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~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~**~ The Morning After......About 6 am
Diana walked slowly towards the entrance to the Gryffindor common room. Her hair was in shambles and she was holding her shoes in one hand, while lifting her dress up with the other. She was exhausted and had only slept about an hour or so. He was still asleep when she left. The sun was barely up. It was a Saturday morning after all; no one would be awake for at least another four hours. She felt more comfortable sleeping in her own dorm anyways.
As she muttered the password the door creaked open. She didn't want to make a lot of noise. She didn't feel like facing Lily either. She would be cross with her and she wasn't in the mood. Maybe I'll sleep in the common room, she thought. It would surely be empty.
It wasn't. She let out a gasp when she saw there was someone in there, and not asleep. "Damn it." She said, out loud.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to startle you." Sirius said. He had slept there that night because James wanted to use the dorm with Narcissa, and he sure as hell wasn't going to stay.
"What the hell are you doing up?" she asked, groggy and not in the best mood. She yawned.
"Nothing. I couldn't sleep. Plus James is up there." He said. She understood what he was saying and she nodded. She walked over to the stairs and stopped.
"Lily's not up there with anyone is she?" she asked. She didn't want to intrude if she was.
"No. Who would she be up there with?" he asked, adjusting his position.
"Well....good point. I thought she'd be up there with you." She said, honestly.
He laughed a little too loudly. "Me? No."
"So you didn't try to sleep with her or anything?" she asked, a little dumbfounded that he didn't. "That surprises me."
"No." He said.
"Well good. She took my advice then." She said, climbing the stairs one at a time.
"Renton?" he called as she got to the top. She stopped and turned.
"What?" she said, with an attitude.
"I want to talk to you." He said.
She sighed and rubbed her forehead. "Why? Because I am really, really, not in the mood to be insulted by you this morning. I have a headache and I'm tired so if you will just please-"
"I want to apologize to you." He said, silencing her. She folded her arms and leaned against the railing.
"What, now?" she said, baffled. "It's not a good time."
"Not a good time for an apology? That doesn't make any sense." He said, getting up.
"Black please!" she emotionally pleaded. "Whatever you have to say, can't it wait a few hours? I-I have to go." She said, turning away.
"Is everything alright?" he asked, concerned. She wasn't acting normal.
"What use it is to you whether I'm alright or not? Don't want to feel guilty?" she said. He didn't answer so she just turned around. "This is a waste of time." She said before leaving.
Sirius just sat down and put his head in his hands. Great, he thought. He felt she hated him more than ever. He was about to lie down and attempt sleep when his eyes fell on a book on the table on the far left corner of the room. He was bored and he probably wasn't really going to sleep anyway, so he got up and walked over to it. It had a deep red cover but no title. Hmm, he thought and opened it.
There was a title page however.
"Seventeenth Century Mapmakers: Discovering the Secrets of the British Underground."
What's this? Sirius thought, and opened to chapter one.
"Chapter one: How Jarvis Fitzpatrick escaped from the Bristol Raid of 1724"
He escaped using a map, big fucking deal, Sirius thought. But, he read the chapter anyway.
~Diana slowly opened the door to her dorm, trying very hard not to wake Lily. She threw her shoes on the floor. Then she looked at Lily. She was sleeping in Diana's bed. Diana sighed but she climbed in anyway. She wanted Lily to be awake. She wanted to talk to her.
As she laid down next to Lily she put one arm on her shoulder. This slightest touch jolted Lily awake and she sat up.
"Hi." Diana said.
"Hi." Lily said, and smiled. "Did you just get back?" she asked, yawning.
"Uh, yea." She replied as she got up. She wanted to throw off the filth she was wearing. It was incredibly uncomfortable.
"I was worried about you." Lily said, as she leaned back against the headboard, watching her every move.
"I know." She said, as she grabbed her lower stomach and winced.
"What's the matter? Are you, are you in pain?" Lily asked, angrily.
"It's nothing." She said.
"Bullshit Diana. Did he hurt you?" she asked in an enraged whisper. She got up from the bed and looked her in the eye. Diana avoided her gaze, and it only upset her more.
Then Diana looked up. "No." She said. "At least not on purpose." She muttered.
"What the hell does that mean?" Lily asked, her voice getting louder.
"Lily, listen. He didn't hit me or anything. Jesus, calm down." She said, grabbing a t-shirt.
"So then what happened?" Lily asked, leaning against the wall.
"Well, it's a little embarrassing. Its sort of stupid really." She said, pulling the shirt over her shoulders. Lily just stared. Diana sighed. "Well, lets just say that, um........" she hesitated.
"Let's have it." Lily said, in a motherly tone, as if she were ready to scold her.
"Well I, um....I don't think Oliver did a very good job at, you know, taking my........"
"Virginity?" Lily asked, shaking her head in puzzlement. Diana nodded.
There was silence as Lily thought about this for a moment. "I don't understand. Did you bleed?" she asked, uncomfortably. Diana nodded.
"Did it hurt?"
"Like hell." Diana responded. "It was like, being impaled." Diana said, practically shaking. She began to tear up a little. Lily walked over to her and hugged her. Diana started to cry harder.
"I didn't know." She cried. "I thought-"
"It's ok." Lily said, shushing her. She walked her over to the bed and they plopped down on it. "Well what did he say?"
"He was, uh, shocked, but he didn't stop or anything." She said.
"Did you ask him to?" she asked.
"No!" she spat, getting defensive. "Damn Lily I wasn't fucking raped! God, you're always blowing things up!" she yelled, pushing Lily away.
