Who Knows My Secret?
Chapter Three
By: Good Luck Kitten
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And then there was silence. People always talk about the quiet before the storm... I know they're planning something! I'm not paranoid! They really are acting strangely. Not one of them has said more than three words to me in the last few days, and not a couple stringed together. I was frequently found pouting.
In fact, the only response I've gotten from the terrible trio, is the cold shoulder. I never thought they'd get worked up over a little secret.
But then, as I've been told many a time, 'The Marauders don't keep secrets Remus, so I guess you don't respect our friendship'. Insert fits of laughter from James and Sirius here. I'd like to see you say that with a straight face!
Though, now that I think about it, Peter would talk to me occasionally. I'm so glad to have a great friend like him!!
Wait... Okay, no. It was usually a conversation somewhere along the lines of, 'Remus... James and Sirius won't help me with my potions essay...' Then I'd paste on a kind smile and agree. You take it from there.
It makes me sad that they never call me Moony anymore too. I feel so... Cut off. Like we were never friends in the first place. It sucks! I wanna punch something! ...But of course I won't, because Remus Lupin just doesn't do such things.
If it weren't for Lily constantly stalking me like a war scout, I'd probably have cracked by now. I'd even go on to say that we've woven a kind of spiritual hemp rope between us... Okay, that was a little deep. It's more of a spiritual thread, connected in "Poor Remus"' time of need, but you get my drift. Right?
So we're sitting out by the lake, my head lay in her lap, and she messed with my hair. It was our usual 'bonding' position on our off hours.
"Hey Remmy?" I looked up at her and smiled in that disgustingly kind- hearted way I loved.
"Oh don't pull that!" She roughly shoved my head off her lap, and I landed with a thud on the magically perfect grass.
"What?" I complained, pushing myself up and rubbing the back of my head.
"You know perfectly well what!! I could see what you were thinking in your eyes!" Here she squinted hers and peered in closer at me. "You were being melancholy!!" GASP! REMUS YOU SINNER!!
"So?" I huffed ever-so-maturely.
She sighed in her maternal way and patted her lap. "Whatever... Lay down again. I have important things to tell you."
I rose one eyebrow dubiously before sighing as well and settling back onto her lap.
"I've been thinking, Remmy..." Trigger collective gasps here. "Well, I mean, of course I've been thinking... People think all the time... But what I mean is." Pregnant pause.
"I've formulated a plan!!"
DUN DUN DUN!!!
"A plan?" I croaked. Something about this plan didn't seem straight... Wait! Forget the pun there!! ...I'm glaring at you!
"Yes! A plan!" Peals of bell-like giggles suddenly erupted from the evil that is Lily.
"...Do I want to know?"
"Of course!! It's concerning you and..." She whipped her head left and right checking for eavesdroppers. "... You-know-who." Here she paused for a deep breath.
"I shall call it: OPERATION SEDUCTION!" I stared at her... She has got to be kidding.
"Alright Lily," I started as I stood up, "I'm leaving now. I've officially officialized that you're creepy... There's no way in hell I'm seducing... You know... It doesn't work like that. I'd probably do more scaring than anything else."
Lily blinked a bit. She seemed to do that a lot. Especially when she was thinking really hard... You come to understand such things, you see. I stood there, tempted to start tapping my foot, trying to look aloof. Perhaps she'd back down then, hm?
"Okay, so anyway. Here's what's going to happen. Step One: Isolate the two subjects in question. This means, Remus, that you are going to have to get alone together... I think a late-night study group in an unused classroom, in the common room at night, or the astronomy tower after-hours will do best." She continued and my jaw dropped, exasperation pouring from my defeated form.
"B-but..." I stuttered. There was just no winning with this woman! Wait... "Why are they all at night?!?!"
"Be-CAUSE," she said painstakingly, "The night is soo reclusive and romantic!! Its perfect for your seduction rendezvous." Here she clasped her hands together and swooned, off in her own little world.
I was disgusted. Simply disgusted. Not that would mind being alone with Sirius at night... It's just wrong that she gives more thought into my relationships than I do!! Merlin!! "Lily... I really don't want to seduce anyone."
She stopped dreaming abruptly... And was blinking again. Carefully she thought things through, I could see it in the steadiness of each blink. It's really quite interesting to watch her do this, you should try it sometime.
