Chapter 2:
SOMEWHERE OUT THERE
Last time I talked to you you were lonely and out of place you were looking down on me lost out in space We laid underneath the stars Strung out and feeling brave I watched the red orange glow I watched you float away
It had been four months since Spike left New York, feeling uncomfortable with living with his parents at his age Xander had graciously offered the spare room in his apartment to his brother. The first few weeks there had gone by like a blur, His father Rupert had started to home school Spike so that he'd be able to go to college with Xander, the boy had mentioned wanting to write so then the schooling started.
Down here in the atmosphere Garbage and city lights You've gone to save your tired soul You've gone to save our lives I turned on the radio To find you on satellite I'm waiting for this sky to fall I'm waiting for a sign All we are is all so far
For dropping out of school at 15 Spike surprised everyone with how bright he was. He was sailing through the courses that his father was teaching him. The school board had even said that once Rupert had Spike caught up to the senior level that he should join the other students in the high school so he could graduate with them, Spike was ecstatic at hearing this and just started working harder, he'd already managed to sail through the freshman courses and was about half way through his sophomore classes then he remembered in the middle of his math homework that he had to call willow, they hadn't talked in nearly two months. He jumped up quickly knocking his book from the coffee table and dialed Willow's parent's number; she'd been staying with them while she tried to save up money to go see him in Sunnydale. He tapped his fingers impatiently waiting for someone to answer the phone finally just as he was about to hang up he heard a voice...a not so happy voice.
"Hello?" The woman sounded exhausted and strangely like she'd been crying "Hello Mrs. Rosenberg this is Spike. Willow's Friend is she in?" The sobbing started again the minute he got the question out. "I'm sorry Spike...but Willow's gone" the boy perked a brow and whispered softly "What do you mean she's gone? Gone where?" a slight sob came over the line again "It wasn't her fault. The police said she was in the wrong place at the wrong time. She was shot Spike...Willow Died" Spike was in complete and total shock Willow was gone..His red. His savior. His angel. He was jostled out of his thoughts when he heard the distraught woman's voice again "I'm very sorry Spike. I didn't know how to get a hold of you to tell you..." Spike just cleared his throat "When did this happen?" A slight sniffle "Two weeks ago. I have some things of hers that I know she'd want you to have if you'd just give me your address I can have it couriered to you" Spike shook his head and sighed "That won't be necessary Mrs. Rosenberg I'll come to get it. Thank you" She didn't even get her goodbye out before he hung up the phone and just walked into his room looking at the one picture he had of himself and Willow taken the day he left for Sunnydale, he stared at it for a long time before his tears finally came.
You're falling back to me You're a star that I can see I know you're out there Somewhere out there You're falling out of reach Defying gravity I know you're out there Somewhere out there
It was two hours later when Xander came in with the rest of the family came in, Spike had forgotten that he and Xan were going to make dinner for the family so nothing was prepared, nothing was clean and Spike's books were still on the floor where he'd dropped them. Mina the youngest looked around and called out in the joking way that she always did to spike "WEE WILLY WINKIE WHERE ARE YA?" Xander just ushered everyone into the living room and went to see if Spike had fallen asleep, he froze when he saw his little brother just standing there in his room like in a state of shock staring at a picture with tears streaming down his cheeks, the older boy moved over to his brother and hugged him gently "You miss Willow?" Spike nodded "yeah but missin' 'er won't do no good." Xander smiled a little "She's coming to live here soon isn't she?" Spike broke down again and shook his head the smiled on his older brother's face faded "What happened Wil?" The blonde breathed in deep and whispered "She's dead xan..I called 'er today. An' 'er mum told me she was shot to death two weeks ago. An she didn't know 'ow to get a hold of me so I just found out" Xander gasped and just hugged his brother close "I'm so sorry Wil. Do you need anything? Anything at all" Spike nodded slowly "Wills' mum 'as some things for me..I'd like to go New York to get them" The dark haired man nodded "alright. We'll go on the weekend hop a flight. You don't need to be alone for this. You've got all of us..Though once you're feeling better I'm kicking your ass because you forgot to clean up and stuff around here." Spike pouted cutely "sorry. Guess its family pizza night too huh? Y'know since I forgot to go to the grocery store too" Xander just shook his head "What am I going to do with you little brother?" Spike shrugged "I dunno but you love me so it can't be too violent" Xander chuckled and led him out to the living room muttering a "yeah yeah" under his breath.
