Ok guys, here it is: the fourth chapter! I'm really sorry it took me so
long to update it (I told you guys not to get too used to my speedy
updates), but things come up that just have to be handled before
everything else, no?
So I hope you like this one…and many thanks goes out to my reviewers:
-the-magic-is-in-you - I already have this story posted here and on adultfanfiction.net (which is also an awesome site), but (unless I get told otherwise) I will only be posting this one version both places. Thanks though, and glad to hear you like the songs, as well J
-Pure Black - I'm sorry to disappoint you, but Ron does not love Harry any more than a friend in this story. I have it as Ron and Harry used to be bed partners, but no real feelings were shared between the two, so it was easy to break off. And since I don't plan on ever including the reason for Ron's crying at the end of chapter 3 in later chapters, simply because I'm blanking on a way to do so, I'll simply tell you: he was crying because he found the conversation between Harry and Severus so sweet and he's jealous of what they have…sorry for the confusion
-AJ-Wolf-AJ - Thank you! I love you!
-Ishy - Thank you, both for you compliments and your offer, however all the punctuation that's "wrong" in these chapters aren't wrong at all, it's simply the way I hear them speaking in my head and want them to relay it. Thank you though, and your comments about punctuation have made me more alert to those and making sure it'll make sense to the reader as well as present it the way that I want it
-Winnie2 - Thank you, and here's your more!
-Aja - Thank you, I hope I did well on my finals as well. For your answer to 'Why was Ron crying?' question, you can refer to my note to Pure Black, where I explained why. And since you said you would come back (not necessarily review), I'll say: "Welcome back!"
Now, this chapter is based on a song again, so just as before:
[…] = lyrics
'…' = inner thoughts (important a little down the way)
"…" = outer monologue
()()()()()()()()()()()
They apparated to the grassy area just outside the great gates that blocked the path to the school. Once there, Severus went to pull Harry by the hand towards the gates, but was surprised to find that his young lover was not following his lead. He turned around to see what was the matter, and when he did, he saw a look of pure mischief in the green eyes
Before he knew what was happening, Harry was pulling him towards the outer edge of the forbidden forest. When they reached the haven of the secret enclosure where no one could see them, Harry pushed Severus up against a tree, smiled wickedly, and then began to snog his dear old professor as if it were the last thing he'd ever do
Once they pulled away from the heated kiss, due to lack of oxygen in their lungs, they stared deeply into each others eyes, trying desperately to tell the other how much they meant to them without the use of words. They wanted to assure the other that they would never let anything get in-between them ever again…they would fight for their love to be accepted if it were necessary
[Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you]
"Harry, I…" Severus began, but was cut short by Harry's right hand being placed over his mouth as he shook his head softly, to which he raised one perfect eyebrow, mastered through years of practice
"I know. Now is my time to make everything up to you: leaving, tricking and deceiving you. Severus, you are my world, my light…everything I live for is embodied in one person: you. If I had been wrong today…if you weren't planning on taking me back…I don't know what I would've done with myself, Sev, I honestly don't," Harry paused and searched deeper, more pleadingly into Severus' eyes then he had ever done before. Somehow, he needed to make this man see that Harry himself was the fool. Somehow, he had to get the older man's trust back
Harry moved his left hand down to capture Severus' right, and then he slowly brought it up in what little space there was between the two bodies. He finally placed the older man's hand over Harry's heart, his own hand keeping it in place there, then continued with his speech: "This," he put pressure on their trapped hands for emphasis, "is truth. I may be able to hide everything else from you, and even from myself, but the feelings of the human heart are too big a part of someone to ignore. My current situation, however, has me in a new world completely. For once in my life, my heart is not my own. My heart now belongs to you." 'Don't break it, don't break it, don't break it' Harry pleaded silently inside his own head, repeating the words as though they were his new favorite mantra, "I love you, Severus"
[Look into my heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you]
Under his hand, Severus could feel the quickening pace of the heart, almost as if the organ itself was agreeing to the words. Harry didn't have to tell him all this, for deep down the older man knew. However, there is a strange satisfaction that is acquired from hearing the thoughts you, up until the point of admission, hoped to be true being clarified and proven to you, finally making them real and substantial
Tears built unbidden in the Potions Master's eyes, much to his displeasure, but he couldn't really bring himself to give a damn about that right now; all he cared about was Harry, and holding onto the feelings he was being given
Harry saw the tears glistening in the black orbs and had to fight his own from forming, though the effort was futile. Instead, he leaned forward and whispered, "No, shh, don't cry, Sev'rus; please don't cry," as he gently rubbed their cheeks together as his eyes closed, trying to sooth the man while attempting to keep his own tears from falling at the same time. He finally removed his right hand from the other man's soft lips and moved it so it now held the back of his head
"Harry," Severus roughly whispered into the other man's ear, but he was at a loss of what else to say to the younger man…his words had left him speechless
Harry pulled back and examined everything about Severus' face to silently assess whether the other man was ok with everything he had voiced. To his relief, he found only love and longing in the eyes of the man he loved, so he smiled a small, shy smile and asked, "Maybe we should continue this in your chambers?"
