A/N: Sorry it has been so long since the last update! It's been crazy
around here. Found out my coach is leaving RIGHT before my senior years
starts and there has been CHAOS like you wouldn't believe.
Anyway, here it is......
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The words were out of his mouth before he could stop them. But, strangely, he didn't care if she knew that she brought out a different side in him. Hell, he wanted her to know so much more than that. But now wasn't the time. So when she directed a questioning gaze at him he told her only half the truth.
"I've never talked openly with anyone about any of my marriages or my family."
Kate studied him out of the corner of eye. He had that look that told her he wasn't telling the whole truth. She could see the twitch in his jaw and saw his hand clench by his side. She wanted to ask him to tell her what he wasn't saying, but she was afraid. Afraid that what he would say wouldn't be what she wanted to hear.
"You ready to go back to sleep?" He asked, breaking the silence.
"Yeah."
They got up and walked up the stairs, his arm still around her shoulders. She slipped her arm around his waist and snuggled closer to his side.
"Hey, Gibbs, I know this is going to sound extremely pathetic and wrong, but...will you sleep with me?" She asked in a small voice.
He stopped their movement and looked down at her. When she didn't look at him he hooked a finger under her chin and brought her head up so he could look into her eyes. "While that could be taken the wrong way, I'm not like Tony. And that's not a pathetic request, Kate. It's an understandable one. And, yes, I would love to sleep with you." He said in a jokingly suggestive tone.
She smiled at his statement, knowing he was joking. But half of her wanted him to mean the real thing. She wanted him to want her, on a purely physical level. She wanted him to want her like she wanted him. Every time she saw him her heart lurched in her chest and her eyes saw nothing but him. She wanted him to feel what she felt, but if it wasn't going to happen she was going to take everything and anything she could get.
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Gibbs lay awake, just looking at her. He hadn't gotten a wink of sleep and now it was almost dawn. If it was any other day he probably would've been at the office by now. But today wasn't like any other day. He'd never been in such close proximity with Kate for more than a minute. She was slowly driving him crazy. Her scent had been wreaking havoc on his senses since they had first lain down. It was bad enough he had fantasies about her when he was alone, but when she was right in front of him, an arms length away, his control was slowly slipping. He had to think about the most gruesome thing he'd ever seen to keep his body in check while lying beside her.
He forced himself not to move when she shifted next to him. But as hard as he tried he couldn't stop his arms from encircling her when she snuggled against his side and rested her head on his chest. He could die right now and be happy. When she stilled again he glanced down at her and smiled slightly. Her face was turned up towards his and she was smiling; obviously not having a bad dream.
So why was he still here? He was only torturing himself by being this close to her. He was hard as steel and having half her body on top of his was not helping. He told himself he was there to make sure she didn't have nightmares. He told himself that his being there was what was keeping the nightmares away. While some of it might be true, he knew the real reason was because he loved this kind of torture.
He knew he would never have Kate in a way more than this. And he was a sick bastard to hope they didn't catch the guy anytime soon. Because, God help him, he was lost in her. He was lost in her scent, in the way her hair blew across her face when they were outside, in the way she smiled at him. It would take a lifetime to list all the ways Kate had stolen his heart, and he would rather not waste time naming them when he could be finding out more reasons why she was the most amazing woman in the world.
The first time he'd admitted to himself that she was the woman he was meant to spend the rest of his life with was when she first smiled at him. Sure, she smiles at Tony too, but not the way she smiles at him. When she smiles at Tony, it doesn't quite reach her eyes. But when she smiles at him her eyes light up and he can almost read what's going on inside her head.
He glanced back down at her when she started moving again. Only this time she practically crawled on top of him. He tried, and failed, to suppress the groan that rose in his throat. His hands, try as he might to stop them, found their way down to her rear end and brought her closer to him. He was convinced that the powers that be were out to get him when he felt her hands move against his chest and up around his neck to tangle in his hair. He gritted his teeth against the feelings she was releasing in him. It wasn't until he felt her lips on his neck and face that he knew he had to stop this. She was asleep and not in control of her actions.
He rolled over and deposited her in the space next to his.
