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AN: I don't know if I mentioned it, but Sesshomaru has two arms in this. this isn't the greatest part but I've got a case of writers block and it was all I could come up with.
"Rin, you are not paying attention."
"Sorry Sesshomaru-sama."
Sesshomaru was teaching her how to fight but she couldn't concentrate. How could she? Her mind was solely fixated on her plan. Trying to get Sesshomaru to love her was stupid, suicidal even. But she wouldn't be deterred. It was Sesshomaru or no one else for her. Just the mere thought of anyone else touching her made her sick to her stomach. He cares for me and my plan will work, she thought to herself.
What if he truly doesn't want you? a voice mocked in her head.
Then I'll just continue to love him from afar.
Idiot. What if he takes another mate?
Rin closed her eyes as she pondered that question. Her stomach knotted painfully. It would kill her if Sesshomaru took another mate.
"Rin."
Her eyes popped open and found herself staring into his golden eyes.
"If you are tired, you can stop."
"No." she said forcefully.
Even if she were half dead, she wouldn't stop. Training with Sesshomaru was the true highlight of her day. It was just he and her alone in the forest. She could stare at him all she wanted without him thinking it was odd. And watched him she did. The way his body moved just melted her insides. She loved the way he hair looked as the sun shone down on it. Rin would give anything to run her fingers through it. He was graceful and deadly all at the same time. In fact, it was because of training that she fell in love with him. She had been about ten when she discovered him training in the woods. Rin smiled as she remembered how her hero worship turned into love.
*Flashback*
Rin had always been fascinated at how strong and powerful Sesshomaru was. Although he rarely let her see him do it, she loved to see him fight. So she was beside herself with joy when she stumbled upon him training in the forest one day. For the next few days after that she snuck into the forest to watch him. As she watched him, Rin realized that she desperately wanted to be like her beloved Lord. She began memorizing his moves and then she would mimic them when she was alone in her room at night. For weeks she kept this up. Rin wanted her moves to be absolutely perfect before she showed Sesshomaru. Unfortunately, Jaken caught her spying one day.
"You stupid girl, what are you doing?" he asked as he snuck up on her.
Rin jumped and dropped the stick that she was using as a sword.
"Rin's training." she said honestly.
Jaken looked at her.
"For what?"
"To be like Lord Sesshomaru."
Jaken looked at her like she was stupid and then to her surprise begun laughing.
"You? Be like Lord Sesshomaru? Never." he said and then stopped laughing. "Lord Sesshomaru is a great and powerful demon. You're nothing but a weak pathetic human."
"Rin is not weak."
"Of course you are. If it wasn't for Lord Sesshomaru, you'd be dead already." he said. "Now let's go."
Rin stood there and stared at Jaken. She wasn't weak, she couldn't be. Her Lord despised weakness. Rin never wanted him to hate her so she refused to let herself be weak. She heard Jaken mumble something about her being a weak fool so she got angry.
"You stupid toad, Rin is not weak!" she yelled.
Rin picked up the stick she had dropped and lunged at Jaken. He lifted his staff to hit her but she shifted to the side and managed to get behind him. She then used her stick to knock Jaken's feet out from under him. Once he was on the ground, she lifted up the stick to hit him again.
"Rin."
She froze mid strike as Sesshomaru appeared.
"My Lord, the pathetic child has gone crazy."
Sesshomaru gave Jaken a cold glare.
"That pathetic child has you on the ground." he said. "Now leave."
Jaken got up and left. Sesshomaru looked at Rin.
"Explain yourself."
"Jaken called Rin weak. But Rin isn't weak." she stated. "Rin can train and become strong so Rin can help protect the Western Lands from any demon foolish enough to trespass. Then Rin can return Lord Sesshomaru's sword because he's the rightful owner and not his bastard half-breed brother."
Sesshomaru stared at her for a second. Rin thought he was going to get angry but instead he smiled. It wasn't a full smile but it wasn't one of his evil, you'll be dead in a few seconds, smiles either. And with that one smile, he had claimed her young heart.
*End flashback*
A few days after that, Sesshomaru told her that he would train her. Rin sighed. At first she had put her feelings down to youthful infatuation but over time the feeling got stronger. The only thing she got over was talking like that. The feeling of cold metal against her neck snapped Rin out of her thoughts.
"Lack of concentration will assure you of a quick death." he said. "We're finished now."
"Sorry." she said lowering her head.
"Why are you distracted?"
Take your pick. I'm deeply in love with you and I can't seem to get you out of my head, my fingers are aching to touch you yet I can't, or that I'm planning something that just might get me killed.
"Kagome returned yesterday." Rin said instead.
"And you wish to go see her?"
"With your permission."
Even though Sesshomaru had finally stopped trying to kill Inuyasha, he didn't like to be anywhere near him. However, he understood that there were times when Rin needed a female human so he consented to let her spend time with Kagome. The fact that she was Inuyasha's mate was something he had to overlook.
"Very well, you may go.
"Thank you Lord Sesshomaru."
Rin started to walk off but stopped and turned to face him again.
"Lord Sesshomaru, did you know that I was there all those times I watched you in the woods?"
"Yes."
