A/N: Wow thank you to the people who reviewed. I really hope you like this chapter too. Sorry if it isn't as good as the other. I tried though so that counts. Right? Haha I'm a dork.

Two of the Chapters

Lily sniffled into her cup. Trying not to cry again. Trying to be strong in front of him. She didn't want him to know how messed up her life was. How much she thought about dieing everyday.

How he was the one keeping her alive. When they hadn't talked for months.

"Well." She began. "I feel like everyone's dieing." She whispered.

James sat down the pot of tea and stared at her. Then realizing that he was being rude he sat down next to her again on the couch. Hoping it would signal her to continue. When it didn't he decided to try to say something comforting.

"No one's dieing Lily." He said grabbing her free hand again.

She snapped her head around to look at him. "Not dieing. More like everyone's dead." Lily then looked away again and continued speaking. "My mum, grandparents, and my uncle. They all died. All in the same day."

He really felt for her. James knew all to what it felt like to lose a family. He wanted to take all the hurt away from her.

"Lily. I'm so sorry. Is there anything I can do?" James asked pulling her into another hug.

"No. The funerals have already happened. What a disaster that was. Four coffins lined in a row. Father doing his thing and Petunia stood up in the middle of the thing and pointed an accusing finger at me. Screaming how I killed them. It was my fault. If I hadn't gone to that "freak" school. They would all still be alive." She started to cry again. "But the worst part is." Lily looked at him dead in the eyes. "Is she right. It's all my fault."

All her fault! James thought. He didn't have any fond memories of Petunia and this only made him hate her even more. It was so far from the truth. Nothing this horrible could be her fault.

"I want to die James. It would be so much easier."

James had heard enough of it. "Lily it's easy to blame it on yourself and to want to die. But in reality, your sister does love you and do you really want one more death for her to cry about."

The words didn't make Lily feel better. It was the effort. James still cared enough about her to make the effort so she would feel better.

Then, neither of them could really see how it happened but Lily kissed him. To her surprised he kissed back.

They walked up and down and looked in shop windows and laughing about people. Lily was having a fabulous day with him until they ran across Mary.

Mary was in their year and a Hufflepuff. She was one of the most popular people at Hogwarts and Lily was her target at all times.

"Hello James." She said giving him a huge smile totally ignoring Lily. "How have you been this summer?"

"Fine. You?" He said looking at Lily and almost rolled his eyes not listening to what Mary had to say. "Oh, you've met Lily Evans right?" He asked her.

"Oh yes. I didn't know that you two were friends or that she had any friends at all."

Lily shot a sarcastic look at her and Mary gave one back. James was appalled. How could anyone say that about Lily!?

He grabbed her hand and said, "We're more than just friends."

Mary looked at their intertwined hands and gasped. Trying to cover up her shocked face she said, "Oh well. Good for you two. I'm so glad." More like devastated. HOW long had she liked James? How much effort had she put into trying to make him see she liked him with out seeming creepy?

All Lily had to do was come to one of hid dumb parties and sit alone! What was the world coming to?

"I guess we'll be seeing you at school Mary." Lily said pulling James away from her. Once they were far enough away from her she stopped him. "What the hell was that?"

"I don't know. You shouldn't let her talk to you like that." James said scratching the back of his head. Lily opened her mouth to say something but closed it. There wasn't much to say to him.

As they stood there for a moment on the sidewalk, James thought he might take a chance. Pulled Lily into a side street and kissed her. His stomach was in his throat. What was she going to think about him now?

"James did you grab my hand in front of Mary because you like me. Or was it because you wanted to stick up for me?"

I just kissed you and your asking this? James thought. But then he remembered how complicated girls were. "Lily I like you. A lot."

"And?" She said waiting for more. What more could he say?

Then it dawned on him. "And do you want to be my girlfriend?"

Lily cocked her head to the side and smiled. "I don't know. There are so many reasons to say no. Like you'd be a distraction to my studies, and god only knows what sort of baggage you carry." The smile that appeared on his face was slowly fading.

Was she serious? "But. I like you a lot too. But...of course I will. Do you think I'm crazy?!"
"Lily I can't do this." James said moving away from her.

She looked down at her hands. What made her think she still had a chance with him? He was so wonderful in every aspect of the word. When she was this pitiful excuse for a person.

"I'm sorry." All she had hoped was that he still liked her. But that was a silly childish thought. Hoping for the best when the worst surrounded her. "I'm so sorry. I've wanted to tell you for so long."

Lily was now on the floor sitting on her feet at James' side. "All that time. My career. It was just my cover job. James. I'm really an Auror. They wouldn't let me tell you. I know that if you'd just known. We would be together right now."

James looked at her with disbelief. "Lily. You're a model. I've seen your picture on thousands of magazines, billboards and advertisements."

He's been looking for me. "Yes I am. But it was all a cover. Really, since we broke up, I date death eaters and try to find out things so they can be convicted. Please believe me. You have to."
Lily and James sat together in the common room. Lily was flipping through a muggle magazine her sister had sent her. She stopped at a page and looked at James.

Pointing at the picture she said, "I'm going to do that someday."

"Do what?" James asked looking at the girl posing.

"Model." Lily stood up and struck a pose. She had a serious look on her face. Then she did another. James laughed at her. "Once some one told my I had the perfect look. The kind you could do anything with. What do you think?"

James pulled her down beside him by the hips and looked at her. "I think that you're beautiful."

"Really?" She asked smiling. James nodded. "No one's ever told me that."

She wanted to tell him how happy he made her. Even though that James and his friends were practically the only people who bothered to talk to her now that she and James were dating.

Mary was insane jealous of her Lily and threatened any girl who talk to her social Siberia. So that was it. All of the "friends" that Lily once had were gone. For now at least everyone was sure that Mary would let up her threat and people would come back.

They always did.
"Why can you tell me now and not before?" James said. "Lily how can you expect me to believe that? Don't you think I would know? Don't you think I would have worked with you or something? Or do your really think I'm that dumb? What? What do you want me to say? That's it's all okay because, it's not Lily. It's not." He felt better getting that off his chest. "It's not okay to show up here in the middle of the night. Expecting me to save you from the mess you call your life. It isn't fair to me."

Lily sat there for a while staring at the floor. She'd been expecting this to happen. James had a horrible temper. Also, however much he said she was selfish. He could match it. They were both to absorbed with themselves to have a relationship.

She stood up. Trying to be ad dignified she said. "I'm sorry. I didn't realize how much of a mistake it would be to come here. I'll never bother you again." Walking to the door she turned to him and said. "You know James. It's easy to put all the blame on me. But I wasn't the only reason our relationship failed and you know it."

With that Lily walked back into the night. Not sure where she was going. But getting away from there felt like a good idea.

As dumb as it was, the words Lily had left with him stung. It devastated him, the entire situation. Wishing he hadn't said those words James went back to bed.
A/N: Well once again. I really hope you liked it. Please review.