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Chapter 8: Can some body tell me?
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November 02, 2005
Dear Hermione,
Three months into the job, after the indecent after the lake, no words were spoken between us. Paths were closed-in with only silence. Both with pride, neither the will to speak up first. I finally became what I was being paid for, a caretaker. At first I thought working for the Malfoy's was the worst degrading job ever! But there came something else. Unfound emotions. Lusting, cries, the thought of lonely-ness, and the thought of needing someone who will never look at you for more then what you are. {The truth hidden behind the lies.}
I can remember countless night, that I couldn't sleep afraid that there was something or someone after him. Nights I slept by his side holding him and leaving before he awakens. Days that I starve my self as a message to my mind to release me form this pain. Nights that I cried, alone when she leave from his bedchamber, satisfied.
Other thoughts filled my mind, as I stare out the window, writing to you. Why are they here? I ask my self-everyday. My heart still wonders. What do they need from lord Malfoy? Letting my mind explore the secrets. The lies. They have been here for months now. It's gone from weeks to months, why?
Remembering when we once spoke, he mentions to me the last time he ever heard from Novalay side of the family. Had to be when he was nine years old. So why are they here now? {After all these years.} It's become a mystery. It's because of them I'm so distance away from the one person I never thought I'll fall in love with. The lies, I guess I deserve this, huh Mione? Foolish me to' come out of my place.
G,
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"Oh ginny," Hermione said, feeling sorry for her lovesick friend. Pressing the letter against her chest, she looks out the window. "The snow was so beautiful at night" she rubs her stomach, and open the window. Her body shivered at the cold breezed. Looking out into the lake, her body arch softly when Ron raps a blanket around her, hugging her. While she stuff the note in her pocket.
"You shouldn't stand so close to the window, you should try to stay warm, Love. You don't want the baby to get sick now?" he gave her a warm smile
"That's the last thing I want to happen," she smiled back.
Months after finding out the Good news of Hermione pregnancy, Ron went out looking and found a job as a wizard Financial Planner that pays a good out amount of money {hundred-thousand a year} working with the best of the best, {rich people} to support there baby. After a few months of saving they recently brought a house up in the mountain with 5 bedrooms 2 floors and a basement. Nice and spacey. Harry live with them as well, but try to say out the loving couple way.
"Come," he pulled her away from the window. "Drink this,"
"Oh?" she stared into Ron lovely brown eyes, Ron wasn't a little boy anymore she thought, tracking back to Hogwarts. "He change so much over the years" she thought, blushing. She had problems controlling her jealousy, when his female co-workers come around. But now she was happy, she was pregnant, and he's wasn't going anywhere. "what this?"
"Hot chocolate, it's good for the baby," he said, kissing her softly on the neck.
Moaning low to his touch "mmm don't do that, your getting me excited and you know no ... ... until our baby born" she giggles brushing his hair away from his eyes
"I had no intention on touching till then anyway" he gave her a boyish smile
"You know I was playing, now take me" she said seductive, he laugh at the tone of her voice.
"If it's not to the kitchen or the bathroom, I don't understand your language" he turned around
"Now, come on Ron, you telling me we can't do anything till we have the baby??" she said desperate
"Yup!" he kisses her gently on the lips and lay on the bed and went straight to sleep. Hermione couldn't help but sip her hot chocolate and smile. "Yea, don't stay up too late"
"I won't I promise" she looks out the window
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November 06, 2005
Dear G,
You have a point there, but you mustn't stress your self over someone that doesn't care for you, he doesn't know what's behind Jhene. What make you think this could ever work? What about your family? But I'm here for you love, If you felt there was a connection once then maybe there still one there. Just have to wait and be patient.
Beside, this is Malfoy were talking about!!!!!, he doesn't know how to love no one. He might be only playing with Amber head as well as yours. Just give it time love. Also everything is very mysterious with those two. Did you hear??? I mean you live there so you must know, Draco finally inherit all his money, well not completely all but, he worth a lot,
I'm just warning you don't fall, fall to deep in love with him. He a Malfoy you're a Weasley remember that, if he find out imagine what hell do. If you feel that you can't take it anymore leave, come stay with me and Ron and Harry, we have enough rooms.
Love, your best friend Hermione
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Ginny stash the letter in her pocket.
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Ginny, couldn't help but to walk out of the warm manor. She was sick of the tension that went on in the Manor, sick of starring at the lovesick couple. It was dark-out, but the snow lighting ups the area. "The estate was even more beautiful when it's covered with snow," she smiled. She shivered when she look up at the mountains, she never notice how beautiful there were before.
