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Chapter 13 (part 1)

I turned and sprinted down the hallway while hot, angry tears stained my cheeks. Never have I felt such rage within me, my heart was slamming against my chest, my feet tapped against the ground rapidly as I slowed to a stop at the door, pushing past the footman who had just finished unloading the last of the luggage.

I dashed into the world outside towards the stables. Just ten minutes ago, the day seemed so perfect. Sirius was here to stay. We were going to have fun together. But right now, I felt as if looming, gray clouds were hovering above my head. A bird chirped somewhere and I couldn't help getting irritated at how happy that bird sounded.

I slowed down to a walk, mainly because I was getting tired. But also because the heavy weight that once rested on my chest was ebbing away. My anger was receding and another feeling took over. Guilt...regret.

I trudged into the stable, my shoulders drooped, I could just tell I must have looked miserable. Sapphire raised his head from the water tank and neighed in welcome.

"Hi," I said hoarsely.

I stroked his neck once and leaned my cheek against it, sighing heavily. Then I got the reins and the saddle and began to fix them upon Sapphire. Then I jumped onto her back and lashed the reins harder than I would have.

We took off at a gallop across the lawn before Sapphire jumped over the low wooden fence that bordered it. We streaked into a forest challenging an imaginary racer. I headed for our favourite spot in the luscious dewy green forest, the creek. My head was overrun with questions. I regretted my actions just now... if only I could've turned back time... he is the only family I have left.

But then the livid feeling of hate took over me again... he never cared about me, he just leaves me alone, he never showered me with concern like other parents would. Now I wished more than ever Mother was still here.

As we neared the creek, I got off Sapphire and wandered to the water's bank. I sat on the grass and stared at the clear water flow down the stream, letting the natural sounds of nature soothe my troubled soul. I dipped my fingers into the water and felt the cool water against it. I let out a long unsteady sigh as images of my life streamed through my mind.

I read soft rustles of leaves but dismissed it as rabbits or squirrels scuttling across the forest floor. A sudden gust of wind passed by, rustling the trees making it sound like a storm, and causing soft ghostly howls. Sapphire gave a small neigh behind me but I paid no attention.

I didn't know how long I was sitting there, this was one of those times where you could say that 'time had lost all meaning'. I heard a voice calling out my name... no two. They seemed far away. I turned around and looked through the trees, I couldn't see anybody but they sounded like James and Sirius.

I sighed again. I might as well stay here until they find me. No doubt my father had asked them to bring me back. I averted my gaze back at the calm water and a small fish caught my eye as it tried to swim upward against the current.

Suddenly, large strong arms wrapped themselves around my chest.