Chapter 17
Will was still shocked. "He's...dead?"he asked.
"I'm sorry. He slipped into unconsciousness and we couldn't revive him. I'm sorry for your loss,"and he slowly shut the door.
Will stood there,not knowing if he should talk to Nicole and his son. But Nicole was already at the top of the stairs.
"Will...?"she asked.
But Will just stood there without say anything. Nicole came down the stairs and looked at Will in the eye.
"Is he...?"
Will pulled her closer to her. He was just so scared that he couldn't say anything. "God I'm so sorry,"he whispered,his limps trembling.
Nicole put her head on Will's shoulder. The tears then started to fall. "There was nothing you could have done Will."
"I shouldn't have let him go. I should have grabbed his hand and told him to stay here. I should fought that pirate."
"But then the pirate would have tried to kill you too Will. And then how would I live without a husband?"
He looked at her and then they embraced. How could I have let this happen,he thought. I could I have let him die? I should have stayed and helped him. If I hadn't let him leave then he would still be alive. This is all my fault...
"Will...?"
"Yes?"
"I love you."
He kissed her again. "I love you too."
"You think we should tell him?"
"In the mor--,"he looked up. His son was already at the stairs. He knew what had been going on all along.
Little Will ran down the stairs and hugged his father's leg. "Is it true...is he really dead?"he asked.
Will nodded and said nothing. This was bad enough. "I at least thought he would make it into the afternoon."
"What did the doctor say?"asked Nicole.
"He slipped into unconsciousness and never woke up. The pain was just too great for him."
"There was nothing you could have done Will."
"I could have told him not to go."
"Will...please. This isn't your fault. You did what you could."
He sighed and sat down on the couch. "I lost my first wife,and now my best friend."
Nicole sat next to him and put her head on his shoulder. "But you have me,your son,and your daughters."
He smiled. "Yes...yes I do."
"I just wish I could have said goodbye to him..."
"So do I."
Little Will then came over and sat on Will's lap. He was very quiet,not knowing what to say. The grief for all three of the then was just too strong.
"You need to go to bed,"Will whispered in his son's ear. Little Will did not say anything. He just slowly walked upstairs to his room. "I hate having to bring him into this."
"He was going to have to find out sooner our later. He wasn't going to be able to see him in the morning anyways."
"Yes. That's true." It's just going to be tough getting over this,he thought. I never thought I would feel like this. Jack was only my best friend. But he helped me save my first life. People hated him and even tried to kill him,but I saw past that. I knew that he was a good man. Now he's dead.
"Are you ok?"
He nodded. "Yes. I'm fine." He put his hand on her face and drew her closer to him. "I love you."
"I love you too Will."
His lips started to tremble again. God why I am so scared,he thought. Why do I feel like this all of a sudden?
"Will...?"
"Hmmm?"
"You're trembling."
"I'm sorry. I'm just scared."
She sighed and hugged him. "I know. I'm scared too. I've never felt more scared in my life."
"I just wish I could have done...something..."
"You tried Will. But we're all going to have to get over it."
"I know...I know."
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The next morning was very quiet. No one barely said anything. Jack was gone. His funeral was going to be tomorrow. Will was still feeling the grief. Why have so many people in my life left me,he thought. I never meant for this to happen. I didn't mean for him to get killed. I didn't mean for him to leave his daughter and his grandchildren.
Early that morning Will slipped out of bed and went outside. He sat on the ground,not wanting to talk or do anything but just sit there. This is the only place I can be at peace,he thought. This is the only place where I can think. I'm so sorry Jack. I didn't mean for things to go this far. Had I not known this was going to happen I would have pulled your arm and told you to come back into the house.
"Will."it was Nicole. "I thought you might be here."
"What are you doing here?"
"You left without telling me where you were. I got scared and tried to find you." She sat down by Will. "I know how much you hate this. But I do too. But I can't help it that he's gone either. But it wasn't your fault Will. Maybe it was just his time to leave."
"How can you be so calm?"
"Because I know that he's still with me Will...even though he's not here at the moment."
"You're a very strong person you know?"
"Who told you that?"
"Your father did...when we were going to rescue our son."
"Then at least you have something to remember him by."
"That something is you Nicole. And that's all I need."