She signed thinking how sweet it will be to watching her and Malfoy kids run and play in the snow. Bringing them hot chocolate to drink, along with snacks to eat. Having snow fight with the kids, how happy there all be together. But her dreams where put to hold when they enter the picture and took him away. She bent down and took some snow in to her hands making a snowball then she throws it.
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"Let go of me," she yelled trying to pull away. Hours after getting back to the manor, Jealousy drove her to his bedchamber to tell him off. To let him know how much she hated him and that he should give her the check. But words let to more then she could handle.
"And if I don't" he sneered
"Then I'll... I'll kill you" he laugh softly "do you think I'm Joking... let go of me," she yelled
"No the jokes on you my dear, if you think because I'm blind you can kill me your wrong"
"Get your hand off of me," she said slapping him, he grabs her and slams her on the wall pinning her hands over her shoulder. "Let go your hurting me," she said low refusing to cry.
"Hmm let me think??? NO, I thought you was stronger then that" he answered pressing his lips against her neck.
"I am" her knees weaken "I am stronger"
"Then why are you crying?"
"err...let go of me" she said trying to kick him
"Why should I?" he whispered in her ears
"I I don't want you to touch me," she cried, trying to punch him
"Why am I getting the feeling that your lying" he smirked, slamming her back on the wall
"Why don't you pick on your little girlfriend," she yelled
"Are you jealousy,"
"Of her never. I really hate you" she yelled
"Then tell me, who loves you," he said coldly
"What do u means?"
"I mean you hate me right, so who love you?" he grins
she froze "m... my family" she yelled
"NO, who loves you" she pause at the thought of someone loving her besides her family, he release her arms. Catching her by surprise he press his lips against hers taking in the warm feel of her lips. Then he pulled away "that what I thought" he walks away
Feeling like an idiot she yelled picking up his pillow and tossing it towards him "I wish you die in that accident"
He stops "I wish to"
"Your evil and people like you should be put away...your like your father" at that moment she wish she could take back her words but couldn't, his eyes grow red with anger and fear he was alone again, all alone
"Take that back" he voice was angry and intense. At that moment she thought she seen water in his eyes
"I didn't mean..."
"Leave" " No" she said low
"LEAVE" he yelled
"NO,"
"Fine have it your way" he grabs her lifting her by her waste and slammed her on to his bed, ripping off her thin clothing. Covering her with warm kisses. Not fighting back she just cried
"I hate you," she whispered but her mind said something different, as he entered the doorway to her innocents.
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She never understood why she felt she needed him. She tried to deny her emotion for him but it hadn't work. The thought of her married to Draco was beyond reach. She knew what she was up against by loving him. That night proved it. The way he let his temper get away with him. The way he pined her, would he hurt the women he loved? But if he doesn't understand that mean what would she do. But she wanted to take that challenged, the yelling, and the aggressiveness. She said to her self that she could handle it. That when he does realize he'd love her he'll never hurt her. That he's going through a stage right now and in time he'll get over it.
There was something about his misty ice blue eyes. That pulled him to her. Yes she was a Weasley and he's a Malfoy, and so she lied about her identity. But she wanted to make things work. She wasn't even sure if he had any feelings for her. His touch was dangerous, her body shivers when thoughts flashback to that night. Yes she was a virgin and pretty much Malfoy was the last person she ever thought she would give her gift away to, let alone he believing she's was Jhene. If he found out that she was red head Ginny, he'll probably cut off his penis.
She didn't understand, where the thoughts of making her pay, with sex come about. Now that was confusing to her. If he was torturing her, why sex? Was it something he wanted from her all along? "Let alone not sex.... nooo he made love to me," she thought. Did he know she was a virgin and decided to take it slow? Every time he entered her she cried. Did he feel sorry for her, or did he not want to hurt her. She was confuses, but it gave her hope to a future with him. But since then they haven't spoken nor been alone to speck to one another. Every time she wanted to spoke, ask him about the emotions that went on that night. Amber would send her off to clean something. "that bit*h" she muttered.
"Ms Wilson, do make us some hot chocolate," she said coldly,
"Can't you make it your damn self" Jhene turned back to the scenery of the estate.
"Look lord Malfoy, wants you to make it, why don't you do your damn job so after the next 3 to 4 months you can get out of our lives" nova answered.
"Why don't you go home," she mumbles walking passed her
"What did you said?? I heard that" Ginny smiled, I guess the entire family have a grabbing problem.
"If you heard then no need to say it over again" Ginny winked and walk in to the manor.
