I'm really sorry...
I guess when I'm not thinking straight, I do everything wrong. Some how, somebody makes it right again. Even if they don't realize they're fixing stuff up. Well, after I left the living room, I went to my room. Why? I couldn't face her. I'd never made Starfire cry before. The guilt was rushing on me like that chocolate bar and milkshake mix. If anybody knocked on my door to scold, or beat, or nag, or annoy, or bother, or any of the five put together, I wouldn't open. Make it like I wasn't even here.
"I made her cry." I looked at the floor shamefully. She was never mean to anybody and last time she was mad...she was mad at ME! AWWW MAN! There was a knock at the door. I didn't breath. "Beast Boy?" Jamina called real quietly on the other side of the door. "Oh great!" They had to send Jamina to do it. I was like a bug heading to the zapper. I couldn't hold myself back. "Yeah?" I whispered.
"I need to talk with you." "I know. Your gonna scold me and make me feel horrible and make me say sorry, right?" I opened the door. She looked kinda sad, like she knew what I was feeling. "I'm not gonna make you do anything, Beast Boy. And no, I'm not gonna scold either." I looked out into the hallway. "Where's everybody else?" "In the living room." "They send you?" "No." I leaned against the wall and slid down until I was sitting on the floor. Jamina sat next to me.
I didn't mean to talk first, that meaning I broke the silence, but it was hard. "I didn't mean for it to be like that." Jamina tilted her head, listening to me like she was a psychiatrist. "I guess I was a little annoyed from all the unwanted attention I was getting from everybody." Was I saying this? Me? Not wanting attention? Somebody check my temperature! "It's like Raven said, they were over reacting." I continued. "And Star just tried to make me better. Or feel better, I guess. Then they dragged me away. She was only trying to help me and I threw it in her face. Sooome friend I am." I moaned.
Silence. I looked at the ceiling then at Jamina. "Should I apologize now or later?" She smiled at me, answering my question. I felt so good I could've hugged her. If I had the guts to. She didn't even say anything, that's how good she is! "Um, J?" I got up. And for those who are just dying for me to, no I'm not telling her that I like her. Yet. "Yeah?" Uhhi'm not really good at saying sorry."
What? You saw how long it took me the last time I made Star upset. I was about to have a break down when I finally said sorry. "Just mean it. Don't say it the way you say it to Cyborg." Jamina told me. She has a point. It's not like I mean it when I apologize to Cy. I do to too many things to really be forgiven. I took a deep breath, "Ok, thanks Jamina."
She smiled, "Good luck, green boy, you'll need it." "I know." I mumbled. I dragged myself really slowly, trying to thing of what to say. It was hard. "Just mean it." Jamina had told me. After wandering, successfully not running into anyone, I found myself in front of Starfire's door. "Well, here I go." Knock! Knock! "Who is there?" a stifle, muffled voice asked. "It's me, Beast Boy..." When you're in total peace, it's scary. Your heart starts beating real fast and you don't know what to do.
"Star, I know you're upset at me, and I don't blame you. I'd hate me, too." The door opened a crack. "I do not hate you, Beast Boy. I am just very saddened and confused." I sighed, "I was kinda in a bad mood and I really didn't want my hiccups to be noticed for...uh...certain reasons. Yeah." I smiled at her, hoping this small talk was working. I guess it was because she smiled back. Then the worse thing she could ask came out.
Author's note: Oooo, what could it be? Hmmm. Try, guess, and wait till the next chapter. Hahahaha! 0- How long can you wait?...
I guess when I'm not thinking straight, I do everything wrong. Some how, somebody makes it right again. Even if they don't realize they're fixing stuff up. Well, after I left the living room, I went to my room. Why? I couldn't face her. I'd never made Starfire cry before. The guilt was rushing on me like that chocolate bar and milkshake mix. If anybody knocked on my door to scold, or beat, or nag, or annoy, or bother, or any of the five put together, I wouldn't open. Make it like I wasn't even here.
"I made her cry." I looked at the floor shamefully. She was never mean to anybody and last time she was mad...she was mad at ME! AWWW MAN! There was a knock at the door. I didn't breath. "Beast Boy?" Jamina called real quietly on the other side of the door. "Oh great!" They had to send Jamina to do it. I was like a bug heading to the zapper. I couldn't hold myself back. "Yeah?" I whispered.
"I need to talk with you." "I know. Your gonna scold me and make me feel horrible and make me say sorry, right?" I opened the door. She looked kinda sad, like she knew what I was feeling. "I'm not gonna make you do anything, Beast Boy. And no, I'm not gonna scold either." I looked out into the hallway. "Where's everybody else?" "In the living room." "They send you?" "No." I leaned against the wall and slid down until I was sitting on the floor. Jamina sat next to me.
I didn't mean to talk first, that meaning I broke the silence, but it was hard. "I didn't mean for it to be like that." Jamina tilted her head, listening to me like she was a psychiatrist. "I guess I was a little annoyed from all the unwanted attention I was getting from everybody." Was I saying this? Me? Not wanting attention? Somebody check my temperature! "It's like Raven said, they were over reacting." I continued. "And Star just tried to make me better. Or feel better, I guess. Then they dragged me away. She was only trying to help me and I threw it in her face. Sooome friend I am." I moaned.
Silence. I looked at the ceiling then at Jamina. "Should I apologize now or later?" She smiled at me, answering my question. I felt so good I could've hugged her. If I had the guts to. She didn't even say anything, that's how good she is! "Um, J?" I got up. And for those who are just dying for me to, no I'm not telling her that I like her. Yet. "Yeah?" Uhhi'm not really good at saying sorry."
What? You saw how long it took me the last time I made Star upset. I was about to have a break down when I finally said sorry. "Just mean it. Don't say it the way you say it to Cyborg." Jamina told me. She has a point. It's not like I mean it when I apologize to Cy. I do to too many things to really be forgiven. I took a deep breath, "Ok, thanks Jamina."
She smiled, "Good luck, green boy, you'll need it." "I know." I mumbled. I dragged myself really slowly, trying to thing of what to say. It was hard. "Just mean it." Jamina had told me. After wandering, successfully not running into anyone, I found myself in front of Starfire's door. "Well, here I go." Knock! Knock! "Who is there?" a stifle, muffled voice asked. "It's me, Beast Boy..." When you're in total peace, it's scary. Your heart starts beating real fast and you don't know what to do.
"Star, I know you're upset at me, and I don't blame you. I'd hate me, too." The door opened a crack. "I do not hate you, Beast Boy. I am just very saddened and confused." I sighed, "I was kinda in a bad mood and I really didn't want my hiccups to be noticed for...uh...certain reasons. Yeah." I smiled at her, hoping this small talk was working. I guess it was because she smiled back. Then the worse thing she could ask came out.
Author's note: Oooo, what could it be? Hmmm. Try, guess, and wait till the next chapter. Hahahaha! 0- How long can you wait?...