"Well you're the one who's crying!" she yelled, equally as loud. Diana just said nothing. She just threw her covers off and got under them, emphasizing her anger. Lily did feel a little bad. She didn't deserve that.
"I'm sorry." Lily said.
"No you're not." Diana spat. "You just don't want me to be angry at you. Well I am so deal with it."
"I'm not angry at you. C'mon Ana talk to me. At least tell me the good parts." Lily said, trying to sound cheerful. Diana turned at sat up again.
"Do you really want to know?" she asked.
"Yea. But first tell me, because I'm dying to know." She said, eagerly.
"Yea?" she asked.
Lily made a motion with her hands that indicated size and Diana laughed.
"Well?" Lily asked. She then got in her own bed. Diana shook her head and got under the covers.
"C'mon, just a hint." Lily said.
"Goodnight Lily." Diana said. She wanted to get a little sleep.
"But it's morning anyway." She said.
"I'm sleeping. We'll talk later." She said, whining.
"Ok, ok........please?"
"Shut up Lily." Diana laughed, as she pulled the covers over her head.
*"What are you doing down here?" James asked, exhausted. It was 10 am by now, and Sirius had become enthralled in that book.
"You told me to come down here you ass." He replied, not taking his eyes off the text.
"Oh right." James said, yawning.
"She still here?" Sirius asked.
"Yea, asleep." James said, pointing to their dorm.
"Ah. So..did she blossom for you?" Sirius chuckled.
James sighed and sat down beside him. "Yea." He said this, not too pleased with himself.
"Virgin?"
"Yea."
"Interesting. You feel bad?"
"A little." James admitted. Sirius, for the first time looked up from the book and stared at James.
"That doesn't sound like you."
"I know. Scary isn't it?"
"If you feel bad then why did you do it in the first place?" Sirius shut the book.
"Couldn't tell you. I don't know. She really wanted to though which was weird."
"Why is that weird?"
"Well, and don't tell anyone I told you this but, she started crying." James whispered.
"Shit." Sirius said. He suddenly became interested. "Why? Did you hurt her?"
"I don't know, I don't think so. She, uh, cried towards the end. Let me tell you it was incredibly uncomfortable. She just wouldn't get off of me."
"Oh my god." Sirius tried to keep from laughing, but this girl was too much.
"It's not funny! And you know what else?"
"What?" he said, calming down.
James hesitated, and his mouth soured. "She told me she loved me."
Sirius looked at him, wide eyed and taken aback. "Oh shit mate, that's rough."
"Well what do I do?" James asked, fidgeting.
"Hey it's your bed, now lie in it." Sirius said, putting his arms up. "It's not my mess."
"How could you say that? I'm in big fucking trouble."
"That you are, my friend." Sirius said. "Do you love her?"
"God no." he spat, slightly beyond his control.
"Make sure you don't answer her like that. She might not take that well." Sirius shook a finger at him. James grabbed his hair in frustration.
"Listen Prongs. From what I hear she sounds a little nutty. For one thing, you've only been going out for a couple of weeks. See if she brings it up. If not, then all is forgotten."
"You think?" James asked, filled with some hope.
"Yea. But let me tell you one thing. You suck at relationships. You can't just jerk girls around, they come back to haunt you."
"Oh like you should talk. You've never been in a real relationship your entire life. Haunt me? Well isn't that pleasant."
"Reality mate, it's a bitch."
"Yea. Hey, what is that you're reading?" James asked, distracted from the subject.
"Oh right I forgot. I wanted to show you this." He said, handing the book to James. He opened up to the title page.
"Mapmakers? What is this?"
"Open up to chapter five."
James did so and read it aloud. "For mischief makers only: How to construct your very own map?..What is this?"
"What are you stupid or something? A map."
"Yea, but what's it for?"
"Think about it." Sirius said, snatching the book back.
James thought about it, running the words over and over again in his head. It was difficult for him to think clearly on a Saturday morning. Then, like a bat out of hell it hit him. A map. Of course. They could do so much damage with it.
"I got it." James said, having an epiphany.
"Well I should hope so Prongs. Think about it. Think about all we could do with something like this. The passageways, and not getting caught. It says here that if we do it right, we could see everyone we wanted to. We could see if a teacher is coming, or some nosy Slytherin. We could go in and out of Hogsmeade whenever we please. I bet there's a way to Zonko's from here but we just have to find it. We could use your cloak, Prongs, the one your dad gave you. It might actually come in handy."
"Genius." James said with a childlike eagerness. "We have to tell Moony and Wormtail."
"Absolutely. But it has to be our little secret."
"Of course. Hey, where did you get this anyways?" James asked.
"I found it. It was just laying over there on that desk." Sirius pointed to the table in the corner of the room.
"Oh." James looked disappointed. "Then it's not yours."
"Well no.oh I see what you mean. But if someone was as thoughtless as to leave it there then-"
Sirius stopped as he heard a door open and then slam shut again. Just then Diana and Lily emerged from their room. They were drowsy, but dressed.
"Something the matter boys?" Diana asked, in the midst of a yawn.
"Good morning ladies." Sirius said, trying to sound reasonable chipper.
"Morning." They spoke in unison. Other students began to awake as well. Others emerged and went to their respective bathrooms and such. Breakfast was at eleven. James figured that he might as well go see how Narcissa was doing in his dorm. He felt guilty just leaving her there, but he somehow had to tell her how he really felt. He just didn't think of her that way. That was going to be difficult.
Sirius was already dressed. He had brought clothes with him last night and was ready at about eight. So he just picked up the book and decided to resume reading. He wanted to catch up and he was incredibly excited.
