**Note: I very sorry, the way I wrote the train scene was absolutely
horrible. That isn't how I usually write. I know that what Black and
Potter did was a bit extreme. I simply needed a very good reason for
Severus (and Lily) to hate them (or in Lily's case, just Potter)
The Day My Life Changed (For Lack Of Better Title) Chapter Three: Confessions of A Gryffindor
The next month passed quickly, Lily and Severus tried to keep their relationship a secret so that they could let James, Sirius and Remus find out at the perfect time. They could only meet in private and had to keep up their attitudes in front of the other Slytherins and Gryffindors, because truly, who could believe that two people from the rival Houses would go out. Severus was one of the biggest "Gryffindor" haters in Slytherin and Lily, well truthfully, Lily didn't really care about a person's House, however she was expected to. Little did they know that they weren't the only ones with a secret relationship. Two other Gryffindors had a similar dilemma.
* * *
Two shadow's sneaked up to the Astronomy tower, a flash of moonlight from a nearby window showed the two to be Remus Lupin and Sirius Black. Remus put a hand out to stop Sirius from walking any further up the staircase.
"What?" The taller boy whispered.
"I though I heard voices," Remus answered, sighing. "But I guess I didn't"
Sirius rolled his blue eyes and muttered affectionately, "Loony Moony."
"Oh shut up, Padfoot,"
They continued up the staircase and entered the Astronomy Tower. Being the favorite meeting place of Hogwarts couples, it normally wouldn't matter if other people were there, as they were all too wrapped up in each other to notice anyone else. However Remus and Sirius were the two Gryffindors who were in the same situation as Lily and Severus. Their relationship was a closely guarded secret that not even their closest friend James Potter knew about them. He didn't even know that they were homosexual, let alone together. They were afraid that he would not be understanding towards them so they kept it to themselves. They could not risk being seen so they picked the night that everyone was doing homework (Thursday) to go up to the tower.
Walking over to the huge window that overlooked the lake and began to talk in hushed tones.
"I'm so bloody tired of this," Sirius said pulling his half human boyfriend into an embrace.
Remus laid his head on the taller boys shoulder, leaning into his embrace. Sighing he said, "So am I," A few seconds later he continued, "I think James might be suspicious of something. That little comment he made as a joke was just a little too close for comfort."
Remus pulled from the embrace and walked over to the windowsill, leaning over the edge. Sirius stepped behind him and wrapped his arms around him and buried his face in the smaller boy's hair.
* * *
Across from where they were another couple looked out the window overlooking the Quidditch pitch, they too were meeting on that night for privacy. The moonlight surrounded them revealing the female figure leaning against the male and skimming through a book as the male looked out at the calm night.
"Did you hear about the prank Potter played on Lupin and Black?" The boy asked softly, running a hand absentmindedly through her hair.
"No. What did he do now?" she asked her emerald eyes showing exasperation as she looked up to her companion, Severus Snape.
"Well," He began, "I'm not quite sure how it started, but evidently Black and Lupin were pretty pissed."
"Maybe this will tell us something," Lily said, looking back at the book she was holding.
Severus's head snapped down to look at her and the book. "What is that?"
"Potter's diary," Lily said off-handedly.
"You got Potter's diary?" Severus asked, incredulous.
"Yeah, just because boys aren't allowed in girls' dorms, doesn't mean we can't go into boys' dorms." Lily said innocently.
Severus looked at her, "Who says boys aren't allowed in girls dormitories?"
"You mean in Slytherin boys can get into the girls dorms?" Lily asked in surprise.
"Yeah," Severus said in an annoyed tone. "Lucius Malfoy did it ALL the time."
Lily half snorted, "Well let's see what this book holds, shall we?" She flipped through the pages murmuring, "Nothing here, nope, not that, didn't need to know that, this is totally pointless! Wait," She flipped back a page, "No."
Severus tried to read over her shoulder. "What?"
"No way does that say what I think it says, I must be going blind," she said.
"Just tell me what it says, for gods sake," Severus said half-annoyed, half- amused.
She turned around and shoved the book into his face. "What does this say?"
