A/N - Thank you to all the lovely people who reviewed! Some of my other stories are feeling quite neglected, poor things. :::hint hint::: They think they are pretty good too, and I must agree. Anyway thank you to:
Crimsonfire, Arimel (I read your story!), Keita(thank you, I'm glad you're still interested in the story!), Cami of Queenscove(I'm updating, happy? And it didn't take me 2 months!)
The italics and bold are Kel and Joren arguing with themselves.
Ch. 6
Kel tried to stiffle a sigh as she stared down at her blank parchment. Who cares what Joren says? She had every right to cry over Cleon. He was her first love, and he was getting married to someone else for crying out loud! No pun intended. Why shouldn't she cry? And it wasn't Joren's business anyway, what she did or did not cry about. He was just being his usual sarcastic, insensitive self. Pretending to comfort her, when no doubt he was actually laughing at her weakness behind her back. Of course he was, why wouldn't he be? How amusing, the Lump brokenhearted over her lost love.
But Joren wasn't right. Cleon was not a waste of her tears. Oh yeah? Then why is it so hard to justify crying, if Joren isn't right? The annoying, always right part of her mind sneered at her. Shut up! I'll cry if I damn well please! She retorted.
And what about Joren, huh? Why was he trying to comfort you? Because he's a jerk! Well, that makes sense. You know what I mean! He's just pretending, he's a good actor! Oh really, that good of an actor? I've never seen a more sincere look of sympathy. So? That can be learned. And remorse. Remorse? Remorse about what? That he wasn't your first love. Joren? My first love? Yeah right, why would he want to be my first love? So he could be the one to break my heart? Because he cares about you. Deep down, he cares about you. But neither you or he will admit it to yourselves. It's quite sad. Just shut up would you? I'm tired of arguing with you. Fine. The truth hurts. Grrrr!
She rejected me. You let her. Oh, so it's my fault? Did you go after her? Did you try to explain, to tell her the truth? Why, she thinks I'm just acting. You didn't do anything to change that way of thinking. Look, would you do everyone a favor and be honest with her? I thought I had. Well obviously you didn't get your point across!
What the hell am I doing here? She's never going to believe that I care about her, after all the crap I put her through. You'll never know unless you try. Knock on the door, dingbat! Joren, don't make me come out there and beat the crap out of you. Knock! Well, here goes nothing.
Who could be knocking at this hour?, Kel wondered. The knocking persisted until she opened the door.
"Kel? Can I talk to you?"
A/N - hehehehe! Review!!! No Kel and Joren are not going insane. I have arguments like that in my head all the time, wait a minute! What are those men in white coats doing here!? No!!! I don't want to go back in the padded room! REVIEW before they finish strapping me into the strait jacket!