Diana and Lily went to the prefect's bathroom to freshen up and brush their teeth. They spoke no more of Lucius because Diana didn't want to. She didn't know what she felt at that moment. Lily managed to forget about James for a time. He knew he had spent the night with Narcissa and forced herself to think of other things.
"You know what I've been thinking Diana?" Lily said, tying her hair back.
"What?" she answered, spitting toothpaste into the sink.
"You and Black need to get along." She said, suddenly leaning against the counter.
Diana groaned. "You told him that too didn't you?" she asked, bending down to tie her shoe.
"Actually no. Why?" Lily questioned.
"Because he tried to apologize to me this morning, rather unexpectedly." She said. "It was strange, and extremely out of character. He was almost being nice about it."
"Well, people change."
"Do they?" Diana looked at Lily's expressions again. She laughed inside her head. "Ok, I'll make peace with Black if you answer me one question."
"You mean there are conditions?" Lily sighed. "Very well. What is it?" She folded her arms to prepare.
"Tell me who it is?"
"Who what is?" Lily looked confused.
"Lily...darling. I am your best friend right?"
"For now, yes." She simply said, kidding of course. Diana glared at her.
"Well then. You are an open book Lily Evans. At least to me. Now you want to fuck someone. Who is it?"
"Diana!" Lily yelled. "Will you keep your voice down. We are not the only people in here." Diana laughed and Lily shook her head. "Ugh, you are so vulgar."
"Answer the question."
"No."
"Fine, then you can forget about me making friends with Black. Lets see, how shall I piss him off today?" she contemplated, out loud.
"Oh please don't. Fine, I'll tell you."
Diana immediately stopped what she was doing to listen intently to Lily's response, which annoyed Lily even more. Then while Diana was smirking she chickened out.
"I've changed my mind." Lily said and proceeded to leave.
"What?! No I wont settle for that." Diana said, blocking the door.
"Don't be a bitch." Lily warned.
"Tell me." Diana locked it.
"Ok. IhaveacrushonPotter, there!" she spat, hoping it would be enough
"Sorry? I didn't quite hear that."
Lily reached over and leaned in by Diana's ear. She hesitated again and then whispered his name. At the mere mention of it Diana erupted into a fit of uncontrollable laughter. She fell to the floor and began to smack the ground. This was too much.
"Are you kidding?" she asked, in between breaths and laughter. "I don't believe it! Oh Lily you are too much!" she cried, getting up but still clutching her diaphragm.
Lily couldn't help but laugh along with her. "I know, I know." Lily said, smiling.
"But seriously now. Potter?!" Diana yelled.
"Shhhhh!!!!" Lily said, pressing her index finger over her mouth. "Shut up!"
"Oh Lily no one is in here." She said, dismissing her. She finally had calmed down and leaned against the wall. "Wow," she began out of pure shock. "James Potter, the biggest player Hogwarts has ever seen, and you want to go to bed with him. Lily my dear, have I taught you nothing? I am shocked an appalled." She said, pretending she was angry.
"Believe me so am I. I didn't see it coming I'll tell you that much."
"Yes love does creep up on us when we least expect it." she said, trying to sound knowledgeable. "You surprise me Lily. All the times we have spent making fun of the self-centered git and his 'conquests' and here you are, wanting to be one of them. I think I'm going to cry."
"I don't want to be a conquest. I don't want to be anything. It is just a crush; a silly girlish crush and it will pass. I am not now, nor will I ever be in love with James Potter. Could you imagine if I was? I'd be as helpless as all the others. Plus it would never work out. He would annoy the living shit out of me."
"Yea, he's a bit immature. But I have noticed him look at you differently. He doesn't look like he wants to vomit when you walk in the room anymore. I think he is glad you are around, most of the time."
"Can we overanalyze this some other time? I want to eat." Lily said, and then they heard a toilet flush. At first Lily felt embarrassed but she wanted to die when she saw who came out of the stall.
Lily and Diana stared into the hurt eyes of Narcissa Silverton, who casually walked passed them. She unlocked the door and slammed it behind her.
"Oh shit." Diana said and covered her mouth. Lily rubbed her temples.
"Do you think she heard?"
Diana just looked at her. "Um, yea. We weren't exactly whispering." She said.
"Oh I feel horrible." Lily said. "Shit." She felt like she was going to overheat.
"Why don't you go downstairs and eat something. It will calm you down." Diana said soothingly. She felt it was somewhat her fault. Lily had asked her not to shout. Lily listened to her and walked out, in a not so pleasant mood. Diana hung around for a minute, fixing her appearance. Lucius would be downstairs, she feared. She was embarrassed about that too, because to her knowledge, she was not a virgin.
She brushed it off and exited the bathroom. She stopped in her room to put away her hairbrush before hurrying downstairs to eat. She was terribly hungry.
She was surprised to find that Sirius was still in the common room when everyone else had left. She noticed him reading something, and was cross to find out what it was.
"Why are you reading my book?" she asked from the top of the stairs. Sirius' eyes shot up at the sound of her voice.
"Your book?" he asked, surprised.
"Yes. And what are you still doing up here? Everyone's already downstairs."
"Yes I know. I didn't know you were here." He said, beginning to read again. This was a loosing battle with her. She began to walk down the stairs.
"May I have it please?" she asked, reaching her hand out to him. She figured she could at least ask him reasonably nicely.
"I'm in the middle of something here. Besides, you left it down here unattended. That means it's fair game for anyone to just pick it up."
And it happens to be you, she thought. Then she remembered Lily's words in the bathroom. She had promised to apologize, and she really didn't want to.
