"Beautiful Surprise"

Prologue

By: angelicm

Disclaimers: I DON'T OWN COWBOY BEBOP IN ANY WAY WHAT SO EVER

This is my first fan fiction. Decided to write one cause I got bored. Hope you like it = )

"Spike do you feel okay? Are you hungry?"

This was the third time she asked the question and only silence answered her back.

It was always like this. He always pushed her away. She knocked a few more times,

and still the same silence answered her back. She placed his food in the oven.

"Well, if you are, the food is in the oven. Just heat it up if its cold."

She walked into their room and shut the door. She sat on their bed and stared into the open space.

She couldn't get the feeling of helplessness out of her body. She knew why he was like this.

She just kept on denying it. He was thinking about her, his precious Julia. Every time it got

near the same date, he always acted like this, detached and uncaring.

It was times like this that she felt useless and ugly. She couldn't help but wish that things were

different between them. She wished they were back on the Bebop with Ed and Jet. At least then

she would feel like people cared about her, not that Spike didn't. It was just that every time he was

like this, he pushed her away from him.

Sometimes she compared her self to Julia. Julia was the love of Spike's life. She was perfect. She

had beautiful blond hair. Even Vicious loved her. Everyone loved her. And herself, no one loved her.

Faye thought that she was a slut, a whore, and a greedy bitch. At least that's what everyone thought

of her. Even Spike at one time.

They've been married for two years already and she thought that she had healed all the scars of his past.

He even told her he loved her and that he tried to put his past with Julia behind him. After his fight with

Vicious, she thought that things were going to be okay, but apparently they weren't.

When he came back from his fight, he acted cold towards everyone on the ship. One night, Faye walked into his

room to see him crying. She held him in her arms and comforted him, but he tried to push her away. She hugged

him even tighter. That night, they had made love, and she told him that she always loved him from the first time

they had met. She revealed the true Faye Valentine to him, but that wasn't enough. It wasn't enough to make

him forget about Julia.

Faye felt warms splashes of water on her hands. She didn't even realize she had started crying. She

always got like this. She tried her very best to always look happy, but inside it was killing her. Why

couldn't he give his heart to her? What was wrong with her? Her thoughts were interrupted by the

sound of footsteps approaching their room. She jumped into the bed and closed her eyes, pretending

she was asleep. She didn't want him to know she was crying.

"Faye, are you sleeping?" She heard Spike ask. She opened her eyes slightly and pretended to yawn.

"Hmm…I'm awake now." She smiled at him. He walked up to her and kissed her forehead. "It's okay.

Go back to sleep. I was just going to tell you I'm going out for awhile." He turned the light off.

 "Okay, be careful Spike, I love you." He gave a tiny smile, turned around and closed the door.

Faye sat up. Tears ran down her face. He was going to a bar just to get drunk. She closed her eyes.

Why did he have to leave to go get drunk? She couldn't handle the pain anymore. Every time he did this,

a piece of her heart felt like it was breaking. Faye closed her eyes and cried some more. Before she fell

asleep, the same thought ran through her mind.

He didn't even say I love you back.

Faye heard the door creak open and a cool body slide next to hers. She closed her eyes and felt content.

The body snuggled closer to hers attempting to absorb the warmth coming from her body. She turned her

head towards their clock. 4:55 in the morning. She knew he was drunk. His breathe indicating he had gotten

drunk again. What was this, the fourth time this week?

She turned her head towards her husband. His green bushy hair was disheveled. He looked so peaceful and

serene. She loved him so much. Even though he thought about someone else, she still loved him, how could she not?

She hovered over him, memorizing his facial expression, every detail of his face. She leaned over

and kissed him lightly on the lips.  She leaned towards and whispered, "I love you" in his ears. She caressed

his face one last time before placing her head on his chest. Spike mumbled something inaudible and brought

her closer to him. He smiled in his sleep and whispered,  "I love you too."

Faye looked up and smiled happily that he had said those three little words. But her happiness was

shattered in a heartbeat as she heard the whispered name Julia.

--India Arie "Beautiful Surprise"

It's like yesterday
I didn't even know your name
Now today
You're always on my mind
I never could have predicted that I'd feel this way
You are a beautiful surprise

Intoxicated every time I hear your voice
You've got me on a natural high
It's almost like I didn't even have a choice
You are a beautiful surprise

Whatever it is that you came to teach me
I am here to learn it cause
I believe that we are written in the stars
I don't know what the future hold
But I'm living in the moment
And I'm thankful for the man that you are, you are, you are

You are everything I ask for in my prayers
So I know my angels brought you to my life
Your energy is healing to my soul
You are a beautiful surprise

You are an inspiration to my life
you are the reason why I smile
You are a beautiful surprise

--Please review and tell me if I should continue.