Author's Note: Hey guys. I decided to update today even though it is my
17th birthday, but I had nothing better to do. I have a much longer then
usual chapter, so consider it my birthday gift to you. I hope you like it,
there's a nice bit with Remus in it. *sighs* I love Remus; he's probably my
favorite character. Anyways, here are the thank yous again:
MegHarts- How was Michigan? No sleep, and a bit of a problem with Lily. O_o, but you didn't hear it from me. glad you liked the kiss.
Midnights shadow of insaneness- thanks, glad you thought it was cute; this was as soon as I could get it.
Droppedrose- She has more then one diary. in fact she's probably got more then five of them. She writes a lot and she left her most recent one with Bella, which I have to write back into the story. which I can do. thank you for reminding me. don't need random plotholes. they're evil. I'm sorry the chapter length is so short but this one is longer and good luck tomorrow at school!
Ggal- That, I am sorry to say, is a random plothole. eep! Or actually its not. she felt like James was really angry at her and so she sort of slipped back into coma status. I hope that helps. and I know what you mean bout the blackout; we had one here last night. annoyance. Thank you for the great review!
Bell- You're welcome for the fluff. but it might be lacking for a bit. O_o. I cannot say because it's a major plot development but yeah, you'll see.
????- Thank you. I'm trying.
Poetbrit- Yes, James' temper is going to hit a high point in one of the upcoming chapters. males, can't live with em, and can't live without em.
Hart-break- Thanks, I'm glad. don't take this one day period of time as my normal updating style. I'm all over the place usually.
PinayAko- Heh, you ask and you shall receive.
Zebragirl- Yes! I'm keeping you guessing! You have no idea how pleased that makes me feel! And it's impossible for me to write anything without a real plot unless it's my Mocking Potter one. which there might be more of if I get around to writing it, but meh! *does a little victory dance* I have to get Voldie back into the story. even if he's constantly lurking there. at the moment I'm trying to concentrate on L/J and work in the evil butt randomly.
Black-cat-on-the-wall- Yes, they did. and I think that's the last time you're gonna see it for a while. *cackles* I have the basic story in my head, but I keep working in problems. I'm trying to make it real I guess, not some fairy tale, because despite my belief in L/J eternally, I think love is a bankrupt concept. but yeah. next topic please.
I o u a name- I hope the length of this one is pleasing, it's technically got two of my normal chapters in it. so be happy! It's my birthday and I feel nice! I'm glad you thought it was sweet.
Anarane- Thank you.
Hmm, well now, on with the story I guess. Please read the end notes, I have a couple things I need to ask. ~Frankie~
Chapter Twenty-Nine: Going Home
Approximately twenty minutes after James disappeared Arabella noticed his absence. "Where's James?" she asked and looked around the tea room.
Dumbledore smiled and said, "He probably went down to see Lily." But any further speculation on the matter was interrupted by the sound of Peter falling off his cot and Sirius rushing over to help him up.
"Peter are you okay?" Sirius asked helping the drowsy young man to sit on the cot.
"I feel like I've been run over by the Hogwarts Express," Peter muttered and rubbed the gook out of his eyes.
"That sometimes happens with some calming potions," Dumbledore said quietly even though he knew it was from the sedative that the healer had probably put in the potion in the first place.
"Where am I?" Peter asked as he looked around not recognizing where he was.
"St. Mungo's," Remus said quietly and Peter's eyes widened in horror.
"I-I thought i-it w-was a n-nightmare," Peter said as tears slipped down his face and he covered his eyes again.
"It's okay Peter," Arabella said sadly, ever her dislike of him put behind her as she watched his grief for his grandmother swamp him.
"Have you notified your parents?" Dumbledore asked and Peter shook his head. "Then I will go owl them for you," he replied and walked toward the door. "I will meet you all in Lily's room," he said quietly and walked out of the tearoom heading for St. Mungo's owlery to see if they had notified Peter's father.
Peter looked up from his hands looking surprised. "Lily? What's wrong with her?"
"Headaches," Arabella said quickly, "Very painful ones." Even though Peter was grieving she still didn't trust him as far as she could throw him.
"I imagine that's where James is then," Peter said quietly and wiped away more of his tears on his shirt.
