*A/N yet another p.o.v chapter. Don't ya love them? Well if not sorry it's
the only way I can continue to post for right now. Enjoy.*
It's been almost 18 years now since my life dramatically changed. It seemed that I helped a psychotic bitch from the future try take over time, killed innocent people, and managed to impregnate someone all during the eighteenth year of my life. Then again, it was even more shocking when I got back into Garden and tied the knot. No one would've thought I'd actually get married but what could I do I couldn't just leave her there. And it's not like her fault alone that she'd gotten pregnant. I mean it does take two to tango right?
Still I wasn't ready to be a father at eighteen. I think that's why I resented our marriage. It was hard, but I never really expected life to hand me everything over on a silver platter. I think it was harder for her then it was for me. I mean, I wasn't all the great of a husband. And when the baby came I was no where to be found. I think I got drunk that day. Poor Fuj, I'm sure she must have been scared and pretty pissed. But it's not as if I didn't wanna be there because I did. I was gonna be a father damn it. But I wasn't there for her when I did become one. If you don't know what it's like to miss the birth of your first child then your not missing anything; you're actually saving yourself from a whole lot of guilt and regret. All I could tell you from it, is that when you first lay eyes on something you and another being created together it changes you, a lot. I think when I first saw my son I was to hung over to actually take in the joy of being a father it only hit when I really saw him with my wife. When I walked into the room to see her, I could feel her glaring at me as if at any moment she's tear my fucking head off my body and devour my soul. It was scary, but I deserved it. I had missed one of the most important things in life.
With my daughter, it was different. I was just turning twenty and I had left Fujin because I felt I had no choice. We fought too much and I couldn't take it. I couldn't take the responsibility of it all the whole father/ husband thing didn't go to good for me. Besides I had made SeeD and was always gone so it's not like I was there anyway. At the time, I was in Galbadia on leave. I was attending some culinary school. Cooking was my escape, although no one ever really figured me, Seifer Almasy, as being one to cook I did; and I was good at it. Turned out I had been at a club gotten drunk and laid. So when this woman appeared at my door six months later I couldn't really say I was shocked I mean I actually figured I'd do something right this time. I wasn't gonna marry the chick since she said she didn't want the baby or anything to do with me, still I felt obligated to be there for the child. I offered to keep the child as if she were serious about not wanting it. I figured that was the best I could do. She accepted on the condition of I be there for the birth. So when my daughter was born I was present. The instant she arrived I felt different. I had redeemed myself. I felt different more grown up. After she was born me and the woman parted ways. I returned to my wife and son with my new daughter.
At first, Fujin couldn't accept what I had done but she fell in love with my daughter instantly. The first few years were difficult since we couldn't afford much; but after I took up residency as head chef of Balamb Hotel, the money began to roll in. And I could actually come home to my family in a house that I actually owned. All was fine until my daughter was around six. I remember her coming to me a little upset about something her and her brother had talked about.
"Daddy, who's my wreal mommy, cause Derrwick says that mommy's not my wreal mommy."
"Dee what the hell are you talking about? What do you mean who's your real mommy? Who do you think is your real mommy?"
"My mommy Fuji. Then hows come Derrwick says that she's not?"
Ok, mind you that I'm about to have an all out war over who's mommy's who's with my six year old daughter. But the thought suddenly hit me, where in the hell would my son hear about D'meera's real mother. I looked to my buddy Raijin who just so happened to sitting with me, he motioned for Dee to go with him as so I could deal with my son. Never in my life had I been so pissed off at him. I mean yeah he was a little shit at times but never had he done anything like this. I was pissed so letting my anger get the best of me I got up from my fishing spot and went to the house to find him.
"Daddy stop please your hurting me."
"I don't care Derrick where the hell did you get the idea for telling your sister that?"
"OOOwwww stop. I don't know. I heard mommy and uncle Raij talking. Oww"
I think I beat the boy for a good ten minutes before my wife intervened. Fujin never really liked the fact that I discipline the kids physically, where as she just used a more psychological approach. But that was a little more then ten years ago.
"Seifer? You okay?"
"Yeah why babe?"
"Because you look troubled."
"It's nothing just thinking that's all. What times the train leave?"
………..
The doorbell rang and Jared rushed to answer it.
"Hey! You came cool. Dad set your plate and everything. You look nice."
"Thanks! So where's Tiarra?"
"She… I think she went to stay over at Julia's house tonight so it's just me, my mom, my dad, and you."
