Chapter 18
The day was very quiet and calm. The only thing they could talk about was Jack. But soon the day turned into night. Jack had been gone for a day now,but they knew why. He wasn't coming back now. They had to except that.
Will put his son to bed while Nicole fed her daughters. After that she went down the hall and to her father's room. But before she went in,she stopped. He's gone,she thought. He's gone and he's not coming back. I just that I got to say goodbye. This house is going to be really lonely without you father. I don't hate you. I would never hate you. I know you didn't raise me like a normal father because you were a pirate,but I would never hate you. I miss you. I want to see you again. But I know I'll never will.
Her thoughts were then interrupted by someone. It was Will. He put his hand on her shoulder. "Are you ok?"he whispered in her ear.
"I was just thinking...about how much I miss him,"she said as she turned to him.
"I know. I miss him too."
"I just wanted to tell him...that I don't hate him. I knew that probably thought that."
"You told him once you didn't hate him. He knew that. He just didn't want you to see him like that."
She nodded and didn't say anything.
Will put his hand on her face and drew her closer to him. "Jack would want you to get hurt. He's glad that you're still alive and that you have a family. At least he got to see his granddaughters. That's all he wanted." Then they embraced,but not for too long because Nicole started to sob. "What's wrong love?"
She shook her head and started to wipe her eyes. "Nothing...it's nothing. I've just never felt like this before. When my mother died I was so confused. Now I have no parents."
"Jack did what he would. He did this because he cared about you and his grandchildren. He was so scared when you go hurt. You should be glad that he didn't go back to Tortuga like he said he would love."
"Why was he going back there?"
"He didn't tell me. But he told me that it was urgent and he was going to leave that afternoon. And then you got shot and he never left. He then told me that he was going to find the person who shot you."
"I didn't want him to die Will...I never wanted any of this to happen. I loved him so much. After he stopped being a pirate he became more of the father than I ever realized. But even when he was a pirate I still loved him. I thought about him every night when he was gone. You should have seen my face when he came back to Tortuga when he came to get me. I was probably the happiest person in the world. God I sound so stupid..."
He kissed her. "No you don't love."
"I can't believe I'm actually saying these things."
"At least you're being honest."
She sighed and smiled. "Yes."
"I know how much you miss him. But I know you miss him more than I do love. I cared about him too. I never wanted him to die either. I'm the one he should mad at right now. I should have stopped him when I had the chance."
"But you never thought that this was going to happen Will."
He sighed. "But I could have stopped him love."
She looked into the room again and went in,and so did Will. "God I feel so lonely now."
"At least we still have the memories of him."
"Yes..."
He went over and hugged her and kissed her forhead. "I love you. I would never want to lose you. You mean so much to me. I have to thank your father so much for letting me have you as my wife. Now I have a family. If it wasn't for him I would never have had any of this stuff."
She smiled and said nothing.
"Let's go to bed all right? You've had a long day. I'll be there in a second love."
She nodded and left the room.
God it's going to be lonely without you Jack,he thought. We all miss you. If only you could be here right now. Your granddaughters are going every day. They'll never forget you. We'll talk about you every day so they'll know what a good person you were Jack. I'm sorry I didn't pull you back. If I had only knew what was going to happen.
But thank you for being a good person and letting me have a family again,he thought. I never really thought that I could love again. But then you brought your daughter to the island and nothing was the same again. But now I have a son and too daughters that I can take care of. Thank you so much...
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I'm so tired of being here,suppressed by all my childish fears...
And if you have to leave,I wish that you just leave...
Because you presence still lingers here,and it won't leave me alone...
These wounds won't heal,this pain is just to real...
There's just too much that time can not erase...
You cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears...
And I held your hands through all of theses years...
But you still have all of me...
You used to captivate me,by your resontating light...
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind...
Your face haunts my one pleasant dreams...
Your voice that chased away all the sanity in me...
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears, when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears...
And I held your hands through all of theses years...
But you still have all of me...
I've tired so hard to tell myself that your gone...
And though you're still with me...
I've been alone all along...
You cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears...
And I held your hands through all of theses years...
But you still have all of me...
