A/N: For those of you who get CONFUSED (just to catch your eye) the lines between paragraphs is beginning of a flash back and end of it. Maybe I'll start the first word off by underling it too so there isn't any confusion. Any way thanking you for the wonderful reviews that I got. I loved them.

Four of the Chapters

Lily woke up the next morning, looking down at herself. The nightclothes James had lent her where on the verge of falling off. She looked at him sleeping peacefully. Lily loved to watch him sleep. It was the only time he was quiet and he looked as though he were an angle. She wiggled her way into his embrace for awhile until she got bored and decided to get dressed.

Remembering what had happened the night before, she got out of James' bed and got into her own clothes. Lily walked around his all to filmier house, which she loved. There wasn't much about him that she didn't love.

It hadn't changed much since the last time she was in it. James had had a house to his own since they were in Hogwarts, due to the fact his parents and family had died and everything was left to him. That was reason why they were so close because, they had held each other up in hard times.

She walked into his kitchen to see the house elf that had been there since Lily had been there last. It was nice to see things hadn't changed much. The elf smiled at her happily.

"Hello Miss. Evans." It remembered her. That made Lily feel so good, she smiled back at it. "Can I get you anything?" It asked.

It always amazed Lily how much all the house elves, she'd ever met, just wanted to do everything for you.

Thinking for a moment she finally said, "I'd love some wheat toast, if you have it."

The elf nodded and went to gather ingredients. Lily walked out of the kitchen to the breakfast room. A nice little bay window area that light poured into. She sat down at the table and looked out side at a beautiful day.

"Do my eye's deceive me?" Said a voice coming into the room. Sirius Black. Lily adored him for all he was worth. "Is Lily Evans sitting in my house?" She gave him her best smile.

"It's nice to see you too Sirius."

"I knew you'd return to us one of these days. Can't resist my charm." She smiled again. "No really. What brings you to my breakfast table?"

"Nothing much. Just thought I'd break in and steal some food." Lily said as the house elf brought her toast.

"I see. Not a certain some one who's initials are JP?"

"Yes actually. I found him downtown last night. Thought I'd bring him home." She told him looking into her plate of food.

Sirius sat back. "Oh that's where I left him. I was a little worried when I got home and didn't have him with me. Glad to know people like you are around." He laughed at his own joke. Sirius was good for making you laugh. Also, his demeanor wouldn't make you think so. But, he almost always knew just what to say to make you feel better. Although, at the same time, he knew just what to say to make you feel like the lowest piece of scum on the face of the earth, Lily loved him.

Not like she loved James mind you. But she loved Sirius and missed him too. It was more than great to be back in both of their lives.

"So I must ask, how is the modeling career going? I saw you on the cover of all those fashion magazines you girls are crazy about."

"Oh you know." Lily shrugged. She'd never admit it to James, especially not now, but she loved to model. Having all the cameras and everyone's attention on you. Being asked to show up at some one's party to make them look better. Free clothes, shoes, make up, and haircuts didn't hurt either.

"No I don't know. You must tell me how the other half lives."

She rolled her eyes. "As if you don't know. It's okay. Since I've been single they've been having me dating all these people to get myself more publicity. Oh, and I got an offer to be in a muggle picture show. It'll only be a cameo. Never the less, it almost means I've made it."

"Ooooh. I'll have to tell everyone I've got a big model sitting in my house." Sirius said almost making fun of her.

It was nice to be made fun of again.

"Lily! You must eat more. You look like the wind might take you way if it blows to hard."

"Shut up Sirius." She said.

He laughed again. Almost like old times, Lily thought.

Lily sat in the middle of her bed, on the verge of tears. Trying everything in her power to not cry.

'It's not that big of a deal. You're crying over nothing. DO NO cry Lily. Your stupid if you cry. It's dumb to cry over.' Was all she kept telling herself, holding her breath.

"Lily." Said some out side her bed curtains. "You okay?" It was a girl from her dorm.

Lily sat there for a moment more, getting herself together. She couldn't cry in front of people. Then she would have to tell them why, and what she would say would be a lie. Her life was a lie. So, it wouldn't be that hard.

The curtains started to open and Lily smiled at the girl. "Hello." She said. "Are you alright?" The girl asked again.

"Yeah I'm fine. I was just thinking." Lily replied standing up.

"Oh, well I was just going to tell you that James' is looking for you."

Lily smiled at her and said thanks. She left her dorm to go down to the common room and saw James sitting at a table with Sirius. "Hello" she said sitting down.

"All mighty one decided to join the rest of the world today?" Sirius joked referring to Lily.

She mocked laughed at him and looked at James. "You were looking for me?"

He sat there for a moment and it seem to come to him. "Oh yeah I was. Who told you?"

"Emma. What'd you want?"

"Let's go for a walk."

"What and leave me here?" Sirius said.

Forgetting that Sirius was there James got up and took Lily by the hand. She loved the walks they had. It was what really made them close. James had told her, what seemed like, almost everything about him.

In some ways she felt guilty because, she hadn't really told him anything about her self. It was too scary for her tell any one anything. In her mind if she said some things out loud it would make them real. Then, Lily would have to accept them and that was to difficult to do.

"I wanted to ask if you'd come home with me for Christmas. My mum. She wants to meet you." James said. Lily almost melted. He told his mother about her? "That is if you aren't doing anything with you family.

"I'd love to. But I'll still have to ask my mum and dad. I'm sure they won't me miss me much. I really only get in the way during holidays." She smiled at him. "Lily." James said sitting them down on the ground. "Tell me about what you do on Christmas again."

"Well, a week before me, my sister, and dad go out to the tree farm and we choose a tree. The perfect tree, not too tall, not too short, not too skinny, but not too fat, and sturdy branches, it's perfect. They always are. Them Petunia and my mother decorate it. I wrap all the presents, except mine of course. My grandmother makes the most delicious ginger bread and sugar cookies you'll ever put in your mouth. Then my cousins come over and all of us have a snowball fight with my dad and-"Lily stopped and paused for a second.

James looked up at her. "What's wrong?" He asked.

"Can I just cry and you not ask why. Just let me cry?" She gave him a pleading look.

"S-s-sure." He said falling over the word. James pulled her into a hug as she started to sob. He'd never seen her like this. She was hysterical.

Since the moment they had started exchanging owls James could tell there was something about Lily that she wouldn't let anyone know about. He picked up on these sorts of things seeing as he did it so well himself.

It was awhile before Lily said anything. Finally through the crying she said something. "You know," she wiped a tear away. "I would give everything up for two more minutes." She could barely stop to make the words come out.

James hesitated to ask but did it any ways. "What are you talking about?"

It was time to see that it was real. It was killing her to not say anything to anyone. "I've been dishonest with you." Was all she could really say...

His stomach almost dropped out of him. James could only think the worst things in the world. "I have to tell some one." She started. "I've been lying about my dad. You can't say anything to anyone. I know you wouodn't just please don't. He's dead. Oh god." She seemed to be letting it sink in for the first tme. "I've been telling all these stories about him. He never took me to France. I haven't spent a Christmas with him since I was fourteen. He's been dead for two years and I've just acted like he's sitting at home reading the paper."

James really didn't know what do say. There wasn't much to say.

"I know you probably think I'm crazy. But, I have to do it. If I start telling people then it's real and I can't handle it."

"I understand." Was all James said, it was all he could think of.

"You always do. I'm going home with you for Christmas. I don't care what my mother says." She said hugging him.

A/N: I really hope you liked it and didn't get confused. I've been waiting for this for a while I'm glad I finally wrote this part of the story. Anyway...uh..nothing. Please review!