"I never thought that I would have a husband. And then my father dropped my off here and now I have a family. I have you,and my children. I guess my father did some good in his life."
"He did more than that. He helped me rescue my first love. And now I have you. He was a good man. Some people just didn't see that."
"Did you want him hung?"
He smiled a little. "At first I did. I was brought up like everyone here to hate pirates. But then I saw how good of a man he was,so I helped him from getting hung."
"That's why he always talked about you."
"Because of that?"
"Yes. You were always his best friend."
"He was mine too. I never really had a friend until he came alone."
"I never had any friends on Tortuga."
"Who took you in after he left?"
"When he left I was still living with my mother,and then she died so I had to fend for myself."
"I see."
"I always wanted to leave Tortuga. I hated the lifestyle. Everyone getting drunk,fights breaking out every night. You could never had any peace."
"How many times did you try to leave?"
"Probably about six or seven."
"Oh..."
Nicole then went silent. She frowned and hung her head.
"What's wrong love?"
She shook her head. "It's nothing."
He put his arms around her shoulder and pulled her closer to him. "I know what's wrong. You're still grieving aren't you?"
She nodded. "I know. I sound so stupid."
He kissed her. "No you don't. I love you. That's why I married you and started a family. I'm glad I got to love again."
"Thank you Will."
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Carry this picture
By: Dashboard Confessional
Carry this picture for luck...
Kept in a locket,tucked in your collar...
Close to your chest...
Make a secret,
Shown to the closest friends...
And meet me at quarter to seven...
The sun will still shine then,at this time of year...
We'll head to the inlet...
And we'll share a bottle there...
And color the coast with your smile...
It's the most genuine thing I've ever seen...
I was so lost,but now,I believe...
And follow me south of the big docks,
Where they tether the boats...
The rich men revere as so important,
They hire our fathers to steer...
And down to the edge of the water where we'll spill our guts,
And we'll name our fears...
I'll give you this picture...
Keep it and don't be scared...
And color the coast with your smile...
It's the most genuine thing I've ever seen...
I was so lost,but now,I believe...
Your smile is the most genuine thing I've ever seen...
I was so lost,but now,
I believe...
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Will was still shocked. "He's...dead?"he asked.
"I'm sorry. He slipped into unconsciousness and we couldn't revive him. I'm sorry for your loss,"and he slowly shut the door.
Will stood there,not knowing if he should talk to Nicole and his son. But Nicole was already at the top of the stairs.
"Will...?"she asked.
But Will just stood there without say anything. Nicole came down the stairs and looked at Will in the eye.
"Is he...?"
Will pulled her closer to her. He was just so scared that he couldn't say anything. "God I'm so sorry,"he whispered,his limps trembling.
Nicole put her head on Will's shoulder. The tears then started to fall. "There was nothing you could have done Will."
"I shouldn't have let him go. I should have grabbed his hand and told him to stay here. I should fought that pirate."
"But then the pirate would have tried to kill you too Will. And then how would I live without a husband?"
He looked at her and then they embraced. How could I have let this happen,he thought. I could I have let him die? I should have stayed and helped him. If I hadn't let him leave then he would still be alive. This is all my fault...
"Will...?"
"Yes?"
"I love you."
He kissed her again. "I love you too."
"You think we should tell him?"
"In the mor--,"he looked up. His son was already at the stairs. He knew what had been going on all along.
Little Will ran down the stairs and hugged his father's leg. "Is it true...is he really dead?"he asked.
Will nodded and said nothing. This was bad enough. "I at least thought he would make it into the afternoon."
"What did the doctor say?"asked Nicole.
"He slipped into unconsciousness and never woke up. The pain was just too great for him."
"There was nothing you could have done Will."
"I could have told him not to go."
"Will...please. This isn't your fault. You did what you could."
He sighed and sat down on the couch. "I lost my first wife,and now my best friend."
Nicole sat next to him and put her head on his shoulder. "But you have me,your son,and your daughters."
He smiled. "Yes...yes I do."
"I just wish I could have said goodbye to him..."
"So do I."
Little Will then came over and sat on Will's lap. He was very quiet,not knowing what to say. The grief for all three of the then was just too strong.
"You need to go to bed,"Will whispered in his son's ear. Little Will did not say anything. He just slowly walked upstairs to his room. "I hate having to bring him into this."