Slowly an evil grin spread across her lips. She's come to a verdict, obviously in her favor. "Oh Remmy! You do, trust me, you do. I'm not dumb you know. I could leave you worse off with your friends than you already are." She cackled... Like a turkey... Er...
"I can see it now... 'Oh James!!!'" She clasped her hands together once more, "'It's so horrible!!! Remus and I have been secretly going out for the past few weeks... We didn't want you to know, because he still wanted to be friends... But...'" She gasped in her fake tears, "'H-he... He...'" She burst into full-blown crying, totally convincing.
"LILY!! Okay, okay!! ...I'll try..."
She suddenly stopped crying, all rain gone, and was all smiles and sunshine. Woah...that's the fruitiest thing I've ever written... "Super!!" she laughed and grabbed my hand. "Let's go somewhere else... I get the feeling someone's watching us here."
I submitted docilely and allowed myself to be dragged away.
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Little did they know that, in fact, somewhere, not two yards away, Lily was entirely correct. Damn that woman's intuition!
James, Peter, and last but not least, Sirius, crouched by a bush, hidden (just barely) by James' invisibility cloak.
"Can we-"
"Hush Peter!!! They're still near!!"
"Actually Sirius, I doubt they can hear us... Let's hurry up and get back to the room... I'm tired of your freaking huge elbows in my face."
Sirius looked hurt for a moment before rising up in the cloak as one with Peter and James to either side. They dashed up to the common room with well- practiced stealth, barely meeting any resistance, and climbed up to the boys' dorm room. They threw off the cloak with a huff and Sirius collapsed to the floor gasping.
"Merlin! I don't know how much more of Peter's BO I can take!!"
"Yeah... We really need to do something about that." James agreed.
"Sorry guys..." Peter grinned sheepishly, "It happens."
"Okay okay... So what just happened there?" Never misses a thing, that boy, James.
Sirius sat on his bed and rested his head in his hand for thought. "Well... It seems Remus is going for action soon... Though we still have no idea who it is." He punched the bed roughly, "They're too careful!!"
"No... I meant what Lily said towards the end... I wouldn't have believed her!!" Peter and Sirius stared at him blankly, yet obviously omniscient. "What?! I swear!! ...Okay..." He cleared his throat. "Yeah! I know what you mean Sirius! Eh heh heh... Moving right along..."
"I feel bad for Remus... Lily is really scary... Technically this is all her fault. Remus is just insecure about his feelings. I mean, I am too. I'd never tell you guys who I like." Now it was James' and Sirius' turn to stare at Peter. He'd actually made sense! It was a miracle!
"Well... I mean yeah... But... Remus is different, Peter... We'd never thought he'd liked ANYONE before... It's just... So significant that we HAVE to know. With you, we usually figure out anyway, and you've liked tons of girls." Peter shrugged.
"Hmm... I think we need to step it up... Just stalking Remus everywhere certainly isn't cutting it. We need to get serious now.***" They all agreed to bump up the bar and huddled together planning their next attack... This was gonna be good.
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I feel ridiculous... I want to puke. It's officially time to commence with operation seduction, and all I want to do is curl up and die. Instead, I try to remember everything Lily said to me. Here's how the mission lies out:
[1]= Codename: Point A; Status: Gryffindor Common Room.
[2]= Codename: Peter; Status: Currently occupying comfortable red squishy chair by fireplace in Point A (refer to [1]) scribbling on potions homework.
[3]= Codename: James; Status: Preoccupied by Lily (refer to [4]) in faux- interest.
[4]= Codename: Lily; Status: *ALLY. Keeping James' (refer to [3]) attention, so as not to get in way of initial mission.
[5]= Codename: Sirius; Status: *TARGET. Currently bored.
[6]= Codename: Civilians; Status: Not to interfere. Found commonly around Point A (refer to [1]).
[7]= Codename: Point B; Status: Shrieking Shack.
My orders are to infiltrate Point A, confirm subjects [2] and [3]'s status, then capture target, and take to Point B. There I will carry out the operation. My priorities are utmost secrecy, and seclusion. No mistakes are affordable.
So you see my predicament? Probably not... That was a bit silly. Lily said I need to treat this seriously***, and not as a joke. Hmm... I take a deep breath and wait for the signal from Lily.
Lily laughed and said, "James, you have NO idea!!". It was my cue.
