A Demon's Heart
By YoukaiJilly
Summary:
A young Sesshomaru is in the plot to bring his father's new wife to their home. However when she goes missing two of her servants follow. The elder girl protests she is ever loyal to her lady and the younger also agrees. But Sesshomaru knows something is wrong but doesn't find out exactly what is the problem until too late. Can he save his family from falling apart and why can't he get the younger girl to fear him?
Chapter Eleven: Madness Will Not Take Me!
Last Chapter:
Lord Mikado was silent and opened his mouth to say something when the door to the room banged open and there stood Mai with an odd look on her face that was a cross between joy and seriousness.
"Lord Mikado, Lady Umae. Something is terribly wrong with Ayaka. She and that boy, Keiishi went for a walk this afternoon and now she has returned all by herself crying, covered in what appears to be...well blood."
"Ayaka!" gasped Lady Umae.
"Sesshomaru, get your ass up. Now!" growled Lord Mikado, yanking his up. Sesshomaru stumbled but was able to follow Mai with his father and Lady Umae. Mai lead them to the courtyard and Ayaka had collapsed into Lady Naomi's arms, weeping hysterically.
"W-why...did he have to...?" she sobbed. "It's n-not f-fair! They all left!"
"Ayaka, darling!" gushed Lady Umae, wobbling as fast as her legs would allow. "What happened?"
"Lady! Oh lady!" Ayaka sobbed.
"What? What!" begged Lady Umae. "Breath Ayaka! Breath!"
Ayaka took in a few deep gulps of air as she tried to collect herself, but was unable too. "He's d-dead!" she sobbed.
"Who Ayaka?" asked Lord Mikado.
She sobbed a few times more and tried to calm down enough to speak again. "K-keiishi!" she finally managed. "Demons! Demons I have never seen before attacked his village! All of the men are dead and some of the women have been taken! Many escaped, the women and children but the ones that did not! Lord Mikado! I'm begging you, you MUST save them!"
The Story Continues...
Lord Mikado clenched his teeth together as his mate hung onto the hysterical girl. "Sesshomaru!" he barked. Sesshomaru looked up at his father. "Find Lord Gita, Lord Atsushi and Lady Naomi. Tell them to send out their spies and have all the armies ready to go at a moment's notice."
"Yes Father," said Sesshomaru, quickly disappearing from the room. She hadn't noticed him at all. Not a glance his way. But the boy was dead...oh finally the boy was dead!
'No!' Sesshomaru screamed to himself. 'You mustn't think that!'
'And why not?' said the Anti-Him. 'Now that he is gone, you can force Ayaka to return your love. Demons do it all the time if they want a woman they cannot have. Kill her love and take her.'
'I am a high and noble demon! I will not stoop to such a level!' Sesshomaru yelled at the Anti-Him. The Anti-Him just laughed. Then the laugh faded and Sesshomaru was left with his own thoughts. He found Lord Atsushi and Lady Naomi caring for their son and they put the servants in charge the minute that Sesshomaru relayed the message to them.
Lord Gita was not so easy to find. Sesshomaru finally however tracked him to one of the rooms near the small brothel that Lord Gita kept. He heard the sounds of something quite playful going on...Mai was with him.
"Oh Lord Gita...what strong arms you have! And your fur so soft and warm to the touch, how do you stand the women that must flock to you!" cooed Mai. Her voice was thick and intoxicating. Sesshomaru stupidly noticed the small thrum in between his legs. He rammed his fist into his head. The pounding there canceled it out.
"Mai, my flower." Growled Lord Gita followed by a shrill giggle. Sesshomaru cleared his throat softly and banged on the door as loudly as he could. He was glad to hear gasps of surprise since he was disrupting such a...playful time.
Lord Gita threw open the doors a few seconds later with an angered look in his eyes. "What?" he growled. He stopped short when he realized it was Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru could see that Mai was hurriedly pulling back on her kimono to make herself decent. "Why Sesshomaru, what brings you here? Finally have a taste for the educated darling hem?"
"No." said Sesshomaru flatly. "Not that I see how what I do with my groins concerns you. Father wants your spies to meet up with Lord Atsushi's and Lady Naomi's. He also wants your soldiers to be ready with ours."