Hope you remember me When you're homesick and need a change I miss your purple hair I miss the way you taste I know you'll come back someday On a bed of nails I'll wait I'm praying that you don't burn out Or fade away All we are Is all so far
Though they had to eat pizza the dinner went well, Spike told everyone about what happened to Willow and was really touched when he was enveloped in a giant group hug. They all agreed that it would be good that Wil and Xander go to new york to get the things that Willow had left for him, Give him a chance to say goodbye to her. That was when he told them in all honesty that he'd been in love with Willow Michaela laughed at him and smirked when she spoke "Wil, Pet I think I speak for everyone when I say DUH!" Spike chuckled and shook his head "What? Was I that obvious with the love for 'er?" the entire room nodded Mina grinned a bit "yeah I'm 14 and am too young to love..and not allowed to date until I'm 30 or so dad says and ever I saw it" Wil leaned over and kissed the girl's forehead "fine I'm love's bitch..but I'm man enough to admit it" poked mina in the side "30? No no no young lady you are not dating until you're 55" Mina pouted "but Xander said 40!" The bleach blonde chuckles "I am not Xander. I'm the important one" Michaela giggled "yeah he's important cos he's the Willster!" Xander started to laugh "Alright stop with stealing my words you you.." Spike smirked and looked at Michaela "I believe what Xan's trying to say is..behave you silly bint!" Michaela looked at her father and pouted "Daddy he called me a Bint again! What's a bint?" Rupert chuckled "its just means that you're a girl" Michaela nodded "jeez couldn't he have just said that?"
You're falling back to me You're a star that I can see I know you're out there Somewhere out there You're falling out of reach Defying gravity I know you're out there Somewhere out there
After everyone went home Xander and Spike just sat on the couch watching TV, The dark haired man looked to his brother "You gunna be ok Wil?" the blonde nodded "sure..I'll get over it. I mean I've been watchin' friends die my whole life..Why should Willow be any different? Cept for the fact that she was innocent and it should be me that's dead an' not 'er..oh and the fact that I wasn't there for her" Xander shook his head a bit "Wil, Its not your fault. And its not Willow's fault either. You can't beat yourself up about this. I bet she wouldn't want you to" Spike shook his head "no, she wouldn't. Actually if she were here she'd be calling me a pathetic poof..or a stupid wanker and telling me to stop moping" Xander smiled softly "Well then you pathetic poof stop moping or I'll kick your ass stupid wanker" Spike couldn't help but laugh because it just sounded really funny with Xander's lack of an accent.
You're falling back to me You're a star that I can see I know you're out there Somewhere out there You're falling out of reach Defying gravity I know you're out there Somewhere out there
Finally the Giles brothers went to bed, it was around midnight Spike tossed and turned dreaming about Willow, her blaming him for her death, it was 4am when he woke himself up screaming, Xander came in and held him rocking him back to sleep then stayed until he had to go to school the next morning. For days this would happen it became routine, spike would have nightmares and Xander would calm them down, finally after a week Xander looked at him and just told him to go sleep with him then he wouldn't have to walk so far to calm him down, that night Spike didn't dream, he slept. Ofcourse he woke up tangled around his brother but somehow he felt okay with that.
