Chapter 4 Conversations With Lily Evans

Part 1: James

"Why wouldn't we want to go?" Sirius asked raising his eye brow at him. They were in Potions and Professor Skillers hadn't arrived yet.

James shrugged, "Didn't think so."

"Of course we would!" Sirius announced. "Star has to go though."

James shrugged, "I don't care."

Moony looked over at him, his face was peaky and he looked as if he was lacking hunger. "When's the full moon?" James asked concerned.

"Sunday," groaned Remus.

James thought about this for a moment, "Are you going to be able to go on Saturday?"

Remus nodded, though James reckoned he probably wasn't very sure.

Star walked towards them and sat on the other side of Sirius; she looked at him and smiled. Her eyes twinkled when she looked at him, his didn't.

James didn't know much of relationships, he was rarely in one but he knew that when two people decide to swap saliva they are both s'pose to have a certain something in their eyes when they looked at each other.

"Hey cutie, what's up?" Sirius asked wrapping an arm around her back.

She shrugged, "Finishing up an essay and then I'm off to go look for Cami well after this class. She's ditching."

James looked over at Star, "Cami as in Camouflage Nixantelete?"

Star gave him a puzzled look and nodded, "You know her?"

Sirius snorted, "Know her? He was completely in love with her back in fourth year. Whatever happened to that?"

"I saw her bald..."James shuddered at the memory.

Cami was practically the only girl who James had ever spent more than five minutes thinking about, with her it wouldn't just take five minutes though. He'd think about her for hours. He'd watch her.

She never ever did look quite the same, he wasn't in love with her features, and it was her personality. He never could keep up with her, she'd be too much of a hassle but just watching her would make his day.

Gawd, was he the biggest arsehole in the planet back then? All the little people in his head were sure voting "DUH!"

He couldn't even look at her now.

Star laughed, "She's funny."

James shrugged, "More like traumatizing."

James watched as Ash stormed passed them, not even glancing at Sirius or Star. Lena was behind them, she looked as if she hadn't slept in awhile. She was explaining to Lily how to make an enhancement potion for the soul.

Kaleb was no where to be seen. Odd, he thought. Kaleb seemed to always be where Lily was, well as far as he could tell, he always was.

James stared transfixed at where Lily was sitting, she seemed so happy. How could she be? Attacks were happening, people were dying, school must be getting stressful, emotions and situations have got to be getting to her. How could someone be so happy? It's surreal.

Her long hair was kept in two plaits that went smoothly around her face, James didn't understand hair. He wouldn't know the first thing about grooming girl's hair; he didn't even know how hair tasted like, seeing he couldn't taste his own.

Sirius hated long hair in girls, he says it gets in his mouth when he's trying to "snog them senseless" as he puts it. He says he would hate it on him too. James laughed; he couldn't see Sirius with long hair.

He looked back at Lily, she was listening to every word that her peers were saying, her eyes shimmered slightly but when she looked away her eyes dazed. It was weird to watch.

"Mr. Potter, I believe that Miss Evans will be very much gratified if you kept your eyes on your book rather than her face." Professor Skillers sneered smoothly each word dripping out of her mouth coolly.

(A/N-I'm changing POV's for a little bit. I miss writing like that)

I felt my face turn beat red, who the hell did she think she was for embarrassing my arse like that? If I wanted to embarrass myself I'd do it myself.

Then again, I shouldn't have been looking at her like an arsehole anyways.

After the laughter of the classroom died out I looked up to see if she saw or not, hoping she didn't. Of course, knowing my luck, she did.

She grinned at me and winked, trying to look sexy probably.

"Are we done yet?" barked Professor Skillers.

I got a handful of smirks then.

Snape gave me, not a smirk, but a glare and a very mean one. I looked away.

After class I grabbed my books and started to walk to my next class, I felt secure because I had over heard Lily was going to ditch, I didn't feel like looking at her for the rest of the day.

I figured she would have ditched this class, it was Transfiguration. She hated this class. I smirked to myself; I still had to tutor her. That sure wiped the smirk off my face.

I sighed to myself.

"Prongs are you alright?" asked a very squeaky voice from behind me. I jumped slightly." Sorry Prongs didn't mean to scare you."

I glanced back, "Oh its no problem Pete, it's my fault. I've been like this all day."

The small boy nodded quietly.

