Title: Never tell me that you love me
Rating:R
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Buffy characters. They all belong to Joss!
Joss is my god!
Distribution: Please tell me if you wanna put this anywhere!(who would want to anyway...do you??)
Pairing: Spike/Buffy (well kinda you'll understand when you read the other chapters)
Feedback: Yes please!!!!
Summary: Everyone is human. Buffy has just moved to New York. She goes to a club and meets a stranger. But what is he doing and more important what is his secret?
WARNING: This chapter deals with rape.Dont read if you can't handle.
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Doesn't it say "angst" in the criteria?
Next time I will warn readers but I thought it was clear that this wasn't lovely dovely.
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Chapter 5:
New Beginnings
"How dare he hit me!" Buffy thought again when she got home.
She was really frustrated. She wasn't Spike's property or his "fuck me when you want to"
whore!
Buffy was going to have to tell him that it was over. She would make sure she wouldn't be seduced by him again. But to do that she would have to not see him for at least 2 days.
"Deal." she told herself.
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The next day Buffy felt so relaxed. She couldn't remember the last time she had slept so well. Getting ready for work she put on some jeans and a black blouse.
10 minutes later she arrived at work. She sat down at her desk. It had lots of photos of her old friends and family on it. Buffy picked up a photo of her and her family and friends.
Willow, Xander, Tara, Anya and of course her mum and her sister Dawn. She missed them.
As Buffy was lost in the picture somebody touched her shoulder.
She jumped.
"Oh I'm sorry. I just wanted to ask you something."
"Oh hi William. It's ok.I was just daydreaming."
"I do that sometimes." he answered in a whisper.
"So. You wanted to ask me something?"
"Well.....yes....I was just wandering if you would like to go out sometime.
Buffy was shoked.She would never have suspected that from him. He seemed so shy and insecure and Buffy knew how hard it was to ask somebody out.
"Sure". "Why not?" she thought. It would take her mind off things.
"Well not really go out but rather go to my apartment and have dinner?"
"That sounds nice."
"Do you have any preferred food?"
"No not really. Just no fish-please."
"I never liked fish myself."
They both laughed.
"So tonight at seven?" he asked.
"Seven sounds great."
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Buffy really didn't know what to wear for tonight.
William was working with her and she didn't want to give him the wrong impression.
But on the other side she couldn't turn up in a sweatshirt.
She decided to put on a red dress with a black scalf around her waist.
Buffy took a cab down to Williams's apartment and took the lift to the 6 floor.
She knocked on his door, number 36, and was surprised to see him wearing a black shirt and classy jeans. His shoes were polished to perfection.
"Its ok.Most people are shocked to see me in other clothes than a suit." He said
"Well yes but I like it." she smiled.
"Thanks." he blushed and let her in.
His apartment was huge and so stylish. It had leather sofas and it reminded her of The Box Room. The table was dressed for two and it looked so wonderful.
William pulled out the chair for Buffy and she sat down thanking him.
"Dinner will be ready in 5 minutes." he said.Then he walked into the kitchen.
"What did you cook me?" Buffy said seductively.
"It's a surprise." he answered popping his head through the door.
He came out with two plates full of spaghetti with a cream sauce, topped off with herbs.
They both eat and Buffy praised him at least 4 times before he told her to stop but obviously liking it.
"Oh my god. I'm full but that was so delicious."
"Thanks. I aim to please."
She got up her seat and reached for the plates but he stopped her and took the plates to the kitchen.
"Are you ready for ice cream?"
"There's more?"
"I couldn't let you starve."
"Alright Mr.Marsters let me have the dessert"
"Anything for you Mrs Summers." and with that he came out with one big ice-cream.
He took the spoon and directed it towards Buffy's mouth.
She tasted it and licked her lips.
"I think this is even better than the main course."
"It's a family tradition passed along."
"Well when I see your family I'll thank them."
Buffy saw the hurt in his eyes.
"I'm sorry did I say somet..." she stopped and understood.
"My mother died at my birth and my father left me and my brother all alone. He died 2 years ago of a brain tumour."
"I am so sorry..."
"You didn't know. It's fine.-So why did you move here?"
"Well I just couldn't live in Sunnydale anymore. Too much heartbreak."
"I understand. That's why I moved her after my family died."
Buffy stood up and walked towards William. Maybe they could heal each other by being there for each other. She took his head in her hands and kissed him softly on the lips.
He returned the gesture by pulling her on to him. He reached up her back and opened her bra.
But Buffy stopped him.
"This is going to fast."
"I'm sorry Buffy."
"I should go."
"Alright.I'll see you tomorrow?"
"Maybe." and with that she stepped out of his apartment.
She got into a cab and drove to her apartment.
As she walked up to her apartment she heard the television on.
"That's strange. I never turned it on."
She stepped into her apartment and saw him sitting on her sofa.
"We have to talk."
"If you wanted to try something new you could just do it. If talking dirty is your new itch Ill scratch it."
"No I don't want to...., Buffy sighed, look we've only had sex twice.
"We might have only had sex twice but I've made you come so much more." He smirked.
"You disgust me."
"And that's why you keep letting me fuck you?" he said confidently.
"No. I mean I don't...."
He stood up and pushed her on the sofa. He removed her underwear.
"No please Spike don't." but it was too late he already was inside her.
Buffy had tears in her eyes and screamed. She couldn't describe the pain it was that excruciating.
He didn't stop and Buffy just tried to block out everything around her.
When he had finished he put back on his trousers. He lit up a cigarette.
"This is your last warning. If you see him one more time and try to get it on I will kill you. Trust me." and with that he blew the smoke in her face.
He slammed the door and left Buffy on the sofa bruised and broken.
She pulled herself up because her legs where hurting too much.
She reached for the phone and pressed 1.
Thank god she remembered to put Cordy on speed dial because she collapsed after whispering "Help me."
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Chapter 5!!!!
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