"Yes," Sirius said and threw a curious glance at Arabella who shrugged. "We should probably go and see how she's doing," Sirius said and helped Peter to his feet. They walked slowly out of the tearoom and down to Lily's room and Remus felt an odd pang in his chest as he looked down the stairs where Sirius was helping Peter who had tripped and stumbled down the stairs.
Arabella entered the room first and gasped at what she saw. The sun was just coming up and its pale light was shining upon Lily and James' sleeping forms, making them look as if they glowed. They were completely wrapped up in one another and they looked as if they couldn't be happier. Even the worry in James' face was completely dissolved. "What's wrong?" Sirius asked moving quickly into the room at the sound of Arabella's gasp.
"They just look, well, perfect," Arabella said with a sigh and leaned against the door jam smiling happily.
Sirius and Remus exchanged glances and muttered, "Women," in the same tone of voice receiving smacks from Arabella along with a scowl.
"We should let them sleep," Arabella said quietly as she looked back at them and her face took on that serene look again.
"Yeah, we should," Sirius said remembering how tired James had looked after Arabella had removed the glamour. "But this is entirely too tempting you know," Sirius said and glanced at Remus.
"I wouldn't advise it Paddy," Remus said eyeing the expression on Arabella's face.
"You'd better not do a thing to wake them Sirius Black," Arabella said harshly her eyes ablaze with rage.
"I shan't do a thing my dear sweet Bella, I shan't do a thing," Sirius said innocently and brought Arabella close to him and began to tickle her. This caused Arabella to shriek with uncontrollable laughter and sink to the floor in her attempts to fend him off.
"Siri-us, k-knock it off!" Arabella said through her peels of laughter that brought Daniel to the doorway.
"What in the name of Merlin is going on?" Daniel asked loudly, which in combination with Arabella's laughter caused James to awaken, followed by Lily who woke when James moved to sit up.
"What on earth are you doing to Bella, Padfoot?" James asked tiredly and rubbed at his eyes behind his glasses.
"Tickling her, what did you think I was doing Prongs my friend?" Sirius asked as he helped Arabella to her feet.
"Oh you! Now they're awake!" Arabella said and punched Sirius in the shoulder.
"What are you doing in Miss Evans bed?" Daniel asked now that his attention was focused on James.
"Er- sleeping," James said and looked curiously at Daniel.
"Well of all the-," Daniel began but was interrupted by Lily. "Really Daniel, I don't think you need to comment. I wanted James to get some sleep without getting a crick in his neck. It's as simple as that," she aid looking rather annoyed.
"You're awake! Why wasn't I notified?" Daniel asked haughtily looking at James in a agitated manner.
Lily stared at Daniel, "It would have ruined the lovely moment. Now I'm awake and you can do whatever sort of tests you need to do and then I would like to go home," she said sternly and focused her most annoyed glare at Daniel who swallowed unconsciously. James climbed off the bed, he was getting goggly eyes from Sirius and a curious look form Peter and he had no desire to let either of them continue.
Daniel quickly checked Lily over muttering about conspiratorial patients and their visitors before leaving the room to sulk and sign Lily's discharge papers. Lily grinned to herself and Daniel muttered and rolled her eyes at some of his comments. "Yay, the lout is gone! I want out of here!" she said and James smiled at her.
"You'll be out soon and then we can all go home and get some rest," James said with a sigh.
"Sleep you mean. I want to see you sleeping James Potter," Lily said and James sighed knowing that he'd have to tell her that he needed to go into the office that morning.
"Peter are you alright?" James asked quietly changing the subject.
"Been better," Peter muttered with a sigh.
"Do you have a place to stay?" James asked in an obligatory manner.
"I'll probably stay at The Leaky Cauldron until I find a place," Peter said not really caring one wit about whether he was staying anywhere.
James looked over at Lily and she said, "Why don't you stay with us? That's if James doesn't protest of course," and she looked at him curiously.
James smiled, "I've no problem with it but are you sure you want to cook for everyone?" He didn't want Lily to go into another relapse from stress or anything.
"I took the job James, I intend to fulfill all its requirements," Lily said brightly and smiled at Peter who shifted uncomfortably in his place.
"I don't want to be a burden," Peter said quickly not wanting to seem overly eager at the invitation.
"Oh you won't!" James and Lily said at the same time while Sirius, Remus and Arabella all exchanged glances before bursting into hysterical laughter.
"Did I miss a good joke?" Dumbledore asked from the door looking amused. Arabella jumped at the sound of his voice again almost toppling Sirius right into Remus.