"God knows I want you more than anything, but I want you awake when it happens." He whispered to her sleeping face before getting out of the bed and going to take a cold shower.
Anyway, here it is......
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The words were out of his mouth before he could stop them. But, strangely, he didn't care if she knew that she brought out a different side in him. Hell, he wanted her to know so much more than that. But now wasn't the time. So when she directed a questioning gaze at him he told her only half the truth.
"I've never talked openly with anyone about any of my marriages or my family."
Kate studied him out of the corner of eye. He had that look that told her he wasn't telling the whole truth. She could see the twitch in his jaw and saw his hand clench by his side. She wanted to ask him to tell her what he wasn't saying, but she was afraid. Afraid that what he would say wouldn't be what she wanted to hear.
"You ready to go back to sleep?" He asked, breaking the silence.
"Yeah."
They got up and walked up the stairs, his arm still around her shoulders. She slipped her arm around his waist and snuggled closer to his side.
"Hey, Gibbs, I know this is going to sound extremely pathetic and wrong, but...will you sleep with me?" She asked in a small voice.
He stopped their movement and looked down at her. When she didn't look at him he hooked a finger under her chin and brought her head up so he could look into her eyes. "While that could be taken the wrong way, I'm not like Tony. And that's not a pathetic request, Kate. It's an understandable one. And, yes, I would love to sleep with you." He said in a jokingly suggestive tone.
She smiled at his statement, knowing he was joking. But half of her wanted him to mean the real thing. She wanted him to want her, on a purely physical level. She wanted him to want her like she wanted him. Every time she saw him her heart lurched in her chest and her eyes saw nothing but him. She wanted him to feel what she felt, but if it wasn't going to happen she was going to take everything and anything she could get.
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Gibbs lay awake, just looking at her. He hadn't gotten a wink of sleep and now it was almost dawn. If it was any other day he probably would've been at the office by now. But today wasn't like any other day. He'd never been in such close proximity with Kate for more than a minute. She was slowly driving him crazy. Her scent had been wreaking havoc on his senses since they had first lain down. It was bad enough he had fantasies about her when he was alone, but when she was right in front of him, an arms length away, his control was slowly slipping. He had to think about the most gruesome thing he'd ever seen to keep his body in check while lying beside her.
He forced himself not to move when she shifted next to him. But as hard as he tried he couldn't stop his arms from encircling her when she snuggled against his side and rested her head on his chest. He could die right now and be happy. When she stilled again he glanced down at her and smiled slightly. Her face was turned up towards his and she was smiling; obviously not having a bad dream.
So why was he still here? He was only torturing himself by being this close to her. He was hard as steel and having half her body on top of his was not helping. He told himself he was there to make sure she didn't have nightmares. He told himself that his being there was what was keeping the nightmares away. While some of it might be true, he knew the real reason was because he loved this kind of torture.
He knew he would never have Kate in a way more than this. And he was a sick bastard to hope they didn't catch the guy anytime soon. Because, God help him, he was lost in her. He was lost in her scent, in the way her hair blew across her face when they were outside, in the way she smiled at him. It would take a lifetime to list all the ways Kate had stolen his heart, and he would rather not waste time naming them when he could be finding out more reasons why she was the most amazing woman in the world.
The first time he'd admitted to himself that she was the woman he was meant to spend the rest of his life with was when she first smiled at him. Sure, she smiles at Tony too, but not the way she smiles at him. When she smiles at Tony, it doesn't quite reach her eyes. But when she smiles at him her eyes light up and he can almost read what's going on inside her head.
He glanced back down at her when she started moving again. Only this time she practically crawled on top of him. He tried, and failed, to suppress the groan that rose in his throat. His hands, try as he might to stop them, found their way down to her rear end and brought her closer to him. He was convinced that the powers that be were out to get him when he felt her hands move against his chest and up around his neck to tangle in his hair. He gritted his teeth against the feelings she was releasing in him. It wasn't until he felt her lips on his neck and face that he knew he had to stop this. She was asleep and not in control of her actions.
He rolled over and deposited her in the space next to his.
"God knows I want you more than anything, but I want you awake when it happens." He whispered to her sleeping face before getting out of the bed and going to take a cold shower.