Peter wasn't exactly like us; he didn't quite fit in or look like he did at all. His sandy blonde hair sure did stand out from the rest of ours, his watery blue eyes, his pudginess and his very extra sneaky way of walking behind you. He was surely not like us.

But we loved him anyways.

"Where have you been lately?" I asked trying to start a conversation.

"I've been locked upstairs, not doing so good lately. Forgot almost everything we learned last year. Studying." He said quickly, almost as if he had practiced it. I probably would have believed it if he had said it differently.

I stared at him suspiciously and said, "I see."

I looked away and stared at where I was going when suddenly I saw Lily run pass looking very uneasy.

"Pete, go to class, I'll meet you in there, save me a seat." I said quickly and started to follow Lily. I walked around the corridor and stared down to see if she had taken a seat by the wall but Lily wasn't the type to lay down after something bad has happened.

Where was Lily?

I heard a faint giggle to my left. I narrowed my eyes to see if I could catch something. I saw a speckle of red; I hope my eyes aren't playing tricks on me.

"Evans?" I said suddenly. "Evans?"

(A/N-Got bored, going to the other POV)

Lily spun her head around the corner and eyed James qu33rly.She said nothing but motioned him over.

"What are you doing?" James asked when he got there.

Lily grinned, "I played a small trick on Peeves and now I'm made a run for it."

James scoffed, "That's smart, well I'm off."

Lily frowned, "Why?"

"'Cause I have class."

"So?"

"So I have to go, how did you become prefect?"

"How did you not?" Lily scoffed. "You're so uptight."

"I have to go."

"Why so soon Mr.Potter?" sneered a cold voice.

James stopped dead in his tracks and turned around, "I have to go to class, Professor."

"Why you're already ten minutes late, why go now?" Professor Skillers sneered again, her gray eyes thinning to a very malicious and cold hazel. "Why Miss Evans, I knew once I saw Mr. Potter out of class that you'd be close behind, not such a good idea; eh?"

Lily looked very pale and said nothing, just stood there.

Her wrinkleless face stayed stern then she spat suddenly, "Well? What do you have to say for yourselves?"

James spoke first, "I heard her giggle and I came to see what happened."

Lily glared at him but said nothing.

"Giggling? Miss Evans, explain." Professor Skillers said coolly.

"Umm... well see, I was walking to class and see Professor-Peeves-he tried scaring me and I-I-I had to run away to hide so I could get him away so I could go to class and well--I gave a squeal and I think James must have mistaken it for--umm--a giggle." Lily answered nervously but convincing enough.

Professor Skillers raised a penciled jet black eyebrow, "So that's the story you want to go by?" "It's the only story I know that's true, Professor." Lily said shortly after.

"I see no eye witness to these current events, so am I to go by your word and of Mr. Potters?" Skillers asked tilting her head back and boring her eyes into Lily's.

"If you don't believe me then I suggest Professor, with all due respect, you can interrogate Peeves if you like, he'll tell you." Lily said brightly.

"Are you suggesting, Miss Evans, that I go interrogate Peeves the Poltergeist to prove you innocent?" Her eyes glittered with delight.

Lily nodded, "Quite frankly, I do."

Professor Skillers turned her eyes to James, "What about you?"

"Peter Pettigrew, "James started, "He saw me and heard me say where I was going."

"Well thank you for that nice fairy tale story now please, let me give you mine, I was going to go teach my class till I found two students out of theirs roaming the school with no worries. Then taking up half an hour of my time making me miss my class."

"Well you should have just sent us off to class with detentions so we could have been out of your hair." Lily stated in a know-it-all voice.

Skillers narrowed her eyes and then smirked, "That's not such a bad idea Miss Evans, and I'll take half of your advice. How about I give the both of you detentions and ten points off Gryffindor. Each. Go to your common rooms; go to your next class. I do not want to upset Professor McGonagal, I will inform her."

Neither of them needed to told twice they ran off.

When they were out of earshot Lily hissed, "That's how I became prefect."

Part 2: The Ash and Sirius Chronicles

"Hey, how have you been?" Sirius said attempting to speak to Ash as she walked from her last class of the day.

Ash cocked her eyebrow up and continued walking leaving Sirius free attempt unnoticed.

"Are you mad at me?" Sirius tried again following.

Nothing.