"Oh cool so what to eat?"
They walked in the kitchen and Selphie almost dropped her drink at the sight of D'meera's coat. She almost looked like Seifer. Irvine looked at her and had almost the same reaction at the girl's clothes. D'meera was dawning the full Almasy attire from blue vest shirt all the way down to the trench coat. Her outfit was just minutely alter, she wore a short black leather skirt instead of her fathers pants.
"Wow darlin you look a lot like your father", Irvine finally managed to get out.
"Yeah I hear that a lot. So Mr. Kinneas what's for supper?"
"Dad grilled up some Balamb fish. And I helped mom make the salad", Jared chirped happily.
"Cool! I miss cooking with my dad. I remember he always let me lick the mixing spoon when he made pastries. Mom would always get mad at him foe spoiling my dinner."
"Yeah we've heard a lot about Seifer's cooking Dee. Me and Irvy have been dying to get reservations at the hotel but your dad's so famous it really hard to get in."
"Oh no problem Mrs. Kinneas, you can come over and eat with us when my dad gets back."
"We'd love to. So how is your father D'meera? Last time we ever talked to him was before"; Selphie's voice trailed off not wanting to say the rest of her thought.
"Oh my dad's fine Mrs. Kinneas. He's not the same guy you all knew. He's the best dad in the world and I love him a lot. Besides, I think he'd like it if you came to visit. No one really does cept for uncle Raijin. Sometime I think people still hate my dad even though he said he was sorry for everything."
"Well Dee it's not that people hate him it's just that, don't take it personal, but your father did a lot of bad things when he was young and he hurt a lot of people. And well sometimes, we can't really forgive those sorts of deeds and it's hard. I know you mean well by trying to change people's mind's about him but he just wasn't that great of a person back then and well no one believes he's changed." Irvine tried explaining seeing the hurt in Dee's eyes when she spoke about her father.
"I know that and sometimes I wish people would just leave him alone about it. That's why I never really had friends cause all the kids were afraid of my dad. It sucks a lot Mr. Kinneas when you grow up with out friends."
"Well I'm your friend Dee"; Jared whispered as he touched her hand to comfort her.
" I know."
The rest of the evening was quiet and Irvine had suggested instead of D'meera staying alone she stay with them.
It's been almost 18 years now since my life dramatically changed. It seemed that I helped a psychotic bitch from the future try take over time, killed innocent people, and managed to impregnate someone all during the eighteenth year of my life. Then again, it was even more shocking when I got back into Garden and tied the knot. No one would've thought I'd actually get married but what could I do I couldn't just leave her there. And it's not like her fault alone that she'd gotten pregnant. I mean it does take two to tango right?
Still I wasn't ready to be a father at eighteen. I think that's why I resented our marriage. It was hard, but I never really expected life to hand me everything over on a silver platter. I think it was harder for her then it was for me. I mean, I wasn't all the great of a husband. And when the baby came I was no where to be found. I think I got drunk that day. Poor Fuj, I'm sure she must have been scared and pretty pissed. But it's not as if I didn't wanna be there because I did. I was gonna be a father damn it. But I wasn't there for her when I did become one. If you don't know what it's like to miss the birth of your first child then your not missing anything; you're actually saving yourself from a whole lot of guilt and regret. All I could tell you from it, is that when you first lay eyes on something you and another being created together it changes you, a lot. I think when I first saw my son I was to hung over to actually take in the joy of being a father it only hit when I really saw him with my wife. When I walked into the room to see her, I could feel her glaring at me as if at any moment she's tear my fucking head off my body and devour my soul. It was scary, but I deserved it. I had missed one of the most important things in life.
With my daughter, it was different. I was just turning twenty and I had left Fujin because I felt I had no choice. We fought too much and I couldn't take it. I couldn't take the responsibility of it all the whole father/ husband thing didn't go to good for me. Besides I had made SeeD and was always gone so it's not like I was there anyway. At the time, I was in Galbadia on leave. I was attending some culinary school. Cooking was my escape, although no one ever really figured me, Seifer Almasy, as being one to cook I did; and I was good at it. Turned out I had been at a club gotten drunk and laid. So when this woman appeared at my door six months later I couldn't really say I was shocked I mean I actually figured I'd do something right this time. I wasn't gonna marry the chick since she said she didn't want the baby or anything to do with me, still I felt obligated to be there for the child. I offered to keep the child as if she were serious about not wanting it. I figured that was the best I could do. She accepted on the condition of I be there for the birth. So when my daughter was born I was present. The instant she arrived I felt different. I had redeemed myself. I felt different more grown up. After she was born me and the woman parted ways. I returned to my wife and son with my new daughter.