Arabella laughed loudly a second later, "Oh, I know what to get you for Christmas," she said with one hand clutching at her neck.
"What?" Peter asked looking confused.
"It's no good telling him now, it will ruin the surprise," Arabella said lightly.
"Lily, how wonderful to see you awake," Dumbledore said with a smile as he walked closer to Lily's bedside.
"Thank you Professor," Lily said as if automatically.
Dumbledore managed to suppress any surprise at this but just said, "Call me Albus please," and Lily smiled and nodded.
"Of course, but may I ask what you're doing here?" Lily said quietly and unconsciously smoothed out her hair.
"I find your situation interesting Lily and I wish you help you make a smooth transition into the wizarding world," Dumbledore said with a smile.
"I think it might be best if we discussed this in a private setting," James said eyeing the doorway where Daniel was trying to be inconspicuous. Dumbledore looked over sternly and Daniel disappeared.
"We'll wait to talk about this until we're at Godric's Hollow," Dumbledore said quietly and soon there after Daniel came in and said Lily was free to go.
They took the violently purple, triple-decker Knight Bus back to Godric's Hollow and Lily decided it was definitely not her favorite way to travel. The others seemed perfectly at ease with the fact that the bus magically jumped across the country and the tables and chairs slid backward and forward with every stop making Lily feel slightly sick.
When they got to James' house everyone was anticipating a shower. It was only around seven in the morning and everyone but Dumbledore was exhausted. "Peter, the room across from Remus' is clean and ready for someone to stay in," Lily said with a smile to Peter.
"Thank you Lily," Peter said in a sad tone for voice
"Not a problem Peter, go on and clean up. You'll probably feel a little better after a warm shower," Lily said and headed up the stairs with James right behind her. She stopped when she got to the landing. "Are you walking behind me for a reason, or just enjoying the view?" she asked with a smirk.
James blushed, "I'm still worried about you," he said quietly.
"Don't. I'm fine and you have enough to worry about," Lily said and pushed him in the general direction of his room.
"Anxious to get rid of me I see," James said teasingly.
"You need to shave, so go take a shower," Lily said and walked in the direction of her room as James sighed and walked into his room, closing the door behind him. Lily passed Sirius' room and heard Arabella giggle; she really didn't want to know and stopped in front of Remus' open door. "Hey Remus," she said. He was sitting on his bed staring out the window and she looked up at her when she spoke.
"Hi Lily," Remus said and unconsciously brushed his hair out of his face.
"Are you alright?" Lily asked walking into the room and sitting down across from him.
"I've been better, and I've been worse," Remus replied honestly.
Lily sighed; she could practically read his mind. "Don't blame yourself for what happened. Anyone would have been curious if I'd spouted out information that I shouldn't know to them," she said calmly.
Remus sighed and shook his head. "But I am responsible. If I hadn't asked what Alice you were talking about none of this would have happened," he said and looked disappointed with himself.
"Any of the others would have too! It would have happened eventually as long as I hadn't accepted the information in my dreams to be truth, at least of a sort. I have to accept that subconsciously I know things about all of you that I shouldn't, this was an example. And the tomatoes too," Lily said and lay a comforting hand on Remus' knee.
Remus felt a perfect opportunity had arrived. "Is there anything more about me that you know?" he asked and watched as Lily smiled.
"We're talking about something specific aren't we?" Lily asked turning serious.
Remus closed his eyes briefly. "Yes, I am," he said and hoped for the first time in his life that she already knew what he was.
"Let me think for a moment," Lily said and closed her own eyes. A dozen different pictures flashed before he eyes one stuck out and she concentrated on it.
Remus was younger, but only by a few years and looked scared, no, not scared, down right horrified. Lily felt like she was watching a movie with the sound turned down really low. She noticed that he looked as if he was getting sick and it wasn't the first time it had happened.
Lily opened her eyes and was calm. "I figured it out, third year. You were sick a lot and never in the hospital wing, gone for a few days but always with an excuse," Lily paused for a moment. "I wanted to know if I could help and so I looked it up. There was only really one possibility and so I confronted you after Defense Against the Dark Arts, pulling you away from James, Sirius and Peter. Sirius whistled and made comments about me dragging you into a broom closet to snog. James hit him across the back of his head and they went off to lunch," Lily said and seemed to be in sort of a trance, her voice was all light and airy. Remus was nervous and hoped it wouldn't cause another relapse.