Suddenly I couldn't breathe. I finally have to take action... And I can't do it!! I want to puke...again...forever... I closed my eyes away from Lily's meaningful look.
And took a step. Sirius lounged on the red sofa, flipping through a book, and looking entirely unamused.
"Sirius," I squeaked and blushed.... what a lovely combination... I'm so screwed. "Sirius... What are you doing?" Surprisingly I got better. Not so... Hmm... Puberty-smitten-boy-ish anymore. Yes, that's a plus.
He looked up from his book and smiled at me. I nearly melted. 'He's too perfect!' I wanted to scream. Things were looking bad. For me at least. Maybe its on of those 'you had to be there' type of things. I'm speaking choppy.
"Nothing." He slammed his book shut and let it slide off the couch. "I'm incredibly bored."
"Hmm..." I pushed his feet aside and sat down. We sat in a companionable silence a few minutes staring around the room. "Look at them... They really should've gotten together sooner," I said suddenly, trying to break the silence.
"Yeah... Though it seems unfair."
"Why do you say that?" Curiosity killed the ca-wolf.
"Well! Here we are, eligible bachelors, just WAITING to be taken, and he's done nothing but stalk Lily for the past few years. You'd think we'd've had more luck."
I laughed nervously a bit. Funny he should say something like that.
"I'm gonna be sick... Let's go somewhere." I managed to uneasily squeak out. Come on! Think casual... Caah-zzzshhhhuuuuu-aaahl... Breathe in, breathe out.
Sirius yawned and stretched, and I nearly passed out. "Sure. Let's go." He hopped off the couch and ran upstairs to get James' cloak, leaving me taking deep breaths. I can do this... Yes... Breath in, breathe out.
We're done with the first part I suppose... It wasn't so bad... I tried to think of how we used to act together when we were still friends. It certainly was never that uncomfortable. I decided I just needed to relax.
Sirius came sneaking down the stairs, cloak obviously hidden behind his back, and grinning like crazy. Could he BE anymore transparent?! I laughed.
"Not been out much have you?" I whispered, finally finding the silly little friendship we used to share together.
"Nope!" He said joyfully and grabbed my wrist, pulling me towards the portrait hole. He really is like a puppy, I noted, smiling.
I allowed myself to be dragged down the corridor, and, after checking to make sure no one was around, into the secret passageway we used to get out on the school's grounds with. Since it wasn't after-hours yet, we didn't need the cloak. That was for later.
"Sirius?" I whispered... Somehow it seemed important to be quiet even though I knew no one could hear us now.
"Yeah?" I could still hear the happy note in his voice, and nearly laughed again.
"...I... I really didn't wanted to go somewhere... I just wanted to talk to you." Sirius stopped, and I almost ran into him, used to his constant pulling on my arm. It wasn't too dark in the passageway yet, and I could see his frown clearly. Oh! I hadn't meant to make him unhappy!! I suddenly felt really nervous again.
"Okay." He sat down on the floor calmly and laid the cloak over his lap.
This was unexpected. I began panicking.... I'm supposed to get him to Point B!!! ... Change of plans... Lily didn't specify where Point B was... I'll just make it here! Yes.... That might do. I smiled, with a feeling of accomplishment, and sat down next to Sirius.
"Soo..." ...Cricket chirp...
"Ummm..." ...Sirius flicked a dust particle off his robes.
"Err..." ...Tick, tick, tick...
"Eh heh he-"
"OUT WITH IT REMUS!!!" I stared wide-eyed at Sirius. Apparently the silence was having a negative effect on him... Though, I thought stiffly, he hadn't needed to shout at me.
"I'm sorry... You're driving me crazy... What did you want to talk about?"
"...I wanted to know why you guys aren't on speaking terms with me. I mean... I thought it was a miracle that you even came with me tonight..."
Sirius put a finger on his jaw, thinking a moment. I stared at my hands, wishing I could do something. Operation Seduction was totally out of the question... I realized with a stab of sadness that we'd grown too far apart. We needed this time to just be friends.
"I guess... We're just disappointed that you won't tell us. We feel like we tell you everything close to us, and you don't do the same."
"That doesn't give you the right to just push me away like that!! I thought that friends were supposed to forget about stuff like that anyway! How many times have you and James gotten into a fight over stupid things and been over it in a few days. Sometimes in just a few hours!" I'm mad now, in case you can't tell. This sucks... I'm tired of being away from my friends. Girls just aren't the same.
