Dear Buffy
Since I'm writing this, I guess it proves the watchers theory was right cause here I am back in the good old 1800's. The amulet sent me right back to the night I was changed. Talk about living hells, one moment I'm burning alive watching (With great satisfaction) as the hell mouth closed in, I pass out and the next moment I'm back in that god-awful party.
I want you to know that my last thoughts were of you pet, what you said to me, meant more to me than you'll even know and with all my heart I hope you and the niblett are safe.
That party, you remember I told you about that party, it was like being in a nightmare, back in that room again listening as they all stood there laughing a my pitiful excuse of a poem.
But as the laughing continued I began to realise how ridiculous the situation was, ten minutes before I had been a master vampire, quarter of the scourge of Europe, feared by millions. And there I was being all pitiful and Nancy-boyish about that group of losers not like my poem, which wasn't any good and meant tuppence to me especially since that girl Cecily who I was meant to be mad on was nothing on you, how could I be so upset about someone so bitchy and stuck up I realised that and walked out without looking back, I went home in a carriage, it was expensive but I had the money, I wanted to avoid the streets not wanting to see Angelus or Dru again.
I was so glad to see my home after all that time it was like well... going home for better want of a phrase. And seeing my mum well it was amazing I can't describe it. I walked in and picked her up in the air startling her I can tell you, she was cross for a minute thought that I'd been drinking. I never told you that she was an avid tee- totaler did I? Well she was and so was I until then.
I couldn't help myself though it was just so great seeing her alive, the last time I saw her was when I killed her, that image is one of the things that stuck with me through thick and thin, it's not one of those things which you easily forget.
The next day I closed up the house and took mother down to Devon where my Sister Chastity and her husband Dylan lived. Mum was so excited; she hadn't seen my little Sis in about two years (Travelling wasn't really done that often in these days pet.) I just wanted to get her out of the town and away from all the fumes of the factories try to build her health back up and everything.
It was great seeing Chastity again, I'd almost forgotten her, it had been so long since I had seen her or even thought of her, families one of the things you first forget when you become a demon. But she was lovely, you'd have loved her she reminded me a lot of Red looked a bit like her as well.
Dylan was alright still not sure if he was good enough for her but he seemed to make her happy enough, they had four little kid's: Annie, Theodore, Lucy and Grace, never really taken the time to talk to them before then but in the two weeks I spent with them it made me realise what I had been missing.
After two weeks I decided that it was time for me to return to London, it didn't take much persuasion to talk mum into staying down there. When I got back to London I organised sending more of her stuff to Devon before going about trying to get in touch with the watcher's council.
Tough group of wanker's to get in touch with that lot, and even harder to get in with them. All based on family tradition and all that bollock's, not really trusting outside's it took me two years to persuade them but they let me in. I trained with them for ten years. In my fifth year I was offered the place to become watcher to the new called slayer Aurora Manson, but I couldn't do it, there's no slayer who could compare to you pet. And I wasn't about to take any sloppy seconds after that I wasn't offered any chance to become watcher to a slayer, so I turned my path towards research, trying to remember all the big bad's you'd had problems with and trying to find out as much about them as I could.
I decided to move to America, Homesick for something which would remind me of you, I found this estate on the outskirts of what one day would Sunnydale and decided to nab it before someone else could.
I never married Buffy luv, couldn't find anyone who could hold an inch to you, if I'm honest I don't think I ever really looked I was to busy with my memories and dreams. I hope you find someone who'll love you though and make you happy the little white fence and two kid dream you were always going on about, you deserve it pet, a life time of work and now you've got your reward. Don't waste it pet, make the most of your life.
I've loved you every second I've lived in both lifetimes and I hope that you'll remember me I want to help you now. I know you're scared about the future, what's going to happen to you and the bit now everything's gone capot in sunny hell, so I've also included the deeds to this estate in the letter, the place is yours to live in turn into a school or to sell, what ever you need it for it's yours.
I'll be going now, I've always and will always love you Buffy Anne Summers give my love to the bit and Red, Xander and Giles I hope you all have the lives you deserve.
