(Severus Snape's point of view)
I got up today, preparing myself for another day in hell with Potter and Black. When I got out of bed this morning I didn't have the slightest idea that today would be the best day of my young and screwed-up life. I was sitting in the library, reading when it happened. Lily Evans walked over and sat down next to me. This in itself was not strange, as Lily was one of my only friends. She said hi, the same way she always does and then just began reading. Neither of us said a word.
I've had a crush on Lily Evans since the day I met her. The first time I talked to her, I was sure she must have been a guardian angel sent from heaven (if there even is a heaven).
FLASHBACK
It was Christmas holiday of our first year, and we were heading home for the holiday. I was standing in the door to a compartment on the Hogwarts express. There were two boys in the compartment already. "May I sit with you, the rest of the compartments are full," I asked. Potter said "Ya, sure." And let me sit down. At this point, I didn't really know him enough to know what he was like, or that he didn't like me. "Thanks," I said, relieved. For a while, it was fine then Black said, "So Snivillus, why are you going home?"
"Yes, Snivillus, why are you going home, it's not like your family wants to see you. I mean, why would your mom have left you if she wanted you?"(This was said by Potter.) I couldn't believe what they were saying. Apparently they had found out that my mom had left my dad and just abandoned me. I didn't know that they had been making fun of me all year, so their insults came as a surprise. They continued to say incredibly cruel things about my family. Suddenly, Potter got a look in his eyes that I really didn't like. "Hey, Sirius, do you think his dad would miss him if he didn't come home?"
"Probably not," answered Black. They looked at each other and grinned. Black opened the window. To my horror, they grabbed me and started dragging me to the window. As we reached the window, the train was passing over a very high bridge. Finally I realized what they planned to do. They were going to through me out the window. The logical part of me reasoned that they wouldn't do that. They had no reason to. However, it's very hard to be logical when you're being held halfway out a window of a train moving across a bridge. The other part of me decided to yell. So I did.
I was being pushed further out the window when she came in. She didn't even say anything. She just grabbed me and pulled me in the window. Then she started screaming. "James Potter and Sirius Black, what the Heck do you think you were doing?! You could have KILLED him!" My heart was still beating so fast that it took a minute to register what Potter said next.
"Calm down, Evans! We put a floating charm on him when he wasn't looking and we weren't going to let him go any way! Besides, we were just having some fun."
"Just having some FUN?" She repeated, "I'll show you fun. Fun is going to be you getting detention. If you ever do anything like that to any one again, I'm telling Professor McGonagall!" Then she pulled me out of the compartment. Despite the floating charm, they still could have dropped me and as far as I was concerned, Lily Evans saved my life. END FLASHBACK
Of course, I would never tell her that. I'm far too shy and she's far too good for me. She's smart, she's kind, she's funny, and she's beautiful to. I know she's too good for me. That's why I almost died of shock when it happened. She put down the book she was reading. "Severus, there's something I want to ask you. Would you mind if taking a break from your studying for just a second?" Some people might say that the second half of what she said was sarcasm, but Lily would never be sarcastic with me. So I put my book down. "What is it, Lily?" I asked her. "Well, the thing is, I really like you Severus. You're a great friend, but." Her voice trailed off. For one horrific moment, I thought she was going to say that she wouldn't be my friend any more. (She's the only one I've got.) But then she said, "I think I want to be more than just friends. I want to be your girl friend." My mind was absolutely numb. I was in shock. Lily Evans. LILY EVANS wanted to go out with me. I didn't say anything at all. I just stared at her. She must have taken it the wrong way because then her face fell and she said, "It's OK. I understand. You don't like me that way. Well I hope we can still be friends." Once again, I was shocked. ME not want to go out with HER? I'd have to be insane. Finally I found my tongue and blurted out, "NoLilythat'snotitatall.Ireallyreallylikeyou.I'mjustsoshockedthatyouaskedmeo utIwouldlovetobeyourboyfriend.I'dhavetobecrazynotto." I realized that from the look on her face, I'd been talking so fast that she didn't know what I'd said. I took a deep breath and tried again. "What I mean is: I'd love to be your boyfriend." At this point, a radiant smile appeared on her face. "I must be in Heaven," I thought.