Snape cocked his head to one side and furrowed his brow in confusion, "You mean -our- chambers?" Then realizations hit him; an alternate meaning: "They -are- still our chambers, aren't they?" fear gripping his heart and finding its way into his eyes, thus making them unable to focus on one thing. He wanted desperately to grab hold of the man in front of him and never let him go all of a sudden
"Severus, please," Harry begged, placing his hand on Severus' cheek to force him to focus on him once more, "they are. They will always be our chambers, love, always"
"Oh, Harry," Severus said, so lost, so vulnerable. The man needed to be held in a tight embrace by his Harry, but he didn't want to initiate it. However, Harry did it for him, as if the message was written on a billboard and placed atop the older man's head for all to see
"I'm here, Severus; I'll always be here. I won't ever leave you again" he held him tighter, and Severus reciprocated every force of it
[There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way]
The pair remained that way for a good few minutes until Severus said, "I think you were right"
Harry looked up from his comfortable position with his head in the crook of the other man's neck in confusion, "about what?"
"Maybe we should continue this in our chambers," he smirked, and Harry smiled back, grabbed Severus' hand in his, and led the way into Hogwarts. As they walked through the halls on their way to the dungeons, they barely passed any students, and the ones they did happen to pass merely smiled and waved at them, used to their antics by now
They reached the door to the potions classroom with ease, then swiftly made their way to the door off to the right which led to their private chambers and, speaking the password (white roses - Harry's favorite, which then became 'their' flower), walked into the welcoming room
When Severus closed the door, Harry was on him again, kissing with such fire that, if Severus were wood, would surely have burned him from the intensity. After pillaging his lovers mouth, Harry quickly moved down to kiss and bite at Severus' neck, unbuttoning the other man's outer robe before moving on to the black button-up underneath
"Harry," Severus gasped, both from lack of air and the intense feelings of pleasure his young lover was causing, "bed. Please." he managed to get out between gasps of breath
"Right, probably be more comfortable," Harry agreed, stopping his ministrations, "Sorry about that," he smiled sheepishly
"There's nothing to forgive, but now to the bed, before you kill me by not touching me again," Severus growled and pushed Harry towards the bed which wasn't too far away, and which Harry, not so elegantly, landed upon on his back
The picture the young man made: flushed, heavy breathing, eyes a dark green with lust; almost made Severus growl again, but he refrained. No, instead he actually took action and climbed onto the bed over his lover, leveling him with a predatory gaze. He stayed like that: positioned over the prone form of Harry, not touching any part of him and simply watching him squirm, for quite some time. That is, until Harry took matters into his own hands
Severus leaning over him on all fours, close enough to see and smell but not close enough to touch, was driving Harry into a heightened state of arousal. He had to get some friction, and it had to be soon. So he reached one hand up to grab the back of Severus' neck and greedily pulled him down to kiss him once more, causing Severus to have to lower the rest of his body down to ease any discomfort that not doing so would've caused. Both the men moaned when their bodies touched fully