"I asked why you always looked sick and you said you were always catching a cold. I knew you were lying, it was written all over your face. I asked if you were a werewolf and you became terrified. You pleaded with me not to tell anyone and I swore to you I wouldn't tell a soul," she trailed of a moment, "And I never did," Lily said and blinked repeatedly. "I wasn't scared of you Remus and I'm still not. You don't have to worry. No one will hear a word from my mouth about it," she whispered and smiled at Remus.
Remus was vaguely aware that he was crying. "I was worried you would hate me when you found out, but you knew all along," he said staring at her though pale gray eyes.
Lily moved closer to Remus and hugged him. "I couldn't possibly hate you Remy. You're a wonderful person and just because you get a bit hairier once a month doesn't mean I'm going to run screaming from the room," Lily said and heard Remus laugh. "Besides that, you woke me from a horrible nightmare and you get my never ending gratitude for just that," she said and pulled away ruffling his hair.
"I'm glad you know Lily, it makes everything so much easier," Remus said quietly with a hint of a smile.
"Yes it does. Now I'm going to go take a shower. I suggest you do too. It will make you feel better and wipe away all evidence of our little heart to heart," Lily said with a smile and headed for the door but paused before she got there. "Who knows besides me?" she asked.
"James, Sirius, Peter, Dumbledore and Snape, though I think Arabella does too. yeah, she does," Remus said and scrunched up his face thinking. "I believe that's all," he said and looked up at her.
"Snape?" Lily asked incredulously as her eyebrows raised in disbelief.
"Happened 6th year, a very long story," Remus said with a sigh, "You might even know it, but don't try to remember just yet. You did a lot today already," he said seriously and Lily nodded before leaving the room.
A/N: Well, I hope you liked that! I like this chapter or at least the bit with Remus in it. *sighs* I have a few questions really. IF and WHEN I have L/J have sex, make love whatever you wanna call it, do you want it detailed or implied? It won't be for a heck of a long time, but I'm writing ahead of what I'm updating in a note book, so please let me know. Oh, and does anyone protest the idea of a costume ball of sorts? It was one of my fleeting thoughts, but let me know if you like it or not. Thank you all for reading and please review! The more to write the more I respond, and the quicker I update! Love you all! ~Frankie~
MegHarts- How was Michigan? No sleep, and a bit of a problem with Lily. O_o, but you didn't hear it from me. glad you liked the kiss.
Midnights shadow of insaneness- thanks, glad you thought it was cute; this was as soon as I could get it.
Droppedrose- She has more then one diary. in fact she's probably got more then five of them. She writes a lot and she left her most recent one with Bella, which I have to write back into the story. which I can do. thank you for reminding me. don't need random plotholes. they're evil. I'm sorry the chapter length is so short but this one is longer and good luck tomorrow at school!
Ggal- That, I am sorry to say, is a random plothole. eep! Or actually its not. she felt like James was really angry at her and so she sort of slipped back into coma status. I hope that helps. and I know what you mean bout the blackout; we had one here last night. annoyance. Thank you for the great review!
Bell- You're welcome for the fluff. but it might be lacking for a bit. O_o. I cannot say because it's a major plot development but yeah, you'll see.
????- Thank you. I'm trying.
Poetbrit- Yes, James' temper is going to hit a high point in one of the upcoming chapters. males, can't live with em, and can't live without em.
Hart-break- Thanks, I'm glad. don't take this one day period of time as my normal updating style. I'm all over the place usually.
PinayAko- Heh, you ask and you shall receive.
Zebragirl- Yes! I'm keeping you guessing! You have no idea how pleased that makes me feel! And it's impossible for me to write anything without a real plot unless it's my Mocking Potter one. which there might be more of if I get around to writing it, but meh! *does a little victory dance* I have to get Voldie back into the story. even if he's constantly lurking there. at the moment I'm trying to concentrate on L/J and work in the evil butt randomly.
Black-cat-on-the-wall- Yes, they did. and I think that's the last time you're gonna see it for a while. *cackles* I have the basic story in my head, but I keep working in problems. I'm trying to make it real I guess, not some fairy tale, because despite my belief in L/J eternally, I think love is a bankrupt concept. but yeah. next topic please.