"Why are you reading that?" she asked, slightly avoiding her purpose for a few minutes. "It's mine." She repeated.
"Yes so I've heard. Where did you get this?"
"My uncle sent it to me. I don't have any use for it though." She said, folding her arms.
"May I borrow it?"
"Why?" she asked, raising an eyebrow at him.
"Because I find it interesting, and since you don't I wonder if I might steal it for a while, just until I am done of course."
"Yes, well I suppose you have a point. Fine I suppose you can borrow it." She hesitated at what she was about to say. "Listen Black?"
He lifted his eyes to her once more and closed the book. "Yes?"
"I.. uh..well I'm sorry for this morning. I..I didn't mean to snap at you. I suppose you didn't deserve it." she said, not looking directly at him.
"Really?" he asked, folding his arms. "You were horribly rude."
She glared at him. "I know. I just have a lot of stuff going on and....I want to apologize to you."
Sirius cracked a small smile. "I appreciate that."
"Now what exactly did you want to tell me this morning?"
"The same thing basically."
"Did Lily tell you to do that?"
"No. She never said a word about anything." He said.
"Oh." Diana felt a bit silly.
"Sit down Renton." He commanded.
"What for?"
"Just do it." he said, and she did, but on the other side of the sofa. "I'm sorry." He said, and from his tone she knew he meant it.
"For?"
"Everything basically. I am tired of us being on opposite sides of the spectrum."
"What spectrum?" she chuckled.
"You know what I mean. We are on the same team after all."
"This is true. I never did thank you for yesterday. You helped out there, I could have fallen or gotten hurt or something." She remembered how he had handled that Bludger that was fired at her during the game, but she was so puzzled that he actually did it that she had forgotten to thank him for it.
"Well we needed to win, and they were cheating."
"I guess you're right."
"You were forced to say I'm sorry weren't you?" he asked, fidgeting around on the couch. He had never really spoken to her as a human being before, and it felt somewhat foreign to him. But he was delighted to do it, in his own private way.
"Well" she sighed. "Sort of."
"Lily?"
"Yes. But she did have a point. We are sort of hanging out with the same people now, it couldn't hurt. But you are an absolute prick, and I don't know if you will ever really be nice. I personally don't think you have it in you."
"Really? Well, I'm not so bad." He smirked.
"Don't be cocky. Besides, Lily seems to like you, for an inexplicable reason. I guess I could tolerate you, but only if you promise not to insult me anymore."
"I promise. And no more calling me pieces of human garbage and using words I don't understand."
"Ugh, its not my fault you have the vocabulary of a ten year old child." She said, getting a little more comfortable. She crossed her legs and when she did a little bit of her midriff showed. They were allowed regular clothes on the weekends.
Sirius eyed her up and down and she noticed.
"Well even I have imperfections. And I have no problem tolerating you. Its not as easy as you think, being on your hit list."
"I was unaware I had one, but yes you would be on it." she said. He got up from the couch and she sank into it a bit more.
"Do you want to end this shit or not?" he asked, placing the book down on a nearby table.
"Ugh, fine. If you leave me alone I suppose I could be indifferent to you."
"Wow, indifference, how nice. But I can be civil." He said, as if he had been thinking about it.
"So can I. I am not that dreadful, you know."
Sirius thought for a moment. "I can believe that."
"Good." She said. Then there was a short period of uncomfortable silence. She fiddled with the hem of her pants, while he observed. He watched her twirl her hair for a few seconds when she caught him and immediately stopped.
"Do you want to go down?" he asked.
"Right." She said, remembering her growling stomach. "Fine."
He leant out his arm to her to help her off the couch. She gave him a strange look.
"What?" she asked, unnerved by that act. She had never really experienced chivalry first hand.
"Need help?"
"Oh." She felt a bit silly. "Um, sure?" she said it as if it were a question. He was acting a little peculiar in her opinion.
He stretched out his hand and she grabbed it. It lingered there for a few seconds and he wasn't sure what to do next. When he remembered he yanked her up a little too strongly and she was taken by surprise. She landed with a thud on his chest.
She wasn't sure if she should be angry or annoyed or if she should thank him. She felt neither angry nor annoyed with him. For the first time she noticed what color his eyes were. They were quite similar to hers. They were dark, almost black, and had sincerity behind them. A quality she didn't think he possessed. She gently released herself but their hands were still clenched even when there was more than a foot between them.
He wanted to kiss her, he really did. She looked so sexy to him at that moment that all he wanted to do was grab her and march her upstairs as quickly as possible. He decided against it for two very specific reasons. One of them was Malfoy. His sinister face flashed into his mind and he remembered how taken she had become with him. Five minutes wasn't going to change that. The other reason was that he would most certainly receive a forceful and dramatic slap across the face and then there would certainly be no hope. She would hate him even more.
He was the one to let go, not her. He quickly shoved his hands in his pockets and began walking towards the door. She remained there for a second, trying to make what just happened make sense in her head.
"Hungry?" he asked her as he opened the door.
"Starving." Was all she could say, as she came back to reality and followed him out the door. She dismissed what had happen although he did not. She was a bit confused, and Diana hated being confused. She would not like nor trust him overnight. It took too much for her to trust anyone. So instead she kept the distance safe, and the conversation trivial. As they walked down to breakfast to greet their mutual friends, one thought kept running over and over again in her mind. It had certainly been an interesting three weeks...
