I Love Her? I Love Her Not?

By: pnaixrose

A/N: Again, it's late. Sorry! Thanks for the reviews though! I love them! =] They make me keep going.

Disclaimer: I keep on wishing but it doesn't come true. =[ I don't own CCS or the original CCS characters…

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--------Last Chapter Recap------

Katana was smiling. He had won. He didn't think his plan would work but it had. He had finally won. "Come to me little girl…" he said, his eyes flickering in excitement.

Himiko took more steps closer steadily with her eyes were still staring through walls.

"Himiko stop!!! Don't go to him!!!" Kumei yelled.

"SHUSH!" Katana yelled. Kumei was suddenly paralyzed. She couldn't move a muscle.

"H-Himiko!" she tried to yell when she saw that Himiko was only a step away from Katana.

Katana smiled in triumph. Himiko was at his side, motionless. Katana looked at the paralyzed, useless girl. "See ya."

Then he disappeared along with the silent Himiko into a black warp hole. After he left Kumei fell on the ground, exhausted, and the door opened with a slam.

Eriol scrambled in his azure eyes worried. "Wh-Where is she?"

A tear fell down her cheek. "Sh-She's gone…"

Toji kneeled next to her and hugged her tightly. Why did she have to experience this? The more he thought about it, the more he hated Katana.

Eriol was ballistic. He was shouting and crying and flailing around. He needed Nakuru, Suppi, Sakura and Syaoran to calm him down.

Shun was standing still as a rock, staring at the floor. 'No Himiko…you can't be gone…'

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Chapter 15: It Comes True

Shun collapsed as his knees gave away suddenly. She was gone. Just like that. And with who? He didn't even want to think what Katana might do to her. He heard worried, angry, frustrated voices behind him as his parents, Nakuru and Suppi tried to calm a ballistic Eriol down, but Shun paid no heed. Himiko was gone…

Eriol plopped down on Himiko's bed as he grew tired of his sudden explosion. He sighed and ran a hand through his raven hair. "Oh god…what am I going to tell Tomoyo? That I lost our only daughter?" He buried his face in his palms.

"Yo man, you're a mess," Syaoran said as he patted Eriol's back.

Sakura frowned. "It wasn't your fault, Eriol. You couldn't do anything. Somehow Katana's power got higher…"

"It was my fault," Kumei said quietly as everyone turned to her. She was still sitting on the carpet with Toji's arms around her. "I-I didn't do anything to try to stop him…" Tears filled her eyes as she took off her glasses and wept on Toji.

"It wasn't your fault!" Toji screamed.

Sakura nodded. "It wasn't anyone's fault! So it's pointless to blame yourselves," she said to Eriol and Kumei.

Nakuru's eyes suddenly got worried as she glanced at the clock. "It's about time for Mistress Tomoyo to get home…"

Suppi sighed as he floated onto Eriol's shoulder and patted him gently. "This is all going so fast…But what are we gonna do now?"

Eriol sighed. "We have to tell Tomoyo…"

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Tomoyo cried on Eriol's shoulder. Eriol just patted her back. They were all in Eriol's living room, including Kozue, Zak, Kero and Yue. When they had found out, they were stricken with shock and Kozue even cried. Tomoyo had come home some time after and as soon as she saw their faces she knew something was wrong. After they had told her, she just started crying.

"I'm sorry Tomoyo…" Eriol said quietly. He lovingly tucked some hair behind her ear.

"It's not your fault," she said. "If anything it's Katana's fault."

"That's right!" Syaoran said with anger. He was shaking his rage. "Katana will die for this…"

Everyone was silent for a moment as everyone just looked at each other with worried faces.

Shun stood up. "Yes he will." It was the first time he had spoken since Himiko was kidnapped. He walked over to the front door. "I'll make sure of that…" And with those words he walked out with the door slamming behind him.

Toji, Kumei and Zak looked at each other in worry as Kozue curiously looked at them.

"Uhh…Kozue?" Kumei said softly.

"Hmm?"

"We have to talk to you…fast…" Toji whispered to her.

And so Zak, Toji, Kumei and Kozue walked into the kitchen away from the ears of the adults and guardians who didn't really notice their leave.

"We need a sure way to defeat him," Yue said. "Without having any casualties." He glared at Syaoran.

Syaoran sighed. "How many times do I have to say it? The only way to get rid of him even if it's only for a little while is for me to kill myself," he said easily.

"Not an option," Tomoyo said frowning. "Why don't we try harder to think?"

"I agree," Sakura said sternly.

Syaoran sighed again. And so the endless circle of arguing continues.

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"Kozue, do you know about Shun's plan?" Kumei asked fiddling nervously with her glasses.

Kozue shook her head. "What?"

Toji spoke first. "Shun has this crazy idea on how to get rid of Katana himself."

Kozue looked at them in puzzlement. Wasn't that a good thing? But from their faces it was clear that it wasn't good.

