Title: Meant to Be?
Author: Requiem of a Dream
Disclaimer: I don't own any of these characters.
*Author's POV*
Harry didn't want to be around anyone. He just wanted to crawl in a hole and die. He never meant for Severus to get hurt. At least not this way. He just didn't want him to know about the baby, because Harry was afraid that Severus wouldn't accept, or that he would make him get rid of it. And now seeing that the latter wasn't true he felt horrible because he also knew that Severus would have accepted and loved their child. Hermione saw how out-of-it Harry was and so she intervened.
"Harry, Ron we still have some homework to be finished. Professors it was nice dinning with you. We'll see you tomorrow at breakfast." Harry looked at Hermione and then got up and waited for Ron to get up as well. When he finally did they headed towards the dormitories.
"Harry we're worried about you." Hermione announced.
"Yeah mate. You disappeared for a while and then when we saw you at dinner you were out of it." Ron added.
"It's nothing really." Harry said.
"I don't believe you, Harry." Hermione said.
"You never do. Why should things change now?" Harry spat out with bitterness in his voice.
Hermione stepped in front of Harry and stopped him dead in his tracks. "Harold James Potter, what has gotten into you?"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean that you are acting like you did when Cedric died."
"And tell me how am I acting?"
"Like you have just killed someone and they are haunting your every move."
"Oh whatever Hermione." Harry said and then tried to get away from Hermione. Ron was just watching. He felt that this was something that Hermione knew more about than he ever could.
"You know I'm right. What happened between you and Snape? And don't say nothing Harry."
"He asked me if I was pregnant."
"And?"
"And what?"
"You told him you were right?"
"Yes and No."
"HARRY?!?"
"I told him that I was pregnant."
"You're rotten Harry. Just plain evil. How could you do that to him? To your baby?"
"I didn't do anything."
"That's right you just said something. You made him believe that his child was dead. Made him believe what that you had a miscarriage?"
"I don't know what he believes Hermione. I just told him that I wasn't pregnant anymore." By this time Harry had tears falling from his eyes. "I don't know what I did and I don't know why I did it. I can't justify myself anymore. Hermione what can I do?"
"Tell him. And tell him everything." Hermione was hugging Harry, his head cradled under her chin and she was attempting to get him to calm down.
"I can't. He'll never forgive me."
"You know those words are the same ones that got you into this mess."
"I know but Hermione I can't."
"Fine Harry we'll do things your way." Hermione said, but she wasn't going to let things go that easily and even though Harry knew it, he was so tired that he let it go. Hermione watched as Ron and Harry went into the boys dormitories and then she left Gryffindor Tower.
Meanwhile there was a very drunk Severus lying unconscious in the middle of the dungeon floor. He had gotten worked up during dinner and decided to wind down in a whole bottle of Fire Whiskey. He never heard Hermione sneak into his chambers or her gasp when she saw her Potions Professor sprawled on the floor. She levitated him into his room and onto his bed. She covered him with a blanket and then set about making a Hang-Over cure and then left him a note telling him that she needed to talk to him as soon as he got that note. Then she left and fell asleep in her dormitory.
The next morning Hermione woke up around 8 o'clock and headed down to breakfast. She grabbed a muffin and left the Great Hall to see if Snape was awake yet. When she reached his chambers she muttered an unlocking spell and de-warding spell and let herself in.
"Professor Snape are you awake?"
She looked around cautiously and then proceeded to go over to his bedroom door. She knocked four times and when he didn't answer she let herself in. Sure enough he was still asleep on his bed. Hermione was impatient and so she woke him up. A very blurry-eyed Severus grumbled something about 'too early' and then turned over.
"Professor Snape, it's Hermione I need to talk to you."
"Go away."
"It's about Harry." At this Severus roused him self from sleep and sat up. Hermione handed him the Hang-Over cure she had made.
"This will make things a little clearer." Hermione said. He drank it and then was able to properly glare at her.
"What about the brat?"
"Well sir I know that yesterday you asked if he was pregnant and he said that he was, but isn't any more."
"Don't remind me."
"But Sir Harry is still pregnant."
"No he told me himself that he ended the pregnancy."
"He lied. He is still pregnant and he is going to have your baby boy on July 30th."