He pushed her hand back lightly and began to read out loud. "I have to get this off my chest, and I can't tell Sirius because he's part of the problem," He smirked down at Lily, "Sounds like a good confession."
"Keep reading," She ordered.
"The truth is, well, there's no easy way to say this, but I might as well just write it down, but what if someone finds this? Nobody could ever find this, what am I saying, ok here it goes, I'm just going to say it bluntly now- oh shit! I'm late for potions!" Severus made an annoyed sound in the back of his throat.
"Keep reading," Lily said again.
"Ok, sorry, I almost didn't make it to potions, now I'm just going to state it. I can't, what if Sirius sees this? He won't, but what if he does," Something clicked in Severus's mind, "BLOODY HELL!"
Back on the other side of the astronomy tower, the two other boys' heads snapped up. "I defiantly heard that one," Sirius said.
"Severus," Lily whispered harshly, "Be quiet!"
"Siri," maybe we should leave, before we're seen," Remus suggested in an even quieter whisper.
"No way. Who ever it is probably already saw us. We have to make sure they won't tell anyone." With that, he and Remus started inching their way toward the other side of the tower. Neither said a word, intending to sneak up on whoever else was in the tower. Unfortunately, as they were walking, Sirius tripped and made quite a loud noise.
"There's some one else up here," Lily said, "and now thanks to your loud mouth, they know that we're here." Severus didn't say a word, however he continued reading franticly. Lily, on the other hand stared walking toward the opposite side of the tower, with a plan to apprehend the other person of persons.
Both Lily and the two boys inched closer and closer to each other, having no idea at all who else was there. Sirius and Remus reached the middle of the tower, with Remus in the lead, prepared to step around the gigantic column dividing the tower. On the other side of the column, Lily also prepared to step around it. Bravely, both Remus and Lily took a step forward. Unfortunately, they did so at the same time. "Ow!" Lily exclaimed.
"Remus?!"
"Lily?!" They said simultaneously.
"What are you doing here?"
"What are you doing here?" By this time Sirius had walked around the column and Severus, a great deal more slowly, had walked over as well and was Staning about ten feet behind Lily, still reading. He had an annoyed expression on his face.
"Yes, yes, you love him, you lust after him, stop rambling and say his bloody name so I can be sure," he muttered as he read.
"Hey, isn't that James' diary?" Sirius asked. Lily confirmed that it was. Sirius and Remus proceeded to interrogate her about how she had gotten it in the first place. She was refusing to tell them how she managed to get into the boys dorms, when Severus exclaimed, "Here It Is! Your Confession." Sirius whispered that now they would finally know who James had developed a crush on. Severus continued triumphantly, reading aloud, "I James Potter, am in love with Sirius Orion Black!"
Dead Silence.
Sirius, himself was the first person to react. He did so by yelling, " He's in love with WHO?!?!" Smirking, Severus answered,
"Evidently, he is in love with you; and by the way, it would be 'He's in love with whom'." Sirius, Remus, and Lily just continued to stare, dumbfounded at Severus, while he himself continued to smirk. After a moment, Sirius rushed over to Severus and demanded,
"Give me that! I don't believe you!" Grabbing the book out of the other boy's hands, he began reading. When he had finished reading the page he just stared at the book, mumbling, "There's no way. There's just no bloody way." The poor Gryffindor was in total denial. It was almost impossible for him to believe that James Potter, his best mate, the guy he loved like a brother, was in love with him. How was it possible? They had known each other ever since their first train-ride to Hogwarts. They told each other everything. How could it be that James had kept something this huge to himself. When had it happened? Why? Sure, Remus loved him like that and they were still best friends, but Remus was Remus. James was, well, James. When had that changed?
"Siri," Remus asked quietly, disrupting his boyfriends silent rant, "are you OK?"
"Yah, yah, I'm fine," he answered, although he certainly didn't feel fine. He had actually been contemplating telling James about him and Remus. What he just read ruled that out completely. Now that he knew James felt that way about him, he couldn't ever tell him. It would destroy their group's friendship. Maybe if it had been someone other than Remus, it might have worked. As long as it was Remus, though- and he was pretty sure it would be Remus for a very long time, if not forever- he couldn't tell James.
