The Wheel Turns, and Returns
Hi, this is me. Okay, so you knew that. My point is, I have done one of the most terrible deeds known to authors. I have... dropped... my story, spit on it, given it a good kick, ran it through a shredder, and thrown the sad, sorry fragments away. Then I rewrote it. Yes, I know. I'm the spawn of evil.
The first thing that I want you to know is that I sincerely thank all of you for sticking with me. I couldn't have made it even as far as I did without you. Kudos to the reviewers! -group hug-
On a more somber note, you should also know that I had a big, long explanation for you all typed out. But then I pitched that, too, and wrote the following. All you need to know is this: I hate, with every fiber of my being, the fanfiction Shades of Gray. Yes, I do.
I tried to reason with myself. There are people who like this fic - I should keep writing. And I tried. But every time I went to open the file for Chapter 8, and even 7 and 6 before it, I felt absolutely sick. Couldn't do it, no matter how often I told myself that I should. Finally it came to the point when I was like, ok, this is just not happening.
You really don't need to know why, nor, I suppose, do you really care. I was going to tell you, had it all typed up, but I've got enough people walking around thinking I'm strange. And I'm not strange. I'm just not normal. My true passion is writing, and not what I was writing in Shades of Gray, which I began when the approaching return to school gave me an otherworldly longing to do something, anything, to take my mind off of it. So I wrote a very, very ill-planned fanfiction. Surprisingly, some people liked it. Bit strange yourselves, if you ask me.
But, I decided, I'd rather ditch this and write what I love than sit here and force out a few pages of rubbish just because a few people left reviews. Nope, I'm movin' on. No worries - I'm not trashing the idea, like I said. I'm rewriting it, hopefully making it what I wanted it to be when I first got the idea almost three years ago. Same basic idea. Same basic characters. As for the rest... well, don't hold your breath. Not for too long, at least.
Well, that's all I really have to say here. Go read Deep Water Rising, or abandon me. Shades of Gray will stay up for a while, to help people find the knew fic. If you, for whatever reason, happen to like it enough, then save it on your computer. You can have it. (Still think you're strange.)
I'm sad though - got my first ever flame just as I started to rewrite. And it wasn't even a good one. I feel cheated. Oh well, onward, I suppose, to knew and better flames.
In the end, you realize there is no end.
Farewell.