"Severus, please," Harry begged as he started to remove the other man's clothes once more as soon as their kiss ended, causing Severus to duplicate his actions and start working on Harry's clothes
In no time at all, both men were naked and Severus was now occupied teasing Harry's nipples and eliciting guttural moans from the man below him as he writhed in pleasure
"Sev'rus, oh Sev'rus," Harry slurred, grabbing a hold of the mans head, keeping him in the same spot
"What do you want, Harry?" Severus looked up from his position and asked huskily as his hand drew intricate designs lightly on Harry's sides, knowing it drove him crazy
"You," he gasped, "I need to feel you inside me, Severus, please" he writhed under Severus' ministrations once more
"Then I'll have to get up, love" Severus said and proceeded to do so, but he didn't get far before Harry grabbed him by the shoulders and begged:
"No! Don't leave me, Sev, please don't"
"I need to get the lube real quick, that's all. I'll be back before you know it," Severus promised, moving a hair from in front of Harry's eye lovingly before untangling himself from the younger man. Not 10 seconds later and he was back with the tube of lubricant
Once back on the bed, Severus put some of the contents of the tube onto his fingers and rubbed it in slightly to make it warmer to the touch. He then moved in between Harry's legs and began to insert his pointer finger within Harry's tight hole, which wrung a cry of pleasure from the man below him, which in turn brought a smile to Severus' face
After about a torturous minute of that, Severus added a second finger to the mix and curved his fingers, exactly the way he knew to, so as to cause maximum pleasure, which caused Harry to cry out in ecstasy. It wasn't until Severus had stretched his young lover with three of his fingers that he removed them altogether
Harry whined at the loss of the fingers, but quickly forgot about his argument when he looked up and saw Severus coating his own incredibly hard cock with lube, a look of controlled pleasure on his face. Once he found it sufficiently covered, he rearranged himself so he was now positioned at Harry's entrance, able to look him in the eye
As Severus slowly entered Harry, the two were involved in a soft, sweet kiss. This was their time to relieve any doubts. This was their time to prove their love. This was their time to show the other that they would do absolutely anything asked of them to save the others life. This was their time…point blank
Their love making this day was slow and purposeful, almost leisurely, as if to say, "we have forever", which it was true, they did
[Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - Yeah I'd die for you]
In the afterglow, Harry curled up with his head on Severus' chest, and right before they fell asleep, Severus spoke up: "Harry…can I ask you something?"
"Sure, what is it?" Harry yawned, not bothering to even raise his head, too comfy to care
"You love me, right?"
"Of course, with all of my heart"
"Good. Because you have made me the happiest man in these last three years that we've spent together. You are my life, Harry, and you have my heart to take the place of that missing one of yours that I seem to have," they both smirked a little at that statement, "and I want you to keep it…forever, if you'll have it that long," Severus sighed heavily and ran a hand through his hair as Harry finally found the ability to look up, "What I mean to say, Harry, is will you do me the honor or continuing to make me the happiest man alive and marry me?"