Then I noticed Sirius was staring at me. It was scary, and sent shivers down my spine as I tried not to meet his eyes.
"...It's different with you for some reason... We've never fought before."
I blushed slightly at that, and hoped he wouldn't see. It scared me to think he might know... He'd hate me for sure. There was a reason we'd never fought before. I knew it, and I hated that I couldn't tell him. I've kept this secret for so long, I can keep it a bit longer.
"So... Can't we just forget? ...For all you guys know, I could be over her now."
"No you couldn't." I blinked at him. How would he know? He laughed. "I know you're not!" Wait a second...
"Sirius... How..." I stared at Sirius, a twitch developing in my eye... It couldn't be possible! They wouldn't dare!! ...Did he know?! I was going to have a nervous breakdown if I didn't get away quick.
I stood up and walked away, fuming, and not looking back. Fortunately, he did not come after me. No one messes with Remus when he's pissed.
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AN: T___T Poor Remmy!!!!!! *tackle glomps* Don't worry! Everything will get better! *laughs* I'm so glad I updated... This chapter was so difficult to write though!! O___O *is traumatized* I promise the next chapter will be more up-lifting than this one, lol. Hopefully there'll only be about 2 or 3 more chapters. Hrmm...
Okay... About the '***'... I promised myself that I WOULD NOT put in a dumb Serious/Sirius joke. I definitely saw the potential there, but alas. Woe is you. I personally hate even pronouncing it serious. I say S-eye-rious. Because I think that sounds a lot better. Heh heh, no offense JKR. ^__^6 Err... So sorry in the long delay of updates... *blink blink* I'm doing really bad in school this time. Excuses excuses, yadda yadda yadda. Right- O.
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--GLK
Chapter Three
By: Good Luck Kitten
QUICK AN!!!!: ...WHEN YOU SEE A *** IN THE STORY, IT MEANS I HAVE A COMMENT ABOUT THAT LINE IN THE END!! THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME!!! KEE KEE KEE!
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And then there was silence. People always talk about the quiet before the storm... I know they're planning something! I'm not paranoid! They really are acting strangely. Not one of them has said more than three words to me in the last few days, and not a couple stringed together. I was frequently found pouting.
In fact, the only response I've gotten from the terrible trio, is the cold shoulder. I never thought they'd get worked up over a little secret.
But then, as I've been told many a time, 'The Marauders don't keep secrets Remus, so I guess you don't respect our friendship'. Insert fits of laughter from James and Sirius here. I'd like to see you say that with a straight face!
Though, now that I think about it, Peter would talk to me occasionally. I'm so glad to have a great friend like him!!
Wait... Okay, no. It was usually a conversation somewhere along the lines of, 'Remus... James and Sirius won't help me with my potions essay...' Then I'd paste on a kind smile and agree. You take it from there.
It makes me sad that they never call me Moony anymore too. I feel so... Cut off. Like we were never friends in the first place. It sucks! I wanna punch something! ...But of course I won't, because Remus Lupin just doesn't do such things.
If it weren't for Lily constantly stalking me like a war scout, I'd probably have cracked by now. I'd even go on to say that we've woven a kind of spiritual hemp rope between us... Okay, that was a little deep. It's more of a spiritual thread, connected in "Poor Remus"' time of need, but you get my drift. Right?
So we're sitting out by the lake, my head lay in her lap, and she messed with my hair. It was our usual 'bonding' position on our off hours.
"Hey Remmy?" I looked up at her and smiled in that disgustingly kind- hearted way I loved.
"Oh don't pull that!" She roughly shoved my head off her lap, and I landed with a thud on the magically perfect grass.
"What?" I complained, pushing myself up and rubbing the back of my head.
"You know perfectly well what!! I could see what you were thinking in your eyes!" Here she squinted hers and peered in closer at me. "You were being melancholy!!" GASP! REMUS YOU SINNER!!
"So?" I huffed ever-so-maturely.
She sighed in her maternal way and patted her lap. "Whatever... Lay down again. I have important things to tell you."
I rose one eyebrow dubiously before sighing as well and settling back onto her lap.
"I've been thinking, Remmy..." Trigger collective gasps here. "Well, I mean, of course I've been thinking... People think all the time... But what I mean is." Pregnant pause.
