Believe me when I say this, I'm not stupid.

I know something is wrong with inuyasha but he wont talk to me about it and if he doesn't I can't help him.

I guess i'm being pretty blunt but i'm scared.

This "problem" with him is not like anything else we've ever been through.

You can't tell by looking at him how serious this is. Well, actually you can if you count the way his eyes are hazy and haunted, not the fierce strong gaze oh his eyes before that battle

.His skin had always been pale, but pale is an understatement, his skin is WHITE like milk.

He'd always been kinda reclusive about how he's feeling but now he wont ever talk unless you talk to him, we don't argue anymore at first we did a lot, after this happened I wanted to help him in any way possible, I guess then I didn't realize how serious this was.

I mean this was inuyasha, the guy who wasn't fazed when he got punched through the stomach, he would be all right

right?

wrong.

I should have realized something had gone terribly wrong when he came back to life as a human not the hanyou I had always known.

I should have known when he stopped eating, when he stopped sleeping when he stopped calling me wench, asking for ramen.

I mean yeah I thought it was weird when he turned down his ramen every once in a while but that was nothing right?

And inuyasha didn't need much sleep anyway right?

We went on as if everything was normal, but it wasn't

Inuyasha wasn't okay, neither was I

We had the shikon jewel but for some reason that wasn't what I wanted anymore

I wanted inuyasha to be okay

But even then I wasn't scared for his life

I thought maybe he was upset about kikyo being gone or something that would pass, that night I found out just how serious this was

I couldn't sleep and I wondered if inuyasha was sleeping so I wandered over to the god tree to talk with him, something we hadn't done in a long time

He was asleep under the god tree, his black hair cascading around him, he was so beautiful I wanted to touch him

Leaning down I pressed my hand against his cheek, it was kind of cold, and that's when I started to get worried

I stared at his face as he bit his lip hard

"inuyasha......?"

I looked down at his hands gripped so tightly I thought his nails had to be digging into his skin.

"inuyasha?" with more urgency this time, he was biting his lip so hard blood was beginning to drip down

I was about to call for help when his grip suddenly went slack and he released his lip

His lips began too turn blue and I knew he was dead

No, I got frantic, he cant be dead I saved him I'll save him again

Tears poured down my cheeks as I slapped his face over and over again

"inuyasha I need you!!!" I cried out "Wake up"

He shot up like a bat out of hell, rolled over, leaned away from me, and threw up nothing over and over again but nothing was coming out, he was just retching

I was so shocked I couldn't move

He just sat there catching his breathe, shivering

"inuyasha......" I whimpered pathetically "you were.....you were dead"

he looked at me right in the eye and hugged like his life depended on it, and I could feel him trembling

"no more pain" he whimpered pathetically against me "please kagome no more pain"

I melted and hugged him back

we stayed like that the rest of the night