Title: Part 4 in the "Paradox Series": Because she is perfect
Summary: Faith's thoughts about Buffy
Set after: Before Buffy dies, so somewhere in season 5
When I first came to Sunnydale I thought she would be as lonely as I was. I grew up as trash, and if it hadn't been for my destiny I would have ended up like my mother. So I embraced the prophecy and was glad that for once I was special. I turned out to be wrong. I was never as special as she was. She had everything I wanted:
Friends, people who loved her. People who helped her and fought next to her in battle. She had the perfect life and compared to her I was nothing. I tried to become friends with them but there was only room for one slayer. Once again I was just trailertrash. Worthless. So things got out of hand. I met someone whom I thought cared about me. I ended up killing a human and it only proved their thoughts about me right. I was bad. Evil. Nothing compared to the almighty Buffy. I felt so alone.
But even though she has friends she is even more alone than I'll ever be. She has to fight to keep them safe. She keeps them at a distance, Riley, Xander, Willow, even Dawn. She shuts them off because she wants to keep them close. And I feel sorry for her because even after that has happened to me, I still got the better deal. I have no hopes, no dreams, just reality. She's got everything and more, but all of it is fake.
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