"I've formulated a plan!!"
DUN DUN DUN!!!
"A plan?" I croaked. Something about this plan didn't seem straight... Wait! Forget the pun there!! ...I'm glaring at you!
"Yes! A plan!" Peals of bell-like giggles suddenly erupted from the evil that is Lily.
"...Do I want to know?"
"Of course!! It's concerning you and..." She whipped her head left and right checking for eavesdroppers. "... You-know-who." Here she paused for a deep breath.
"I shall call it: OPERATION SEDUCTION!" I stared at her... She has got to be kidding.
"Alright Lily," I started as I stood up, "I'm leaving now. I've officially officialized that you're creepy... There's no way in hell I'm seducing... You know... It doesn't work like that. I'd probably do more scaring than anything else."
Lily blinked a bit. She seemed to do that a lot. Especially when she was thinking really hard... You come to understand such things, you see. I stood there, tempted to start tapping my foot, trying to look aloof. Perhaps she'd back down then, hm?
"Okay, so anyway. Here's what's going to happen. Step One: Isolate the two subjects in question. This means, Remus, that you are going to have to get alone together... I think a late-night study group in an unused classroom, in the common room at night, or the astronomy tower after-hours will do best." She continued and my jaw dropped, exasperation pouring from my defeated form.
"B-but..." I stuttered. There was just no winning with this woman! Wait... "Why are they all at night?!?!"
"Be-CAUSE," she said painstakingly, "The night is soo reclusive and romantic!! Its perfect for your seduction rendezvous." Here she clasped her hands together and swooned, off in her own little world.
I was disgusted. Simply disgusted. Not that would mind being alone with Sirius at night... It's just wrong that she gives more thought into my relationships than I do!! Merlin!! "Lily... I really don't want to seduce anyone."
She stopped dreaming abruptly... And was blinking again. Carefully she thought things through, I could see it in the steadiness of each blink. It's really quite interesting to watch her do this, you should try it sometime.
Slowly an evil grin spread across her lips. She's come to a verdict, obviously in her favor. "Oh Remmy! You do, trust me, you do. I'm not dumb you know. I could leave you worse off with your friends than you already are." She cackled... Like a turkey... Er...
"I can see it now... 'Oh James!!!'" She clasped her hands together once more, "'It's so horrible!!! Remus and I have been secretly going out for the past few weeks... We didn't want you to know, because he still wanted to be friends... But...'" She gasped in her fake tears, "'H-he... He...'" She burst into full-blown crying, totally convincing.
"LILY!! Okay, okay!! ...I'll try..."
She suddenly stopped crying, all rain gone, and was all smiles and sunshine. Woah...that's the fruitiest thing I've ever written... "Super!!" she laughed and grabbed my hand. "Let's go somewhere else... I get the feeling someone's watching us here."
I submitted docilely and allowed myself to be dragged away.
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Little did they know that, in fact, somewhere, not two yards away, Lily was entirely correct. Damn that woman's intuition!
James, Peter, and last but not least, Sirius, crouched by a bush, hidden (just barely) by James' invisibility cloak.
"Can we-"
"Hush Peter!!! They're still near!!"
"Actually Sirius, I doubt they can hear us... Let's hurry up and get back to the room... I'm tired of your freaking huge elbows in my face."
Sirius looked hurt for a moment before rising up in the cloak as one with Peter and James to either side. They dashed up to the common room with well- practiced stealth, barely meeting any resistance, and climbed up to the boys' dorm room. They threw off the cloak with a huff and Sirius collapsed to the floor gasping.
"Merlin! I don't know how much more of Peter's BO I can take!!"
"Yeah... We really need to do something about that." James agreed.
"Sorry guys..." Peter grinned sheepishly, "It happens."
"Okay okay... So what just happened there?" Never misses a thing, that boy, James.
Sirius sat on his bed and rested his head in his hand for thought. "Well... It seems Remus is going for action soon... Though we still have no idea who it is." He punched the bed roughly, "They're too careful!!"
"No... I meant what Lily said towards the end... I wouldn't have believed her!!" Peter and Sirius stared at him blankly, yet obviously omniscient. "What?! I swear!! ...Okay..." He cleared his throat. "Yeah! I know what you mean Sirius! Eh heh heh... Moving right along..."