Ash stared hard at the floor trying to ignore his poor attempts at a shooting conversation.

"You have no reason to be mad at me." Sirius snapped harshly.

Ash stopped in her tracks and whipped around, "I don't, you say?"

Sirius glared at her and shrugged nonchalant, "Not really, well I doubt it, because girls can naturally be so emotional."

"You must know a lot about girls too since you spend half your time gagging them with your tongue." Ash scoffed and continued walking.

"What is your damn problem?" Sirius snapped.

"Nothing. Go away. You're taking up my oxygen."

"Fine I'll stop following you."

"Wow, now there's a spiffy idea."

"You are so damn difficult."

Ash now walked in a faster pace.

Ash laid on the couch with her eyes closed, faking sleep so she wouldn't be bothered, an old trick she learned back home. Lily was actually sleeping on the other couch; she got tired of waiting for Kaleb to come. She got bored of doing that so she stood up and stared hard at the wall. She heard giggles by the wall.

It was Star. Figures, she thought.

She didn't know why she didn't like Star, it came automatically, the girl was actually pretty nice and she stands up for herself so you can't blame her for hating Ash as well. Star was perfect; grades, looks, whatever, but you'd never hear it from Ash.

Ash looked back at Star, whats so special about her? she thought.

The three girls standing around Star were Andrea, Cami and Cid Charrise.

Andrea had short choppy light brown hair with long bangs that covered her thin eyebrows, big brown eyes that were very glittery and glazed, light peach skin and a few spaced out freckles. She had a very slim body and was a little short for her age.

Cami had long black hair in a single plait down to her shoulder blade with pinned back bangs that spiked up.(Ash scoffed)Very deep olive colored eyes and milky white skin. She was a bit curvier than the other girls there.

Cid had chocolate skin with straight brown hair to her shoulder blade, big green eyes with big red full lips. She had hardly any curves but she was still fairly attractive.

Sirius came out of his room looking very tired for some reason. Probably wanking off, mused Ash, Gawd, I have such dirty fantasies--I mean thoughts, yes I mean thoughts.

Ash turned around to leave, she would explain to Lily later.

"Hey Ash, wait up where yea going?" Sirius said running up to her.

Ash muttered back, "No where I'd want you to be."

Star suddenly popped up at Sirius side, "Well then Sirius, why don't we give Her Royal Highness, her space?"

Sirius ignored Star and said, "You've been ignoring me lately, why?"

"Because I, Her Royal Highness, have the freedom to do such things," Ash replied sarcastically, shooting glares at Star.

"See Sirius, she has better things to do as so we, lets leave Ashtyn alone."Star said in a forced nice voice, even though her words seemed far from nice. Any buck-tooth monkey can tell. ((Star you aren't a bitch in my story, this is Ashes part of the story and she doesn't like you, in the story, I'll make you nicer later.))

"That's not an answer." Sirius stated, ignoring Star again.

Ash snapped, "And why isn't it an answer? Hmm? Because it wasn't the thing you wanted to hear?"

Sirius gave her a confused look, "What the fuck did I do to you anyway? I don't remember being an arsehole to you lately."

Ash rolled her eyes, "I'm sure you wouldn't know even if I told you. You're so busying being pompous all the time, you don't ever think about other people, other than yourself."

Star smiled to Ash and said sweetly, "Ashtyn, if I were you I wouldn't use words I'd choke on." "It's probably a very good thing you aren't me because then I'd have to beat the living shit out of you now wouldn't I?" Ash sneered, her voice sounding nothing at all like Stars.

Sirius grinned to himself and sneered loudly, "Ash you are such a bitch. I hate to see your erm... ladies day, or maybe you are on them?"

Star smirked, "That would explain a lot actually."

Ash stared at him like he was a complete idiot, "What the-"Sirius grinned cockishly. "You are such an idiot, the both of you."

She turned to walk away again.

"You bitch." Sirius said loudly.

"I better be a bitch than what you are." Ash snapped not looking back.

Cami followed her out.

"Having trouble trying to act nice?" Cami asked giving me her know-it-all look, cocking her lower lip to touch her upper one.

"No, not at all." Ash snapped sarcastically.

"Alright don't get your knickers all up in a twist hun." Cami moved a piece of hair away from her mouth.

"I don't have my knickers all up in a twist, like you put it; I have my silky red knickers all up in a twist."

