to get dinner.
I sat with my friends and just talked. We had fun and I had forgotten every thing. But all good things must come to an end. Then next day wasn't hell but it wasn't a walk in the park either. Most of the students were whispering when I walked into a classroom and it was hard to ignore them. But that wasn't the worst part of the day. I had to go to Potion's class and I guessed that it wasn't going to fare well.
From the moment Severus walked in the door and saw me I could feel the tension grow. He glared at me the entire class period and if I had still been in Gryffindor all of our points would have been gone by the middle of the class. He yelled at me for anything that he could. Spending too much time with any one student, not spending enough time, walking too slow, not getting up to go help someone fast enough. I bared it all and just kept my mouth shut because I knew I would regret it if I said anything to him. Things went like this for three weeks. Whenever we saw each other tension and anger leapt to an all time high. Things finally simmered down between us but we never missed the chance to take a stab at each other.
~ ~ 1 Month Later ~ ~
I woke up Tuesday, December 18, to the feeling that I was going to throw up; and I did. Fortunately I had the sense to lean over the bed and throw up on the floor. I wiped my mouth and muttered a cleaning spell. I got up and looked at the clock: 6:30 am. I figured that I could take a hot shower and go down to breakfast early. But the thought of food made me feel nauseous again, so I decided against eating that morning. My shower lasted for about 20 minutes before I decided it was time to get ready for the day since there was no going back to sleep. Since I couldn't be around Snape without him or I wanting to throttle each other I had gone to Dumbledore and told him the Ceremony was off and that I didn't want to be tutored anymore. He tried to ask me why but I blew him off. He tried to talk me out of it but I held fast to what I wanted and he gave in.
So now I was walking to the Great Hall to find Hermione and Ron. Things had picked up for me and Dumbledore got me a tutor for Potions so I wouldn't have to be in a classroom with Snape. As I was walking I bumped into Snape.
"Watch where you are going Potter." Snape growled at me.
"Yes . . ." I didn't finish the sentence because I got nauseous again and threw up, thankfully away from Snape.
"Potter I suggest that if you are going to make a mess in the hall you clean it up." With that he walked off, robes billowing behind him. I again muttered the cleaning spell and headed, a little slower, towards the Great Hall.
The day went on and at lunch I ate a small bit of bread and a few sips of pumpkin juice before I felt like throwing up again. And at dinner I couldn't eat a bite. Things went on like this for the rest of the week and Hermione was beginning to bug me about going to Madam Pomfrey, saying that I could have the flu or something like that, but I wouldn't listen to her. That was until Monday when we were walking to lunch I collapsed. The halls were fairly empty because it was Christmas break, but I was lucky that Hermione found someone to go get Madam Pomfrey. Hermione and I were talking about something, probably NEWT's, when I began to feel weak and my legs felt like jelly. The next thing I knew I was on the floor of one of the halls and Pomfrey was saying something about how students should just come to her when they feel ill.
"Madam Pomfrey I'm fine really." I said trying to get her to leave me alone. I needed her to just leave.
"No you're not dear. You are weak and from what I hear you haven't been eating properly either. Now I am going to get you up to the Infirmary." She looked around and spotted Severus.
"Severus could come over here please? I need you to carry Mr. Potter to the Infirmary."
"Why can't you just have him float in front of him?"
"Because that may weaken him even more now please pick him up."
"Madam Pomfrey, really I can walk." I said trying to plead with her.
"No I won't hear any of it Harry." Pomfrey said. Then Severus picked me up and walked behind Poppy carrying me to the Infirmary and Hermione was walking behind him.
*Author's POV*
"Severus you can just lay him on that bed over there." Poppy said pointing to the bed closest to her office.
"Now if you and Miss Granger would kindly wait over there while I examine Harry." Then Poppy conjured a curtain to go around the bed. She poked and prodded Harry cast all sorts of spells and then told him,
"You need to eat more and take better care of yourself. You are very malnourished and dehydrated." Poppy said with some concern in her voice.
"Madam Pomfrey can I ask you a question and you not tell anyone?" Harry asked.
"Yes dear of course. What is it?"
"Umm . . . well . . . is it true that male wizards can get pregnant?" Harry asked hurriedly.
"Though you mad almost no sense, yes it is. Why do you want to know?"
"Because I think that I'm pregnant. I did some studying when my magic began to taper off and when I was getting really sick. And that was the only logical answer."
"Ok well I'll check you out and see if I can confirm your suspicions. Now give me a few minutes and I'll be back with a potion."
"Oh and ma'am please don't say anything to anyone?"
"Of course dear."
And with that Pomfrey bustled around looking for certain ingredients and potions that she needed to combine. She knew that Severus was watching her. She figured it was because he wanted to know when he could leave but she wasn't about to let him leave. But Severus wanted to know what was wrong with Harry. Harry had never collapsed before, at least for no reason. He was a strong boy and there was no reason for him to just pass out in the middle of the hallway. But Pomfrey ignored him and continued mixing this and that. Then she walked behind the curtain again and if Severus had been paying attention he would have seen a faint blue glow around the curtain.