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Laying his head on his computer table, Harry search on Ginny mysterious trip to the United States. But he went back to where he started. "Nothing, no information whatsoever. "What's really going on?" he walk over to his owls letting him out the cage to fly freely into the night.
"If this was a contest why can't I find information about it? Hmm... the lest she could do, is write to me so I can know she okay... but then there... she only owls Hermione what are they hiding... it funny she get accepted right after Mrs. Malfoy put up that post. Hmm could she???" he laughed "nah. But then again that young girl at the market with Malfoy, did look a bit like her. No I lie she was hot!!! I'm going crazy, I need some sleep." he smiled walking over to his bed.
Laying his head on his pillow he couldn't get his mind off of Ginny, why he thought of her? He didn't know. She change so much over the years. "She grew into a beautiful & intelligent person," he thought. Oh how good there relationship would've been if he hadn't broken her heart a few years ago.
But, he was too into his newfound lover he met one-day leaving from a job interview. There she was sitting in a park not to far from here. He never saw her before. She was beautiful, long black hair with misty green eyes. She was classy; she didn't belong on this side of town he thought. {More of the upper rich side.}
He saw her when he passed that same morning sitting alone. Hours later after leaving from his last interview she was still there. It was cold. It looks like she was running, running away from something. Being a gentleman, he walks up to her to see if there was something wrong. Trying to start a conversation, she just looks up at him no response. {The tears in her eyes, the look of empty-ness.} He asks again what was wrong but she didn't answer. So he sat down next to her, and decided to tell her how horrible his day was. she smiled so she knew he was doing something right.
After a few months into their relationship, {that know one knew of.} He started noticing something different about her. She was keeping something from him. When he ask she would say, "In time I'll explain until then Harry just forget and still love me" she kiss him.
After that things gotten strange. She wasn't calling him, so he pretty much got the picture. The relationship was over. But he wasn't about to give up the amazing feeling he received when he's with her, with out knowing why. He tried calling her but she never returned his called. He tried owl-ing her but got the same answered nothing. After a while he gave up and went on with his life alone.
"Amber, What happen to you?" he turned looking out the window.
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{End of chapter 8}. sorry if it not quite interesting, but I promise chpt 9 will be better.
Chapter 8: Can some body tell me?
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November 02, 2005
Dear Hermione,
Three months into the job, after the indecent after the lake, no words were spoken between us. Paths were closed-in with only silence. Both with pride, neither the will to speak up first. I finally became what I was being paid for, a caretaker. At first I thought working for the Malfoy's was the worst degrading job ever! But there came something else. Unfound emotions. Lusting, cries, the thought of lonely-ness, and the thought of needing someone who will never look at you for more then what you are. {The truth hidden behind the lies.}
I can remember countless night, that I couldn't sleep afraid that there was something or someone after him. Nights I slept by his side holding him and leaving before he awakens. Days that I starve my self as a message to my mind to release me form this pain. Nights that I cried, alone when she leave from his bedchamber, satisfied.
Other thoughts filled my mind, as I stare out the window, writing to you. Why are they here? I ask my self-everyday. My heart still wonders. What do they need from lord Malfoy? Letting my mind explore the secrets. The lies. They have been here for months now. It's gone from weeks to months, why?
Remembering when we once spoke, he mentions to me the last time he ever heard from Novalay side of the family. Had to be when he was nine years old. So why are they here now? {After all these years.} It's become a mystery. It's because of them I'm so distance away from the one person I never thought I'll fall in love with. The lies, I guess I deserve this, huh Mione? Foolish me to' come out of my place.
G,
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"Oh ginny," Hermione said, feeling sorry for her lovesick friend. Pressing the letter against her chest, she looks out the window. "The snow was so beautiful at night" she rubs her stomach, and open the window. Her body shivered at the cold breezed. Looking out into the lake, her body arch softly when Ron raps a blanket around her, hugging her. While she stuff the note in her pocket.
"You shouldn't stand so close to the window, you should try to stay warm, Love. You don't want the baby to get sick now?" he gave her a warm smile
"That's the last thing I want to happen," she smiled back.
Months after finding out the Good news of Hermione pregnancy, Ron went out looking and found a job as a wizard Financial Planner that pays a good out amount of money {hundred-thousand a year} working with the best of the best, {rich people} to support there baby. After a few months of saving they recently brought a house up in the mountain with 5 bedrooms 2 floors and a basement. Nice and spacey. Harry live with them as well, but try to say out the loving couple way.
