Abby knew what she had to do, she hads to feel comfortable with everything that was happening. First thing she did when she got home that night was put the ultrsound picture on her fridge. Then she went to her computer and went online. She wanted to find out all she could about the percentages and statistics of her passoing on the disease. She didn't know if there was less of a chance because she didn't have the disease. She wanted to know.
She also decided to order some books. Read more about everything. Like the mother she had treated in the ER said, a lot of it comes to you, but you need to read books. She ordered a few book that she had heard about and also seen at Susan's. As much as she still wasn't completely conviced that all of this was real, she knew that even if it was a dream, this is what she had to do.
Abby felt kind of stupid that she still didn't completely believe this. All of it seemed so unreal, she had seen it happen to other people, Susan, old friends. But she never thought of all of this happening to her. She laughed out loud, it all seemed so, so silly.
Abby hadn't needed to come together like this since she decided to go back to med school. Then she had really pulled herself together, set goals, she knew what she had to do and she did it. This Abby hoped would be like that. It was so rare that Abby could succeed like this, without something going wrong. She knew what could easily go wrong, her family could show up, with problems that she would have to deal with, and she just couldn't deal with them, not being pregnant. Abby made a silent prayer that they would be okay for the next 6 or 7 months.
She looked out the window. It was snowing, early december, right on time. She was thinking back, back to the morning she had woken up with Carter. Early september. She was just three months, but time seemed to be flying by. The first month she didn't even know she was pregnant.After that was when Susan had told her, but she was too frightened to go get the ultrasound yet. Carter had convinced her, and she knew she had to. She could keep on pretending it wasn't real. So she got over her fears and scheduled one with Dr. Dunbar.
Abby had another one in about 2 months, for the 5 month check up. Abby wondered how much she would be showing then. She stood in front of the mirror, pulled up her shirt and examinder her stomach from the side. She was showing, a fair amount too, it could be passed off as her just gaining weight, but either way, she would have to start wearing looser shirts and bigger pants. . She was getting bloated a lot later in the day and the morning sickness had been slowly getting less and less, although she was craving tons of food. She was entering into her second trimester. Thats why she ordered all the books. She had no idea what this was going to bring.
Abby ordered Chinese food, she was starving, and started on a book that Carter had lent her. She was reading about tons of facts, and information when the doorbell rang. She went up to check who it was.
"It's Susan, I have some stuff for you."
"Come on up, I have chinese.
Abby unhooked the door and quickly neatened up the living room, and brought all the food over into the living room, placing it on the coffee table.
"Hey," Abby turned around. Susan was standing in the room, with a stroller holding her 4 month old daughter and draging behind her two full boxes of things.
"Let me help."
Abby rushed over, bending to get the boxes and pull them into the room.
"How are you?"
Susan asked wheeling the stroller over to the chouch. The baby was asleep inside.
"Truthfully, and surprisingly I am okay. I mean, I am shocked to say it, but i am slightely excited."
Reading the book, Abby hadn't noticed it, but she became a little less nervous and in a way, excited about what was coming.
"How are you?"
Abby asked. She knew that Susan hadn't been getting a ton of sleep, because of Julia, Susan's daughter.
"I'm okay. Chuck has been helping out a lot. I have a lot of stuff for you. People must have thought I was having sextuplets, they gave me so many things. I can't use them all, but I thought you might need them.
"Thank you.
"There is clothing, blankets, books, pacifiers, I mean anything you can think of.
"Help yourself to the chinese food.
Abby took the top off of one of the boxes, she pulled out some books.
"Crap I just ordered these online.
"You can cancel it.
"I will.
Susan looked up at Abby and smiled. Abby smiled at her too.
"Thank you for all this stuff.
"You're welcome. I mean right now you are the only one I know who can use it.
"How is Julia?
"She is doing really well actually. She is sleeping a lot longer than before. That's why I have been working more shifts. But Chuck and I switch off. I work when he isn't and he works when I don't.
"Can I hold her?