"I'll pray for you, hun." Cami said and the added," 'Cause purple with black polka dots are the way to go."

Ash smirked, "Yea for those who are not wise enough to enjoy silky red ones."

"Mate, don't go there." Cami mockingly rose her hand and put it to her face.


Ooo

Lily woke up from the couch; she couldn't see very well, her glasses had fallen off. She looked around the room and it was already night but the room was so quiet! She couldn't have slept for that long, now could she? It was too late for her to creep to the Prefects room; she'd get in trouble if she got caught.

She looked up at the girls dormitory, she hadn't been there in awhile, she wasn't sure if she was even allowed there.

She furrowed her face, of course she was, who'd kick her out? Who had the guts to kick her out? Not anybody she knew.

The room consisted of Ash, Lena, Cami, Star, Andrea, Cid, Malaria and Molly ((not Ron's mom)). The only way she'd kick out was if Malaria and Molly took over, they both hated Lily. For no apparate reason, probably jealous. She shrugged it off and crept up the stairs silently.

As she entered the room everything seemed to be making noises, the door, the floor and her breath. It all had a certain sound that she knew her herself would have shaken or woken up by. She looked over at Ash's bed. It was empty. Her bright purple bed spread was untouched, which was weird because it was hardly ever even kept. Ash had written a letter to a house elf noting that she would not sleep on her bed or eat their food if they made her bed, and that was a big sacrifice on her part.

Lily stared at the bed; she pondered on the reasons why it was empty. Maybe she was with Sean, which could have easily been the answer if Cami's bed wasn't empty as well.

The rest laid asleep without moving, how could they have not noticed Cami and Ash gone? That would have been a huge void back when Lily crashed there.

She knew she couldn't crash here without Cami or Ash. Lena was an early bird, she did laps in the morning around the lake to keep her "aura" as she put it, but everyone doubted she actually made it around the whole lake because it was considerably huge for a lake. Star and Cid wouldn't wake up even if Dumbledore died, so it would leave her with Malaria and Molly, as sane as people thought of them, the both were as malicious as two Slytherins combined.

She changed into suitable wear quickly and hustled out. She was wearing a black shirt with red flannel pants that belonged to Ash.

She didn't want to sleep on the couch, Kaleb was crashing in the Head Girls room (current girlfriend) and the dormitory was out of the question.

"James!" she squealed out loud. He'd let her in!

She ran up the steps and quickly jammed the door open to a sound of adolescent boys snoring and groaning, some even moaning but she didn't listen too much of that as she tuned it out.

She saw a familiar hand peaking out of a four-poster bed by the window, exactly across to where her window was in the Prefects room. She would recognize that incredibly unkept hair anywhere.

"James," she whispered as she beckoned near him. "James!"

A groan.

"James!" she hissed louder. "Its Lily, wake up?"

"Lilmph, whatre yur doimph herph?" moaned James silently.

"I need a place to crash! Wake up!" she whispered loudly in his ears. "C'mon James if you let me crash I'll rock your world."

His eyes snapped open and he said loudly in surprise, "What are you doing in here?"

"Shhh!! Crossing the Mexican border, what do you think wanker?" Lily hissed loudly.

"Well, how should I know? This doesn't happen frequently, you know!" James whispered sitting up. "What do you want?"

Lily took a deep breath and sighed, "I need a place to crash, long story but this is my only option, believe me."

James groaned, "Of course it has to be me. Whatever fine, take half the bed, just don't talk to me." Lily made a face, "Is that what you say to all the girls who sleep with you?"

"No, just you." James scooted over his back facing her. "If you are trying to fulfill a sick fantasy or if this is a sick joke, then get your arse off my bed and go away."

"Don't be a git. I didn't come here t0 get in your knickers, mate." Lily rolled her eyes and covered herself with a blanket. "Thanks though, formerly, in your dept."

James turned her back to her and groaned; he couldn't seem to go to sleep. Knowing he had Lily Evans in his bed, laying aside him, would make anyone lose their sleep.

He stared at the stars, lately he had been feeling quite lonely like he didn't fit in, and it was quite just that. He wanted to explore life, outside of these walls, without paint and pastels or wands and magic. Just him and the world.

"Are you awake?" James whispered, not moving.

"Yea," replied a small voice, one that's obviously tired. He rather not worries her with his thoughts.