"Come," he pulled her away from the window. "Drink this,"
"Oh?" she stared into Ron lovely brown eyes, Ron wasn't a little boy anymore she thought, tracking back to Hogwarts. "He change so much over the years" she thought, blushing. She had problems controlling her jealousy, when his female co-workers come around. But now she was happy, she was pregnant, and he's wasn't going anywhere. "what this?"
"Hot chocolate, it's good for the baby," he said, kissing her softly on the neck.
Moaning low to his touch "mmm don't do that, your getting me excited and you know no ... ... until our baby born" she giggles brushing his hair away from his eyes
"I had no intention on touching till then anyway" he gave her a boyish smile
"You know I was playing, now take me" she said seductive, he laugh at the tone of her voice.
"If it's not to the kitchen or the bathroom, I don't understand your language" he turned around
"Now, come on Ron, you telling me we can't do anything till we have the baby??" she said desperate
"Yup!" he kisses her gently on the lips and lay on the bed and went straight to sleep. Hermione couldn't help but sip her hot chocolate and smile. "Yea, don't stay up too late"
"I won't I promise" she looks out the window
~*~*~*~*~*~*
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November 06, 2005
Dear G,
You have a point there, but you mustn't stress your self over someone that doesn't care for you, he doesn't know what's behind Jhene. What make you think this could ever work? What about your family? But I'm here for you love, If you felt there was a connection once then maybe there still one there. Just have to wait and be patient.
Beside, this is Malfoy were talking about!!!!!, he doesn't know how to love no one. He might be only playing with Amber head as well as yours. Just give it time love. Also everything is very mysterious with those two. Did you hear??? I mean you live there so you must know, Draco finally inherit all his money, well not completely all but, he worth a lot,
I'm just warning you don't fall, fall to deep in love with him. He a Malfoy you're a Weasley remember that, if he find out imagine what hell do. If you feel that you can't take it anymore leave, come stay with me and Ron and Harry, we have enough rooms.
Love, your best friend Hermione
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Ginny stash the letter in her pocket.
~&~&~&~
Ginny, couldn't help but to walk out of the warm manor. She was sick of the tension that went on in the Manor, sick of starring at the lovesick couple. It was dark-out, but the snow lighting ups the area. "The estate was even more beautiful when it's covered with snow," she smiled. She shivered when she look up at the mountains, she never notice how beautiful there were before.
She signed thinking how sweet it will be to watching her and Malfoy kids run and play in the snow. Bringing them hot chocolate to drink, along with snacks to eat. Having snow fight with the kids, how happy there all be together. But her dreams where put to hold when they enter the picture and took him away. She bent down and took some snow in to her hands making a snowball then she throws it.
~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-{Flashback}~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-
"Let go of me," she yelled trying to pull away. Hours after getting back to the manor, Jealousy drove her to his bedchamber to tell him off. To let him know how much she hated him and that he should give her the check. But words let to more then she could handle.
"And if I don't" he sneered
"Then I'll... I'll kill you" he laugh softly "do you think I'm Joking... let go of me," she yelled
"No the jokes on you my dear, if you think because I'm blind you can kill me your wrong"
"Get your hand off of me," she said slapping him, he grabs her and slams her on the wall pinning her hands over her shoulder. "Let go your hurting me," she said low refusing to cry.
"Hmm let me think??? NO, I thought you was stronger then that" he answered pressing his lips against her neck.
"I am" her knees weaken "I am stronger"
"Then why are you crying?"
"err...let go of me" she said trying to kick him
"Why should I?" he whispered in her ears
"I I don't want you to touch me," she cried, trying to punch him
"Why am I getting the feeling that your lying" he smirked, slamming her back on the wall
"Why don't you pick on your little girlfriend," she yelled
"Are you jealousy,"
"Of her never. I really hate you" she yelled
"Then tell me, who loves you," he said coldly
"What do u means?"
"I mean you hate me right, so who love you?" he grins
she froze "m... my family" she yelled
"NO, who loves you" she pause at the thought of someone loving her besides her family, he release her arms. Catching her by surprise he press his lips against hers taking in the warm feel of her lips. Then he pulled away "that what I thought" he walks away
Feeling like an idiot she yelled picking up his pillow and tossing it towards him "I wish you die in that accident"
He stops "I wish to"
"Your evil and people like you should be put away...your like your father" at that moment she wish she could take back her words but couldn't, his eyes grow red with anger and fear he was alone again, all alone
"Take that back" he voice was angry and intense. At that moment she thought she seen water in his eyes
"I didn't mean..."