I got up today, preparing myself for another day in hell with Potter and Black. When I got out of bed this morning I didn't have the slightest idea that today would be the best day of my young and screwed-up life. I was sitting in the library, reading when it happened. Lily Evans walked over and sat down next to me. This in itself was not strange, as Lily was one of my only friends. She said hi, the same way she always does and then just began reading. Neither of us said a word.
I've had a crush on Lily Evans since the day I met her. The first time I talked to her, I was sure she must have been a guardian angel sent from heaven (if there even is a heaven).
FLASHBACK
It was Christmas holiday of our first year, and we were heading home for the holiday. I was standing in the door to a compartment on the Hogwarts express. There were two boys in the compartment already. "May I sit with you, the rest of the compartments are full," I asked. Potter said "Ya, sure." And let me sit down. At this point, I didn't really know him enough to know what he was like, or that he didn't like me. "Thanks," I said, relieved. For a while, it was fine then Black said, "So Snivillus, why are you going home?"
"Yes, Snivillus, why are you going home, it's not like your family wants to see you. I mean, why would your mom have left you if she wanted you?"(This was said by Potter.) I couldn't believe what they were saying. Apparently they had found out that my mom had left my dad and just abandoned me. I didn't know that they had been making fun of me all year, so their insults came as a surprise. They continued to say incredibly cruel things about my family. Suddenly, Potter got a look in his eyes that I really didn't like. "Hey, Sirius, do you think his dad would miss him if he didn't come home?"
"Probably not," answered Black. They looked at each other and grinned. Black opened the window. To my horror, they grabbed me and started dragging me to the window. As we reached the window, the train was passing over a very high bridge. Finally I realized what they planned to do. They were going to through me out the window. The logical part of me reasoned that they wouldn't do that. They had no reason to. However, it's very hard to be logical when you're being held halfway out a window of a train moving across a bridge. The other part of me decided to yell. So I did.
I was being pushed further out the window when she came in. She didn't even say anything. She just grabbed me and pulled me in the window. Then she started screaming. "James Potter and Sirius Black, what the Heck do you think you were doing?! You could have KILLED him!" My heart was still beating so fast that it took a minute to register what Potter said next.
"Calm down, Evans! We put a floating charm on him when he wasn't looking and we weren't going to let him go any way! Besides, we were just having some fun."
"Just having some FUN?" She repeated, "I'll show you fun. Fun is going to be you getting detention. If you ever do anything like that to any one again, I'm telling Professor McGonagall!" Then she pulled me out of the compartment. Despite the floating charm, they still could have dropped me and as far as I was concerned, Lily Evans saved my life. END FLASHBACK
Of course, I would never tell her that. I'm far too shy and she's far too good for me. She's smart, she's kind, she's funny, and she's beautiful to. I know she's too good for me. That's why I almost died of shock when it happened. She put down the book she was reading. "Severus, there's something I want to ask you. Would you mind if taking a break from your studying for just a second?" Some people might say that the second half of what she said was sarcasm, but Lily would never be sarcastic with me. So I put my book down. "What is it, Lily?" I asked her. "Well, the thing is, I really like you Severus. You're a great friend, but." Her voice trailed off. For one horrific moment, I thought she was going to say that she wouldn't be my friend any more. (She's the only one I've got.) But then she said, "I think I want to be more than just friends. I want to be your girl friend." My mind was absolutely numb. I was in shock. Lily Evans. LILY EVANS wanted to go out with me. I didn't say anything at all. I just stared at her. She must have taken it the wrong way because then her face fell and she said, "It's OK. I understand. You don't like me that way. Well I hope we can still be friends." Once again, I was shocked. ME not want to go out with HER? I'd have to be insane. Finally I found my tongue and blurted out, "NoLilythat'snotitatall.Ireallyreallylikeyou.I'mjustsoshockedthatyouaskedmeo utIwouldlovetobeyourboyfriend.I'dhavetobecrazynotto." I realized that from the look on her face, I'd been talking so fast that she didn't know what I'd said. I took a deep breath and tried again. "What I mean is: I'd love to be your boyfriend." At this point, a radiant smile appeared on her face. "I must be in Heaven," I thought.