Just want to clarify that it starts with Seifer's POV, then Foeline's, then Seifer again. Sorry that it's confusing!!!!
Cupid * Chapter 3 *
Besfrenz
There's blood everywhere, my clothes. My gloves, my Hyperion, on the dead bodies on the floor… I shut my eyes tight, trying to block off the horrific scene, but I can't…. I just can't… because it was I who did it, who killed these innocent people, all my fault….
I turned around, and ran as fast as I can, trying to reach a place as far away as possible, I ran and ran…. then I heard footsteps, lots of footsteps…. People, lots of people, people who hated me, who pointed at me with an accusing finger, people who wanted me to die, running after me….
"You're a failure! You'll never be a SeeD!"
"Go to hell! SORCERESS LAPDOG!"
"Murderer, give me back my family!"
I covered my ears, wanting to block off the voices…. and I kept on running, running, and running….
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"No…."
A scream woke me up, followed by whimpers and sobs. Somebody's being tortured was the first thought that came to me. I got off the bed and grabbed my Mooncutter, and I tried to look for the source of the sound. Then I figured out that it was only Seifer having a nightmare. So no one's being tortured, I breathed a sigh of relief. I put down my weapon and walked toward his bed, then I saw his face, so frightened, so afraid, like a boy who's lost. His hands were gripping the sheets, his body covered with sweat. Something in his cheeks caught my attention, tears. He's crying, so he's human after all. I felt a pang in my heart, he looks so vulnerable at this moment, so lonely and frightened. I touched his left cheek, wiping away a drop of tear, then his eyes opened…
"What the hell…"
"Seifer, you were having a nightmare, I…."
"Get your hands off my face!"
I pulled my hands back immediately.
"Hey, you don't have to be so mean, I was just trying to care…"
"Then don't! I don't need anyone, everyone just leave me alone!"
He pushed me off, I glared at him, but he didn't even look at me. I gave up and went back to my bed, thinking only about the tears I saw in his cheeks a while ago. Why? Why was he crying? I couldn't stop wondering why… The I heard footsteps, and a slam of the door.
He left.
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I tried to calm myself down, but the scenes from my dream, they kept on flashing before me, the blood, the pain, I will never ever forget it. I'll never forget the past, being the sorceress' knight, the failed time compression, the sorceress…. Never going to forget it, no matter how hard I try. Maybe because…. Never mind! It'll always be a part of me. Just like when I wanna be a part of Rinoa's memory, her heart, her life, but I know I'll never be, even if I die trying. So what? I can still go on living anyway.
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Foeline, my new roommate… Nobody had ever wanted to be in the same room with me, and she…. That bitch! How dare she…. How dare she what? How dare she care? Since when caring had been a sin? Maybe caring is just her nature. But then, what is my nature? What kind of person is she? What kind of person am I? Who is she? Who am I? No…. I don't wanna think anymore….
I need to get out of this room, and…. And what? Yeah right. Fight! Since childhood, fighting is my only passion, isn't it? Yeah, it is, I mean, no, it's not. Damn it! Why do I keep on contradicting myself? Why? The hell! Who cares anyeway! I'll just go to the Training Center!
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I'm really sorry, I know this chapter really sucks, but please don't flame me… School had just started this June, so I got really busy, sorry if this sucks, I just wrote it when I was bored in the class, and I know the story is quite confusing I get confused too a little, but there's a reason for all the dialoges and etc. Sorry, really!!! Please review but don't flame me…. Pls….