Chapter 15

* Nick's Unconscious Mind ~ *

Well here I am again, now I know I'm not dead because I've been here before now where is that voice, I got some beef with that guy! "I'm here Nick"

"Holy shit! Don't do that to me! Besides I'm mad at you!"

"Me what did I do?"

"Well for one I still don't know who you are, two I didn't get my cookie when I woke up and three I'm not with Sara I'm here with, with you!" Nick said as he began to pace.

"Well I can't tell you who I am, I don't have any cookies and you might not go back this time sorry Nick."

"What do you mean I might not go back?" Nick's figure in the bright-lighted room began to fade.

"That's what I mean Nick."

* ~ Reality ~*

"He's flatlining!" A paramedic yelled as they drove to the hospital.

"No NICK! Come back for Sara! PLEASE! NICK, oh god you can't do this to her!" Catherine yelled as the paramedics pushed her out of the way so they could revive him.

"Charge to 200, clear! * zap * Anything?"

"NO, he needs to be intabated."

"Charge 250, clear! * zap* We've got a rhythm."

"Good Nick, good." Catherine sighed and leaned back against the moving truck.

"Ma'am we need to get you head and your hand looked at" One paramedic told Catherine as he took hold of her arm to look at her wrist. The other paramedic was continuing to stabilize Nick as the pulled into the ER. Nick was taken away before she could say anything. Catherine was taken to a separate room to get stitched up.

* ~ Nick's Unconscious mind ~ *

"Hey, what was that? I feel all tingly!" Nick said as he rubbed his arms.

"Nick, I don't really know how to tell you this, but you might not live. You just flat lined. That tingly feeling was them using the defribaltor on you."

"No you're lying!" Nick fell to the floor and began to cry. "I can't die, Sara and I are going to get married."

"I'm sorry Nick." Nick continued to cry and rock back and forth.

"I love you Sara" Nick whispered.

* ~ Reality ~ *

Sara Sidle sat in the waiting room waiting for news about her friends, no a friend and her fiancée. She was so scared, she might lose Nick forever, and there was noting she could about it. "Oh god please don't let him die." Sara whispered.

"Family of Catherine Willows?" The same doctor that had treated her and Nick before walked into the waiting room. "Oh god you people again!" he said as he saw Sara sitting in a chair. "Would you people please stop trying to die and coming here?!" Sara lost it.

"Look buddy I don't know what we did to you, but you're starting to get on my nerves. Now my friend and my fiancée were in a bad accident and I would appreciate it if you weren't such an ass!"

"Right, follow me you may see Ms. Willows, she's going to be fine. Just a few bumps and bruises. You can see Nick in about an hour. I'll fill you in on his details later." The doctor was stunned by Sara's actions and stuck to his job and showed her to Catherine's room.

"Hey Cath, how are you feeling?"

"I'm OK. Sara I'm so sorry. I tried to wake him up but he wouldn't listen. I tried to get him to come back to you Sara I tried so hard!." Catherine sobbed. Sara ran to the side of her bed and hugged her.

"It's OK Cath, it's not your fault." They both wiped tears away and sat in an uneasy silence for an hour. At that time the doctor came in.

"Ms. Sidle if you would like you may go and visit Mr. Stokes now. He's in room 215 right down the hall. He is still unconscious. The burns on his body are 2nd degree and only on his legs and forearms. So he should recover nicely." Both women let out a relieved breath that they were holding.

"I'll be back Cath, and Grissom will be here soon, he's cleaning up your scene."

"OK Sara, go make sure Nick comes back to you and us." Sara nodded and walked out the door and down to Nick's room.

I'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

Sara entered Nick's room and stopped. He was hooked up to many machines, a heart monitor, and a few IV's, and there was a funny little thing on his finger and a breathing mask across his face. He looked so lifeless. Morphine Sara thought it's just the Morphine that's making him sleep She tried to comfort herself but the tears kept falling.

* ~ Nick ~ *

"Can I see Sara?"

"Sure Nick close your eyes and think of her." Nick did as he was told and soon found himself looking down on himself and Sara by his side holding his hand.

"Nick I love you so much" She cried. "Please don't leave me. I can't go on with out you Nick, and I won't ever let you go."


These wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

"Sara I'm here, I won't leave you either. If I die I'll never leave you heart our your dreams. SARA I LOVE YOU!" Nick was screaming. "Why can't she hear me?" Sara wasn't talking anymore just crying and resting her head on Nick's chest as best she could. "Sara please don't cry, please baby look up. I won't leave you!"

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

"Nick please come back to me, you're everything that is important to me now."

You used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now I'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

"Why can't I get back to her? I just want to hold her and tell her everything will be allright." Nick said turning to the voice.

"Come on Nick we have to go now"

"NO! SARA I'll never leave you please believe me!! SARA I LOVE YOU!"


These wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

Sara just sat there and cried still holding Nick's hand she rested her head on his bed and fell asleep.

"Why couldn't she hear me?" Nick asked angrily to the voice.

"It's not possible Nick, now come on tomorrow is judgment day. Sara knows that you love her." Nick silently cried and was taken to sleep.

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A/N: The song is My Immortal by Evanescence