Ch 11

it's getting mushier and mushier...Make sure your seatbacks and tray tables are in the upright and locked position. In the event of fiction sickness, the sickness bags are located in the back of the seat in front you you. Thankyou, enjoy your life

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"I love you too Remus." Her words thundered through his head. For a moment he was afraid. The fear was completely unrational, but it was still fear. It vanished as soon as he felt Hermione's lips touch his again. After a second she pulled away.

"Why do you kiss me?" Remus asked her after a moment. He could almost see the memory cross Hermione's mind. After a moment she spoke, a smile in her eyes.

"I believe I asked you first Remus. And I don't think you gave me your real answer, so how about now? Why did you kiss me?" she asked, tracing a finger over his lower lip. Lupin cleared his throat and smiled. Leaning close to Hermione, his lips brushed her ear.

"Because I loved you." He said quietly. Hermione blushed when she felt his lips barely touching hers, inviting and teasing her. Just as she was about to accept, he spoke again.

"I cursed myself for it every night. You were so young. It was inapropriate. And then when you told me what you had found...I couldn't believe it. The notes I let you borrow, I later realized, were my way of opening a door. Inviting you to reveal my secret. I had hoped that once you had, you would hate me. I wanted so badly for a reason to forget you. Then there was the screaming voice in my head. Begging you not to hate me. There were so many times that I wanted to tell you. So many times I had wanted to...well, I wasn't exactly sure what I wanted. I just knew I wanted you." Lupin ducked his head, an embarassed look on his face. He felt Hermione's hand absently stroking the back of his neck. "I kissed you because...I had to."

He felt Hermione smile as she rested her head in on his shoulder. "Now Miss Granger. I believe I answered your question. Don't you have something to share with the rest of the class?" He teased.

"I always knew you enjoyed people calling you professor. Must be an ego thing..." She trailed off when Lupin glared at her. It didn't last long because he laughed when Hemrione tried to return the look.

"Well?" He asked, wrapping his arm around her and pulling her against him. Hermione sat quietly for a moment, thinking.

"I remember the day we said goodbye very clearly. But the clearest thing I remember is you kissing me. I uh...I was completely..er taken by you at the time. When I saw you on the train, I knew there was something about you. The pain in your eyes hurt me in some way I couldn't understand back then. It may sound rediculous but I saw myself in you, more importantly I kept seeing myself with you. I tried to convince myself it was just a crush, that you thought only of me as your student. And then you kissed me. Every single emotion I had kept in check flooded me at that moment and it took all of my willpower not to kiss you. I've been in love with you for 6 years Remus. And I think I kissed you..because I needed to. For my sake, and for yours. I told you I wasn't going to let you be alone. And if you're not alone, then maybe..I wont be either."

Without a word, Lupin closed the distance with Hermione and their lips met again. There was no force or hurry, just a need to be close. Picking Hermione up, Lupin stood and walked to the blankets they had been on the night before. He laid her down gently, and looked down at her. She smiled up at him, almost shyly. Slowly, Lupin lowered himself to the blankets. Hermione reached up and touched his chest, he moved his hand to cover hers. They just sat there, absorbing each other. Finally, Lupin couldn't stop himself. Supporting his weight with his arms, he hovered over her and lowered his head to kiss her. Immediatly her hands came up and burried themselves in his hair. Lupin settled fully down now, his weight resting atop Hermione. She held his lips in place with her hands and deepened the kiss. She felt Remus run his tounge across her lower lip and she welcomed it into her mouth. He grunted softly as she shifted underneath him. Their lack of clothing made every touch electric. Soon Remus's mouth had left Hermiones and traveled all over her face. He kissed each eyelid, each cheek then traveled lower. Brushing his lips over hers for a moment he shifted and started trailing them up and down her jaw.

Hermione released a shaky breath as she felt heat spread at each place she was being kissed. "Remus..."

"I'm here Hermione." he said. His quiet words were her undoing. In moments they had removed the thin clothing seperating them. They moved slowly together at first. Remus's lips spread fire all across her body. He found the sounds and the movements she made hypnotising. She pressed her body into his, the friction sending waves of pleasure through the both of them. "I love you so much Hermione. I need you." he spoke with an almost reverant tone and then grited his teeth as she moved her hips again.

Hermione gripped tightly at his shoulder in an effort to calm the feelings that were consuming her. She knew Remus was as close as she to the end from the insistence of his kisses and the pace of their movement. Pulling him down to her again, she sucked on his bottom lip and arched her hips sharply. He groaned and hissed at the same time. Suddenly there was a blinding white flash in Hermione's eyes and she banged her head back on the ground. After another second, she felt Remus join her in ecstasy.

He collapsed down next to her, his body covering half of hers. She felt him trembling and turned to wrap her arms around him. He rested his forehead against hers and let out a shaky breath. Hermione leaned forward to kiss him again, gently. They lay there in silence, until Remus spoke.

"I'm so in love with you Hermione. I need you in my life. All the times I tried to push you away, I only wanted to keep you in my life. I..." He broke off, frustrated when he couldn't find the words.

"I know Remus." She said, as if reading his mind. "I've been in love with you for 6 years. I never ever stopped. I'm never going to. How could I let go of the very person I've lived for?" Hermione closed her eyes. Remus smiled and pulled her onto his chest.

"I love you." He whispered. Hermione mumbled softly, falling asleep. With a smile he reached and he pulled a stray blanket up to cover them. Slowly, he joined her in sleep.

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I knew this chapter was going to come up sooner or later. I guess Im glad its over..but I admit that I don't write this part of romance too well. If any of you think it totaly sucks, I'll take it off and try for a rewrite. I don't know...uh..just tell me what you think