(I know, nothing major and it still drags a bit. The next chapter will be set a few months later, probably around Christmas or Halloween or whatever. Updates will most likely be every Saturday. Well, at least a New York Saturday. Thanks again for the reviews!)~Angelxd14
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~**~ The Morning After......About 6 am
Diana walked slowly towards the entrance to the Gryffindor common room. Her hair was in shambles and she was holding her shoes in one hand, while lifting her dress up with the other. She was exhausted and had only slept about an hour or so. He was still asleep when she left. The sun was barely up. It was a Saturday morning after all; no one would be awake for at least another four hours. She felt more comfortable sleeping in her own dorm anyways.
As she muttered the password the door creaked open. She didn't want to make a lot of noise. She didn't feel like facing Lily either. She would be cross with her and she wasn't in the mood. Maybe I'll sleep in the common room, she thought. It would surely be empty.
It wasn't. She let out a gasp when she saw there was someone in there, and not asleep. "Damn it." She said, out loud.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to startle you." Sirius said. He had slept there that night because James wanted to use the dorm with Narcissa, and he sure as hell wasn't going to stay.
"What the hell are you doing up?" she asked, groggy and not in the best mood. She yawned.
"Nothing. I couldn't sleep. Plus James is up there." He said. She understood what he was saying and she nodded. She walked over to the stairs and stopped.
"Lily's not up there with anyone is she?" she asked. She didn't want to intrude if she was.
"No. Who would she be up there with?" he asked, adjusting his position.
"Well....good point. I thought she'd be up there with you." She said, honestly.
He laughed a little too loudly. "Me? No."
"So you didn't try to sleep with her or anything?" she asked, a little dumbfounded that he didn't. "That surprises me."
"No." He said.
"Well good. She took my advice then." She said, climbing the stairs one at a time.
"Renton?" he called as she got to the top. She stopped and turned.
"What?" she said, with an attitude.
"I want to talk to you." He said.
She sighed and rubbed her forehead. "Why? Because I am really, really, not in the mood to be insulted by you this morning. I have a headache and I'm tired so if you will just please-"
"I want to apologize to you." He said, silencing her. She folded her arms and leaned against the railing.
"What, now?" she said, baffled. "It's not a good time."
"Not a good time for an apology? That doesn't make any sense." He said, getting up.
"Black please!" she emotionally pleaded. "Whatever you have to say, can't it wait a few hours? I-I have to go." She said, turning away.
"Is everything alright?" he asked, concerned. She wasn't acting normal.
"What use it is to you whether I'm alright or not? Don't want to feel guilty?" she said. He didn't answer so she just turned around. "This is a waste of time." She said before leaving.
Sirius just sat down and put his head in his hands. Great, he thought. He felt she hated him more than ever. He was about to lie down and attempt sleep when his eyes fell on a book on the table on the far left corner of the room. He was bored and he probably wasn't really going to sleep anyway, so he got up and walked over to it. It had a deep red cover but no title. Hmm, he thought and opened it.
There was a title page however.
"Seventeenth Century Mapmakers: Discovering the Secrets of the British Underground."
What's this? Sirius thought, and opened to chapter one.
"Chapter one: How Jarvis Fitzpatrick escaped from the Bristol Raid of 1724"
He escaped using a map, big fucking deal, Sirius thought. But, he read the chapter anyway.
~Diana slowly opened the door to her dorm, trying very hard not to wake Lily. She threw her shoes on the floor. Then she looked at Lily. She was sleeping in Diana's bed. Diana sighed but she climbed in anyway. She wanted Lily to be awake. She wanted to talk to her.
As she laid down next to Lily she put one arm on her shoulder. This slightest touch jolted Lily awake and she sat up.
"Hi." Diana said.
"Hi." Lily said, and smiled. "Did you just get back?" she asked, yawning.
"Uh, yea." She replied as she got up. She wanted to throw off the filth she was wearing. It was incredibly uncomfortable.
"I was worried about you." Lily said, as she leaned back against the headboard, watching her every move.
"I know." She said, as she grabbed her lower stomach and winced.
"What's the matter? Are you, are you in pain?" Lily asked, angrily.
"It's nothing." She said.
"Bullshit Diana. Did he hurt you?" she asked in an enraged whisper. She got up from the bed and looked her in the eye. Diana avoided her gaze, and it only upset her more.
Then Diana looked up. "No." She said. "At least not on purpose." She muttered.
"What the hell does that mean?" Lily asked, her voice getting louder.
"Lily, listen. He didn't hit me or anything. Jesus, calm down." She said, grabbing a t-shirt.
"So then what happened?" Lily asked, leaning against the wall.
"Well, it's a little embarrassing. Its sort of stupid really." She said, pulling the shirt over her shoulders. Lily just stared. Diana sighed. "Well, lets just say that, um........" she hesitated.
"Let's have it." Lily said, in a motherly tone, as if she were ready to scold her.
"Well I, um....I don't think Oliver did a very good job at, you know, taking my........"
"Virginity?" Lily asked, shaking her head in puzzlement. Diana nodded.
There was silence as Lily thought about this for a moment. "I don't understand. Did you bleed?" she asked, uncomfortably. Diana nodded.
"Did it hurt?"
"Like hell." Diana responded. "It was like, being impaled." Diana said, practically shaking. She began to tear up a little. Lily walked over to her and hugged her. Diana started to cry harder.
"I didn't know." She cried. "I thought-"
"It's ok." Lily said, shushing her. She walked her over to the bed and they plopped down on it. "Well what did he say?"
"He was, uh, shocked, but he didn't stop or anything." She said.
"Did you ask him to?" she asked.
"No!" she spat, getting defensive. "Damn Lily I wasn't fucking raped! God, you're always blowing things up!" she yelled, pushing Lily away.
