A grotesque Musical:
A series of song fics based on Lex's life
(Authors note: I don't own Smallville, or Linkin Park, I wish I did Oh what
fun I would have)
Linkin Park's Faint
I am
A little bit of loneliness
A little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints
But I can't help the fact
That everyone can see these scars
I stood on the roof of Luthor Corps headquarters in Metropolis, I'm 15 years old, and I am screaming, for someone to notice how much pain I am in, but as usual no one saves me. I don't disserve to be saved, it's not fair, and why can't I die.
I am
What I want you to want
What I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do
I can't convince you
To just believe this is real
I'm back on the roof this time in a tux, blood dripping from my arm, staining my expensive white shirt, I'm screaming, and again no one hears, no one answers, no one cares, I want to die.
So I
Let go watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause
You are all I've got
I'm staring at the stars, on the roof it's midnight, I don't care, I don't care about anything, It's not fair, why can't some one see me, see the pain.
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal
This damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
I'm sitting on the roof again, I said I would meet my dad at the charity fundraiser. Now see me, I won't lay and spend my life in your shadow, I won't spend my life in a suit.
I am A little bit insecure
A little unconfident
'Cause you don't understand
I do what I can
But sometimes I don't make sense
People were teasing me at school again, physical abuse I can handle, it's their words that cut like a knife through my soul, I snapped, I broke that persons nose, I was on probation before smoking weed on school grounds, in plain view of the teacher, then lighting a smoke in her office will do it, now I'm suspended, 2 weeks at home with nothing to do but smoke and die.
I am What you never want to say
But I've never had a doubt
But it's like no matter what I do
I can't convince you
For once just to hear me out
I got yelled at, by my father, then slapped across the room, thank you dad, this bruise will go well with my completion, I walked out, I turned around, I didn't get out of the room before I was forced to bend across the table and brutally raped by my father, thanks dad wrong type of affection, I still walked out of the room, not a sound, I know I will misbehave again, just for the attention.
So I Watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you're all I got
(got)
(got)
(got)
(got)
(got)
Silent treatment is the worst form of punishment my father has dished out, I want the beatings because then I know that he knows I exist.
I can't feel
The way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal
This damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Nooooooooooooo
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me
Like it or not
Right now
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me
Like it or not
Right now
I can't feel
The way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored!!!
I can't feel
The way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't tell This damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
I can't feel
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't change
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
I will not live my life hiding behind a suit, behind power. I am 16 I look at my self in my compact mirror, on the roof, I smudge my eyeliner, my war makeup, I said I will meet my dad at dinner later, some fundraiser or other. I turn my back on the city, my chains dangling at my side. I am going to be seen as Lex not Luthor. I won't be ignored...
I am
A little bit of loneliness
A little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints
But I can't help the fact
That everyone can see these scars
I stood on the roof of Luthor Corps headquarters in Metropolis, I'm 15 years old, and I am screaming, for someone to notice how much pain I am in, but as usual no one saves me. I don't disserve to be saved, it's not fair, and why can't I die.
I am
What I want you to want
What I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do
I can't convince you
To just believe this is real
I'm back on the roof this time in a tux, blood dripping from my arm, staining my expensive white shirt, I'm screaming, and again no one hears, no one answers, no one cares, I want to die.
So I
Let go watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause
You are all I've got
I'm staring at the stars, on the roof it's midnight, I don't care, I don't care about anything, It's not fair, why can't some one see me, see the pain.
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal
This damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
I'm sitting on the roof again, I said I would meet my dad at the charity fundraiser. Now see me, I won't lay and spend my life in your shadow, I won't spend my life in a suit.
I am A little bit insecure
A little unconfident
'Cause you don't understand
I do what I can
But sometimes I don't make sense
People were teasing me at school again, physical abuse I can handle, it's their words that cut like a knife through my soul, I snapped, I broke that persons nose, I was on probation before smoking weed on school grounds, in plain view of the teacher, then lighting a smoke in her office will do it, now I'm suspended, 2 weeks at home with nothing to do but smoke and die.
I am What you never want to say
But I've never had a doubt
But it's like no matter what I do
I can't convince you
For once just to hear me out
I got yelled at, by my father, then slapped across the room, thank you dad, this bruise will go well with my completion, I walked out, I turned around, I didn't get out of the room before I was forced to bend across the table and brutally raped by my father, thanks dad wrong type of affection, I still walked out of the room, not a sound, I know I will misbehave again, just for the attention.
So I Watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you're all I got
(got)
(got)
(got)
(got)
(got)
Silent treatment is the worst form of punishment my father has dished out, I want the beatings because then I know that he knows I exist.
I can't feel
The way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal
This damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Nooooooooooooo
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me
Like it or not
Right now
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me
Like it or not
Right now
I can't feel
The way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored!!!
I can't feel
The way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't tell This damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
I can't feel
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't change
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
I will not live my life hiding behind a suit, behind power. I am 16 I look at my self in my compact mirror, on the roof, I smudge my eyeliner, my war makeup, I said I will meet my dad at dinner later, some fundraiser or other. I turn my back on the city, my chains dangling at my side. I am going to be seen as Lex not Luthor. I won't be ignored...