"Good night, Ev." He then closed his eyes and forced himself to sleep.

The next day she was gone. She didn't even leave a mark that she was there, nothing. Not a hair, shape or anything. All he had was a memory but not even him knew if he was dreaming or not. Dreaming of Evans? No, it must have been real. Had to. No other explanations.

James stared at his watch, two hours till his first class started. The week had taken such a buzz on him, it was already Thursday.

"James, are you up?" Sirius asked coming in from the loo.

"Obviously, but why are you up?" James asked walking into the loo to take a look at him.

"Man, I had the weirdest dream. I had a dream that Evans, Lily Evans had stayed the night in this room and this morning I swear I saw her leave but when I got up to check. No one there. It was creepy."

James swallowed, "That is creepy."

"No kidding." Sirius yawned. "I'm tired."

"No kidding." snorted James.

"Wanker."

"Wanker," James mimicked in a childish voice.

"Stop that."

"Stop that."

"I'm a homosexual arse."

"I'm a homo-"James stopped. "Whatever."

"I win!" Sirius threw his arms out in content.

James grabbed his bag and walked out of the common room, he was planning on ditching today, the whole day. He was getting tired of school and November breeze was fairly well today, it was cloudy but nice.

Plus he had Divination and Double Potions today, he rather just hide out outside by the lake behind a large oak tree he had found back in his second year. No one ever went there, he knew for a fact because when he tried asking Hagrid about it and he had never heard of such a tree in his years in Hogwarts.

He walked out of the Common Room and walked in a different direction than Transfiguration. He didn't need his invisibility cloak, in a different situation he might have but he knew he wouldn't get caught. He knew it.

So many things passed his mind, he thought about a lot of deep things after every encounter with Lily, well the recent ones. He always wondered what was so different from him than the rest of the boys here.

Maybe he needed to date more, but what's the fun in that if he knew he wasn't going to enjoy it? Maybe he was gay? No because he had no desire to date any sex.

"Maybe you are." said a voice from behind him.

He jumped higher than he had ever in his life.

"Don't get scared Potter, I was just answering your question." Lily answered walking aside James.

"I didn't realize I was talking aloud." James said trying to edge away from her.

"You were." she said. "Well I'm not in the mood to bother you, so I'm going to the library to finish my Transfiguration paper. When do we start tutorials?"

"Whenever you have the time." James shrugged still walking.

"Well obviously we both have time now."

James nodded, "Well follow me because I don't feel like a library session, today's a perfect day, we should be outside and if you don't mind, transfiguration is a breeze to me so I will be sketching." Even though Lily brought the factor up, she wasn't planning to actually study that was just her excuse to talk to James.

"I hear you're planning to quit quidditch." Lily brought up.

James face hardened, "I did plan to, couldn't though. Don't ask me why, I just couldn't."

Lily nodded, "I understand."

James didn't actually think she did, "Where's Kaleb?"

"I haven't seen him around lately, he's dating the Head Girl Beccalyn Ross and he's been with her since then every night. I don't know, but can someone really have the energy to shag every night?" James snorted, "Becca? He's going out with Becca Ross? Chose prissy bitch over you? That guy must be so blind."

Lily blushed a little and smirked, "Your compliments won't get me."

James noticed her blush and looked away, he wasn't interested in her he just thought she was prettier than Becca, any four-eyed monkey would think so.

"Won't get you? As if I'm trying." James snorted. "How do you figure they've shagged?"

"He smelled kind of funky one night and he looked sweaty and had a smile on, he told me it was the best night of his life." Lily winced as she remembered it, James could tell.

"It'll be alright," James said and then said nothing. He then noticed her long hair was down. "Why don't you just cut your hair?"

"Why don't you comb your hair?"

"It's naturally like that."

"Well this is how my hair is." Lily snapped. She fixed her glasses and stared back at him. He looked away first. "So you up for Saturday?"

James shook his head, "Not really, I don't like going out. Prefer not to quite frankly."

Lily blinked, "You are such an odd child."

"No, just acquisitively challenge."

"That's not even a word spork."

"Spork?" James asked laughing.

"Yes Spork." Lily answered him winking.

A/N- Thank you for the review ------- that really helped!! Anyways I'm barely working on the next chapter and it's going to be called: "I just couldn't make it because..."