"Well you're the one who's crying!" she yelled, equally as loud. Diana just said nothing. She just threw her covers off and got under them, emphasizing her anger. Lily did feel a little bad. She didn't deserve that.
"I'm sorry." Lily said.
"No you're not." Diana spat. "You just don't want me to be angry at you. Well I am so deal with it."
"I'm not angry at you. C'mon Ana talk to me. At least tell me the good parts." Lily said, trying to sound cheerful. Diana turned at sat up again.
"Do you really want to know?" she asked.
"Yea. But first tell me, because I'm dying to know." She said, eagerly.
"Yea?" she asked.
Lily made a motion with her hands that indicated size and Diana laughed.
"Well?" Lily asked. She then got in her own bed. Diana shook her head and got under the covers.
"C'mon, just a hint." Lily said.
"Goodnight Lily." Diana said. She wanted to get a little sleep.
"But it's morning anyway." She said.
"I'm sleeping. We'll talk later." She said, whining.
"Ok, ok........please?"
"Shut up Lily." Diana laughed, as she pulled the covers over her head.
*"What are you doing down here?" James asked, exhausted. It was 10 am by now, and Sirius had become enthralled in that book.
"You told me to come down here you ass." He replied, not taking his eyes off the text.
"Oh right." James said, yawning.
"She still here?" Sirius asked.
"Yea, asleep." James said, pointing to their dorm.
"Ah. So..did she blossom for you?" Sirius chuckled.
James sighed and sat down beside him. "Yea." He said this, not too pleased with himself.
"Virgin?"
"Yea."
"Interesting. You feel bad?"
"A little." James admitted. Sirius, for the first time looked up from the book and stared at James.
"That doesn't sound like you."
"I know. Scary isn't it?"
"If you feel bad then why did you do it in the first place?" Sirius shut the book.
"Couldn't tell you. I don't know. She really wanted to though which was weird."
"Why is that weird?"
"Well, and don't tell anyone I told you this but, she started crying." James whispered.
"Shit." Sirius said. He suddenly became interested. "Why? Did you hurt her?"
"I don't know, I don't think so. She, uh, cried towards the end. Let me tell you it was incredibly uncomfortable. She just wouldn't get off of me."
"Oh my god." Sirius tried to keep from laughing, but this girl was too much.
"It's not funny! And you know what else?"
"What?" he said, calming down.
James hesitated, and his mouth soured. "She told me she loved me."
Sirius looked at him, wide eyed and taken aback. "Oh shit mate, that's rough."
"Well what do I do?" James asked, fidgeting.
"Hey it's your bed, now lie in it." Sirius said, putting his arms up. "It's not my mess."
"How could you say that? I'm in big fucking trouble."
"That you are, my friend." Sirius said. "Do you love her?"
"God no." he spat, slightly beyond his control.
"Make sure you don't answer her like that. She might not take that well." Sirius shook a finger at him. James grabbed his hair in frustration.
"Listen Prongs. From what I hear she sounds a little nutty. For one thing, you've only been going out for a couple of weeks. See if she brings it up. If not, then all is forgotten."
"You think?" James asked, filled with some hope.
"Yea. But let me tell you one thing. You suck at relationships. You can't just jerk girls around, they come back to haunt you."
"Oh like you should talk. You've never been in a real relationship your entire life. Haunt me? Well isn't that pleasant."
"Reality mate, it's a bitch."
"Yea. Hey, what is that you're reading?" James asked, distracted from the subject.
"Oh right I forgot. I wanted to show you this." He said, handing the book to James. He opened up to the title page.
"Mapmakers? What is this?"
"Open up to chapter five."
James did so and read it aloud. "For mischief makers only: How to construct your very own map?..What is this?"
"What are you stupid or something? A map."
"Yea, but what's it for?"
"Think about it." Sirius said, snatching the book back.
James thought about it, running the words over and over again in his head. It was difficult for him to think clearly on a Saturday morning. Then, like a bat out of hell it hit him. A map. Of course. They could do so much damage with it.
"I got it." James said, having an epiphany.
"Well I should hope so Prongs. Think about it. Think about all we could do with something like this. The passageways, and not getting caught. It says here that if we do it right, we could see everyone we wanted to. We could see if a teacher is coming, or some nosy Slytherin. We could go in and out of Hogsmeade whenever we please. I bet there's a way to Zonko's from here but we just have to find it. We could use your cloak, Prongs, the one your dad gave you. It might actually come in handy."
"Genius." James said with a childlike eagerness. "We have to tell Moony and Wormtail."
"Absolutely. But it has to be our little secret."
"Of course. Hey, where did you get this anyways?" James asked.
"I found it. It was just laying over there on that desk." Sirius pointed to the table in the corner of the room.
"Oh." James looked disappointed. "Then it's not yours."
"Well no.oh I see what you mean. But if someone was as thoughtless as to leave it there then-"
Sirius stopped as he heard a door open and then slam shut again. Just then Diana and Lily emerged from their room. They were drowsy, but dressed.
"Something the matter boys?" Diana asked, in the midst of a yawn.
"Good morning ladies." Sirius said, trying to sound reasonable chipper.
"Morning." They spoke in unison. Other students began to awake as well. Others emerged and went to their respective bathrooms and such. Breakfast was at eleven. James figured that he might as well go see how Narcissa was doing in his dorm. He felt guilty just leaving her there, but he somehow had to tell her how he really felt. He just didn't think of her that way. That was going to be difficult.
Sirius was already dressed. He had brought clothes with him last night and was ready at about eight. So he just picked up the book and decided to resume reading. He wanted to catch up and he was incredibly excited.