"Why would he do that?"
"You did something to him two months ago, the night of the Halloween Dance. I know that much but he never told me what. I believe that is why he told you those lies. But sir you are going to have to forgive him before he ever forgives you."
"How? He has done everything in his power to get away from me."
"Be nice to him, don't go out of your way to insult him. He'll come around, I promise." "I'm going to hold you to that promise Miss Granger." "With pleasure I'm sure." "Is there any other way? Now if you'll excuse me I need a shower and another Hang-Over cure."
"Yes sir. Good-day."
"Good-bye Miss Granger." And then Hermione left the dungeons and headed up to Gryffindor Tower to find Harry and Ron.
*Harry's POV*
Ron and I woke up first on Christmas morning. But as usual it was Ron who actually woke up first. I woke up and summoned Dobby to bring us some hot cocoa. He left happy to have helped us. Then I sat down and waited for Hermione to wake up. She woke up about a half hour later and we sat down ready to open our gifts. We all got a sweater from Mrs. Weasley, and the 'cakes' from Hagrid. Hermione loved the books that Ron and I got her. Ron was surprised when he open a new Firebolt form Hermione and I. But what they got for me was beyond words.
The had somehow found the cradle that my parents had bought for me when I was a baby. They had repainted it a light blue and bought bedding to go with it. I was shocked when I first saw it and te Ron told that it was mine. I couldn't talk I just hugged them and hugged them it again. I couldn't express how I felt. The rest of vacation was fun. We played chess, they went flying, and Snape stayed out of their hair.
Things went well for the next few months. Snape was strangely nice to me but otherwise things were normal. My stomach grew and by my 6th month I had a good size bump on my stomach. I went monthly for check ups by Pomfrey and everything was normal.
One morning I had a free class because Pomfrey said it would be too dangerous for the baby if I continued my Potions study. So I went for a walk around the lake. It was a sunny April spring morning and I felt like walking to the other side. There were many trees that were in bloom and I wondered through them. While I was walking past a few peach trees I heard some one talking. I walked towards the voice and saw Snape writing and talking to himself.
"Yesterday he was at all three meals. He ate and ate. His appetite is huge but no one seems to notice that it has gotten bigger. I just hope that the . . . . . . who's there?" Severus said looking around; then he saw me.
"Harry, what are you doing out here? Don't you have Potions now?"
"No sir not anymore. I umm got into a fight with my tutor and so Professor Dumbledore is trying to find me a new one. What are you writing?"
"Oh it's just a journal that I'm writing."
"I'll leave and let you get back to it."
"No, don't leave. Harry I need to talk to you."
"What about sir?"
"Please don't call me sir. It's about you."
"I don't want to go into this again Severus."
"I know that you're still pregnant. I know that you're going to have a baby boy on July 30th."
"When did Hermione tell you?"
"About four months ago. She told me everything and Harry I'm sorry. I never should have said that I didn't love you. It wasn't true. I've loved you since the Last Battle. When you saved me I knew it. But I was scared. I was scared that I'd loose you, like I lost Remus. I couldn't stand the thought that I might loose you because you were connected to me. Even thought the Dark Lord is dead many of his followers are still alive and loyal to him and know me to be a traitor. They would kill you and I didn't want you to die. I love you Harry." Severus was crying and I couldn't help myself and began to cry as well.
"I love you too but I can take care of myself. Can you let me back into your life? No secrets, no pushing me away. I can't take it and I won't stand for it."
"Yes anything I promise no secrets."
He brought me close to him and hugged me tighter than I thought possible. Pulling away slightly I hooked my arms around his neck and pulled his lips onto mine. He slid his tongue along my bottom lip and I opened my mouth giving him access. He rubbed his tongue on the roof of my mouth and on my tongue. I pulled away and he gave me a puzzled look.
"Would you like to feel your son?" He nodded his head.
"Finire L'incantesimo." I said and then the bump on my stomach became visible. I took Severus' hand and placed it on my stomach. The baby kicked right at his hand and Severus got a look of awe and wonder on his face. It was priceless and I knew then that I was grateful for Hermione's interference. We walked back to the castle talking and catching up. That morning I moved back into his chambers.