Amber Eyes
Chapter 9: What Should I Do?
Summary Kaoru thinks about the answer to a special question. She seeks her answer in her mothers box.
As I saw him with that box in his hand, kneeling down in front of me, I could only think of one thing. Yes or no? I looked down at him, tears coming into my eyes. "Kaoru Kamiya. Will you become part of my family, part of the Himura family? In other words, will you marry me?" I felt the tears roll down his face, I still didn't know what to say. I wanted to marry him, I loved him, but now? I ran away. That was all I could do.
"I don't know." I cried as I ran to my room. Should I marry this man? Should I marry him knowing that he is a murderer? I was confused. I just wanted to scream. In my mind I was arguing with myself. Marry him. Its too soon. Don't you love him? You should wait. I wanted to reach up and pull all my hair out lock by lock. Strand by strand. Finally I figured out some way to answer my question. My mother's box.
I ran into the shrine my father had made and looked around. I hadn't been in there since my father died. I saw the box he spoke to me about. It was a small wooden box, hand carved with smooth curves. It was a very simple design, I could tell my father made it himself. I reached over to the box and opened it. Inside was a small slip of paper with a poem written on it.
"When ever you don't know what to do
Your heart has an opinion and your mind too.
Think about the problem and what it involved
If you think about it hard enough your problem will be solved."
At first I didn't know what it meant. I stared at it for a while and thought to my self, What does it involve. Love, he loves me and I love him, that means to ... follow my heart? It must have taken half an hour before I figured out what to do, and when I came out I tried to find Kenshin. He wasn't on the porch, but I knew that he was in the dojo, somehow. I looked every where and I couldn't find him. The only place left, was my bedroom. Why would he be in there? I decided to look anyways, just in case. Thats when I saw something pitiful.
He was lying on my bed, sobbing, he couldn't see me, he was turned the other way. I did hear him speaking to himself though. He was saying "I thought she loved me. I thought that she would say yes." He didn't speak like he was sad, more like he was angry. Angry at himself for trying. "I was crazy, no one could love me. Yes you're right, you are nothing but a stupid rurouni. You will always be alone." I walked quietly into the room over to my bed. He didn't notice me walking into the room. I sat down on the edge of the bed and lyed on his back. "Ka-Kaoru?"
"Yes, Kenshin I have to tell you something." He raised up and looked at me.
"I am sorry Ms. Kaoru. I shouldn't have done that. I should have known that you couldn't love me."
"No. You are wrong. I do love you. I just needed time to think. I wanted to tell you that... yes...I would love to become part of your family. I want to become Mrs. Himura Kenshin. That is, if you will still like me to." At last, I finally got to see a full smile. It was the only smile I saw that touched my heart...ever. I knew then how happy he could make me. No, how happy he WOULD make me. Before he could say anything I put a finger over his lips, like he had done for me those times before.
I gently caressed his lips like I was putting lip gloss on him, then I moved my finger down his abs, I then changed from one finger, to one hand, and moved my hand back up his chest onto his shoulder and pushed him down gently. He rolled me over onto the floor.
"I welcome you to be Mrs. Himura, gladly." He looked down at me as he said this, his eyes closed, so did mine. The next thing I felt was his lips on my neck. And his tongue. I didn't move. Until he started moving up my neck, then I kissed his the same way.
In case your minds went to wild on the last chapter, Kenshin and I didn't do anything like lose our virginity. We snuggled. Anyways.....
His kimono top was once again pulled off his chest by me. Mine was by him as well. I gently kissed his chest and his abs. Then he kissed me. That was the first time. We then, went in as virgins, and woke up in a different light. We woke up, as bride and groom. The way we had dreamed it. Love, marriage. It was all perfect to us. Could it get any better? Impossible. Nothing could live up to that night. Nothing.
(I worked hard on this chapter!!!)
Chapter 10: Love and where to wed
Summary Kenshin and Kaoru try to think of places to marry. Who to invite. And when to wed.