At first, Fujin couldn't accept what I had done but she fell in love with my daughter instantly. The first few years were difficult since we couldn't afford much; but after I took up residency as head chef of Balamb Hotel, the money began to roll in. And I could actually come home to my family in a house that I actually owned. All was fine until my daughter was around six. I remember her coming to me a little upset about something her and her brother had talked about.
"Daddy, who's my wreal mommy, cause Derrwick says that mommy's not my wreal mommy."
"Dee what the hell are you talking about? What do you mean who's your real mommy? Who do you think is your real mommy?"
"My mommy Fuji. Then hows come Derrwick says that she's not?"
Ok, mind you that I'm about to have an all out war over who's mommy's who's with my six year old daughter. But the thought suddenly hit me, where in the hell would my son hear about D'meera's real mother. I looked to my buddy Raijin who just so happened to sitting with me, he motioned for Dee to go with him as so I could deal with my son. Never in my life had I been so pissed off at him. I mean yeah he was a little shit at times but never had he done anything like this. I was pissed so letting my anger get the best of me I got up from my fishing spot and went to the house to find him.
"Daddy stop please your hurting me."
"I don't care Derrick where the hell did you get the idea for telling your sister that?"
"OOOwwww stop. I don't know. I heard mommy and uncle Raij talking. Oww"
I think I beat the boy for a good ten minutes before my wife intervened. Fujin never really liked the fact that I discipline the kids physically, where as she just used a more psychological approach. But that was a little more then ten years ago.
"Seifer? You okay?"
"Yeah why babe?"
"Because you look troubled."
"It's nothing just thinking that's all. What times the train leave?"
………..
The doorbell rang and Jared rushed to answer it.
"Hey! You came cool. Dad set your plate and everything. You look nice."
"Thanks! So where's Tiarra?"
"She… I think she went to stay over at Julia's house tonight so it's just me, my mom, my dad, and you."
"Oh cool so what to eat?"
They walked in the kitchen and Selphie almost dropped her drink at the sight of D'meera's coat. She almost looked like Seifer. Irvine looked at her and had almost the same reaction at the girl's clothes. D'meera was dawning the full Almasy attire from blue vest shirt all the way down to the trench coat. Her outfit was just minutely alter, she wore a short black leather skirt instead of her fathers pants.
"Wow darlin you look a lot like your father", Irvine finally managed to get out.
"Yeah I hear that a lot. So Mr. Kinneas what's for supper?"
"Dad grilled up some Balamb fish. And I helped mom make the salad", Jared chirped happily.
"Cool! I miss cooking with my dad. I remember he always let me lick the mixing spoon when he made pastries. Mom would always get mad at him foe spoiling my dinner."
"Yeah we've heard a lot about Seifer's cooking Dee. Me and Irvy have been dying to get reservations at the hotel but your dad's so famous it really hard to get in."
"Oh no problem Mrs. Kinneas, you can come over and eat with us when my dad gets back."
"We'd love to. So how is your father D'meera? Last time we ever talked to him was before"; Selphie's voice trailed off not wanting to say the rest of her thought.
"Oh my dad's fine Mrs. Kinneas. He's not the same guy you all knew. He's the best dad in the world and I love him a lot. Besides, I think he'd like it if you came to visit. No one really does cept for uncle Raijin. Sometime I think people still hate my dad even though he said he was sorry for everything."
"Well Dee it's not that people hate him it's just that, don't take it personal, but your father did a lot of bad things when he was young and he hurt a lot of people. And well sometimes, we can't really forgive those sorts of deeds and it's hard. I know you mean well by trying to change people's mind's about him but he just wasn't that great of a person back then and well no one believes he's changed." Irvine tried explaining seeing the hurt in Dee's eyes when she spoke about her father.
"I know that and sometimes I wish people would just leave him alone about it. That's why I never really had friends cause all the kids were afraid of my dad. It sucks a lot Mr. Kinneas when you grow up with out friends."
"Well I'm your friend Dee"; Jared whispered as he touched her hand to comfort her.
" I know."
The rest of the evening was quiet and Irvine had suggested instead of D'meera staying alone she stay with them.