"He's planning to kill himself in place of his father…" Zak finished sadly.

Kozue took a moment to comprehend. When she finally did she widened her eyes. "NO!!! We have to find him…NOW!!!"

Then they ran off towards the front door as the adults looked at them in puzzlement.

"Where are you guys going?" Eriol asked.

"We're gonna stop Shun before he does something drastic!" Kozue said frantically. Then they exited through the door.

Sakura gasped as she remembered. "Syaoran!" she shouted. "Shun will try to get rid off Katana in your place!!"

Syaoran widened his eyes as the others just stared in shock. "Oh shit. Let's go!"

And soon the house was empty once again.

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Shun looked at the empty swing set. He sighed as he felt the auras of his friends and family spreading out and searching for his aura. He quickly covered it and looked sadly at the concrete ground. This was the park where he and Himiko used to play in. This was also the park where he almost had kissed her until Ryu interrupted them. So many memories of her were floating in his mind but yet she was gone.

"Gone…"

He hated how that word felt like as he spoke it. That word was stupid. He sighed again, missing her sweet voice, long black hair and gentle navy eyes. Being thirteen wasn't as easy as he though it was going to be.

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Himiko slowly opened her eyes only to find her surroundings unfamiliar and strange. She tried to stand but found that her arms and legs were tied to a chair. She sighed. One minute she was innocently helping her friend by giving her some clothes and the next minute she was kidnapped by an evil, old spirit inside a boy's body. She looked around. It was a deserted, old place with nothing but a few cracked windows, a door, the chair she was sitting in and an old table near the corner.

A bit of light shown from the door as opened and in came Ryu, but of course we all know that it was really Katana because of the red eyes. He stopped in front of Himiko and smirked. "You comfortable?" he asked with his deep, malignant voice.

Himiko frowned but said nothing.

"Well you'd better not get too used to this old, musty place," he said as he circled her slowly. 'We'll be leaving in a short while…as soon as he is definitely alone…"

Himiko furrowed her eyebrows in confusion. "Who?"

Katana smirked. "No one special…that is…no one special to me…"

Himiko sighed in frustration. Why couldn't bad people just cut the crappy riddles?! It's so annoying.

"So little girl, you ready to be manipulated again?" Katana asked.

"It was you who forced your magic to make me come to you right?" Himiko said tiredly. "Well it's not going to happen again!!!"

Katana laughed. "It's not like you have any say in this. Well get ready, little girl…"

He stared straight into her eyes with his own red eyes. Himiko struggled to look away but his magic was working slowly. Soon she could no longer struggle and stared straight into his evil eyes.

"By the way," Katana whispered as Himiko's vision became blurry. "I hope you don't like that Li boy. What's his name? Oh yeah, Shun. Because just so you know, you'll be killing him."

Himiko saw his wicked smirk and soon blackness covered her.

'…not Shun…please not Shun…'

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Shun pushed himself lightly on the swing, looking sadly down at the ground. It was simply unbearable. The feeling. The feeling of knowing Himiko was in danger. It was…terrible. She was gone. Shun gripped onto the swing's chains as tight as he could until his palms were basically red.

"DAMN YOU KATANA!!!!!"

His voice rang through the empty park, but his anger was well seen through his face.

"BRING HER BACK!!!!!!"

Everything was still except his slow and steady breathing. He sighed. That was no point. But what else could he do? He had no idea where Katana had taken her.

Suddenly he felt an unexpected aura pop out of nowhere. He quickly jumped out of the swing and swung around, trying to pinpoint the aura. A person's figure emerged from some bushes and he quickly scanned the air around the person. There was no doubt. It was Himiko.

"H-Himiko?"
He stood still, trying to analyze the situation carefully. It was obviously a trap…right? What if she had somehow escaped? Shun almost couldn't think straight. How would you feel if the person you loved was kidnapped and then just appeared all of a sudden? He was trying to fight the urge to go and hug her…it might be a trap.

Himiko looked around the park slowly. How the heck had she ended up there? The last thing she remembered was Katana's smirk. Then she heard the voice. His voice.
"Shun!" she exclaimed.

Shun could see the burst of resemblance in her eyes and couldn't hold back any longer. He ran up to her and hugged her. After a second or two, he let his hands rest on her shoulders.
"Do you know how much you got me worried?!" Shun exclaimed almost angrily. But Himiko knew better so she smiled. It was Shun's little way of letting her know he was worried.

Shun's heart melted at her smiled. But why was she here?
"Himiko, what are you doing here? I thought that…he had you…"

Himiko shrugged. "I have no idea…all I remember was that Katana had captured me."

Shun's eye twitched at the name. "Did he do anything to you? Did he hurt you? He did, didn't he? Oh I'm gonna-"

Himiko smiled. "Don't worry so much. Why would you care so much anyway?"