Of course he had known. The first time she came upon him, he had not only smelled her but also heard her. At that time, silence wasn't one of Rin's strong points.
"Is there another question?" he asked when she just stood there.
"Why did you train me?"
"Curiosity." he said honestly.
Sesshomaru didn't see any reason to lie to her. Back then he had been mildly amused to see her use a crude version of his moves against Jaken. Naturally he had been curious to see what she would be able to do with proper training. As usual, she hadn't disappointed him. As far as humans went, Rin was a quick learner and a natural with a sword. She would never survive a fight with a strong demon but giving what skills she did have, she wouldn't die right away. If she was careful it would be possible for her to prolong her life long enough for him to save her. If that's what I choose to do, Sesshomaru added silently.
Rin rode Ah and Un to Kagome's village. She left him at the edge of the forest and walked to Kagome's house.
"Hello Kagome." she said as she walked in.
"Hi Rin. I was expecting you yesterday."
"Forgive me. My Lord went patrolling and I went with him."
"It's okay. Here's some things I got for you." Kagome said handing her a bag. "I even put some extra chocolate in there for you."
"Thank you Kagome."
"It's my pleasure. Do you have time to stay for some tea?"
"Yes. But let me do it." Rin said. "You shouldn't be on your feet."
Rin pointed at Kagome's growing stomach and then made some tea. Afterwards they sat down and talked for a while. After awhile, Rin's attention turned to Kagome's stomach. She couldn't help but to be fascinated with it.
"Would you like to touch?" Kagome asked.
Rin blushed slightly at being caught.
"Go ahead and touch. He's been really active lately."
Rin reached out and touched Kagome's stomach. She smiled when she felt little kicks under her hand. She couldn't help but to wonder what it would be like to bring a life into the world. A beautiful little girl or boy with silver hair, gold eyes and a crescent moon on the forehead. Crescent moon! Rin quickly took her hand away. This was the first time she had ever thought about having a child with Sesshomaru.
This is getting out of hand, a voice in her head warned. First you want him to love you and now you want him to help bring a half demon into the world. You're losing it Rin.
I know, but I can't stop now. How am I going to find out if I don't try?
I warned you. It's your funeral.
"Rin are you okay? You seemed far away for a second."
"I'm fine." she replied with a smile. "Kagome, how did you make Inuyasha love you?"
"First of all, you can't make someone love you. As for Inuyasha, I have no idea why he fell for me. I was as shocked as everyone else when he told me that he loved me after the final battle with Naraku. Up until that point, I thought he was still in love with Kikyo and only saw me as a friend."
"Did he ever do anything that made you think he loved you more than that? A look? Touch? Something?"
"Sure." she said with a smile. "Whenever another man seemed interested in me, Inuyasha would act jealous and possessive. And there were a few times when I caught him looking at me strangely."
Kagome suddenly looked at Rin.
"These questions aren't just for idle curiosity are they?"
"No."
"You're in love with Sesshomaru." Kagome stated.
She wasn't even shocked. She had always wondered about Rin's feelings for him.
"Yes." Rin said. "When I'm around him I feel funny. My heart starts racing and my whole body gets warm. I hate it when he's gone and I train every morning, even when I don't want to, just to be near him."
Rin smiled. It felt good to tell someone other than herself about her feelings.
"It sounds like you've got it bad." Kagome said. "But remember what I said, you can't make someone love you."
"Of course I'll remember what you said."
Kagome smiled but somehow she knew that Rin would try it anyway. Love made you do stupid things. Who knew better than her? Love had kept her by Inuyasha's side even though she thought he was in love with someone else.
"Thank you for talking to me Kagome, but I have to get back now."
"Anytime Rin."
Just as Rin walked out the door, she ran right into Inuyasha.
"I'm so sorry Inuyasha."
Rin surprised him by hugging him before she ran off.
"What the hell was that for?" he asked Kagome.
"Rin's happy. She's in love."
"I wonder what that asshole of a half brother has to say about it."
"He doesn't know yet."
"I feel sorry for the boy when he finds out."
"Actually, the "boy" Rin is in love with is Sesshomaru."
Inuyasha stared at her for a second and then started laughing. He continued laughing until his side began hurting.
"You mean, she's in love with that uptight jerk." he said as he struggled to control his laughing. "The great, I despise humans, half demons and any one else I see as lower than myself, Sesshomaru has a human girl in love with him."
"Inuyasha, sit." Kagome said.
He plunged into the floor and groaned.
"What the hell was that for?" he said looking up at her.
"It isn't funny. I actually feel bad for her. What will happen if he breaks her heart?"
"Kagome, I've seen the way he is with her. Trust me, he cares for her."
"What if it isn't the way she wants. And even if it is, that doesn't mean anything." she said with a sigh. "There's a big difference between loving her and admitting it to her."
Rin got back to Sesshomaru's palace and unloaded the things Kagome had given her. She walked by the library and heard Sesshomaru's voice. She figured he was giving Jaken orders so she went in. Rin stopped dead in her tracks when she saw that Sesshomaru wasn't talking to Jaken. He was talking to a female demon. Rin's eyes narrowed. A very beautiful female demon.
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