"All right, it shall be done." Said Lord Gita firmly. Sesshomaru nodded grimly and walked off, feeling a bit light-headed. He stumbled back towards his room to find Ayaka waiting outside. He growled at her, trying to ignore the guilt and hurt he felt. He reached for the door handle, but she smacked the door closed. She kept her eyes glued to the ground while he stared at her. Sesshomaru finally preoccupied himself with the carvings on the door.
"What do you want?" he growled.
Ayaka was silent for a long time. Finally she slumped down to the floor and Sesshomaru heard more sobs break out. "I...came...to help...y-you!" she gasped in fright and anger and sadness. "Y-you are...h-hurt!"
"I don't need your hatful eyes reminding me of the pain in my heart as you look at me. Go away...filthy human." Snapped Sesshomaru, trying to keep his voice strong.
"I told you...once before." Sobbed Ayaka, regaining her composure and standing up. "I can't stand to see someone injured and not do anything about it if I can."
"Well, no matter what you do, you can't heal the injury in my heart you stupid girl. Now leave me be." Said Sesshomaru coldly, feeling as though his heart was being ripped from his body painfully slow and someone was placing hot coals in his stomach. He wanted to touch her, to go beyond the Demon Bond. He wanted more than just to protect her. He wanted to love and hold her, kiss her, feel her soft skin underneath his fingers and trace the curves of her body with his claws. He pushed the feeling away.
"I'm not stupid! Stop saying that I am!" shouted Ayaka. "I never asked for this...this life! I followed Lady Umae of my own free will, because I thought I wouldn't have to interact with demons! But I do and it pains me so much! Keiishi was the only comfort I had! You and I are bonded, but only by Demon laws; you never once tried to understand me! And I hate you for it you insensible bastard!"
Sesshomaru did nothing as she talked, but silently shoved her away from the door and went inside, slamming the slab of solid wood and he could hear her crying out to him, cursing him, saying she wished that he would die a slow and painful death. Sesshomaru tried to block it out, but he could feel that bubble of anger and hate rising in him again. He wouldn't allow it to escape. He would not become the monster Jiro had, or the puppet that his grandmother wanted. He was in control of his own fate, and no one else.
Sesshomaru covered his ears and flopped down onto his futon, muttering to himself over and over that he wouldn't become a monster and he wouldn't do something stupid. No matter what he did, he could still her crying out to him and he shouted her to shut up. Ayaka finally fell silent, and he could hear her running away.
Sesshomaru uncovered his ears and sighed, and rolled over and yanked his pillow towards his face. He bit into it and clenched his teeth, trying to control the anger and rage and desire in him. It worked and it ebbed away for the time.
"Sesshomaru!" called Lord Mikado.
Silence greeted him. Lord Mikado growled in frustration. He called again. "Sesshomaru, open this door you sad excuse for a demon!" Sesshomaru still didn't answer.
"Mikado...?" asked Lady Umae coming up behind him. She rested a hand on her stomach and stroked it thoughtfully. "Has he come out at all?"
"No," sighed Lord Mikado, walking over to her. He gave her a hug and pulled away. He placed a hand on her cheek and sighed again. "I am getting worried Umae. He's never acted this depressed for this long before. It's eating him alive."
"Mikado, maybe we should get them to sort it out, Ayaka isn't getting out of her slump either. It's been two weeks all ready. I need her to have a clear head when Inuyasha or Keiki comes."
"What do you have in mind?" asked Lord Mikado, raising an eyebrow.
"We need to get them in an environment where they are forced to be together to just talk and not yell." Said Lady Umae. "Can you think of anything?"
"Just one," said Lord Mikado.
"What!?" exclaimed Sesshomaru. "I'm not doing it!"
"Sesshomaru, do not try me. You are going to do this." Said Lord Mikado. "No is not an answer that I will accept."
"So let me get this straight, I have to attend your child's good wishes ball with AYAKA because of the Demon Bond that I never wanted to do?" growled Sesshomaru.
"Yes." Said Lord Mikado. "It's about time you two stopped all this and got your acts together. If you truly do love her Sesshomaru, you'll stop acting like a child!"
"I can't go near her do you understand! Grandmother is going to kill her!"