The look of shock didn't last long on young Potter's face, for it was quickly replaced by a look of pure happiness and love, "Yes, Severus, of course I'll marry you" Harry beamed widely as Severus released the breath he didn't know he had been holding
"Why you would still want your old greasy potions master is beyond my logic, but that doesn't make me any less happy," Severus said before the two kissed passionately and deeply once more
[Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you]
()()()()()()()()()()
So that's chapter 4…again, I'm incredibly sorry for the long wait, things just kept pilling up
The song that was "playing" this time was '(Everything I do) I do it for you' by Bryan Adams
But, as always, I hope you liked it and that it wasn't disappointing
Please tell me if you think anything in this chapter is too NC-17ish for this site. I don't think anything is, but I'm not that good of a judge of my own works, so your help with this would be greatly appreciated
Oh yes, and do you guys want another chapter maybe? I thought this might be where I ended, but if you guys want a more concluding last chapter; I could try to cook one up, just let me know
So I hope you like this one…and many thanks goes out to my reviewers:
-the-magic-is-in-you - I already have this story posted here and on adultfanfiction.net (which is also an awesome site), but (unless I get told otherwise) I will only be posting this one version both places. Thanks though, and glad to hear you like the songs, as well J
-Pure Black - I'm sorry to disappoint you, but Ron does not love Harry any more than a friend in this story. I have it as Ron and Harry used to be bed partners, but no real feelings were shared between the two, so it was easy to break off. And since I don't plan on ever including the reason for Ron's crying at the end of chapter 3 in later chapters, simply because I'm blanking on a way to do so, I'll simply tell you: he was crying because he found the conversation between Harry and Severus so sweet and he's jealous of what they have…sorry for the confusion
-AJ-Wolf-AJ - Thank you! I love you!
-Ishy - Thank you, both for you compliments and your offer, however all the punctuation that's "wrong" in these chapters aren't wrong at all, it's simply the way I hear them speaking in my head and want them to relay it. Thank you though, and your comments about punctuation have made me more alert to those and making sure it'll make sense to the reader as well as present it the way that I want it
-Winnie2 - Thank you, and here's your more!
-Aja - Thank you, I hope I did well on my finals as well. For your answer to 'Why was Ron crying?' question, you can refer to my note to Pure Black, where I explained why. And since you said you would come back (not necessarily review), I'll say: "Welcome back!"
Now, this chapter is based on a song again, so just as before:
[…] = lyrics
'…' = inner thoughts (important a little down the way)
"…" = outer monologue
()()()()()()()()()()()
They apparated to the grassy area just outside the great gates that blocked the path to the school. Once there, Severus went to pull Harry by the hand towards the gates, but was surprised to find that his young lover was not following his lead. He turned around to see what was the matter, and when he did, he saw a look of pure mischief in the green eyes
Before he knew what was happening, Harry was pulling him towards the outer edge of the forbidden forest. When they reached the haven of the secret enclosure where no one could see them, Harry pushed Severus up against a tree, smiled wickedly, and then began to snog his dear old professor as if it were the last thing he'd ever do
Once they pulled away from the heated kiss, due to lack of oxygen in their lungs, they stared deeply into each others eyes, trying desperately to tell the other how much they meant to them without the use of words. They wanted to assure the other that they would never let anything get in-between them ever again…they would fight for their love to be accepted if it were necessary
[Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you]
"Harry, I…" Severus began, but was cut short by Harry's right hand being placed over his mouth as he shook his head softly, to which he raised one perfect eyebrow, mastered through years of practice
"I know. Now is my time to make everything up to you: leaving, tricking and deceiving you. Severus, you are my world, my light…everything I live for is embodied in one person: you. If I had been wrong today…if you weren't planning on taking me back…I don't know what I would've done with myself, Sev, I honestly don't," Harry paused and searched deeper, more pleadingly into Severus' eyes then he had ever done before. Somehow, he needed to make this man see that Harry himself was the fool. Somehow, he had to get the older man's trust back
Harry moved his left hand down to capture Severus' right, and then he slowly brought it up in what little space there was between the two bodies. He finally placed the older man's hand over Harry's heart, his own hand keeping it in place there, then continued with his speech: "This," he put pressure on their trapped hands for emphasis, "is truth. I may be able to hide everything else from you, and even from myself, but the feelings of the human heart are too big a part of someone to ignore. My current situation, however, has me in a new world completely. For once in my life, my heart is not my own. My heart now belongs to you." 'Don't break it, don't break it, don't break it' Harry pleaded silently inside his own head, repeating the words as though they were his new favorite mantra, "I love you, Severus"
[Look into my heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you]
Under his hand, Severus could feel the quickening pace of the heart, almost as if the organ itself was agreeing to the words. Harry didn't have to tell him all this, for deep down the older man knew. However, there is a strange satisfaction that is acquired from hearing the thoughts you, up until the point of admission, hoped to be true being clarified and proven to you, finally making them real and substantial
Tears built unbidden in the Potions Master's eyes, much to his displeasure, but he couldn't really bring himself to give a damn about that right now; all he cared about was Harry, and holding onto the feelings he was being given
Harry saw the tears glistening in the black orbs and had to fight his own from forming, though the effort was futile. Instead, he leaned forward and whispered, "No, shh, don't cry, Sev'rus; please don't cry," as he gently rubbed their cheeks together as his eyes closed, trying to sooth the man while attempting to keep his own tears from falling at the same time. He finally removed his right hand from the other man's soft lips and moved it so it now held the back of his head
"Harry," Severus roughly whispered into the other man's ear, but he was at a loss of what else to say to the younger man…his words had left him speechless
Harry pulled back and examined everything about Severus' face to silently assess whether the other man was ok with everything he had voiced. To his relief, he found only love and longing in the eyes of the man he loved, so he smiled a small, shy smile and asked, "Maybe we should continue this in your chambers?"