"Too bad for Potter. Won't it just brake his heart to know that his beloved loves another," Severus said in a falsely regretful voice, "and it will quite nearly kill him to know that that other is his second best friend. Oh the agony, it would put him through."
At this, Sirius spun around and declared, "If you tell a soul Snape, I swear to God, I'll kill you," in a dangerous tone. For a moment, the Slytherin was taken aback. From the other boy's tone of voice, he completely believed at the moment that Black was capable of murder. After a moment, though, he regained his composure (not that any one other than himself had been able to tell that he had lost it) and said less offensively,
"Alright, don't worry, I won't tell any one, but I can't promise you I won't use this as blackmail," after a pause, he added in a more confident and condescending tone, "and by the way, the same goes for you. Although I won't kill you, I'm quite capable of doing other things that would make you wish I had." With threats having been handed out on both sides by the more aggressive person in each group, all parties involved swore not to reveal any of that night's events to a single person. Then, when every one was satisfied that their secret was safe, they all walked down from the Astronomy Tower. Reaching the bottom of the stairs, they separated and began walking to their dormitories, Lily, Sirius, and Remus down the hall to the right, to Gryffindor Tower, and Severus, down the steps on the left, to the dungeons. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * Finally done another chapter! (Wew!) That one was "long" to try to make up for not updating in months. Thanks so much to my beta, Shi No Tenshi/Megami. Please Review, if you don't, I may not be motivated to continue writing. It would be quite pointless to post if there is not a single solitary person reading it (if you don't review, I won't know you've read it). I'd like to get at Least six reviews for this chapter. Also, it would be a big help if you could say what parts specifically you do/don't like. However, if you simply want to critisize me (i.e. think that the Snape/Lily pairing is freaky and all you can say is 'eww'- I actually got a review like that), then I would rather you don't say anything at all. Any suggestions (ideas for future scenes ect.) are (very) welcome. Thanks for paying attention long enough to actually read this. Most people simply go on to the next chapter. Once again, sorry for not posting in so long! Now, on to the next chapter: Sirius, Spying, and a Huge Misunderstanding.
The Day My Life Changed (For Lack Of Better Title) Chapter Three: Confessions of A Gryffindor
The next month passed quickly, Lily and Severus tried to keep their relationship a secret so that they could let James, Sirius and Remus find out at the perfect time. They could only meet in private and had to keep up their attitudes in front of the other Slytherins and Gryffindors, because truly, who could believe that two people from the rival Houses would go out. Severus was one of the biggest "Gryffindor" haters in Slytherin and Lily, well truthfully, Lily didn't really care about a person's House, however she was expected to. Little did they know that they weren't the only ones with a secret relationship. Two other Gryffindors had a similar dilemma.
* * *
Two shadow's sneaked up to the Astronomy tower, a flash of moonlight from a nearby window showed the two to be Remus Lupin and Sirius Black. Remus put a hand out to stop Sirius from walking any further up the staircase.
"What?" The taller boy whispered.
"I though I heard voices," Remus answered, sighing. "But I guess I didn't"
Sirius rolled his blue eyes and muttered affectionately, "Loony Moony."
"Oh shut up, Padfoot,"
They continued up the staircase and entered the Astronomy Tower. Being the favorite meeting place of Hogwarts couples, it normally wouldn't matter if other people were there, as they were all too wrapped up in each other to notice anyone else. However Remus and Sirius were the two Gryffindors who were in the same situation as Lily and Severus. Their relationship was a closely guarded secret that not even their closest friend James Potter knew about them. He didn't even know that they were homosexual, let alone together. They were afraid that he would not be understanding towards them so they kept it to themselves. They could not risk being seen so they picked the night that everyone was doing homework (Thursday) to go up to the tower.
Walking over to the huge window that overlooked the lake and began to talk in hushed tones.
"I'm so bloody tired of this," Sirius said pulling his half human boyfriend into an embrace.
Remus laid his head on the taller boys shoulder, leaning into his embrace. Sighing he said, "So am I," A few seconds later he continued, "I think James might be suspicious of something. That little comment he made as a joke was just a little too close for comfort."