Diana and Lily went to the prefect's bathroom to freshen up and brush their teeth. They spoke no more of Lucius because Diana didn't want to. She didn't know what she felt at that moment. Lily managed to forget about James for a time. He knew he had spent the night with Narcissa and forced herself to think of other things.
"You know what I've been thinking Diana?" Lily said, tying her hair back.
"What?" she answered, spitting toothpaste into the sink.
"You and Black need to get along." She said, suddenly leaning against the counter.
Diana groaned. "You told him that too didn't you?" she asked, bending down to tie her shoe.
"Actually no. Why?" Lily questioned.
"Because he tried to apologize to me this morning, rather unexpectedly." She said. "It was strange, and extremely out of character. He was almost being nice about it."
"Well, people change."
"Do they?" Diana looked at Lily's expressions again. She laughed inside her head. "Ok, I'll make peace with Black if you answer me one question."
"You mean there are conditions?" Lily sighed. "Very well. What is it?" She folded her arms to prepare.
"Tell me who it is?"
"Who what is?" Lily looked confused.
"Lily...darling. I am your best friend right?"
"For now, yes." She simply said, kidding of course. Diana glared at her.
"Well then. You are an open book Lily Evans. At least to me. Now you want to fuck someone. Who is it?"
"Diana!" Lily yelled. "Will you keep your voice down. We are not the only people in here." Diana laughed and Lily shook her head. "Ugh, you are so vulgar."
"Answer the question."
"No."
"Fine, then you can forget about me making friends with Black. Lets see, how shall I piss him off today?" she contemplated, out loud.
"Oh please don't. Fine, I'll tell you."
Diana immediately stopped what she was doing to listen intently to Lily's response, which annoyed Lily even more. Then while Diana was smirking she chickened out.
"I've changed my mind." Lily said and proceeded to leave.
"What?! No I wont settle for that." Diana said, blocking the door.
"Don't be a bitch." Lily warned.
"Tell me." Diana locked it.
"Ok. IhaveacrushonPotter, there!" she spat, hoping it would be enough
"Sorry? I didn't quite hear that."
Lily reached over and leaned in by Diana's ear. She hesitated again and then whispered his name. At the mere mention of it Diana erupted into a fit of uncontrollable laughter. She fell to the floor and began to smack the ground. This was too much.
"Are you kidding?" she asked, in between breaths and laughter. "I don't believe it! Oh Lily you are too much!" she cried, getting up but still clutching her diaphragm.
Lily couldn't help but laugh along with her. "I know, I know." Lily said, smiling.
"But seriously now. Potter?!" Diana yelled.
"Shhhhh!!!!" Lily said, pressing her index finger over her mouth. "Shut up!"
"Oh Lily no one is in here." She said, dismissing her. She finally had calmed down and leaned against the wall. "Wow," she began out of pure shock. "James Potter, the biggest player Hogwarts has ever seen, and you want to go to bed with him. Lily my dear, have I taught you nothing? I am shocked an appalled." She said, pretending she was angry.
"Believe me so am I. I didn't see it coming I'll tell you that much."
"Yes love does creep up on us when we least expect it." she said, trying to sound knowledgeable. "You surprise me Lily. All the times we have spent making fun of the self-centered git and his 'conquests' and here you are, wanting to be one of them. I think I'm going to cry."
"I don't want to be a conquest. I don't want to be anything. It is just a crush; a silly girlish crush and it will pass. I am not now, nor will I ever be in love with James Potter. Could you imagine if I was? I'd be as helpless as all the others. Plus it would never work out. He would annoy the living shit out of me."
"Yea, he's a bit immature. But I have noticed him look at you differently. He doesn't look like he wants to vomit when you walk in the room anymore. I think he is glad you are around, most of the time."
"Can we overanalyze this some other time? I want to eat." Lily said, and then they heard a toilet flush. At first Lily felt embarrassed but she wanted to die when she saw who came out of the stall.
Lily and Diana stared into the hurt eyes of Narcissa Silverton, who casually walked passed them. She unlocked the door and slammed it behind her.
"Oh shit." Diana said and covered her mouth. Lily rubbed her temples.
"Do you think she heard?"
Diana just looked at her. "Um, yea. We weren't exactly whispering." She said.
"Oh I feel horrible." Lily said. "Shit." She felt like she was going to overheat.
"Why don't you go downstairs and eat something. It will calm you down." Diana said soothingly. She felt it was somewhat her fault. Lily had asked her not to shout. Lily listened to her and walked out, in a not so pleasant mood. Diana hung around for a minute, fixing her appearance. Lucius would be downstairs, she feared. She was embarrassed about that too, because to her knowledge, she was not a virgin.
She brushed it off and exited the bathroom. She stopped in her room to put away her hairbrush before hurrying downstairs to eat. She was terribly hungry.
She was surprised to find that Sirius was still in the common room when everyone else had left. She noticed him reading something, and was cross to find out what it was.
"Why are you reading my book?" she asked from the top of the stairs. Sirius' eyes shot up at the sound of her voice.
"Your book?" he asked, surprised.
"Yes. And what are you still doing up here? Everyone's already downstairs."
"Yes I know. I didn't know you were here." He said, beginning to read again. This was a loosing battle with her. She began to walk down the stairs.
"May I have it please?" she asked, reaching her hand out to him. She figured she could at least ask him reasonably nicely.
"I'm in the middle of something here. Besides, you left it down here unattended. That means it's fair game for anyone to just pick it up."
And it happens to be you, she thought. Then she remembered Lily's words in the bathroom. She had promised to apologize, and she really didn't want to.