You're falling back to me You're a star that I can see I know you're out there Somewhere out there You're falling out of reach Defying gravity I know you're out there Somewhere out there You're falling back to me I know I know You're falling out of reach I know
SOMEWHERE OUT THERE
Last time I talked to you you were lonely and out of place you were looking down on me lost out in space We laid underneath the stars Strung out and feeling brave I watched the red orange glow I watched you float away
It had been four months since Spike left New York, feeling uncomfortable with living with his parents at his age Xander had graciously offered the spare room in his apartment to his brother. The first few weeks there had gone by like a blur, His father Rupert had started to home school Spike so that he'd be able to go to college with Xander, the boy had mentioned wanting to write so then the schooling started.
Down here in the atmosphere Garbage and city lights You've gone to save your tired soul You've gone to save our lives I turned on the radio To find you on satellite I'm waiting for this sky to fall I'm waiting for a sign All we are is all so far
For dropping out of school at 15 Spike surprised everyone with how bright he was. He was sailing through the courses that his father was teaching him. The school board had even said that once Rupert had Spike caught up to the senior level that he should join the other students in the high school so he could graduate with them, Spike was ecstatic at hearing this and just started working harder, he'd already managed to sail through the freshman courses and was about half way through his sophomore classes then he remembered in the middle of his math homework that he had to call willow, they hadn't talked in nearly two months. He jumped up quickly knocking his book from the coffee table and dialed Willow's parent's number; she'd been staying with them while she tried to save up money to go see him in Sunnydale. He tapped his fingers impatiently waiting for someone to answer the phone finally just as he was about to hang up he heard a voice...a not so happy voice.
"Hello?" The woman sounded exhausted and strangely like she'd been crying "Hello Mrs. Rosenberg this is Spike. Willow's Friend is she in?" The sobbing started again the minute he got the question out. "I'm sorry Spike...but Willow's gone" the boy perked a brow and whispered softly "What do you mean she's gone? Gone where?" a slight sob came over the line again "It wasn't her fault. The police said she was in the wrong place at the wrong time. She was shot Spike...Willow Died" Spike was in complete and total shock Willow was gone..His red. His savior. His angel. He was jostled out of his thoughts when he heard the distraught woman's voice again "I'm very sorry Spike. I didn't know how to get a hold of you to tell you..." Spike just cleared his throat "When did this happen?" A slight sniffle "Two weeks ago. I have some things of hers that I know she'd want you to have if you'd just give me your address I can have it couriered to you" Spike shook his head and sighed "That won't be necessary Mrs. Rosenberg I'll come to get it. Thank you" She didn't even get her goodbye out before he hung up the phone and just walked into his room looking at the one picture he had of himself and Willow taken the day he left for Sunnydale, he stared at it for a long time before his tears finally came.
You're falling back to me You're a star that I can see I know you're out there Somewhere out there You're falling out of reach Defying gravity I know you're out there Somewhere out there
It was two hours later when Xander came in with the rest of the family came in, Spike had forgotten that he and Xan were going to make dinner for the family so nothing was prepared, nothing was clean and Spike's books were still on the floor where he'd dropped them. Mina the youngest looked around and called out in the joking way that she always did to spike "WEE WILLY WINKIE WHERE ARE YA?" Xander just ushered everyone into the living room and went to see if Spike had fallen asleep, he froze when he saw his little brother just standing there in his room like in a state of shock staring at a picture with tears streaming down his cheeks, the older boy moved over to his brother and hugged him gently "You miss Willow?" Spike nodded "yeah but missin' 'er won't do no good." Xander smiled a little "She's coming to live here soon isn't she?" Spike broke down again and shook his head the smiled on his older brother's face faded "What happened Wil?" The blonde breathed in deep and whispered "She's dead xan..I called 'er today. An' 'er mum told me she was shot to death two weeks ago. An she didn't know 'ow to get a hold of me so I just found out" Xander gasped and just hugged his brother close "I'm so sorry Wil. Do you need anything? Anything at all" Spike nodded slowly "Wills' mum 'as some things for me..I'd like to go New York to get them" The dark haired man nodded "alright. We'll go on the weekend hop a flight. You don't need to be alone for this. You've got all of us..Though once you're feeling better I'm kicking your ass because you forgot to clean up and stuff around here." Spike pouted cutely "sorry. Guess its family pizza night too huh? Y'know since I forgot to go to the grocery store too" Xander just shook his head "What am I going to do with you little brother?" Spike shrugged "I dunno but you love me so it can't be too violent" Xander chuckled and led him out to the living room muttering a "yeah yeah" under his breath.
