Diary Entries

A/N: Thanks to Jackie (I know! I can't believe it's almost done!), I Heart DM 11 (well I will have to pick my mind for more ideas…LoL), and Amanda (I thought it was sorta different with G/J fic :D) for reviewing! Wow, I'm so closed to being done…Aww… Please Read and Review

--Diary Entry 15-- == Part Four of Five in the End

January 6th, 1997

Dear Slyth,

Oh boy, I'm in a deep dilemma. If I stay with Ron, I don't get to stay in the Slytherin dormitories, but if I break up with Ron, my heart will be shattered… I don't know what to do! Love is just so confusing. And most of the Slytherins hate me, and Snape told them if they didn't want me in the dormitories, they didn't have to let me in. ARGH! I just have no idea what I should do about this!!! Unless I tell people we broke up, get Pansy as my girlfriend, and meet Ron in our secret spot…But then that would mean Ron should get a girlfriend too and we'd have to do a lot of sneaking around…I have no clue though! I'm just so confused!!

I feel sorry for Ron too, not just myself. Hermione and Harry haven't been talking to him as often and freely as they had before Ron and I got together. That was one thing I admired about them, their friendship. I could never talk to Crabbe and Goyle like that, they are too stupid and don't know how to have a decent conversation. I wish I could have a friendship like Ron, Hermione, and Harry had before Ron and I got together. If their friendship is on the rocks cause of me, because of our relationship, then that's just another reason for us to break up…but if Harry and Hermione can't accept our relationship, then I guess they aren't the greatest friends in the world.

One thing that is good about this though is that Ginny has another boyfriend; she is totally over me and doesn't care about what Ron and I do. At least Ron and I don't have to worry about Ginny being hurt anymore. Yeah, Justin seems like a great guy for our little Ginny. I'm sure he'll treat her better than I did. Hell, I think any guy can treat Ginny better than I did. She does deserve better, and I'm glad I was somebody to show her that, even if I did hurt her in the process. That's something I'm not proud of…I should stop think about Ginny now though, we can't go back in time and change all that, now can we? I didn't think so.

Oh yeah, I decided to tell everyone (Ron, Harry, Hermione, and Ginny) that I gave them their diaries/journals. They all seemed to take it well, though that might have just been an act. It looked like Hermione was going to scratch my eyes or something, but she didn't say anything about the diary. I think she might have liked it, but once she found out it was from me, I think she had the works from the devil, or from the Dark Lord at least. Oh well, I can't control the way she or the others feel about me. But I'm bored right now, I think I'll go find Ron…

From,

Slytherin Hottie

Note to Self:

Find Ron

Think of way to get into common room

A/N: Oh my gosh! Only one more to go!!! AHH!!! Please review!!!