I o u a name- I hope the length of this one is pleasing, it's technically got two of my normal chapters in it. so be happy! It's my birthday and I feel nice! I'm glad you thought it was sweet.
Anarane- Thank you.
Hmm, well now, on with the story I guess. Please read the end notes, I have a couple things I need to ask. ~Frankie~
Chapter Twenty-Nine: Going Home
Approximately twenty minutes after James disappeared Arabella noticed his absence. "Where's James?" she asked and looked around the tea room.
Dumbledore smiled and said, "He probably went down to see Lily." But any further speculation on the matter was interrupted by the sound of Peter falling off his cot and Sirius rushing over to help him up.
"Peter are you okay?" Sirius asked helping the drowsy young man to sit on the cot.
"I feel like I've been run over by the Hogwarts Express," Peter muttered and rubbed the gook out of his eyes.
"That sometimes happens with some calming potions," Dumbledore said quietly even though he knew it was from the sedative that the healer had probably put in the potion in the first place.
"Where am I?" Peter asked as he looked around not recognizing where he was.
"St. Mungo's," Remus said quietly and Peter's eyes widened in horror.
"I-I thought i-it w-was a n-nightmare," Peter said as tears slipped down his face and he covered his eyes again.
"It's okay Peter," Arabella said sadly, ever her dislike of him put behind her as she watched his grief for his grandmother swamp him.
"Have you notified your parents?" Dumbledore asked and Peter shook his head. "Then I will go owl them for you," he replied and walked toward the door. "I will meet you all in Lily's room," he said quietly and walked out of the tearoom heading for St. Mungo's owlery to see if they had notified Peter's father.
Peter looked up from his hands looking surprised. "Lily? What's wrong with her?"
"Headaches," Arabella said quickly, "Very painful ones." Even though Peter was grieving she still didn't trust him as far as she could throw him.
"I imagine that's where James is then," Peter said quietly and wiped away more of his tears on his shirt.
"Yes," Sirius said and threw a curious glance at Arabella who shrugged. "We should probably go and see how she's doing," Sirius said and helped Peter to his feet. They walked slowly out of the tearoom and down to Lily's room and Remus felt an odd pang in his chest as he looked down the stairs where Sirius was helping Peter who had tripped and stumbled down the stairs.
Arabella entered the room first and gasped at what she saw. The sun was just coming up and its pale light was shining upon Lily and James' sleeping forms, making them look as if they glowed. They were completely wrapped up in one another and they looked as if they couldn't be happier. Even the worry in James' face was completely dissolved. "What's wrong?" Sirius asked moving quickly into the room at the sound of Arabella's gasp.
"They just look, well, perfect," Arabella said with a sigh and leaned against the door jam smiling happily.
Sirius and Remus exchanged glances and muttered, "Women," in the same tone of voice receiving smacks from Arabella along with a scowl.
"We should let them sleep," Arabella said quietly as she looked back at them and her face took on that serene look again.
"Yeah, we should," Sirius said remembering how tired James had looked after Arabella had removed the glamour. "But this is entirely too tempting you know," Sirius said and glanced at Remus.
"I wouldn't advise it Paddy," Remus said eyeing the expression on Arabella's face.
"You'd better not do a thing to wake them Sirius Black," Arabella said harshly her eyes ablaze with rage.
"I shan't do a thing my dear sweet Bella, I shan't do a thing," Sirius said innocently and brought Arabella close to him and began to tickle her. This caused Arabella to shriek with uncontrollable laughter and sink to the floor in her attempts to fend him off.
"Siri-us, k-knock it off!" Arabella said through her peels of laughter that brought Daniel to the doorway.
"What in the name of Merlin is going on?" Daniel asked loudly, which in combination with Arabella's laughter caused James to awaken, followed by Lily who woke when James moved to sit up.
"What on earth are you doing to Bella, Padfoot?" James asked tiredly and rubbed at his eyes behind his glasses.
"Tickling her, what did you think I was doing Prongs my friend?" Sirius asked as he helped Arabella to her feet.
"Oh you! Now they're awake!" Arabella said and punched Sirius in the shoulder.
"What are you doing in Miss Evans bed?" Daniel asked now that his attention was focused on James.
"Er- sleeping," James said and looked curiously at Daniel.
"Well of all the-," Daniel began but was interrupted by Lily. "Really Daniel, I don't think you need to comment. I wanted James to get some sleep without getting a crick in his neck. It's as simple as that," she aid looking rather annoyed.