Hope you remember me When you're homesick and need a change I miss your purple hair I miss the way you taste I know you'll come back someday On a bed of nails I'll wait I'm praying that you don't burn out Or fade away All we are Is all so far
Though they had to eat pizza the dinner went well, Spike told everyone about what happened to Willow and was really touched when he was enveloped in a giant group hug. They all agreed that it would be good that Wil and Xander go to new york to get the things that Willow had left for him, Give him a chance to say goodbye to her. That was when he told them in all honesty that he'd been in love with Willow Michaela laughed at him and smirked when she spoke "Wil, Pet I think I speak for everyone when I say DUH!" Spike chuckled and shook his head "What? Was I that obvious with the love for 'er?" the entire room nodded Mina grinned a bit "yeah I'm 14 and am too young to love..and not allowed to date until I'm 30 or so dad says and ever I saw it" Wil leaned over and kissed the girl's forehead "fine I'm love's bitch..but I'm man enough to admit it" poked mina in the side "30? No no no young lady you are not dating until you're 55" Mina pouted "but Xander said 40!" The bleach blonde chuckles "I am not Xander. I'm the important one" Michaela giggled "yeah he's important cos he's the Willster!" Xander started to laugh "Alright stop with stealing my words you you.." Spike smirked and looked at Michaela "I believe what Xan's trying to say is..behave you silly bint!" Michaela looked at her father and pouted "Daddy he called me a Bint again! What's a bint?" Rupert chuckled "its just means that you're a girl" Michaela nodded "jeez couldn't he have just said that?"
You're falling back to me You're a star that I can see I know you're out there Somewhere out there You're falling out of reach Defying gravity I know you're out there Somewhere out there
After everyone went home Xander and Spike just sat on the couch watching TV, The dark haired man looked to his brother "You gunna be ok Wil?" the blonde nodded "sure..I'll get over it. I mean I've been watchin' friends die my whole life..Why should Willow be any different? Cept for the fact that she was innocent and it should be me that's dead an' not 'er..oh and the fact that I wasn't there for her" Xander shook his head a bit "Wil, Its not your fault. And its not Willow's fault either. You can't beat yourself up about this. I bet she wouldn't want you to" Spike shook his head "no, she wouldn't. Actually if she were here she'd be calling me a pathetic poof..or a stupid wanker and telling me to stop moping" Xander smiled softly "Well then you pathetic poof stop moping or I'll kick your ass stupid wanker" Spike couldn't help but laugh because it just sounded really funny with Xander's lack of an accent.
You're falling back to me You're a star that I can see I know you're out there Somewhere out there You're falling out of reach Defying gravity I know you're out there Somewhere out there
Finally the Giles brothers went to bed, it was around midnight Spike tossed and turned dreaming about Willow, her blaming him for her death, it was 4am when he woke himself up screaming, Xander came in and held him rocking him back to sleep then stayed until he had to go to school the next morning. For days this would happen it became routine, spike would have nightmares and Xander would calm them down, finally after a week Xander looked at him and just told him to go sleep with him then he wouldn't have to walk so far to calm him down, that night Spike didn't dream, he slept. Ofcourse he woke up tangled around his brother but somehow he felt okay with that.
You're falling back to me You're a star that I can see I know you're out there Somewhere out there You're falling out of reach Defying gravity I know you're out there Somewhere out there You're falling back to me I know I know You're falling out of reach I know