"I feel bad for Remus... Lily is really scary... Technically this is all her fault. Remus is just insecure about his feelings. I mean, I am too. I'd never tell you guys who I like." Now it was James' and Sirius' turn to stare at Peter. He'd actually made sense! It was a miracle!
"Well... I mean yeah... But... Remus is different, Peter... We'd never thought he'd liked ANYONE before... It's just... So significant that we HAVE to know. With you, we usually figure out anyway, and you've liked tons of girls." Peter shrugged.
"Hmm... I think we need to step it up... Just stalking Remus everywhere certainly isn't cutting it. We need to get serious now.***" They all agreed to bump up the bar and huddled together planning their next attack... This was gonna be good.
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I feel ridiculous... I want to puke. It's officially time to commence with operation seduction, and all I want to do is curl up and die. Instead, I try to remember everything Lily said to me. Here's how the mission lies out:
[1]= Codename: Point A; Status: Gryffindor Common Room.
[2]= Codename: Peter; Status: Currently occupying comfortable red squishy chair by fireplace in Point A (refer to [1]) scribbling on potions homework.
[3]= Codename: James; Status: Preoccupied by Lily (refer to [4]) in faux- interest.
[4]= Codename: Lily; Status: *ALLY. Keeping James' (refer to [3]) attention, so as not to get in way of initial mission.
[5]= Codename: Sirius; Status: *TARGET. Currently bored.
[6]= Codename: Civilians; Status: Not to interfere. Found commonly around Point A (refer to [1]).
[7]= Codename: Point B; Status: Shrieking Shack.
My orders are to infiltrate Point A, confirm subjects [2] and [3]'s status, then capture target, and take to Point B. There I will carry out the operation. My priorities are utmost secrecy, and seclusion. No mistakes are affordable.
So you see my predicament? Probably not... That was a bit silly. Lily said I need to treat this seriously***, and not as a joke. Hmm... I take a deep breath and wait for the signal from Lily.
Lily laughed and said, "James, you have NO idea!!". It was my cue.
Suddenly I couldn't breathe. I finally have to take action... And I can't do it!! I want to puke...again...forever... I closed my eyes away from Lily's meaningful look.
And took a step. Sirius lounged on the red sofa, flipping through a book, and looking entirely unamused.
"Sirius," I squeaked and blushed.... what a lovely combination... I'm so screwed. "Sirius... What are you doing?" Surprisingly I got better. Not so... Hmm... Puberty-smitten-boy-ish anymore. Yes, that's a plus.
He looked up from his book and smiled at me. I nearly melted. 'He's too perfect!' I wanted to scream. Things were looking bad. For me at least. Maybe its on of those 'you had to be there' type of things. I'm speaking choppy.
"Nothing." He slammed his book shut and let it slide off the couch. "I'm incredibly bored."
"Hmm..." I pushed his feet aside and sat down. We sat in a companionable silence a few minutes staring around the room. "Look at them... They really should've gotten together sooner," I said suddenly, trying to break the silence.
"Yeah... Though it seems unfair."
"Why do you say that?" Curiosity killed the ca-wolf.
"Well! Here we are, eligible bachelors, just WAITING to be taken, and he's done nothing but stalk Lily for the past few years. You'd think we'd've had more luck."
I laughed nervously a bit. Funny he should say something like that.
"I'm gonna be sick... Let's go somewhere." I managed to uneasily squeak out. Come on! Think casual... Caah-zzzshhhhuuuuu-aaahl... Breathe in, breathe out.
Sirius yawned and stretched, and I nearly passed out. "Sure. Let's go." He hopped off the couch and ran upstairs to get James' cloak, leaving me taking deep breaths. I can do this... Yes... Breath in, breathe out.
We're done with the first part I suppose... It wasn't so bad... I tried to think of how we used to act together when we were still friends. It certainly was never that uncomfortable. I decided I just needed to relax.
Sirius came sneaking down the stairs, cloak obviously hidden behind his back, and grinning like crazy. Could he BE anymore transparent?! I laughed.
"Not been out much have you?" I whispered, finally finding the silly little friendship we used to share together.
"Nope!" He said joyfully and grabbed my wrist, pulling me towards the portrait hole. He really is like a puppy, I noted, smiling.