Snape cocked his head to one side and furrowed his brow in confusion, "You mean -our- chambers?" Then realizations hit him; an alternate meaning: "They -are- still our chambers, aren't they?" fear gripping his heart and finding its way into his eyes, thus making them unable to focus on one thing. He wanted desperately to grab hold of the man in front of him and never let him go all of a sudden
"Severus, please," Harry begged, placing his hand on Severus' cheek to force him to focus on him once more, "they are. They will always be our chambers, love, always"
"Oh, Harry," Severus said, so lost, so vulnerable. The man needed to be held in a tight embrace by his Harry, but he didn't want to initiate it. However, Harry did it for him, as if the message was written on a billboard and placed atop the older man's head for all to see
"I'm here, Severus; I'll always be here. I won't ever leave you again" he held him tighter, and Severus reciprocated every force of it
[There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way]
The pair remained that way for a good few minutes until Severus said, "I think you were right"
Harry looked up from his comfortable position with his head in the crook of the other man's neck in confusion, "about what?"
"Maybe we should continue this in our chambers," he smirked, and Harry smiled back, grabbed Severus' hand in his, and led the way into Hogwarts. As they walked through the halls on their way to the dungeons, they barely passed any students, and the ones they did happen to pass merely smiled and waved at them, used to their antics by now
They reached the door to the potions classroom with ease, then swiftly made their way to the door off to the right which led to their private chambers and, speaking the password (white roses - Harry's favorite, which then became 'their' flower), walked into the welcoming room
When Severus closed the door, Harry was on him again, kissing with such fire that, if Severus were wood, would surely have burned him from the intensity. After pillaging his lovers mouth, Harry quickly moved down to kiss and bite at Severus' neck, unbuttoning the other man's outer robe before moving on to the black button-up underneath
"Harry," Severus gasped, both from lack of air and the intense feelings of pleasure his young lover was causing, "bed. Please." he managed to get out between gasps of breath
"Right, probably be more comfortable," Harry agreed, stopping his ministrations, "Sorry about that," he smiled sheepishly
"There's nothing to forgive, but now to the bed, before you kill me by not touching me again," Severus growled and pushed Harry towards the bed which wasn't too far away, and which Harry, not so elegantly, landed upon on his back
The picture the young man made: flushed, heavy breathing, eyes a dark green with lust; almost made Severus growl again, but he refrained. No, instead he actually took action and climbed onto the bed over his lover, leveling him with a predatory gaze. He stayed like that: positioned over the prone form of Harry, not touching any part of him and simply watching him squirm, for quite some time. That is, until Harry took matters into his own hands
Severus leaning over him on all fours, close enough to see and smell but not close enough to touch, was driving Harry into a heightened state of arousal. He had to get some friction, and it had to be soon. So he reached one hand up to grab the back of Severus' neck and greedily pulled him down to kiss him once more, causing Severus to have to lower the rest of his body down to ease any discomfort that not doing so would've caused. Both the men moaned when their bodies touched fully
"Severus, please," Harry begged as he started to remove the other man's clothes once more as soon as their kiss ended, causing Severus to duplicate his actions and start working on Harry's clothes
In no time at all, both men were naked and Severus was now occupied teasing Harry's nipples and eliciting guttural moans from the man below him as he writhed in pleasure
"Sev'rus, oh Sev'rus," Harry slurred, grabbing a hold of the mans head, keeping him in the same spot