"You're awake! Why wasn't I notified?" Daniel asked haughtily looking at James in a agitated manner.
Lily stared at Daniel, "It would have ruined the lovely moment. Now I'm awake and you can do whatever sort of tests you need to do and then I would like to go home," she said sternly and focused her most annoyed glare at Daniel who swallowed unconsciously. James climbed off the bed, he was getting goggly eyes from Sirius and a curious look form Peter and he had no desire to let either of them continue.
Daniel quickly checked Lily over muttering about conspiratorial patients and their visitors before leaving the room to sulk and sign Lily's discharge papers. Lily grinned to herself and Daniel muttered and rolled her eyes at some of his comments. "Yay, the lout is gone! I want out of here!" she said and James smiled at her.
"You'll be out soon and then we can all go home and get some rest," James said with a sigh.
"Sleep you mean. I want to see you sleeping James Potter," Lily said and James sighed knowing that he'd have to tell her that he needed to go into the office that morning.
"Peter are you alright?" James asked quietly changing the subject.
"Been better," Peter muttered with a sigh.
"Do you have a place to stay?" James asked in an obligatory manner.
"I'll probably stay at The Leaky Cauldron until I find a place," Peter said not really caring one wit about whether he was staying anywhere.
James looked over at Lily and she said, "Why don't you stay with us? That's if James doesn't protest of course," and she looked at him curiously.
James smiled, "I've no problem with it but are you sure you want to cook for everyone?" He didn't want Lily to go into another relapse from stress or anything.
"I took the job James, I intend to fulfill all its requirements," Lily said brightly and smiled at Peter who shifted uncomfortably in his place.
"I don't want to be a burden," Peter said quickly not wanting to seem overly eager at the invitation.
"Oh you won't!" James and Lily said at the same time while Sirius, Remus and Arabella all exchanged glances before bursting into hysterical laughter.
"Did I miss a good joke?" Dumbledore asked from the door looking amused. Arabella jumped at the sound of his voice again almost toppling Sirius right into Remus.
Arabella laughed loudly a second later, "Oh, I know what to get you for Christmas," she said with one hand clutching at her neck.
"What?" Peter asked looking confused.
"It's no good telling him now, it will ruin the surprise," Arabella said lightly.
"Lily, how wonderful to see you awake," Dumbledore said with a smile as he walked closer to Lily's bedside.
"Thank you Professor," Lily said as if automatically.
Dumbledore managed to suppress any surprise at this but just said, "Call me Albus please," and Lily smiled and nodded.
"Of course, but may I ask what you're doing here?" Lily said quietly and unconsciously smoothed out her hair.
"I find your situation interesting Lily and I wish you help you make a smooth transition into the wizarding world," Dumbledore said with a smile.
"I think it might be best if we discussed this in a private setting," James said eyeing the doorway where Daniel was trying to be inconspicuous. Dumbledore looked over sternly and Daniel disappeared.
"We'll wait to talk about this until we're at Godric's Hollow," Dumbledore said quietly and soon there after Daniel came in and said Lily was free to go.
They took the violently purple, triple-decker Knight Bus back to Godric's Hollow and Lily decided it was definitely not her favorite way to travel. The others seemed perfectly at ease with the fact that the bus magically jumped across the country and the tables and chairs slid backward and forward with every stop making Lily feel slightly sick.
When they got to James' house everyone was anticipating a shower. It was only around seven in the morning and everyone but Dumbledore was exhausted. "Peter, the room across from Remus' is clean and ready for someone to stay in," Lily said with a smile to Peter.
"Thank you Lily," Peter said in a sad tone for voice
"Not a problem Peter, go on and clean up. You'll probably feel a little better after a warm shower," Lily said and headed up the stairs with James right behind her. She stopped when she got to the landing. "Are you walking behind me for a reason, or just enjoying the view?" she asked with a smirk.
James blushed, "I'm still worried about you," he said quietly.
"Don't. I'm fine and you have enough to worry about," Lily said and pushed him in the general direction of his room.
"Anxious to get rid of me I see," James said teasingly.
"You need to shave, so go take a shower," Lily said and walked in the direction of her room as James sighed and walked into his room, closing the door behind him. Lily passed Sirius' room and heard Arabella giggle; she really didn't want to know and stopped in front of Remus' open door. "Hey Remus," she said. He was sitting on his bed staring out the window and she looked up at her when she spoke.
