Chapter 5- Sense of Duty
Buffy padded softly down the hall so she wouldn't wake Dawn. She knocked softly on Willow's door, knowing her best friend would hear. Willow opened the door quickly. Buffy felt only relief as she saw her best friend's face. After her little visit from some goddess who informed her that her life was about to be turned upside down, again, seeing something solid and familiar felt like a life-saver.
"Buffy? What's wrong hun? Did you and Angel have a fight? You and Spike?" Willow opened the door further to allow Buffy to come in. Buffy sat down on Willow's bed and wrapped her arms tightly around herself.
"Oh Will. I just found out why Angel is back. There is this prophecy, I just got told about it by the freakin' Goddess of Love. Why can't my life be normal? Why do I have to do something like this?"
"Wait, Buff, you don't mean Aphrodite's Prophecy do you?" Willow sat down next to Buffy. If she was right about which prophecy, she could understand her friend's anxiety. Buffy had to be so different from everyone else, that she tried really hard to be as plain Jane vanilla as possible in anyway she could control. Finding out that she was going to have to have a threesome and get pregnant by a vampire had to be pretty mind-blowing.
Buffy nodded, she could tell that Willow already knew what the prophecy contained. A small spark of hope arose within her. Surely Willow would no a way around the whole situation, maybe in some dusty old book, or a spell there was the anti-prophecy cure or something. "Is there any other way? Can I just like beat the crap out of a demon or something?"
Willow shook her head. "Sorry Buff. As far as I know, with the light prophecies, there are no other ways." Seeing her friend's look of confusion, Willow continued. "You know how all of the prophecies that we normally deal with are based on dark things like the end of the world, or death? Well, things like love and new life are considered light prophecies. They are pretty much set, there are no ways around goodness. If there were, we would already be dead. But, hey, I can call Giles, maybe he will know something!"
Buffy's eyes went wide with shock. "You can't call Giles! I don't want him to know what I have to do! I mean, what if there really is no way that I can get out of this? Then he will know that I have to sleep with two vampires at the same time because I, the slayer, have gone and fallen in love with both of them. No way, I had a hard enough time explaining why Angel went bad."
"But Buffy.."
"No buts, Will. No way am I letting Giles know about this. Aphrodite is right, I know my duty. I can't be the person who sets the world off balance. I have given up too much to save the damn thing, I am not going to destroy it because I am a prude. It can't be too bad right? I mean people do this all the time.. Right?"
Willow shrugged. Despite her "alternative" lifestyle, she knew very little about fringe sexual behavior. "Well yeah, I mean you hear about people doing it. But the thing that I never understood about the prophecy is that it says the "losing" man will forget about the ever loving you, but what about you? Do you remember loving him? Wouldn't that make you unhappy and cause everything to go off balance?"
"I don't know. I mean, I guess, I will be so happy about the.. Oh my god. I am going to have a baby! I don't know anything about being a mom! Hell, I can barely get Dawn to listen to me, how am I going to raise a baby? I can't even go to class on time! Oh god, I can't do this Will. First the whole. threesome thing. and now I have to have a baby? Slayers never have babies. I don't have a mothering gene, oh god, I wish mom was here." Buffy started sobbing as all of the fears overwhelmed her.
Willow put her arms around Buffy's shoulders and tried to think of the best way to soothe her. Inside, she was seething. Buffy had gone through too much to have to deal with all of this. Aphrodite was the goddess of love for gimminy Christmas! Couldn't she just make Buffy fall out of love? Willow knew that such things weren't the way of the gods, but she hated seeing her best friend in pain. "Shhh. Buff. It will be okay. You are going to be a great mom, and you will have me, and Dawn, and Xander, and even. Anya to help. It is all going to be fine I promise.."
"Why are you crying?" Both of the girls jumped at the sound of Dawn's voice from the doorway. Immediately Buffy went into strong mode and rose to comfort her younger sister. "It's nothing sweetie. I just miss mom. You need to go back to bed, you have to get back in the swing of things for when school starts."
Dawn nodded sleepily and padded back down to her room. Buffy watched her silently from the doorway. "Oh Will. How am I going to explain all of this to her? She has had enough change and now she is going to be an aunt. I really hate being the slayer sometimes." Willow nodded and patted Buffy's back. "Do you want me to make you some hot cocoa?"
Buffy shook her head. "No I want to go out and patrol. I feel the need to kill something. Something with fangs and an icky face. Don't wait up."