"What do you want, Harry?" Severus looked up from his position and asked huskily as his hand drew intricate designs lightly on Harry's sides, knowing it drove him crazy
"You," he gasped, "I need to feel you inside me, Severus, please" he writhed under Severus' ministrations once more
"Then I'll have to get up, love" Severus said and proceeded to do so, but he didn't get far before Harry grabbed him by the shoulders and begged:
"No! Don't leave me, Sev, please don't"
"I need to get the lube real quick, that's all. I'll be back before you know it," Severus promised, moving a hair from in front of Harry's eye lovingly before untangling himself from the younger man. Not 10 seconds later and he was back with the tube of lubricant
Once back on the bed, Severus put some of the contents of the tube onto his fingers and rubbed it in slightly to make it warmer to the touch. He then moved in between Harry's legs and began to insert his pointer finger within Harry's tight hole, which wrung a cry of pleasure from the man below him, which in turn brought a smile to Severus' face
After about a torturous minute of that, Severus added a second finger to the mix and curved his fingers, exactly the way he knew to, so as to cause maximum pleasure, which caused Harry to cry out in ecstasy. It wasn't until Severus had stretched his young lover with three of his fingers that he removed them altogether
Harry whined at the loss of the fingers, but quickly forgot about his argument when he looked up and saw Severus coating his own incredibly hard cock with lube, a look of controlled pleasure on his face. Once he found it sufficiently covered, he rearranged himself so he was now positioned at Harry's entrance, able to look him in the eye
As Severus slowly entered Harry, the two were involved in a soft, sweet kiss. This was their time to relieve any doubts. This was their time to prove their love. This was their time to show the other that they would do absolutely anything asked of them to save the others life. This was their time…point blank
Their love making this day was slow and purposeful, almost leisurely, as if to say, "we have forever", which it was true, they did
[Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - Yeah I'd die for you]
In the afterglow, Harry curled up with his head on Severus' chest, and right before they fell asleep, Severus spoke up: "Harry…can I ask you something?"
"Sure, what is it?" Harry yawned, not bothering to even raise his head, too comfy to care
"You love me, right?"
"Of course, with all of my heart"
"Good. Because you have made me the happiest man in these last three years that we've spent together. You are my life, Harry, and you have my heart to take the place of that missing one of yours that I seem to have," they both smirked a little at that statement, "and I want you to keep it…forever, if you'll have it that long," Severus sighed heavily and ran a hand through his hair as Harry finally found the ability to look up, "What I mean to say, Harry, is will you do me the honor or continuing to make me the happiest man alive and marry me?"
The look of shock didn't last long on young Potter's face, for it was quickly replaced by a look of pure happiness and love, "Yes, Severus, of course I'll marry you" Harry beamed widely as Severus released the breath he didn't know he had been holding
"Why you would still want your old greasy potions master is beyond my logic, but that doesn't make me any less happy," Severus said before the two kissed passionately and deeply once more
[Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you]
()()()()()()()()()()
So that's chapter 4…again, I'm incredibly sorry for the long wait, things just kept pilling up
The song that was "playing" this time was '(Everything I do) I do it for you' by Bryan Adams
But, as always, I hope you liked it and that it wasn't disappointing
Please tell me if you think anything in this chapter is too NC-17ish for this site. I don't think anything is, but I'm not that good of a judge of my own works, so your help with this would be greatly appreciated
Oh yes, and do you guys want another chapter maybe? I thought this might be where I ended, but if you guys want a more concluding last chapter; I could try to cook one up, just let me know