"Sure, but if she wakes up, you are dealing with it.
"I can get practice.
"Can I get something to drink?"
"Sure the cups are in the cuboard to the right of the sink."
Abby bent over and unhooked the straps that held the baby in. Susan got off the couch and headed towards the kitchen.
Abby held the baby close to her, rocking her in her arms. The baby kept on sleeping, just rocking. Abby looked at her, she felt proud, she kept the baby asleep. A small acomplisment, it meant a lot to her.
They baby started wiggling and moving though. Abby kept on rocking, hoping the baby would fall back asleep. She didn't though, she started to cry.
"Shhhh, come on Julia. Please go back to sleep." Abby whispered.
The baby quieted down, as Abby kept rocking her, and whispering to her. Julia eventually fell back asleep. Abby looked up at Susan who was standing in the doorway to the kitchen.
"Good job."
Abby laughed, she turned around and softly sat down on the sofa. Still holding the baby in her arms.
"Want to watch something?"
"We should probably go."
"Okay. Thanks though, for all the stuff."
Abby got up again, carefully and placed Julia in the stroller. Without waking her she buckled her back up.
"You are a natural.
Abby smiled.
"Yeah right."
"Are you on tomorrow?"
"Yeah, are you?"
"Yup."
"See you then."
"Bye."
Susan turned arounf with the stroller and headed down the hallway. Abby closed the door. She turned around, and picked up on of the boxes, it wasn't too heavy and she brought it into her bedroom. Just for now she thought. She still needed to talk to Carter, about what would happen once the baby was born. The other was to heavy for her to carry, so she shoved it into the room.
Abby was tired then. She she pulled out some pajama bottoms and a tank top to sleep in and went back into the living room. She picked up the chinese food, putting it into her fridge. As she shut it, she saw the ultrasound picture again and smiled. She ran her hand over the baby's head and felt her stomach. This is as real as it gets she thought, thinking about the baby stuff Susan got her, the books, her stomach. She left the kitchen and walked into her bedroom. Turned off the light and turned onto her side. Looking out the window at the snow falling, she smiled, things seemed to be falling into place. She just hoped that it would stay this way.
She also decided to order some books. Read more about everything. Like the mother she had treated in the ER said, a lot of it comes to you, but you need to read books. She ordered a few book that she had heard about and also seen at Susan's. As much as she still wasn't completely conviced that all of this was real, she knew that even if it was a dream, this is what she had to do.
Abby felt kind of stupid that she still didn't completely believe this. All of it seemed so unreal, she had seen it happen to other people, Susan, old friends. But she never thought of all of this happening to her. She laughed out loud, it all seemed so, so silly.
Abby hadn't needed to come together like this since she decided to go back to med school. Then she had really pulled herself together, set goals, she knew what she had to do and she did it. This Abby hoped would be like that. It was so rare that Abby could succeed like this, without something going wrong. She knew what could easily go wrong, her family could show up, with problems that she would have to deal with, and she just couldn't deal with them, not being pregnant. Abby made a silent prayer that they would be okay for the next 6 or 7 months.
She looked out the window. It was snowing, early december, right on time. She was thinking back, back to the morning she had woken up with Carter. Early september. She was just three months, but time seemed to be flying by. The first month she didn't even know she was pregnant.After that was when Susan had told her, but she was too frightened to go get the ultrasound yet. Carter had convinced her, and she knew she had to. She could keep on pretending it wasn't real. So she got over her fears and scheduled one with Dr. Dunbar.
Abby had another one in about 2 months, for the 5 month check up. Abby wondered how much she would be showing then. She stood in front of the mirror, pulled up her shirt and examinder her stomach from the side. She was showing, a fair amount too, it could be passed off as her just gaining weight, but either way, she would have to start wearing looser shirts and bigger pants. . She was getting bloated a lot later in the day and the morning sickness had been slowly getting less and less, although she was craving tons of food. She was entering into her second trimester. Thats why she ordered all the books. She had no idea what this was going to bring.