"Sesshomaru..." said Lord Mikado.
"Why the hell won't you people believe me!" shouted Sesshomaru, walking over to the window. "I can't go anywhere near Ayaka for her own damn safety!"
"Do you realize how incredibly MAD you sound?" Lord Mikado asked his son.
"At this point I don't care!"
There was an uncomfortable silence as father stared at son and son glared at father. Lord Mikado sighed. "You are going to do this Sesshomaru. End of discussion." He said turning to leave. Sesshomaru shot an angered look at his father, but protested no more.
Lord Mikado let the door shut with a bang and Sesshomaru slammed his fist into one of the walls in his room. A large hole appeared there, a new addition to the others. Sesshomaru had trouble controlling his rage and found that demolishing his wall made him feel better so it was littered with holes.
Lord Mikado rubbed his temples and went to meet Umae who's birthing time was just around the corner. He sighed heavily and sat next to her. "What of Ayaka?" he asked wearily, wondering how one person could take so much energy out of him just by arguing.
"She took the news fairly better. Hissed a reply through her teeth and holed herself up in her room again. Mikado, what is going to be done about the demons that killed Keiishi? Has anyone found anything yet?" asked Lady Umae, looking at her husband with worry.
"No. Not a single thing." Grumbled Lord Mikado.
"That is good then isn't it? Showing they didn't stay?" asked Umae.
Lord Mikado was silent a moment then looked away from his wife, his voice dropping to barely a whisper. "No Umae...no signs of them at all is what I fear most."
Umae didn't reply but drew her pretty lips into a thin line and nodded, her eyes showing an untraceable amount of determination. Lord Mikado hugged her to him, careful not to hug too tight around her stomach where their child was surely alive and healthy, according to the demon healers.
"Now all we can do is wait." Murmured Lady Umae into her husbands shoulder. Lord Mikado held her tighter.
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Author's Note: I am sorry to say that this story will soon be ending in the next few chapters. Please continue to review and tell me what you think of it however as I greatly welcome the thoughts you take the time to put in reviews. This will have been the second FF story I have completed and the second Sesshomaru FF I have done.
Thank you all.
By YoukaiJilly
Summary:
A young Sesshomaru is in the plot to bring his father's new wife to their home. However when she goes missing two of her servants follow. The elder girl protests she is ever loyal to her lady and the younger also agrees. But Sesshomaru knows something is wrong but doesn't find out exactly what is the problem until too late. Can he save his family from falling apart and why can't he get the younger girl to fear him?
Chapter Eleven: Madness Will Not Take Me!
Last Chapter:
Lord Mikado was silent and opened his mouth to say something when the door to the room banged open and there stood Mai with an odd look on her face that was a cross between joy and seriousness.
"Lord Mikado, Lady Umae. Something is terribly wrong with Ayaka. She and that boy, Keiishi went for a walk this afternoon and now she has returned all by herself crying, covered in what appears to be...well blood."
"Ayaka!" gasped Lady Umae.
"Sesshomaru, get your ass up. Now!" growled Lord Mikado, yanking his up. Sesshomaru stumbled but was able to follow Mai with his father and Lady Umae. Mai lead them to the courtyard and Ayaka had collapsed into Lady Naomi's arms, weeping hysterically.
"W-why...did he have to...?" she sobbed. "It's n-not f-fair! They all left!"
"Ayaka, darling!" gushed Lady Umae, wobbling as fast as her legs would allow. "What happened?"
"Lady! Oh lady!" Ayaka sobbed.
"What? What!" begged Lady Umae. "Breath Ayaka! Breath!"
Ayaka took in a few deep gulps of air as she tried to collect herself, but was unable too. "He's d-dead!" she sobbed.
"Who Ayaka?" asked Lord Mikado.
She sobbed a few times more and tried to calm down enough to speak again. "K-keiishi!" she finally managed. "Demons! Demons I have never seen before attacked his village! All of the men are dead and some of the women have been taken! Many escaped, the women and children but the ones that did not! Lord Mikado! I'm begging you, you MUST save them!"
The Story Continues...
Lord Mikado clenched his teeth together as his mate hung onto the hysterical girl. "Sesshomaru!" he barked. Sesshomaru looked up at his father. "Find Lord Gita, Lord Atsushi and Lady Naomi. Tell them to send out their spies and have all the armies ready to go at a moment's notice."