"He was going to have to find out sooner our later. He wasn't going to be able to see him in the morning anyways."
"Yes. That's true." It's just going to be tough getting over this,he thought. I never thought I would feel like this. Jack was only my best friend. But he helped me save my first life. People hated him and even tried to kill him,but I saw past that. I knew that he was a good man. Now he's dead.
"Are you ok?"
He nodded. "Yes. I'm fine." He put his hand on her face and drew her closer to him. "I love you."
"I love you too Will."
His lips started to tremble again. God why I am so scared,he thought. Why do I feel like this all of a sudden?
"Will...?"
"Hmmm?"
"You're trembling."
"I'm sorry. I'm just scared."
She sighed and hugged him. "I know. I'm scared too. I've never felt more scared in my life."
"I just wish I could have done...something..."
"You tried Will. But we're all going to have to get over it."
"I know...I know."
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The next morning was very quiet. No one barely said anything. Jack was gone. His funeral was going to be tomorrow. Will was still feeling the grief. Why have so many people in my life left me,he thought. I never meant for this to happen. I didn't mean for him to get killed. I didn't mean for him to leave his daughter and his grandchildren.
Early that morning Will slipped out of bed and went outside. He sat on the ground,not wanting to talk or do anything but just sit there. This is the only place I can be at peace,he thought. This is the only place where I can think. I'm so sorry Jack. I didn't mean for things to go this far. Had I not known this was going to happen I would have pulled your arm and told you to come back into the house.
"Will."it was Nicole. "I thought you might be here."
"What are you doing here?"
"You left without telling me where you were. I got scared and tried to find you." She sat down by Will. "I know how much you hate this. But I do too. But I can't help it that he's gone either. But it wasn't your fault Will. Maybe it was just his time to leave."
"How can you be so calm?"
"Because I know that he's still with me Will...even though he's not here at the moment."
"You're a very strong person you know?"
"Who told you that?"
"Your father did...when we were going to rescue our son."
"Then at least you have something to remember him by."
"That something is you Nicole. And that's all I need."
"I never thought that I would have a husband. And then my father dropped my off here and now I have a family. I have you,and my children. I guess my father did some good in his life."
"He did more than that. He helped me rescue my first love. And now I have you. He was a good man. Some people just didn't see that."
"Did you want him hung?"
He smiled a little. "At first I did. I was brought up like everyone here to hate pirates. But then I saw how good of a man he was,so I helped him from getting hung."
"That's why he always talked about you."
"Because of that?"
"Yes. You were always his best friend."
"He was mine too. I never really had a friend until he came alone."
"I never had any friends on Tortuga."
"Who took you in after he left?"
"When he left I was still living with my mother,and then she died so I had to fend for myself."
"I see."
"I always wanted to leave Tortuga. I hated the lifestyle. Everyone getting drunk,fights breaking out every night. You could never had any peace."
"How many times did you try to leave?"
"Probably about six or seven."
"Oh..."
Nicole then went silent. She frowned and hung her head.
"What's wrong love?"
She shook her head. "It's nothing."
He put his arms around her shoulder and pulled her closer to him. "I know what's wrong. You're still grieving aren't you?"
She nodded. "I know. I sound so stupid."
He kissed her. "No you don't. I love you. That's why I married you and started a family. I'm glad I got to love again."
"Thank you Will."
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Carry this picture
By: Dashboard Confessional
Carry this picture for luck...
Kept in a locket,tucked in your collar...
Close to your chest...
Make a secret,
Shown to the closest friends...
And meet me at quarter to seven...
The sun will still shine then,at this time of year...
We'll head to the inlet...
And we'll share a bottle there...
And color the coast with your smile...
It's the most genuine thing I've ever seen...
I was so lost,but now,I believe...
And follow me south of the big docks,
Where they tether the boats...
The rich men revere as so important,
They hire our fathers to steer...
And down to the edge of the water where we'll spill our guts,
And we'll name our fears...
I'll give you this picture...
Keep it and don't be scared...
And color the coast with your smile...
It's the most genuine thing I've ever seen...
I was so lost,but now,I believe...
Your smile is the most genuine thing I've ever seen...
I was so lost,but now,
I believe...
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