"Leave" " No" she said low
"LEAVE" he yelled
"NO,"
"Fine have it your way" he grabs her lifting her by her waste and slammed her on to his bed, ripping off her thin clothing. Covering her with warm kisses. Not fighting back she just cried
"I hate you," she whispered but her mind said something different, as he entered the doorway to her innocents.
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She never understood why she felt she needed him. She tried to deny her emotion for him but it hadn't work. The thought of her married to Draco was beyond reach. She knew what she was up against by loving him. That night proved it. The way he let his temper get away with him. The way he pined her, would he hurt the women he loved? But if he doesn't understand that mean what would she do. But she wanted to take that challenged, the yelling, and the aggressiveness. She said to her self that she could handle it. That when he does realize he'd love her he'll never hurt her. That he's going through a stage right now and in time he'll get over it.
There was something about his misty ice blue eyes. That pulled him to her. Yes she was a Weasley and he's a Malfoy, and so she lied about her identity. But she wanted to make things work. She wasn't even sure if he had any feelings for her. His touch was dangerous, her body shivers when thoughts flashback to that night. Yes she was a virgin and pretty much Malfoy was the last person she ever thought she would give her gift away to, let alone he believing she's was Jhene. If he found out that she was red head Ginny, he'll probably cut off his penis.
She didn't understand, where the thoughts of making her pay, with sex come about. Now that was confusing to her. If he was torturing her, why sex? Was it something he wanted from her all along? "Let alone not sex.... nooo he made love to me," she thought. Did he know she was a virgin and decided to take it slow? Every time he entered her she cried. Did he feel sorry for her, or did he not want to hurt her. She was confuses, but it gave her hope to a future with him. But since then they haven't spoken nor been alone to speck to one another. Every time she wanted to spoke, ask him about the emotions that went on that night. Amber would send her off to clean something. "that bit*h" she muttered.
"Ms Wilson, do make us some hot chocolate," she said coldly,
"Can't you make it your damn self" Jhene turned back to the scenery of the estate.
"Look lord Malfoy, wants you to make it, why don't you do your damn job so after the next 3 to 4 months you can get out of our lives" nova answered.
"Why don't you go home," she mumbles walking passed her
"What did you said?? I heard that" Ginny smiled, I guess the entire family have a grabbing problem.
"If you heard then no need to say it over again" Ginny winked and walk in to the manor.
~*~*~*~*~*
Laying his head on his computer table, Harry search on Ginny mysterious trip to the United States. But he went back to where he started. "Nothing, no information whatsoever. "What's really going on?" he walk over to his owls letting him out the cage to fly freely into the night.
"If this was a contest why can't I find information about it? Hmm... the lest she could do, is write to me so I can know she okay... but then there... she only owls Hermione what are they hiding... it funny she get accepted right after Mrs. Malfoy put up that post. Hmm could she???" he laughed "nah. But then again that young girl at the market with Malfoy, did look a bit like her. No I lie she was hot!!! I'm going crazy, I need some sleep." he smiled walking over to his bed.
Laying his head on his pillow he couldn't get his mind off of Ginny, why he thought of her? He didn't know. She change so much over the years. "She grew into a beautiful & intelligent person," he thought. Oh how good there relationship would've been if he hadn't broken her heart a few years ago.
But, he was too into his newfound lover he met one-day leaving from a job interview. There she was sitting in a park not to far from here. He never saw her before. She was beautiful, long black hair with misty green eyes. She was classy; she didn't belong on this side of town he thought. {More of the upper rich side.}
He saw her when he passed that same morning sitting alone. Hours later after leaving from his last interview she was still there. It was cold. It looks like she was running, running away from something. Being a gentleman, he walks up to her to see if there was something wrong. Trying to start a conversation, she just looks up at him no response. {The tears in her eyes, the look of empty-ness.} He asks again what was wrong but she didn't answer. So he sat down next to her, and decided to tell her how horrible his day was. she smiled so she knew he was doing something right.
After a few months into their relationship, {that know one knew of.} He started noticing something different about her. She was keeping something from him. When he ask she would say, "In time I'll explain until then Harry just forget and still love me" she kiss him.
After that things gotten strange. She wasn't calling him, so he pretty much got the picture. The relationship was over. But he wasn't about to give up the amazing feeling he received when he's with her, with out knowing why. He tried calling her but she never returned his called. He tried owl-ing her but got the same answered nothing. After a while he gave up and went on with his life alone.
"Amber, What happen to you?" he turned looking out the window.
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{End of chapter 8}. sorry if it not quite interesting, but I promise chpt 9 will be better.