Abby ordered Chinese food, she was starving, and started on a book that Carter had lent her. She was reading about tons of facts, and information when the doorbell rang. She went up to check who it was.
"It's Susan, I have some stuff for you."
"Come on up, I have chinese.
Abby unhooked the door and quickly neatened up the living room, and brought all the food over into the living room, placing it on the coffee table.
"Hey," Abby turned around. Susan was standing in the room, with a stroller holding her 4 month old daughter and draging behind her two full boxes of things.
"Let me help."
Abby rushed over, bending to get the boxes and pull them into the room.
"How are you?"
Susan asked wheeling the stroller over to the chouch. The baby was asleep inside.
"Truthfully, and surprisingly I am okay. I mean, I am shocked to say it, but i am slightely excited."
Reading the book, Abby hadn't noticed it, but she became a little less nervous and in a way, excited about what was coming.
"How are you?"
Abby asked. She knew that Susan hadn't been getting a ton of sleep, because of Julia, Susan's daughter.
"I'm okay. Chuck has been helping out a lot. I have a lot of stuff for you. People must have thought I was having sextuplets, they gave me so many things. I can't use them all, but I thought you might need them.
"Thank you.
"There is clothing, blankets, books, pacifiers, I mean anything you can think of.
"Help yourself to the chinese food.
Abby took the top off of one of the boxes, she pulled out some books.
"Crap I just ordered these online.
"You can cancel it.
"I will.
Susan looked up at Abby and smiled. Abby smiled at her too.
"Thank you for all this stuff.
"You're welcome. I mean right now you are the only one I know who can use it.
"How is Julia?
"She is doing really well actually. She is sleeping a lot longer than before. That's why I have been working more shifts. But Chuck and I switch off. I work when he isn't and he works when I don't.
"Can I hold her?
"Sure, but if she wakes up, you are dealing with it.
"I can get practice.
"Can I get something to drink?"
"Sure the cups are in the cuboard to the right of the sink."
Abby bent over and unhooked the straps that held the baby in. Susan got off the couch and headed towards the kitchen.
Abby held the baby close to her, rocking her in her arms. The baby kept on sleeping, just rocking. Abby looked at her, she felt proud, she kept the baby asleep. A small acomplisment, it meant a lot to her.
They baby started wiggling and moving though. Abby kept on rocking, hoping the baby would fall back asleep. She didn't though, she started to cry.
"Shhhh, come on Julia. Please go back to sleep." Abby whispered.
The baby quieted down, as Abby kept rocking her, and whispering to her. Julia eventually fell back asleep. Abby looked up at Susan who was standing in the doorway to the kitchen.
"Good job."
Abby laughed, she turned around and softly sat down on the sofa. Still holding the baby in her arms.
"Want to watch something?"
"We should probably go."
"Okay. Thanks though, for all the stuff."
Abby got up again, carefully and placed Julia in the stroller. Without waking her she buckled her back up.
"You are a natural.
Abby smiled.
"Yeah right."
"Are you on tomorrow?"
"Yeah, are you?"
"Yup."
"See you then."
"Bye."
Susan turned arounf with the stroller and headed down the hallway. Abby closed the door. She turned around, and picked up on of the boxes, it wasn't too heavy and she brought it into her bedroom. Just for now she thought. She still needed to talk to Carter, about what would happen once the baby was born. The other was to heavy for her to carry, so she shoved it into the room.
Abby was tired then. She she pulled out some pajama bottoms and a tank top to sleep in and went back into the living room. She picked up the chinese food, putting it into her fridge. As she shut it, she saw the ultrasound picture again and smiled. She ran her hand over the baby's head and felt her stomach. This is as real as it gets she thought, thinking about the baby stuff Susan got her, the books, her stomach. She left the kitchen and walked into her bedroom. Turned off the light and turned onto her side. Looking out the window at the snow falling, she smiled, things seemed to be falling into place. She just hoped that it would stay this way.