Buffy padded softly down the hall so she wouldn't wake Dawn. She knocked softly on Willow's door, knowing her best friend would hear. Willow opened the door quickly. Buffy felt only relief as she saw her best friend's face. After her little visit from some goddess who informed her that her life was about to be turned upside down, again, seeing something solid and familiar felt like a life-saver.
"Buffy? What's wrong hun? Did you and Angel have a fight? You and Spike?" Willow opened the door further to allow Buffy to come in. Buffy sat down on Willow's bed and wrapped her arms tightly around herself.
"Oh Will. I just found out why Angel is back. There is this prophecy, I just got told about it by the freakin' Goddess of Love. Why can't my life be normal? Why do I have to do something like this?"
"Wait, Buff, you don't mean Aphrodite's Prophecy do you?" Willow sat down next to Buffy. If she was right about which prophecy, she could understand her friend's anxiety. Buffy had to be so different from everyone else, that she tried really hard to be as plain Jane vanilla as possible in anyway she could control. Finding out that she was going to have to have a threesome and get pregnant by a vampire had to be pretty mind-blowing.
Buffy nodded, she could tell that Willow already knew what the prophecy contained. A small spark of hope arose within her. Surely Willow would no a way around the whole situation, maybe in some dusty old book, or a spell there was the anti-prophecy cure or something. "Is there any other way? Can I just like beat the crap out of a demon or something?"
Willow shook her head. "Sorry Buff. As far as I know, with the light prophecies, there are no other ways." Seeing her friend's look of confusion, Willow continued. "You know how all of the prophecies that we normally deal with are based on dark things like the end of the world, or death? Well, things like love and new life are considered light prophecies. They are pretty much set, there are no ways around goodness. If there were, we would already be dead. But, hey, I can call Giles, maybe he will know something!"
Buffy's eyes went wide with shock. "You can't call Giles! I don't want him to know what I have to do! I mean, what if there really is no way that I can get out of this? Then he will know that I have to sleep with two vampires at the same time because I, the slayer, have gone and fallen in love with both of them. No way, I had a hard enough time explaining why Angel went bad."
"But Buffy.."
"No buts, Will. No way am I letting Giles know about this. Aphrodite is right, I know my duty. I can't be the person who sets the world off balance. I have given up too much to save the damn thing, I am not going to destroy it because I am a prude. It can't be too bad right? I mean people do this all the time.. Right?"
Willow shrugged. Despite her "alternative" lifestyle, she knew very little about fringe sexual behavior. "Well yeah, I mean you hear about people doing it. But the thing that I never understood about the prophecy is that it says the "losing" man will forget about the ever loving you, but what about you? Do you remember loving him? Wouldn't that make you unhappy and cause everything to go off balance?"
"I don't know. I mean, I guess, I will be so happy about the.. Oh my god. I am going to have a baby! I don't know anything about being a mom! Hell, I can barely get Dawn to listen to me, how am I going to raise a baby? I can't even go to class on time! Oh god, I can't do this Will. First the whole. threesome thing. and now I have to have a baby? Slayers never have babies. I don't have a mothering gene, oh god, I wish mom was here." Buffy started sobbing as all of the fears overwhelmed her.
Willow put her arms around Buffy's shoulders and tried to think of the best way to soothe her. Inside, she was seething. Buffy had gone through too much to have to deal with all of this. Aphrodite was the goddess of love for gimminy Christmas! Couldn't she just make Buffy fall out of love? Willow knew that such things weren't the way of the gods, but she hated seeing her best friend in pain. "Shhh. Buff. It will be okay. You are going to be a great mom, and you will have me, and Dawn, and Xander, and even. Anya to help. It is all going to be fine I promise.."
"Why are you crying?" Both of the girls jumped at the sound of Dawn's voice from the doorway. Immediately Buffy went into strong mode and rose to comfort her younger sister. "It's nothing sweetie. I just miss mom. You need to go back to bed, you have to get back in the swing of things for when school starts."
Dawn nodded sleepily and padded back down to her room. Buffy watched her silently from the doorway. "Oh Will. How am I going to explain all of this to her? She has had enough change and now she is going to be an aunt. I really hate being the slayer sometimes." Willow nodded and patted Buffy's back. "Do you want me to make you some hot cocoa?"
Buffy shook her head. "No I want to go out and patrol. I feel the need to kill something. Something with fangs and an icky face. Don't wait up."