Empty
My latest fic, please be kind, I am feeling lost and alone, and I just wanted to express it. Thank you.
Disclaimer: I do not own FF10, or Lulu. I was inspired by Sin Forgiven by Kiteekat.
Lulu sat alone in her small room, tightly clutching the ring Chappu had given her. God...how could a benevolent Higher Being be so cruel? Lulu wiped the tears from her eyes, then rose quietly and walked out of the hut. Yuna was busy, and couldn't be bothered, she was told when she asked. Wakka had no time to so much as console her, blitzball was more important than the fact his only family was dead. Auron was gone far away, and Lulu made her decision.
She would help Yuna as much as she could, she would live the life of a humble servant of Yevon, but she would be empty inside, forever.
After all, being close to people only lead to pain, loving only lead to heartbreak. She was done with it all. She had thought she might have found someone to share the pain of life with in Chappu, but now he was gone. The friend she had come to depend on so much was busy with her own life, busy with the new loves and old friends she had placed of higher importance than the broken soul that needed solace. How cruel was life...leaving Lulu alone with nothing to live for and no one to care. Not one person she had ever given a damn about gave a damn about her. None of them cared enough to try to mend the shattered soul her lonely, isolated existence had left her with. No one to pour tar in the cracks to stop the leaking pain seeping out, the overwhelming sense of worthlessness, the lack of any kind of self-love.
No one noticed. No one cared.
So Lulu would stop caring too. Chappu was dead, and her soul had died with him. Her dreams had burned in the ashes of his corpse, the Sending had sent her pitiful sense of worth to the Farplane with his soul.
Lulu was, for all intents and purposes, dead. Sighing quietly, the Black Mage left the village square, returning to her own hut. There, Lulu picked up the dagger Auron had given her, curious to see if she really was as empty inside as she felt.
Finis
My latest fic, please be kind, I am feeling lost and alone, and I just wanted to express it. Thank you.
Disclaimer: I do not own FF10, or Lulu. I was inspired by Sin Forgiven by Kiteekat.
Lulu sat alone in her small room, tightly clutching the ring Chappu had given her. God...how could a benevolent Higher Being be so cruel? Lulu wiped the tears from her eyes, then rose quietly and walked out of the hut. Yuna was busy, and couldn't be bothered, she was told when she asked. Wakka had no time to so much as console her, blitzball was more important than the fact his only family was dead. Auron was gone far away, and Lulu made her decision.
She would help Yuna as much as she could, she would live the life of a humble servant of Yevon, but she would be empty inside, forever.
After all, being close to people only lead to pain, loving only lead to heartbreak. She was done with it all. She had thought she might have found someone to share the pain of life with in Chappu, but now he was gone. The friend she had come to depend on so much was busy with her own life, busy with the new loves and old friends she had placed of higher importance than the broken soul that needed solace. How cruel was life...leaving Lulu alone with nothing to live for and no one to care. Not one person she had ever given a damn about gave a damn about her. None of them cared enough to try to mend the shattered soul her lonely, isolated existence had left her with. No one to pour tar in the cracks to stop the leaking pain seeping out, the overwhelming sense of worthlessness, the lack of any kind of self-love.
No one noticed. No one cared.
So Lulu would stop caring too. Chappu was dead, and her soul had died with him. Her dreams had burned in the ashes of his corpse, the Sending had sent her pitiful sense of worth to the Farplane with his soul.
Lulu was, for all intents and purposes, dead. Sighing quietly, the Black Mage left the village square, returning to her own hut. There, Lulu picked up the dagger Auron had given her, curious to see if she really was as empty inside as she felt.
Finis