I watched from my place in the room. The room was full of battle cries and
the sound of spells flying in every direction. I fired at a Death Eater
that had crossed my path. He quickly fell, not noticing I had been standing
there until he was down. I remained in my corner, out of sight. My work for
the Order was more of freelance than being an actual part. They let me know
what was happening, and I came to meetings. Of course I would have been a
member, if only I let myself feel like associated with it. The only member
I had become remotely close to was Sirius Black. He was like me; of
pureblood descent, but pure of heart. Both of us disowned by our families
at an early age. Of course Sirius had friends, even a godson. I immediately
dissociated myself from anyone trying to understand me. But Sirius was the
only one with whom I had ever let my guard down enough to become close to.
Death almost immediately followed the few people I became friends with. I
had to keep telling myself that it wouldn't happen this time, and as soon
as the Dark Lord was out of power for good I could be happy.
I kept my eye on Sirius as he duelled with Bellatrix Lestrange on the dais which supported an archway covered by a veil. She was his, I knew that. Any other Death Eater would have been personally sniped before he even got close to Sirius. I still had a feeling in the pit of my stomach that something wasn't right. Of course it wasn't right, we were up against much more than just a problem, we were fighting a greater evil than ever before. I watched as Sirius dodged a blast of red from Bellatrix's wand.
Sirius's next words would haunt me for an eternity afterward. "Come on, you can do better than that!" He was laughing at her. Her next shot caught him square in the chest. I stopped myself from running forward, knowing that it could spell my doom. I could only watch as time slowed down to a standstill. His eyed widened in horror, though his smiled didn't quite vanish. His godson ran forward, along with the great Albus Dumbledore. They both drew their wands.
Sirius fell backward, he appeared to be moving through water. I watched in my silent terror as he disappeared into the veil with a look of shock and panic on his face. Bellatrix let out a horrible triumphant war cry. His godson had ran towards the veil screaming Sirius's name in short frightened gasps which bordered on sobs. He was almost there when Sirius's good friend, Remus Lupin caught Harry around the chest to prevent him from reaching his destination. I realized then that I had sunk to my knees, a numbness in my veins.
"There's nothing you can do, Harry -" I could hear the pain in Remus's voice, though it remained steady and calm. He had learned a long time ago how to numb the pain of loss.
"Get him, save him, he's only just gone through!" Harry was on the verge of hysteria, letting out a series of sobbing screams.
"Its too late, Harry."
"We can still reach him -" Harry struggled ferociously to break free of Remus's grip, but he held firm. "There's nothing you can do, Harry ... nothing ... he's gone."
"He hasn't gone!" Harry was screaming.
"SIRIUS! SIRIUS!" "He can't come back, Harry, he can't come back because he's d-"
"HE - IS - NOT - DEAD! SIRIUS!" I could feel a tear drip down my cheek. Still I watched as though I was floating. I felt as though I was no longer there, simply just a witness to the actions going on around me. There was still a battle going on. I suddenly took note of all that had continued to happen as Sirius had gone. I collapsed back into the corner, unable to go on. I pulled my legs up close and began to sob silently in the shadows. He isn't gone. Harry's words echoed through my head. He's only just gone through. I then realized what I had to do.
I rose to my feet and crossed the battlefield. Anyone who had watched Sirius fall to the other side was nowhere to be seen, so noone could stop me. I had only one objective in mind, and nothing could prevent me from reaching the veil. I blocked out all of the activity and noise surrounding me. I stepped up the dais, and reached the archway. Holding my breath, hoping to reveal Sirius waiting there with his impatient smile, eager to begin the battle once again, I took the remaining step toward the tattered veil.
I closed my eyes, pulled back the veil and stepped forward.
I kept my eye on Sirius as he duelled with Bellatrix Lestrange on the dais which supported an archway covered by a veil. She was his, I knew that. Any other Death Eater would have been personally sniped before he even got close to Sirius. I still had a feeling in the pit of my stomach that something wasn't right. Of course it wasn't right, we were up against much more than just a problem, we were fighting a greater evil than ever before. I watched as Sirius dodged a blast of red from Bellatrix's wand.
Sirius's next words would haunt me for an eternity afterward. "Come on, you can do better than that!" He was laughing at her. Her next shot caught him square in the chest. I stopped myself from running forward, knowing that it could spell my doom. I could only watch as time slowed down to a standstill. His eyed widened in horror, though his smiled didn't quite vanish. His godson ran forward, along with the great Albus Dumbledore. They both drew their wands.
Sirius fell backward, he appeared to be moving through water. I watched in my silent terror as he disappeared into the veil with a look of shock and panic on his face. Bellatrix let out a horrible triumphant war cry. His godson had ran towards the veil screaming Sirius's name in short frightened gasps which bordered on sobs. He was almost there when Sirius's good friend, Remus Lupin caught Harry around the chest to prevent him from reaching his destination. I realized then that I had sunk to my knees, a numbness in my veins.
"There's nothing you can do, Harry -" I could hear the pain in Remus's voice, though it remained steady and calm. He had learned a long time ago how to numb the pain of loss.
"Get him, save him, he's only just gone through!" Harry was on the verge of hysteria, letting out a series of sobbing screams.
"Its too late, Harry."
"We can still reach him -" Harry struggled ferociously to break free of Remus's grip, but he held firm. "There's nothing you can do, Harry ... nothing ... he's gone."
"He hasn't gone!" Harry was screaming.
"SIRIUS! SIRIUS!" "He can't come back, Harry, he can't come back because he's d-"
"HE - IS - NOT - DEAD! SIRIUS!" I could feel a tear drip down my cheek. Still I watched as though I was floating. I felt as though I was no longer there, simply just a witness to the actions going on around me. There was still a battle going on. I suddenly took note of all that had continued to happen as Sirius had gone. I collapsed back into the corner, unable to go on. I pulled my legs up close and began to sob silently in the shadows. He isn't gone. Harry's words echoed through my head. He's only just gone through. I then realized what I had to do.
I rose to my feet and crossed the battlefield. Anyone who had watched Sirius fall to the other side was nowhere to be seen, so noone could stop me. I had only one objective in mind, and nothing could prevent me from reaching the veil. I blocked out all of the activity and noise surrounding me. I stepped up the dais, and reached the archway. Holding my breath, hoping to reveal Sirius waiting there with his impatient smile, eager to begin the battle once again, I took the remaining step toward the tattered veil.
I closed my eyes, pulled back the veil and stepped forward.