"Yes Father," said Sesshomaru, quickly disappearing from the room. She hadn't noticed him at all. Not a glance his way. But the boy was dead...oh finally the boy was dead!
'No!' Sesshomaru screamed to himself. 'You mustn't think that!'
'And why not?' said the Anti-Him. 'Now that he is gone, you can force Ayaka to return your love. Demons do it all the time if they want a woman they cannot have. Kill her love and take her.'
'I am a high and noble demon! I will not stoop to such a level!' Sesshomaru yelled at the Anti-Him. The Anti-Him just laughed. Then the laugh faded and Sesshomaru was left with his own thoughts. He found Lord Atsushi and Lady Naomi caring for their son and they put the servants in charge the minute that Sesshomaru relayed the message to them.
Lord Gita was not so easy to find. Sesshomaru finally however tracked him to one of the rooms near the small brothel that Lord Gita kept. He heard the sounds of something quite playful going on...Mai was with him.
"Oh Lord Gita...what strong arms you have! And your fur so soft and warm to the touch, how do you stand the women that must flock to you!" cooed Mai. Her voice was thick and intoxicating. Sesshomaru stupidly noticed the small thrum in between his legs. He rammed his fist into his head. The pounding there canceled it out.
"Mai, my flower." Growled Lord Gita followed by a shrill giggle. Sesshomaru cleared his throat softly and banged on the door as loudly as he could. He was glad to hear gasps of surprise since he was disrupting such a...playful time.
Lord Gita threw open the doors a few seconds later with an angered look in his eyes. "What?" he growled. He stopped short when he realized it was Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru could see that Mai was hurriedly pulling back on her kimono to make herself decent. "Why Sesshomaru, what brings you here? Finally have a taste for the educated darling hem?"
"No." said Sesshomaru flatly. "Not that I see how what I do with my groins concerns you. Father wants your spies to meet up with Lord Atsushi's and Lady Naomi's. He also wants your soldiers to be ready with ours."
"All right, it shall be done." Said Lord Gita firmly. Sesshomaru nodded grimly and walked off, feeling a bit light-headed. He stumbled back towards his room to find Ayaka waiting outside. He growled at her, trying to ignore the guilt and hurt he felt. He reached for the door handle, but she smacked the door closed. She kept her eyes glued to the ground while he stared at her. Sesshomaru finally preoccupied himself with the carvings on the door.
"What do you want?" he growled.
Ayaka was silent for a long time. Finally she slumped down to the floor and Sesshomaru heard more sobs break out. "I...came...to help...y-you!" she gasped in fright and anger and sadness. "Y-you are...h-hurt!"
"I don't need your hatful eyes reminding me of the pain in my heart as you look at me. Go away...filthy human." Snapped Sesshomaru, trying to keep his voice strong.
"I told you...once before." Sobbed Ayaka, regaining her composure and standing up. "I can't stand to see someone injured and not do anything about it if I can."
"Well, no matter what you do, you can't heal the injury in my heart you stupid girl. Now leave me be." Said Sesshomaru coldly, feeling as though his heart was being ripped from his body painfully slow and someone was placing hot coals in his stomach. He wanted to touch her, to go beyond the Demon Bond. He wanted more than just to protect her. He wanted to love and hold her, kiss her, feel her soft skin underneath his fingers and trace the curves of her body with his claws. He pushed the feeling away.
"I'm not stupid! Stop saying that I am!" shouted Ayaka. "I never asked for this...this life! I followed Lady Umae of my own free will, because I thought I wouldn't have to interact with demons! But I do and it pains me so much! Keiishi was the only comfort I had! You and I are bonded, but only by Demon laws; you never once tried to understand me! And I hate you for it you insensible bastard!"
Sesshomaru did nothing as she talked, but silently shoved her away from the door and went inside, slamming the slab of solid wood and he could hear her crying out to him, cursing him, saying she wished that he would die a slow and painful death. Sesshomaru tried to block it out, but he could feel that bubble of anger and hate rising in him again. He wouldn't allow it to escape. He would not become the monster Jiro had, or the puppet that his grandmother wanted. He was in control of his own fate, and no one else.
