Author note: standard disclaimers apply…pls don't sue me!!!!!!!!!

Summary: What would happen if Makino got stabbed and not doumouji and she died!…But she returns to earth to save domouji from himself, sort of like "City of Angels" but with my own HYD twist. TXT and angst.

I apologise for any grammatical or spelling errors but I hope that doesn't detract from the story.

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Hold me tightly

Without you, what am I? -- Whenever my heart stops beating it feels wrong.

On which day? Whereabouts can we carry on the unfinished love.

At the cross roads, who is beside you?

Even if the world denies you, it won't make me give you up

Even if our past has nothin to prove it – I will stay by your side

Oh Baby baby baby, my baby baby – I definitely can't lose you.

Your hand , your voice still taking up my heart

How can I forget, thinking about you is like breathing?

Oh baby baby, my baby baby – I definitely can't lose you.

Don't care where you are – I definitely will be able to find you.

(Can't lose you – F4…I love them!!)

Chapter 1. Can't lose you

Domouji held tightly onto Makino's hand as he forced his way through the massive crowd.

"Annoying people get out of my way!" he screamed as he punched a few of the reporters to make his point but the crowd continued to close in on him, Makino and the rest of their group.

Makino couldn't care less about the people, she overwhelmed with emotions, Tsukasa finally returned to her, she felt she could take on the whole world if he would just hold her hand like he was now.

Suddenly, she saw him, a man in the shadows rapidly approaching Tsukasa. Her heart stopped, NO I won't lose him again...not again!! Before she knew what she was doing she felt the cold blade pierce her body. She felt herself falling but Tsukasa's strong arms caught her.

"Makino! Makino! Answer me" Domouji screamed as he held the pale and bleeding Tsukushi in his arms. The world seemed to go silent and all that was heard was the rapid and uneven breathing of a dying girl. Tears fell from domouji's eyes as he watched the life drain from her.

"Don't leave me Makino…not now. I need you!" he pleaded as he felt the blood continue to soak through his clothes.

Weakly tsukushi smiled And looked up at him "Baka...Who could leave…you...when your...holding onto me so...tightly" she said between breathes.

She looked into the eyes of the man who changed her life with his child-like innocence and fierce temper. Slowly she raised her free hand and lovingly caressed domouji's curly hair, images of the times she had teased him when he tried to straighten it and failed flashed before her eyes, just like how she tried to stop from loving him and failed. Her hand moved to his face that was wet from tears her heart ached to see him this way.

"Domouji...kiss me."

The space between them disappeared as she felt his lips on hers, her strength weakening she broke off the kiss and holding his face lovingly, tears flowing down her face she said "I love you Tsukasa always and forever, I'll always…be…." she gasped her last breathe "…. With you…" her hand dropped soundlessly to the ground.

Domouji continued to hold her body rocking back and forth in his arms, "I love you too…tsukushi...don't leave me…TSUKUSHI!!!!!!"

Makino opened her eyes expecting to see doumoji's adorable smiling face looking down on her saying 'Baka, don't scare me like that.'

What she saw instead was nothingness. An endless horizon of white mist.

Panic taking over her, Makino began running frantically.

"Doumouji!! Where are you?" she screamed as she stopped running expecting any moment for that idiot boyfriend of hers to appear. But nothing happened, instead of doumoji comforting touch she felt a terrible coldness grip her heart and body, instead of his tender voice calling her name, the weight of silence fell upon her. As the tears began to slide down her cheek Makino felt a hand on her shoulder.

"Don't be afraid Makino, Tsukushi." A soothing voice spoke.

Quickly spinning around, she saw a woman standing before her cloaked in white.

"Who are you?… What am I doing here...where is here?!"

"Shhh…calm down. Firstly, I am Gabrielle the archangel of heaven. I have watched your struggles and I wish to grant you a favor from heaven for all your suffering and sacrifices."

Makino suddenly gasped " Domouji where is he! What's happened to him!!"

A warm smile spread across Gabrielle's' face.

"You are no longer a part of the living. You sacrificed your life to save his and for that I am here to grant you the power to return to him."

"So I died?"

"Yes, but you were not supposed to die today. You interfered with fate...you see it was domouji that was meant to be stabbed and he being stronger than you wouldn't have died. But it is too all to late now and the only thing left is for you to decide whether you wish to return to him or come with me and wait for him to return to you in heaven."

"…when he dies?" she saw Gabrielle nod.

"But be forewarned Makino Tsukushi it will not be an easy journey and only Doumoji-san will see you, at least at first."

"At first? So eventually my friends will see me too!" Tsukushi exclaimed excitedly, but she stopped when she saw the sad expression on Gabrielle's face.

"What is it?"

"Your friends may be unable to accept that the person they see is you, so much so that you will appear to them a completely different person physically. That is if they will be able to see you at all."

Seeing Tsukushi's uncertain expression, she explained, "You see the reason that we, by which I mean the angels of heaven, are even allowing you to return to earth is because you and Doumouji are connected spiritually. Your souls are connected just like the mind and the heart are connected, one cannot survive without the other."

Gabrielle paused, she wasn't sure if Tsukushi would be able to handle what she was about to tell her the young girl looked confused enough already, but from what's she's heard Tsukushi is an extemely calm (AN: hehee yeah right, who are your sources lady?) and strong-minded person.

Taking a deep breath she continued her explaination, "You returning to earth also serves another purpose…and that is to prevent Doumouji from killing himself mentally and physically," at this Gabrielle paused waiting for Tsukushi's reaction.

She saw Tsukushi lower her head and tighten her fists. 'She's obviously distraught I can see her entire body shaking' Gabrielle thought, 'She must be heartbroken and crying for her beloved.' These thoughts disappeared when Tsukushi looked up, anger clearly seen in her eyes.

"I am going to beat him into shape when I see him," she pictured Domouji's trademark 'I am the great Domouji Tsukasa' expression, "Great Domouji my foot!"

Gabrielle sweat-dropped, this wasn't exactly the response she was expecting.

"I choose to return to him now and be with him always. I don't want him to destroy himself because of my death."

"It won't be easy of course you won't be human so there will be things you need to adjust to, and there will be many trails. But if you believe in the love between you and him nothing will harm you."

Makino nodded and gulped, apprehension and fear taking over her as Gabrielle form disappeared into the mist and her voice whispered "Good luck Makino, Tsukushi…believe in you love"

Her courage returning she straightened her shoulders when a white light appeared blinding Tsukushi causing her to collapse into the mist.

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(In Rui's guest room)

A lifeless domouji stared up at the ceiling from the 4-post bed. "Tsu…kushi..."

Akira sighed he hated seeing his friend this way but nothing he or anyone else did seemed to snap domouji out of the hell he was in. picking the cans of beer of the floor he thought to himself, 'Makino could…' but he stopped himself from finishing the sentence. With the cans in his arms he closed the door behind him and slowly made his way to the living area of Rui's house where the others were waiting.

Back inside the room, Domouji closed his eyes and turned to his side as he whispered "Tsukushi why?…why did you leave me?"

Tears continued to flow, no matter how much he cried the pain was still there, he had the lost the only thing that mattered to him, his life might as well be over.

"What do you think you're doing you BAKA! Get up right now and stop sulking like a child!"

"……Tsukushi..is…is that you?"

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Author note:

So what did you all think? Is this any good? Should I stop while I'm ahead or continue…I promise lots of TXT and angst if I do continue. Review please!!