Remus pulled from the embrace and walked over to the windowsill, leaning over the edge. Sirius stepped behind him and wrapped his arms around him and buried his face in the smaller boy's hair.
* * *
Across from where they were another couple looked out the window overlooking the Quidditch pitch, they too were meeting on that night for privacy. The moonlight surrounded them revealing the female figure leaning against the male and skimming through a book as the male looked out at the calm night.
"Did you hear about the prank Potter played on Lupin and Black?" The boy asked softly, running a hand absentmindedly through her hair.
"No. What did he do now?" she asked her emerald eyes showing exasperation as she looked up to her companion, Severus Snape.
"Well," He began, "I'm not quite sure how it started, but evidently Black and Lupin were pretty pissed."
"Maybe this will tell us something," Lily said, looking back at the book she was holding.
Severus's head snapped down to look at her and the book. "What is that?"
"Potter's diary," Lily said off-handedly.
"You got Potter's diary?" Severus asked, incredulous.
"Yeah, just because boys aren't allowed in girls' dorms, doesn't mean we can't go into boys' dorms." Lily said innocently.
Severus looked at her, "Who says boys aren't allowed in girls dormitories?"
"You mean in Slytherin boys can get into the girls dorms?" Lily asked in surprise.
"Yeah," Severus said in an annoyed tone. "Lucius Malfoy did it ALL the time."
Lily half snorted, "Well let's see what this book holds, shall we?" She flipped through the pages murmuring, "Nothing here, nope, not that, didn't need to know that, this is totally pointless! Wait," She flipped back a page, "No."
Severus tried to read over her shoulder. "What?"
"No way does that say what I think it says, I must be going blind," she said.
"Just tell me what it says, for gods sake," Severus said half-annoyed, half- amused.
She turned around and shoved the book into his face. "What does this say?"
He pushed her hand back lightly and began to read out loud. "I have to get this off my chest, and I can't tell Sirius because he's part of the problem," He smirked down at Lily, "Sounds like a good confession."
"Keep reading," She ordered.
"The truth is, well, there's no easy way to say this, but I might as well just write it down, but what if someone finds this? Nobody could ever find this, what am I saying, ok here it goes, I'm just going to say it bluntly now- oh shit! I'm late for potions!" Severus made an annoyed sound in the back of his throat.
"Keep reading," Lily said again.
"Ok, sorry, I almost didn't make it to potions, now I'm just going to state it. I can't, what if Sirius sees this? He won't, but what if he does," Something clicked in Severus's mind, "BLOODY HELL!"
Back on the other side of the astronomy tower, the two other boys' heads snapped up. "I defiantly heard that one," Sirius said.
"Severus," Lily whispered harshly, "Be quiet!"
"Siri," maybe we should leave, before we're seen," Remus suggested in an even quieter whisper.
"No way. Who ever it is probably already saw us. We have to make sure they won't tell anyone." With that, he and Remus started inching their way toward the other side of the tower. Neither said a word, intending to sneak up on whoever else was in the tower. Unfortunately, as they were walking, Sirius tripped and made quite a loud noise.
"There's some one else up here," Lily said, "and now thanks to your loud mouth, they know that we're here." Severus didn't say a word, however he continued reading franticly. Lily, on the other hand stared walking toward the opposite side of the tower, with a plan to apprehend the other person of persons.
Both Lily and the two boys inched closer and closer to each other, having no idea at all who else was there. Sirius and Remus reached the middle of the tower, with Remus in the lead, prepared to step around the gigantic column dividing the tower. On the other side of the column, Lily also prepared to step around it. Bravely, both Remus and Lily took a step forward. Unfortunately, they did so at the same time. "Ow!" Lily exclaimed.
"Remus?!"
"Lily?!" They said simultaneously.
"What are you doing here?"
"What are you doing here?" By this time Sirius had walked around the column and Severus, a great deal more slowly, had walked over as well and was Staning about ten feet behind Lily, still reading. He had an annoyed expression on his face.