She didn't expect much of a response, but she got something she didn't expect. Shun suddenly stopped his shouting and just looked at her. Himiko didn't recognize something…it was his eyes. They held something more this time. It was…nervousness? Why'd he be nervous? She'd never seen him nervous. "Shun? Are you okay?

Shun almost started trembling. Should he tell her? Should he tell her how he felt?

"H-Himiko…Uhh…I…"

Himiko almost couldn't believe her ears. He was stuttering? Shun? Stuttering?!

Shun took a deep breath and tried to compose himself.

"Himiko…I love…"

Himiko's eyes widened. Where had she heard those words? She stopped breathing. Her dream!!! She knew imagine what would happen next.

Ryu appeared behind them, his eyes glowing fiery red. He smirked and pointed to Himiko.
"Come here…"

She lost all control over her body. She started walking to wards him slowly.

"Himiko stop!!" Shun shouted. His eyes narrowed at the sight of Katana. He ran towards Himiko and tried to stop her.

Katana smirked once again and held his palm out at Shun. An invisible force spurted towards him and made him fly backwards. Shun watched Himiko walk to Katana and stop in front of him. In his hand, a sword appeared. Shun watched in horror as Himiko took the sword silently. It was his sword! But how the hell did Katana get it? Shun felt around his neck where his sword pendant usually was. It was gone. He sighed in frustration. Katana had probably taken it when Shun didn't notice during their last battle. He cursed as he tried to get up from the ground. He was still shocked by the impact of the attack. His body ached all over and he struggled to get up.  Suddenly he saw Himiko striding slowly to him, the sword held firmly in her hands. Shun's eyes widened as Himiko held the sword over him. The sword came down in a split-second and Shun barely had enough time to roll away. He stood up some feet away from her slowly and weakly, confused by her actions. Was this how…how she really felt?

"H-Himiko…Wh-What did I do?" His voice came out croaky and weak -exactly how he felt inside.

He saw the sword coming at him once again and he dodged it.

"HIMIKO STOP THIS!!!" He was desperate to know why she was doing this.

But she just slashed, slashed, and slashed him again. Shun had to dodge it every time with effort. It almost felt like he was weakening with every step he took. He could've attacked back…but who would ever hit the person they love purposely?

"Please…tell me…what did I do?" he pleaded. He almost couldn't believe that his voice sounded as hurt as he felt. He was begging now…he needed something to make him believe that she wasn't doing this in purpose. He almost forgot that Katana was standing there enjoying the scene.

Her mouth opened. "Shut up, Li."

Shun actually felt his heart crack as he flinch by her words. "Wh-what?"

Himiko's hateful eyes narrowed. "I hate you, Li."

He stared at her, open mouthed. Now in addition to the cracking heart, he felt a spear piercing slowly into it. Maybe there was some kind of mistake…?

"Himiko…"

"Don't call me that!!"

Okay, now a sledgehammer mauling his heart was felt. It was intolerable. Now she didn't even want to go by first name basis? What did he do?! He couldn't think of anything he ever did to hurt her so much. 'WHAT THE HELL DID I DO?!' He fell to his knees, trembling with hurt. His head was bent with his bangs covering his stricken eyes. He knew he looked weak…the Elders wouldn't have approved of it. But he didn't care.

"No one likes you, Li. You're always complaining and mean to people. I'm sick of it," Himiko spat.

"…I…I thought you were the only person who understood why…" Shun said almost inaudibly.

"Enough of your excuses!!" Himiko slowly strode to him and when she reached him she held his sword about him once again.

Katana was laughing as he said, "Now you'll witness the true feelings of the one you love most, Li!"

But Shun was listening. To him, those words were just babble. He hurt too much to care what anyone said anymore. All he cared about was the loathing look on Himiko's face compared to the usual, happy one she always had. It was his fault...maybe he had offended her by saying something wrong? He didn't know. He had been thinking for a still, quiet second or two, not really caring that a sword was held over him, ready to come down. He lifted his head slowly to stare at her hateful expression. He felt something wet stream down his face. It was weird…he had never felt this much sadness that he would start crying. This would be the first time…and the last. The tears kept streaming down as he silently cursed himself for looking so weak. This would be the last situation that he would ever think to be in.

He opened his mouth, not really knowing what he would say.

"Himiko…I…I…"

Was he going to tell her? Would it help the situation he was in? He didn't care...it didn't matter…nothing mattered… He just let his words stumble on.

"…I…love…y-"

He didn't get to finish as Himiko just narrowed her eyes at his stumbling words and brought the sword down to him…

TO BE CONTINUED…

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A/N: haha cliffhanger!!! And you know what? I won't be able to update for awhile because I'm going to be gone for winter vacation!! MWAHAHAHAHA!!! =] But don't worry, I'll try to update again soon! I hope you like this chapter! I like the story will be done next chapter or in two chapters. Wow…this story is coming to a close soon! Please R+R!!!

~pnaixrose [Thursday, December 25, 2003, 9:38PM EST] It's Christmas!!!!!!! ^___^

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