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The day was very quiet and calm. The only thing they could talk about was Jack. But soon the day turned into night. Jack had been gone for a day now,but they knew why. He wasn't coming back now. They had to except that.
Will put his son to bed while Nicole fed her daughters. After that she went down the hall and to her father's room. But before she went in,she stopped. He's gone,she thought. He's gone and he's not coming back. I just that I got to say goodbye. This house is going to be really lonely without you father. I don't hate you. I would never hate you. I know you didn't raise me like a normal father because you were a pirate,but I would never hate you. I miss you. I want to see you again. But I know I'll never will.
Her thoughts were then interrupted by someone. It was Will. He put his hand on her shoulder. "Are you ok?"he whispered in her ear.
"I was just thinking...about how much I miss him,"she said as she turned to him.
"I know. I miss him too."
"I just wanted to tell him...that I don't hate him. I knew that probably thought that."
"You told him once you didn't hate him. He knew that. He just didn't want you to see him like that."
She nodded and didn't say anything.
Will put his hand on her face and drew her closer to him. "Jack would want you to get hurt. He's glad that you're still alive and that you have a family. At least he got to see his granddaughters. That's all he wanted." Then they embraced,but not for too long because Nicole started to sob. "What's wrong love?"
She shook her head and started to wipe her eyes. "Nothing...it's nothing. I've just never felt like this before. When my mother died I was so confused. Now I have no parents."
"Jack did what he would. He did this because he cared about you and his grandchildren. He was so scared when you go hurt. You should be glad that he didn't go back to Tortuga like he said he would love."
"Why was he going back there?"
"He didn't tell me. But he told me that it was urgent and he was going to leave that afternoon. And then you got shot and he never left. He then told me that he was going to find the person who shot you."
"I didn't want him to die Will...I never wanted any of this to happen. I loved him so much. After he stopped being a pirate he became more of the father than I ever realized. But even when he was a pirate I still loved him. I thought about him every night when he was gone. You should have seen my face when he came back to Tortuga when he came to get me. I was probably the happiest person in the world. God I sound so stupid..."
He kissed her. "No you don't love."
"I can't believe I'm actually saying these things."
"At least you're being honest."
She sighed and smiled. "Yes."
"I know how much you miss him. But I know you miss him more than I do love. I cared about him too. I never wanted him to die either. I'm the one he should mad at right now. I should have stopped him when I had the chance."
"But you never thought that this was going to happen Will."
He sighed. "But I could have stopped him love."
She looked into the room again and went in,and so did Will. "God I feel so lonely now."
"At least we still have the memories of him."
"Yes..."
He went over and hugged her and kissed her forhead. "I love you. I would never want to lose you. You mean so much to me. I have to thank your father so much for letting me have you as my wife. Now I have a family. If it wasn't for him I would never have had any of this stuff."
She smiled and said nothing.
"Let's go to bed all right? You've had a long day. I'll be there in a second love."
She nodded and left the room.
God it's going to be lonely without you Jack,he thought. We all miss you. If only you could be here right now. Your granddaughters are going every day. They'll never forget you. We'll talk about you every day so they'll know what a good person you were Jack. I'm sorry I didn't pull you back. If I had only knew what was going to happen.
But thank you for being a good person and letting me have a family again,he thought. I never really thought that I could love again. But then you brought your daughter to the island and nothing was the same again. But now I have a son and too daughters that I can take care of. Thank you so much...
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I'm so tired of being here,suppressed by all my childish fears...
And if you have to leave,I wish that you just leave...
Because you presence still lingers here,and it won't leave me alone...
These wounds won't heal,this pain is just to real...
There's just too much that time can not erase...
You cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears...
And I held your hands through all of theses years...
But you still have all of me...
You used to captivate me,by your resontating light...
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind...
Your face haunts my one pleasant dreams...
Your voice that chased away all the sanity in me...
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears, when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears...
And I held your hands through all of theses years...
But you still have all of me...
I've tired so hard to tell myself that your gone...
And though you're still with me...
I've been alone all along...
You cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears...
And I held your hands through all of theses years...
But you still have all of me...
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