"Well congratulations Harry you are the father of a baby boy."
"A baby? A boy, a little boy? Wow. I suspected but I never dreamed. Wow."
"Yes now if I may ask you, who is the other father?"
"No I'm not telling anyone."
"Not even the father?"
"Especially not him." Harry said with some disgust in his voice.
"Ok Harry that is up to you, but you I suggest that you think about it. You will need all the support that you can get. Now you have a clean bill of health. Eat a little every meal. Try to eat snacks if you were unable to eat at any one of the meals and don't' exert too much energy and no, absolutely no, Quidditch. You seem to always find a way to fall off of your broom And I want you to tell the Headmaster."
"Ok."
"You gave up awfully easily. I know you too well for that Harry. Why?"
"You and I both know that Dumbledore is going to be more protective of this baby than anyone can imagine; and he would confine me to bed of I even thought of doing anything to endanger the life of this baby. Plus he knows who the father is and I don't want that secret getting loose." Pomfrey mad a 'hmph' noise and dismissed Harry.
*Severus' POV*
I strained and strained to hear what Harry and Pomfrey were saying but I just couldn't tell. Plus I didn't want Miss Granger to suspect that I was concerned for the boy. I knew that he had told his friends about our fight and I didn't fancy either of them telling Harry that I was concerned. So I just waited for Pomfrey to dismiss me from the Hospital Wing. The next person I saw was Harry. He looked a little better off than he did a half hour ago.
"Potter."
"Professor."
"You are feeling better I assume?"
"Yes Sir, just a flu bug. Madam Pomfrey gave me a potion and I feel much better."
"Oh Harry dear I forgot to give you this potion. It will ease the nausea." Pomfrey interrupted. "Severus I didn't know that you were still here. Well Mr. Potter is fine and there will be no need of your services anymore."
"Very well Poppy. I will see you at dinner." Then I left.
I headed up to the Headmaster's office, seeing as how that's where I had been headed before Potter collapsed. I started to say the password when I saw the Gargoyle jump aside. The Headmaster walked out of the stairwell and looked at me.
"Severus my dear boy, so glad to see you. I was just on my way to go find you."
"I was detained when Mr. Potter collapsed in the hall. Poppy had me carry him up to the Infirmary and I stayed there until she told me he was fine."
"So everything is fine between you and Harry?"
"No Headmaster they aren't and you know that better than Potter and I."
"Perhaps but that is for a later time and a different discussion. I called you up to my office because I wanted to ask if maybe you would consider moving back in with Harry?"
"No I will not do it."
"But why? I know that you both still have feelings for each other and it is beyond me why you two just sopped getting along."
"Really Albus you don't know the inner workings of everything that goes on in this school. And here I thought that you were the grand designer of it all." I said as sarcastically as possible. Though I was a little surprised that he didn't even have an idea as to why we were separated now.
"Your sarcasm falls on dead ears Severus. Now if you will excuse me I believe that Mr. Potter is looking for me." Then he walked off and I went to my rooms.
*Harry's POV*
I waited for Snape to leave and then I looked at Pomfrey and said,
"How long will I need to take this for?"
"I've given you enough to last for about another month and a half though you shouldn't need it for that long."
I told her thank you and left the Infirmary with Hermione. She tried to ask me what was wrong but I skirted around the subject until she gave it up. We were walking in silence when the Headmaster approached us.
"Ah Harry I found you. I need to speak with you if you don't mind?"
"No Sir not at all. Hermione I'll see you later ok?" I answered the Headmaster then Hermione.
"Ok Harry." She said and then walked off towards the library.
"What did you need to talk to me about Sir?"
"Well Poppy popped her head in through the fireplace and said that you had something that you needed to tell me."
"I asked her not to say anything to anyone." I muttered to myself.
"Would you repeat that? I don't believe I heard you."
"I'mpregnantSir."
"Harry slurring your words together is not making it any easier to hear you."
"I'm pregnant Sir."
"This is not good Harry. You know that you and Severus are Soul Mates. This is detrimental to a bond."
"Not as detrimental as you think Sir." I replied.
"How so?"
"It's Snape's child."
"That's not right Harry. You cannot pass off someone else's child as Severus' just to get him back."
"It is his. We completed the bond the morning that you had called us up to your office to ask about a bonding ceremony. Count the days it has been exactly 7 weeks since. Just long enough for me to know that I'm pregnant."
"Well you must tell Severus."
"NO!!! He will never know as long as I am alive."
"You must tell him Harry it is his child too."
"No it's not. He doesn't want me he will not get his child."
"That is not fair to him or the child Harry."
"If you wish for me to continue my education and keep this child as safe as I can you will not utter a word of this to anyone."
"You are getting dangerously close to disrespecting me Harry and I will not stand for it."
"I am sorry Sir, but I don't want anyone to know, especially Snape."
"I will do as you wish Harry and not say anything to him but I think you should. Now I must be going. Good-day Harry." I watched him leave and then I went to the Library to look for Hermione.