"Why are you reading that?" she asked, slightly avoiding her purpose for a few minutes. "It's mine." She repeated.
"Yes so I've heard. Where did you get this?"
"My uncle sent it to me. I don't have any use for it though." She said, folding her arms.
"May I borrow it?"
"Why?" she asked, raising an eyebrow at him.
"Because I find it interesting, and since you don't I wonder if I might steal it for a while, just until I am done of course."
"Yes, well I suppose you have a point. Fine I suppose you can borrow it." She hesitated at what she was about to say. "Listen Black?"
He lifted his eyes to her once more and closed the book. "Yes?"
"I.. uh..well I'm sorry for this morning. I..I didn't mean to snap at you. I suppose you didn't deserve it." she said, not looking directly at him.
"Really?" he asked, folding his arms. "You were horribly rude."
She glared at him. "I know. I just have a lot of stuff going on and....I want to apologize to you."
Sirius cracked a small smile. "I appreciate that."
"Now what exactly did you want to tell me this morning?"
"The same thing basically."
"Did Lily tell you to do that?"
"No. She never said a word about anything." He said.
"Oh." Diana felt a bit silly.
"Sit down Renton." He commanded.
"What for?"
"Just do it." he said, and she did, but on the other side of the sofa. "I'm sorry." He said, and from his tone she knew he meant it.
"For?"
"Everything basically. I am tired of us being on opposite sides of the spectrum."
"What spectrum?" she chuckled.
"You know what I mean. We are on the same team after all."
"This is true. I never did thank you for yesterday. You helped out there, I could have fallen or gotten hurt or something." She remembered how he had handled that Bludger that was fired at her during the game, but she was so puzzled that he actually did it that she had forgotten to thank him for it.
"Well we needed to win, and they were cheating."
"I guess you're right."
"You were forced to say I'm sorry weren't you?" he asked, fidgeting around on the couch. He had never really spoken to her as a human being before, and it felt somewhat foreign to him. But he was delighted to do it, in his own private way.
"Well" she sighed. "Sort of."
"Lily?"
"Yes. But she did have a point. We are sort of hanging out with the same people now, it couldn't hurt. But you are an absolute prick, and I don't know if you will ever really be nice. I personally don't think you have it in you."
"Really? Well, I'm not so bad." He smirked.
"Don't be cocky. Besides, Lily seems to like you, for an inexplicable reason. I guess I could tolerate you, but only if you promise not to insult me anymore."
"I promise. And no more calling me pieces of human garbage and using words I don't understand."
"Ugh, its not my fault you have the vocabulary of a ten year old child." She said, getting a little more comfortable. She crossed her legs and when she did a little bit of her midriff showed. They were allowed regular clothes on the weekends.
Sirius eyed her up and down and she noticed.
"Well even I have imperfections. And I have no problem tolerating you. Its not as easy as you think, being on your hit list."
"I was unaware I had one, but yes you would be on it." she said. He got up from the couch and she sank into it a bit more.
"Do you want to end this shit or not?" he asked, placing the book down on a nearby table.
"Ugh, fine. If you leave me alone I suppose I could be indifferent to you."
"Wow, indifference, how nice. But I can be civil." He said, as if he had been thinking about it.
"So can I. I am not that dreadful, you know."
Sirius thought for a moment. "I can believe that."
"Good." She said. Then there was a short period of uncomfortable silence. She fiddled with the hem of her pants, while he observed. He watched her twirl her hair for a few seconds when she caught him and immediately stopped.
"Do you want to go down?" he asked.
"Right." She said, remembering her growling stomach. "Fine."
He leant out his arm to her to help her off the couch. She gave him a strange look.
"What?" she asked, unnerved by that act. She had never really experienced chivalry first hand.
"Need help?"
"Oh." She felt a bit silly. "Um, sure?" she said it as if it were a question. He was acting a little peculiar in her opinion.
He stretched out his hand and she grabbed it. It lingered there for a few seconds and he wasn't sure what to do next. When he remembered he yanked her up a little too strongly and she was taken by surprise. She landed with a thud on his chest.
She wasn't sure if she should be angry or annoyed or if she should thank him. She felt neither angry nor annoyed with him. For the first time she noticed what color his eyes were. They were quite similar to hers. They were dark, almost black, and had sincerity behind them. A quality she didn't think he possessed. She gently released herself but their hands were still clenched even when there was more than a foot between them.
He wanted to kiss her, he really did. She looked so sexy to him at that moment that all he wanted to do was grab her and march her upstairs as quickly as possible. He decided against it for two very specific reasons. One of them was Malfoy. His sinister face flashed into his mind and he remembered how taken she had become with him. Five minutes wasn't going to change that. The other reason was that he would most certainly receive a forceful and dramatic slap across the face and then there would certainly be no hope. She would hate him even more.
He was the one to let go, not her. He quickly shoved his hands in his pockets and began walking towards the door. She remained there for a second, trying to make what just happened make sense in her head.
"Hungry?" he asked her as he opened the door.
"Starving." Was all she could say, as she came back to reality and followed him out the door. She dismissed what had happen although he did not. She was a bit confused, and Diana hated being confused. She would not like nor trust him overnight. It took too much for her to trust anyone. So instead she kept the distance safe, and the conversation trivial. As they walked down to breakfast to greet their mutual friends, one thought kept running over and over again in her mind. It had certainly been an interesting three weeks...
(I know, nothing major and it still drags a bit. The next chapter will be set a few months later, probably around Christmas or Halloween or whatever. Updates will most likely be every Saturday. Well, at least a New York Saturday. Thanks again for the reviews!)~Angelxd14