I allowed myself to be dragged down the corridor, and, after checking to make sure no one was around, into the secret passageway we used to get out on the school's grounds with. Since it wasn't after-hours yet, we didn't need the cloak. That was for later.
"Sirius?" I whispered... Somehow it seemed important to be quiet even though I knew no one could hear us now.
"Yeah?" I could still hear the happy note in his voice, and nearly laughed again.
"...I... I really didn't wanted to go somewhere... I just wanted to talk to you." Sirius stopped, and I almost ran into him, used to his constant pulling on my arm. It wasn't too dark in the passageway yet, and I could see his frown clearly. Oh! I hadn't meant to make him unhappy!! I suddenly felt really nervous again.
"Okay." He sat down on the floor calmly and laid the cloak over his lap.
This was unexpected. I began panicking.... I'm supposed to get him to Point B!!! ... Change of plans... Lily didn't specify where Point B was... I'll just make it here! Yes.... That might do. I smiled, with a feeling of accomplishment, and sat down next to Sirius.
"Soo..." ...Cricket chirp...
"Ummm..." ...Sirius flicked a dust particle off his robes.
"Err..." ...Tick, tick, tick...
"Eh heh he-"
"OUT WITH IT REMUS!!!" I stared wide-eyed at Sirius. Apparently the silence was having a negative effect on him... Though, I thought stiffly, he hadn't needed to shout at me.
"I'm sorry... You're driving me crazy... What did you want to talk about?"
"...I wanted to know why you guys aren't on speaking terms with me. I mean... I thought it was a miracle that you even came with me tonight..."
Sirius put a finger on his jaw, thinking a moment. I stared at my hands, wishing I could do something. Operation Seduction was totally out of the question... I realized with a stab of sadness that we'd grown too far apart. We needed this time to just be friends.
"I guess... We're just disappointed that you won't tell us. We feel like we tell you everything close to us, and you don't do the same."
"That doesn't give you the right to just push me away like that!! I thought that friends were supposed to forget about stuff like that anyway! How many times have you and James gotten into a fight over stupid things and been over it in a few days. Sometimes in just a few hours!" I'm mad now, in case you can't tell. This sucks... I'm tired of being away from my friends. Girls just aren't the same.
Then I noticed Sirius was staring at me. It was scary, and sent shivers down my spine as I tried not to meet his eyes.
"...It's different with you for some reason... We've never fought before."
I blushed slightly at that, and hoped he wouldn't see. It scared me to think he might know... He'd hate me for sure. There was a reason we'd never fought before. I knew it, and I hated that I couldn't tell him. I've kept this secret for so long, I can keep it a bit longer.
"So... Can't we just forget? ...For all you guys know, I could be over her now."
"No you couldn't." I blinked at him. How would he know? He laughed. "I know you're not!" Wait a second...
"Sirius... How..." I stared at Sirius, a twitch developing in my eye... It couldn't be possible! They wouldn't dare!! ...Did he know?! I was going to have a nervous breakdown if I didn't get away quick.
I stood up and walked away, fuming, and not looking back. Fortunately, he did not come after me. No one messes with Remus when he's pissed.
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AN: T___T Poor Remmy!!!!!! *tackle glomps* Don't worry! Everything will get better! *laughs* I'm so glad I updated... This chapter was so difficult to write though!! O___O *is traumatized* I promise the next chapter will be more up-lifting than this one, lol. Hopefully there'll only be about 2 or 3 more chapters. Hrmm...
Okay... About the '***'... I promised myself that I WOULD NOT put in a dumb Serious/Sirius joke. I definitely saw the potential there, but alas. Woe is you. I personally hate even pronouncing it serious. I say S-eye-rious. Because I think that sounds a lot better. Heh heh, no offense JKR. ^__^6 Err... So sorry in the long delay of updates... *blink blink* I'm doing really bad in school this time. Excuses excuses, yadda yadda yadda. Right- O.
VERY BIG THANKS TO NINA BLACK!!!! T___T I GOT YOUR REVIEW TODAY, AND DECIDED I NEEDED TO GET MY BUTT IN GEAR!!! MOSTLY BECAUSE I WANT TO PROCRASTINATE ON MY HOMEWORK!!! BUT EVEN SO!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! If anyone else really wanted me to update, you should really thank her too. ^__^ See? It's amazing what a reivew can do. O__o *munches on chocolate*
--GLK