"Yes, yes, you love him, you lust after him, stop rambling and say his bloody name so I can be sure," he muttered as he read.
"Hey, isn't that James' diary?" Sirius asked. Lily confirmed that it was. Sirius and Remus proceeded to interrogate her about how she had gotten it in the first place. She was refusing to tell them how she managed to get into the boys dorms, when Severus exclaimed, "Here It Is! Your Confession." Sirius whispered that now they would finally know who James had developed a crush on. Severus continued triumphantly, reading aloud, "I James Potter, am in love with Sirius Orion Black!"
Dead Silence.
Sirius, himself was the first person to react. He did so by yelling, " He's in love with WHO?!?!" Smirking, Severus answered,
"Evidently, he is in love with you; and by the way, it would be 'He's in love with whom'." Sirius, Remus, and Lily just continued to stare, dumbfounded at Severus, while he himself continued to smirk. After a moment, Sirius rushed over to Severus and demanded,
"Give me that! I don't believe you!" Grabbing the book out of the other boy's hands, he began reading. When he had finished reading the page he just stared at the book, mumbling, "There's no way. There's just no bloody way." The poor Gryffindor was in total denial. It was almost impossible for him to believe that James Potter, his best mate, the guy he loved like a brother, was in love with him. How was it possible? They had known each other ever since their first train-ride to Hogwarts. They told each other everything. How could it be that James had kept something this huge to himself. When had it happened? Why? Sure, Remus loved him like that and they were still best friends, but Remus was Remus. James was, well, James. When had that changed?
"Siri," Remus asked quietly, disrupting his boyfriends silent rant, "are you OK?"
"Yah, yah, I'm fine," he answered, although he certainly didn't feel fine. He had actually been contemplating telling James about him and Remus. What he just read ruled that out completely. Now that he knew James felt that way about him, he couldn't ever tell him. It would destroy their group's friendship. Maybe if it had been someone other than Remus, it might have worked. As long as it was Remus, though- and he was pretty sure it would be Remus for a very long time, if not forever- he couldn't tell James.
"Too bad for Potter. Won't it just brake his heart to know that his beloved loves another," Severus said in a falsely regretful voice, "and it will quite nearly kill him to know that that other is his second best friend. Oh the agony, it would put him through."
At this, Sirius spun around and declared, "If you tell a soul Snape, I swear to God, I'll kill you," in a dangerous tone. For a moment, the Slytherin was taken aback. From the other boy's tone of voice, he completely believed at the moment that Black was capable of murder. After a moment, though, he regained his composure (not that any one other than himself had been able to tell that he had lost it) and said less offensively,
"Alright, don't worry, I won't tell any one, but I can't promise you I won't use this as blackmail," after a pause, he added in a more confident and condescending tone, "and by the way, the same goes for you. Although I won't kill you, I'm quite capable of doing other things that would make you wish I had." With threats having been handed out on both sides by the more aggressive person in each group, all parties involved swore not to reveal any of that night's events to a single person. Then, when every one was satisfied that their secret was safe, they all walked down from the Astronomy Tower. Reaching the bottom of the stairs, they separated and began walking to their dormitories, Lily, Sirius, and Remus down the hall to the right, to Gryffindor Tower, and Severus, down the steps on the left, to the dungeons. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * Finally done another chapter! (Wew!) That one was "long" to try to make up for not updating in months. Thanks so much to my beta, Shi No Tenshi/Megami. Please Review, if you don't, I may not be motivated to continue writing. It would be quite pointless to post if there is not a single solitary person reading it (if you don't review, I won't know you've read it). I'd like to get at Least six reviews for this chapter. Also, it would be a big help if you could say what parts specifically you do/don't like. However, if you simply want to critisize me (i.e. think that the Snape/Lily pairing is freaky and all you can say is 'eww'- I actually got a review like that), then I would rather you don't say anything at all. Any suggestions (ideas for future scenes ect.) are (very) welcome. Thanks for paying attention long enough to actually read this. Most people simply go on to the next chapter. Once again, sorry for not posting in so long! Now, on to the next chapter: Sirius, Spying, and a Huge Misunderstanding.