Sesshomaru covered his ears and flopped down onto his futon, muttering to himself over and over that he wouldn't become a monster and he wouldn't do something stupid. No matter what he did, he could still her crying out to him and he shouted her to shut up. Ayaka finally fell silent, and he could hear her running away.
Sesshomaru uncovered his ears and sighed, and rolled over and yanked his pillow towards his face. He bit into it and clenched his teeth, trying to control the anger and rage and desire in him. It worked and it ebbed away for the time.
"Sesshomaru!" called Lord Mikado.
Silence greeted him. Lord Mikado growled in frustration. He called again. "Sesshomaru, open this door you sad excuse for a demon!" Sesshomaru still didn't answer.
"Mikado...?" asked Lady Umae coming up behind him. She rested a hand on her stomach and stroked it thoughtfully. "Has he come out at all?"
"No," sighed Lord Mikado, walking over to her. He gave her a hug and pulled away. He placed a hand on her cheek and sighed again. "I am getting worried Umae. He's never acted this depressed for this long before. It's eating him alive."
"Mikado, maybe we should get them to sort it out, Ayaka isn't getting out of her slump either. It's been two weeks all ready. I need her to have a clear head when Inuyasha or Keiki comes."
"What do you have in mind?" asked Lord Mikado, raising an eyebrow.
"We need to get them in an environment where they are forced to be together to just talk and not yell." Said Lady Umae. "Can you think of anything?"
"Just one," said Lord Mikado.
"What!?" exclaimed Sesshomaru. "I'm not doing it!"
"Sesshomaru, do not try me. You are going to do this." Said Lord Mikado. "No is not an answer that I will accept."
"So let me get this straight, I have to attend your child's good wishes ball with AYAKA because of the Demon Bond that I never wanted to do?" growled Sesshomaru.
"Yes." Said Lord Mikado. "It's about time you two stopped all this and got your acts together. If you truly do love her Sesshomaru, you'll stop acting like a child!"
"I can't go near her do you understand! Grandmother is going to kill her!"
"Sesshomaru..." said Lord Mikado.
"Why the hell won't you people believe me!" shouted Sesshomaru, walking over to the window. "I can't go anywhere near Ayaka for her own damn safety!"
"Do you realize how incredibly MAD you sound?" Lord Mikado asked his son.
"At this point I don't care!"
There was an uncomfortable silence as father stared at son and son glared at father. Lord Mikado sighed. "You are going to do this Sesshomaru. End of discussion." He said turning to leave. Sesshomaru shot an angered look at his father, but protested no more.
Lord Mikado let the door shut with a bang and Sesshomaru slammed his fist into one of the walls in his room. A large hole appeared there, a new addition to the others. Sesshomaru had trouble controlling his rage and found that demolishing his wall made him feel better so it was littered with holes.
Lord Mikado rubbed his temples and went to meet Umae who's birthing time was just around the corner. He sighed heavily and sat next to her. "What of Ayaka?" he asked wearily, wondering how one person could take so much energy out of him just by arguing.
"She took the news fairly better. Hissed a reply through her teeth and holed herself up in her room again. Mikado, what is going to be done about the demons that killed Keiishi? Has anyone found anything yet?" asked Lady Umae, looking at her husband with worry.
"No. Not a single thing." Grumbled Lord Mikado.
"That is good then isn't it? Showing they didn't stay?" asked Umae.
Lord Mikado was silent a moment then looked away from his wife, his voice dropping to barely a whisper. "No Umae...no signs of them at all is what I fear most."
Umae didn't reply but drew her pretty lips into a thin line and nodded, her eyes showing an untraceable amount of determination. Lord Mikado hugged her to him, careful not to hug too tight around her stomach where their child was surely alive and healthy, according to the demon healers.
"Now all we can do is wait." Murmured Lady Umae into her husbands shoulder. Lord Mikado held her tighter.
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Author's Note: I am sorry to say that this story will soon be ending in the next few chapters. Please continue to review and tell me what you think of it however as I greatly welcome the thoughts you take the time to put in reviews. This will have been the second FF story I have completed and the second Sesshomaru FF I have done.
Thank you all.