"Hi Lily," Remus said and unconsciously brushed his hair out of his face.
"Are you alright?" Lily asked walking into the room and sitting down across from him.
"I've been better, and I've been worse," Remus replied honestly.
Lily sighed; she could practically read his mind. "Don't blame yourself for what happened. Anyone would have been curious if I'd spouted out information that I shouldn't know to them," she said calmly.
Remus sighed and shook his head. "But I am responsible. If I hadn't asked what Alice you were talking about none of this would have happened," he said and looked disappointed with himself.
"Any of the others would have too! It would have happened eventually as long as I hadn't accepted the information in my dreams to be truth, at least of a sort. I have to accept that subconsciously I know things about all of you that I shouldn't, this was an example. And the tomatoes too," Lily said and lay a comforting hand on Remus' knee.
Remus felt a perfect opportunity had arrived. "Is there anything more about me that you know?" he asked and watched as Lily smiled.
"We're talking about something specific aren't we?" Lily asked turning serious.
Remus closed his eyes briefly. "Yes, I am," he said and hoped for the first time in his life that she already knew what he was.
"Let me think for a moment," Lily said and closed her own eyes. A dozen different pictures flashed before he eyes one stuck out and she concentrated on it.
Remus was younger, but only by a few years and looked scared, no, not scared, down right horrified. Lily felt like she was watching a movie with the sound turned down really low. She noticed that he looked as if he was getting sick and it wasn't the first time it had happened.
Lily opened her eyes and was calm. "I figured it out, third year. You were sick a lot and never in the hospital wing, gone for a few days but always with an excuse," Lily paused for a moment. "I wanted to know if I could help and so I looked it up. There was only really one possibility and so I confronted you after Defense Against the Dark Arts, pulling you away from James, Sirius and Peter. Sirius whistled and made comments about me dragging you into a broom closet to snog. James hit him across the back of his head and they went off to lunch," Lily said and seemed to be in sort of a trance, her voice was all light and airy. Remus was nervous and hoped it wouldn't cause another relapse.
"I asked why you always looked sick and you said you were always catching a cold. I knew you were lying, it was written all over your face. I asked if you were a werewolf and you became terrified. You pleaded with me not to tell anyone and I swore to you I wouldn't tell a soul," she trailed of a moment, "And I never did," Lily said and blinked repeatedly. "I wasn't scared of you Remus and I'm still not. You don't have to worry. No one will hear a word from my mouth about it," she whispered and smiled at Remus.
Remus was vaguely aware that he was crying. "I was worried you would hate me when you found out, but you knew all along," he said staring at her though pale gray eyes.
Lily moved closer to Remus and hugged him. "I couldn't possibly hate you Remy. You're a wonderful person and just because you get a bit hairier once a month doesn't mean I'm going to run screaming from the room," Lily said and heard Remus laugh. "Besides that, you woke me from a horrible nightmare and you get my never ending gratitude for just that," she said and pulled away ruffling his hair.
"I'm glad you know Lily, it makes everything so much easier," Remus said quietly with a hint of a smile.
"Yes it does. Now I'm going to go take a shower. I suggest you do too. It will make you feel better and wipe away all evidence of our little heart to heart," Lily said with a smile and headed for the door but paused before she got there. "Who knows besides me?" she asked.
"James, Sirius, Peter, Dumbledore and Snape, though I think Arabella does too. yeah, she does," Remus said and scrunched up his face thinking. "I believe that's all," he said and looked up at her.
"Snape?" Lily asked incredulously as her eyebrows raised in disbelief.
"Happened 6th year, a very long story," Remus said with a sigh, "You might even know it, but don't try to remember just yet. You did a lot today already," he said seriously and Lily nodded before leaving the room.
A/N: Well, I hope you liked that! I like this chapter or at least the bit with Remus in it. *sighs* I have a few questions really. IF and WHEN I have L/J have sex, make love whatever you wanna call it, do you want it detailed or implied? It won't be for a heck of a long time, but I'm writing ahead of what I'm updating in a note book, so please let me know. Oh, and does anyone protest the idea of a costume ball of sorts? It was one of my fleeting thoughts, but let me know if you like it or not. Thank you all for reading and please review! The more to write the more I respond, and the quicker I update! Love you all! ~Frankie~