Yours eternally
Spike
Since I'm writing this, I guess it proves the watchers theory was right cause here I am back in the good old 1800's. The amulet sent me right back to the night I was changed. Talk about living hells, one moment I'm burning alive watching (With great satisfaction) as the hell mouth closed in, I pass out and the next moment I'm back in that god-awful party.
I want you to know that my last thoughts were of you pet, what you said to me, meant more to me than you'll even know and with all my heart I hope you and the niblett are safe.
That party, you remember I told you about that party, it was like being in a nightmare, back in that room again listening as they all stood there laughing a my pitiful excuse of a poem.
But as the laughing continued I began to realise how ridiculous the situation was, ten minutes before I had been a master vampire, quarter of the scourge of Europe, feared by millions. And there I was being all pitiful and Nancy-boyish about that group of losers not like my poem, which wasn't any good and meant tuppence to me especially since that girl Cecily who I was meant to be mad on was nothing on you, how could I be so upset about someone so bitchy and stuck up I realised that and walked out without looking back, I went home in a carriage, it was expensive but I had the money, I wanted to avoid the streets not wanting to see Angelus or Dru again.
I was so glad to see my home after all that time it was like well... going home for better want of a phrase. And seeing my mum well it was amazing I can't describe it. I walked in and picked her up in the air startling her I can tell you, she was cross for a minute thought that I'd been drinking. I never told you that she was an avid tee- totaler did I? Well she was and so was I until then.
I couldn't help myself though it was just so great seeing her alive, the last time I saw her was when I killed her, that image is one of the things that stuck with me through thick and thin, it's not one of those things which you easily forget.
The next day I closed up the house and took mother down to Devon where my Sister Chastity and her husband Dylan lived. Mum was so excited; she hadn't seen my little Sis in about two years (Travelling wasn't really done that often in these days pet.) I just wanted to get her out of the town and away from all the fumes of the factories try to build her health back up and everything.
It was great seeing Chastity again, I'd almost forgotten her, it had been so long since I had seen her or even thought of her, families one of the things you first forget when you become a demon. But she was lovely, you'd have loved her she reminded me a lot of Red looked a bit like her as well.
Dylan was alright still not sure if he was good enough for her but he seemed to make her happy enough, they had four little kid's: Annie, Theodore, Lucy and Grace, never really taken the time to talk to them before then but in the two weeks I spent with them it made me realise what I had been missing.
After two weeks I decided that it was time for me to return to London, it didn't take much persuasion to talk mum into staying down there. When I got back to London I organised sending more of her stuff to Devon before going about trying to get in touch with the watcher's council.
Tough group of wanker's to get in touch with that lot, and even harder to get in with them. All based on family tradition and all that bollock's, not really trusting outside's it took me two years to persuade them but they let me in. I trained with them for ten years. In my fifth year I was offered the place to become watcher to the new called slayer Aurora Manson, but I couldn't do it, there's no slayer who could compare to you pet. And I wasn't about to take any sloppy seconds after that I wasn't offered any chance to become watcher to a slayer, so I turned my path towards research, trying to remember all the big bad's you'd had problems with and trying to find out as much about them as I could.
I decided to move to America, Homesick for something which would remind me of you, I found this estate on the outskirts of what one day would Sunnydale and decided to nab it before someone else could.
I never married Buffy luv, couldn't find anyone who could hold an inch to you, if I'm honest I don't think I ever really looked I was to busy with my memories and dreams. I hope you find someone who'll love you though and make you happy the little white fence and two kid dream you were always going on about, you deserve it pet, a life time of work and now you've got your reward. Don't waste it pet, make the most of your life.
I've loved you every second I've lived in both lifetimes and I hope that you'll remember me I want to help you now. I know you're scared about the future, what's going to happen to you and the bit now everything's gone capot in sunny hell, so I've also included the deeds to this estate in the letter, the place is yours to live in turn into a school or to sell, what ever you need it for it's yours.
I'll be going now, I've always and will always love you Buffy Anne Summers give my love to the bit and Red, Xander and Giles I hope you all have the lives you deserve.
Yours eternally
Spike